A/N: I hope you all enjoyed this story and thank you so much for your support. I am sad it has ended but I have written everything I want to, expect a new story soon.

Chapter Fifty-Two

Esmerelda's self injury on her body was becoming a problem, she was starting to do it more frequently, she didn't know and didn't want to know if Ethel had ever done what she had being doing during her depressive state, she realised now it was very easy to hide and it was therefore possible.

Esmerelda had gotten clever though, She had started to only cut herself above the elbow, because no-one would be able to see the scars then, if someone like Miss Drill was being nosy. She had hid it fine so far, the guilt was not making her act strangely anymore, she was able to suppress the truth of what she had being doing to herself.

She knew it was wrong, but it was a coping mechanism for her, everyone told her how to act, how to dress, how to behave and how to eat, this was the only thing she was truly in control of, something no-one could tell her how to do, it made her feel relief, she didn't feel like she was carrying a burden around anymore because she was in change of her life, and it was not being dictated.

"Meow" Morgana said angrily as she saw what Esmerelda was doing, the familiar was clever and knew that what she was doing was not something she should be doing because she would end up injured.

"Quiet Morgana" Esmerelda told her cat just as she used some scissors to break her skin, she hissed out, the pain was always bad when she did it, but the relief afterwards was addicting, she had never felt it before. She grabbed some toilet paper, dabbing it onto her arm to stop the bleeding.

"It is okay Morgana, don't worry" Esmerelda told her cat. She was trying to convince herself, more than her fmailar it was okay, she knew it was bad, but it was a guilty pleasure. The thing was she didn't know how to stop and she was not sure she wanted to.

"Not long now until you come home" Sybil said happily, clapping her hands excited as her sisters and her spoke through mirror call that evening, it would soon be the summer holidays and her sister would be at home.

"Two weeks, fourteen days, three hundred and thirty six hours, 1,209,600 seconds" Esmerelda said, having made a countdown of exactly when she would be going home. She knew it was weird but she had wanted to know exactly how long she had left.

"I hope it goes fast" Ethel said and Esmerelda shook her head.

"It never does when you are at school" Esmerelda explained to her sisters. Ethel nodded in agreement.

"Time drags when you are away, it is funny how that works" Ethel told Esmerelda and she knew her sister was right. There was always twenty four hours a day, but sometimes it felt like sixty two and sometimes like four.

"I miss you too a lot, soon we will be together again" Esmerelda told them, unable to wait to get home and squeeze them.

"Can we go to the museum that has just opened?" Sybil asked. A new witching history museam had just opened and Esmerelda nodded.

"Even if we have to pay, I will find the money and take you I promise" Esmerelda told them, not caring if she had to pay, she barely got to see them and if they wanted to go, they would be going.

"And can you help me study for my entrance exam?" Ethel asked, knowing it was taking place at the beginning of summer

"You will be fine Ethie, you have brilliant knowledge on potions and witching history, you both do" Esmerelda replied, knowing Ethel didn't need to study anymore.

"Yes but I want help on my flying, I still can't get the landing quite right" Ethel went on, knowing that was the thing she was still doing wrong.

"Ahh yes, it is because you never time it properly and you land to fast, don't worry, I will take you flying, by the time the entrance exam comes around you will be perfect" Esmerelda told her, knowing it meant a lot to Ethel to make a good impression.

"It is not fair" Sybil said with a sigh "Now Ethel is going of to school and I am going to be by myself for a whole year" Sybil said with a sigh, not looking forward to Ethel leaving too and her being by herself.

"I know Sybs, it sucks, but just try and remember, just one year, and then you will be at school with us too" Esmerelda told her but Sybil went on.

"Maybe I can pretend to be Ethel's twin and then I could come a year earlier" Sybil said, smiling as the idea came into her head.

"Somehow I don't think we can run that past mum and dad" Esmerelda told her sister and the girl sighed. She knew she was right.

"I just wish there was a way" Sybil said. Esmerelda looked at her sister, wishing she could have her with them next year, she hated the thought of Sybil being alone, she got scared and upset and now she would not even have Ethel to go to.

"Don't worry Sybie, we will be mirroring you so much, you will not feel like we left" Ethel told her sister with a smile. Esmie smiled, happy Ethel was being nice to Sybil.

"What Ethie said, don't you worry Sybil, we are still there always" Esmerelda told her sister, beaming at the youngest.

The two weeks, as Esmerelda said they would, went by very slowly, Esmerelda was expecting something major to happen, because she never could go for to long without something occurring in her life, but right now it seemed to be normal, and she was going to enjoy it whilst it lasted.

Esmerelda was glad though, she would soon be away from her isolation and she hoped with Ethel at the school, that feeling will go, she knew Ethel would not be with her all the time, but having her there when she needed someone to talk to was going to help her so much.

In potions class the next day, Miss Cackle arrived because she had to talk to the year group. She asked if anyone would be willing to volunteer to help during selection day. Esmerelda heard scoffs at that question and some girls whispered things such as 'is she crazy? It is our summer, why would we want to spend it here? Or 'No thanks, I have enough of this place as it is". Esmerelda agreed with them, why would anyone want to spend summer at school, but then she remembered Ethel was going to be there and she could give her moral support if she helped out and spending the day with Ethel would be brilliant, it would be great for Sybil too, sooner than she realised she would be alone, having a taster day of what that would be like, would help her overcome the shock when it finally came. Esmerelda looked around the room as she thought this, seeing no-one volunteering. She put her hand up, making her mind up in that moment.

"Oh thank you Esmerelda, come and see me before you leave and I will give you the details" she told the girl and Esmie smiled, she could sense some students staring at her but she did not care, in that moment she was happy.

The rest of the time dragged by, but it was getting closer, Esmerelda thought something was sure to happen before she got a chance to go home but the last day came and she was still in one piece, she hoped next year would be a quiet one, she didn't want another hectic year.

"Morgana" Esmerelda laughed as she finished packing, the cat was inside her case and she couldn't help but laugh.

"You can come home too yes but not in there" Esmerelda told her cat. She finished packing, looking around her room. She was not sure how to feel, but right now she felt relieved because she had got through her second year.

She left early the next morning, wanting to get home as soon as possible, she could not believe she would be with Ethel and Sybil for six weeks, for once she felt happy and excited about the future and was giddy with joy as she landed outside her house.

"ESMIE" The girl heard as her sisters appeared and hugged her tightly. Esmerelda smiled but looked at them and smiled sadly, they had grown, both of them were taller and she was sad she had missed it, but she was just glad they were okay.

Esmerelda was glad that her second year was over, she knew though that things were not going to be easy, she was still self-harming and keeping that secret, her depression was affecting her and she had a feeling her third year would be eventful, but for the next few weeks she could forget her worries because she had her sisters with her. She was home.