Dean's POV

I watched with wide eyes as the nurses tried to settle Cas down. I could tell he had no idea where he was or what was going on, he fought like hell as the nurses tried to pin him down and then finally a nurse was able to give him a sedative. I tried to ask something but then I saw the blood, he had torn some of his stitches, so they called an OR so they could repair them. I tried over and over to ask what was going on but they weren't sure either. It had seemed like he had been having a nightmare before he had suddenly sat up screaming. After they took Cas, his doctor came in, she wasn't a surgeon so she wasn't needed. She smiled a little warmly at me, "HI Dean. Has anyone talked to you?"

I shook my head, I could feel myself shaking, and I was trying not to panic. "No… They were busy trying to calm him down.. I don't understand…"

The doctor nodded, "From what I am hearing it sounds like he had a flashback, maybe of the accident. Then when the nurses tried to make him lay down his fight or flight kicked in, and it seems like he wanted to get away, at least that's what my nurses said. No that he has woken up, his brain is remembering the accident and it was a traumatic experience. Right now it's post-traumatic response. In his panic he opened up some of his stitches and tore out a couple of the staples, they are fixing that issue now, we are going to give him some medicine to help with the night terrors, we don't want him to have another episode like tonight. Do you want to call your brother to be here with you?"

I closed my eyes, running my hands through my hair. "I… I will call him. Thank you Doc"

She nodded softly and once she left I dialed Sam's number, after 3 rings Sam picked up, "Dean it's 3 am."

I looked at the clock on my phone, and I felt bad but I had promised Sam I would let him know what was going on. "Sorry Sammy… Just… Cas had a… nightmare or night terror I don't know but uh… He tore a bunch of his stitches and a couple of his staples out…"

I could hear the rustling of bed sheets, and Sam's voice was suddenly clear, "Is he okay?"

I closed my eyes, "I don't know honestly… it was scary looking… I mean I could see that he was having a nightmare at first, but then all of a sudden he sat straight up screaming, I couldn't tell if it was pain or fear, I tried to talk to him and calm him down but I don't think he could hear me… a couple nurses came in and tried to calm him down and lay him down. He freaked out though, he was trying to get away from them…"

Sam sighed heavily, "Do you need me to come up there?"

I thought about it for a moment before replying, "No he is still in surgery. Like you said it's 3 am you can go back to sleep and just come out here in the morning"

Sam sighed a little, "Alright Dean. I'll be out when I wake up okay?"

I nodded a little, "Yeah sound's good Sam"

I hung up and sat in the chair by the window in the room, after a half an hour they brought Cas back in the room. He was still out and the nurse came over, "We gave him a heavy sedative so he will probably be asleep for a few hours."

I nodded, "Thank you."

She nodded and then left. I softly got up and moved to the seat next to Cas, and gently stroked my hand over his hand. Hoping that I could convey to him that he was okay. After 4 hours Cas started to wake up, he whimpered a little bit sleepily, I could see he was confused as he fought through the haze of the sedative. I softly stood up and gently took his hand, "Hey easy Cas."

Cas groaned gently and looked around hazily. I could see was utterly confused but he was still to confused to talk. Finally after a few minutes he softly said "Dean…"

I nodded a bit and smiled softly, "Hey you. You feeling okay?"

I could practically see Cas' brain work as he tried to remember what was going on. Soon he nodded a little, "My brain… feels thick."

Nodding softly, I sat on the edge of his bed, "They had to give you a sedative… you had a nightmare"

Cas looked at me, as he processed what I said before he nodded a little, "The car accident"

I gently took his hand to comfort him and nodded, "Yeah we thought that maybe that was it… The doc is going to give you some medicine before you go to bed so that you don't have another one. You tore some of your stitches"

Cas nodded a little then started watching the TV.

2 months later

It's been 2 and a half months since Cas' accident, he came back to the bunker 1 week ago. It's been a hard process because he has been confined to a wheelchair, the access to the garage had no stairs to get into the bunker, but to go from the garage to my room was not so easy there were some steps in between but we were able to help. At the moment he was sleeping, he had just gotten home from physical therapy an hour ago, and he was exhausted so he had laid down and fallen asleep. Since getting home his mood had been okay but recently he was starting to pull away from all of us. I slowly got up to make dinner for myself and Cas, Sam had taken Gabriel with him on a hunt so for now it was just Cas and I. After 2 hours Cas woke up and made his way into the kitchen, I smiled at him, "Hey Cas? You feeling better"

He shrugged a little, "Yeah I guess… just very exhausted…"

I nodded, "Yeah I know. So I made some lasagna, do you want some?"

