Dean's POV

After breakfast Cas seemed really tired and gave me a kiss before heading back to our room, I watched after him slightly worried but tried to play it off to Sam and Charlie. Sam went with Charlie to help her with the Bunker's computers and after some delaying in the kitchen I went back to my room to check on Cas, as I entered I found him fast asleep curled up on our bed hugging my leather jacket, I hadn't worn it in a while and at some point he had taken it. I smiled just a bit and sat next to Cas in the bed, carefully rubbing his back, making him basically purr and move closer to my touch. I kept rubbing gentle circles on his back before leaning down and kissing his head, "I love you Cas," I then moved to kiss the slight bulge of his belly and softly whispered, "I love you to Logan.I can't wait to meet you buddy"

Cas stirred but just turned over and moved so his head was resting in my lap, I grinned and let my hand fall to his head and stroke his hair. I laid like this for an hour, Cas slowly moving more into my lap and now he was wrapped around me like an octopus, not that I minded just, damn he is so cuddly when he sleeps. I closed my eyes and held Cas close, soon our baby would be here and, our lives would change, I am so excited. We hadn't even been married a full year yet and now we were about to add to our family. Only 3 months until our 1 year anniversary, suddenly my eyes opened and I grabbed my phone to look at the date. Shit. Its December 1st. Christmas is in 24 days. Oh god. With all the crap going on lately I had forgotten completely about Thanksgiving and nearly forgot about Christmas. I looked at Cas who was still asleep but I could tell he was starting to wake up. A few minutes later Cas opened his eyes and they met mine. I stroked my fingers through his hair gently, "Hey Cas,"

Cas groaned gently and cuddled into my chest more,"My back hurts,"

I kissed his head and gently sat him up so I could rub his back, and smiled when he groaned and relaxed into my touch. "How's that babe"

Cas smiled then looked at me, "It wonderfulDean, thank you for being such a good husband."

I kissed his head gently, "We sort of missed Thanksgiving, and Christmas last year so unless Logan decides to show up I thought we could actually do something for Christmas this year before Logan gets here."

Cas blushed but nodded, "Of course Dean, though I believe he may be here before christmas."

I nodded and ran my fingers through his hair, "Yeah well if it happens then we can spend it together."

Cas purred and relaxed into my touch, "I hate how exhausted I feel, its like when I first became human before Chuck fixed it."

I kissed the back of his neck as he moved so his back was against my chest again, and gently rubbed up and down his sides, "I think pregnancy in general is pretty exhausting, I kind of remember when Mom was pregnant with Sammy, towards the end she napped a lot"

Cas hummed softly in agreement and I could hear and feel his breathing starting to even out again, before jerking suddenly and groaned and stretched out, "I want to take a bath…"

I held back a chuckle but Nodded, "Okay babe," I stood up and grabbed a pair of my pajama pants for him to wear after his bath, I knew after baths he didn't like wearing a shirt for the first few hours because his skin was to warm. I helped him stand up and helped him to the bathroom. Cas sat on the toilet seat while I turned the bath on, using some of Sam's essential oils to help Cas relax. "There ya go babe."

I carefully helped Cas into the tub and smiled as his face relaxed and he relaxed into the water. Cas closed his eyes and gently let his head fall carefully onto the back of the tub. I smiled and gently rubbed his shoulders and he gasped a bit. "I love you so much Dean, you are the best husband ever, and I know you will be an amazing father."

I smiled and pressed small kisses to the back of his neck, "You are really great to Cas, and you will be the best father to you know."

Cas shook his head, "Technically I am the mother since I am the one carrying him."

I carefully massaged his scalp, "I wasn't sure you wanted to be called Mom considering you're a guy Cas."

Cas hummed before nodding, "I know but… I don't know. Maybe we should let him decide what he wants to call me."

I smiled and Suddenly Alistair's voice was in my ear "You know he doesn't really want you Dean, you fuck everything up. They are better off without your fucked up ass. If you don't leave they will get killed and it will be all your fault." Suddenly I was back in hell with Alistair, whispering in my ear that I would never get out again. I whimpered and fought against the arms holding me. Begging for Mercy, "Not again please! No more!I will do it, please just. Not again"

((Okay guys, I am sorry I havent updated this in so long. Sorry this is a little angsty at the end. Love ya))