Cas nodded, "Yes thank you Dean"

I smiled, today seemed to be a good day so I made up his plate. Carefully putting his plate in front of him I got him a glass of water and his meds to take for the night then put them in front of him. He stared at them hesitantly before taking them and then started eating, halfway through his dinner he stopped eating. "I am sorry for how I have been acting Dean"

I looked at him concerned, "It's okay Cas, you have been through a lot. None of us are angry, we have all just been worried"

He chews on his lip softly, "Can we go outside…"

I smiled a little and nodded, "Of course Cas," I get up and help him to the garage over the few steps. Then opened the garage door and helped him onto the pathway that had been made by our cars, he slowly wheeled along the pathway, I could tell he was thinking about something but he wasn't ready to talk yet, so I just walked silently next to him.

Suddenly he blurted out, "Are you no longer sexually attracted to me?"

I stopped and looked at him, "Why would you think that Cas?"

He refused to look up at me so I kneeled down in front of him, carefully taking his hands, making him look at me. "W..we haven't had sex since b..before my accident…"

I sighed and cup his cheek, carefully kissing him, "Oh babe, I didn't want to push you into anything. I love you and just because you can't walk doesn't make you any less sexy to me okay. I promise"

Cas bit his lip hesitantly, I softly kissed him again, I felt bad for making Cas feel so low about himself. "I just… thought maybe you didn't want me"

I kissed him deeply and smiled a bit, "Oh babe nothing will ever make me not want you. I still want to get married to you Cas, honestly I can't wait. I told you I'd love you forever, and I meant that no matter what."

The past 2 months we haven't been very intimate because I thought he wouldn't be ready, but I should have talked to him. I noticed his cock was hard and straining against his jeans, so I gently rubbed his hard on through his pants, pulling out a moan and a slight whimper of pleasure from him. "I… I want you t..to fuck me Dean"

I nodded, "Anything you want Cas."

We turned around and went back inside through the garage. I helped him to our room, then out of his wheelchair carefully cradling him and laying him on the bed. I smiled and gently climbed on top of him and slowly kissed him, carefully cupping his cheek. Softly grinding down into his crotch making him gasp and moan out in pleasure, "Mmm D..Dean"

I reached down and unbuttoned his pants and pulled them off, I could see the embarrassment in his eyes, his left leg was scarred and he had lost muscle mass on his legs. Even though he couldn't feel it I kissed down his left leg, then up his right leg , and licked gently at his hard cock. He shivered and gasped in pleasure, "Feel okay babe?"

He nodded quickly, "Y..yes Dean i..it feels s..so good." I smiled and reached over him into my drawer to get the lube, squirting some on my fingers and rubbed at his hole, he gasped a little. I slowly pushed a finger in and rubbed his cock as I stretched his hole open. By the time I was at 3 fingers he was whimpering and writhing in pleasure, "D…Dean fuck me already please"

I nodded and opened up his legs, slotting myself between his legs. Positioning my cock at his hole, I slowly pushed inside him, he hissed at the burn and closed his eyes. After bottoming out I stopped, waiting for him to adjust, once he nodded I started thrusting in and out of him. Cas was moaning loudly and wrapped his arms around me, his nails digging into my back as I started to go faster. I had positioned myself so I was hitting his prostate on every single thrust. "D..Dean close"

I nodded and reached down and grabbed his cock in my hand rubbing it quickly as I kept fucking him, he cried out suddenly and cam in long white spurts, his ass spasming around my cock throwing me over the edge and my cock twitched as I cam hard inside of him. I collapsed ontop of him panting hard, Cas was shaking and panting beneath me. I slowly pulled myself out of him and laid down next to him, carefully pulling him close to me. "I love you Cas"

Cas smiled sleepily, "I love you to Dean…"

I stroked my hand through his hair, watching as he started to fall asleep, but then he spoke up, "Dean"

I looked down at him, "Yeah babe?"

He bit his lip, "Are you sure you still want to marry me… I haven't gotten any more feeling in my legs…"

I smiled softly and kissed his head, "I don't care that your paralyzed babe. I want to be with you forever and I want to be able to call you my husband. Tomorrow we should check with our wedding planner and see if we need to do anything okay?"

Cas nodded a little, "Okay…"

I softly stroked his hair and watched him as he started to fall asleep again. It didn't take to long for his breathing to even out and I smiled a little. I watched him sleep for an hour before I started to fall asleep myself.

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