Cas' POV

I groaned gently as I was pulled into awareness, my grace ached painfully and my body itself also ached. I tried to move but there were gentle hands on my arms and Dean's voice, "Shhh shhh easy Cas. Take it easy babe."

I opened my eyes and was met with Dean hovering over me, "D...Dean."

Dean cupped my cheek and smiled, "Hey there handsome."

I could see the worry on Dean's face and for a moment I was confused, before suddenly remembering what happened. "Logan…"

I tried to sit up but Dean stopped me again, "Shh Cas he is fine. How are you feeling?"

I shook my head, "I want to see him."

Dean sighed but stroked my cheek, "I'll get him, I just laid him down for a nap."

I nodded and watched Dean get up and he went to the small bassinet on his side of our bed. Tears filled my eyes just looking at his size, i could tell he was smaller then he should be. Dean gently handed him to me and I couldn't stop the tears from falling as I looked at him. His hair was jet black like my vessels, his skin was paler to but his nose and cheeks had freckles reminding me of Dean.

Dean carefully moved so he was sitting behind me somewhat to support me and I leaned against him then looked at him, "H...he…"

Dean kissed the side of my head and carefully stroked Logan's hair, "He is perfect Cas. He looks so much like you babe."

I sniffled a bit and then looked at Dean, "h...he has your freckles."

Gabriel knocked on the open door gently to not wake Logan, "Hey little brother, good to see you awake. Sorry to ruin the moment… I just felt you awake and I wanted to check on you."

Dean glared at Gabriel but I gave him a small nod, "Gabriel, hello."

Gabriel carefully stepped in the room but not getting to close, "Hi Cassie, how are you doing?"

I hummed a little, "Sore, like I have been split open and considering that I have I suppose it is normal."

Dean gave a small chuckle and Gabriel smiled, "Yeah I guess, you're the first angel to deliver a nephilim, just want to make sure you are doing okay."

I nodded, "I think I am alright,"

Gabriel hummed before nodding, "Alright, I will leave you guys alone sorry."

Dean huffed a bit as Gabriel left before looking at me, "You sure you are okay?"

I nodded, "Yes Dean…"

Logan made a small whining noise and when I looked at him he was doing something with his mouth as if he was trying to suck on something. Dean shook his head and carefully move from behind me and got up going to the nursery. A few minutes later he came back holding a bottle. "Do you wanna feed him?"

I bit my lip and nodded, then carefully took the bottle from Dean, and gave it to Logan. It barely took a minute for him to start sucking on the bottle. I looked at Dean, "H...how long have I been out…"

Dean chewed his lip some before looking at Logan, "It's been a week… "

I looked from Logan to Dean, "What? A… A week?"

Dean nodded and moved closer to me, "Yeah… it was longer than Gabe expected. He said a few days… but…"

"As Gabriel said, I am the first angel to successfully deliver a nephilim…" I spoke gently while looking at Logan.

Dean hummed softly and pressed a small kiss to my temple, "I am just glad you're both okay… This last week has been… really rough without you… the first 2 days Logan would scream if I left the room… I…. it scared the hell out of me… Gabriel told me because he was so used to being in your grace he got scared if he was to far from you… I still haven't left the room with him…"

I took a shaky breath before softly kissing Dean, "I'm sorry Dean… you did so well though, he looks so happy…"

Dean carded his fingers along the back of my neck, "It isn't your fault Cas… and thanks I was pretty sure I was screwing everything up…. I mean truthfully I am a little worried I am still going to…"

I looked at Dean, who really did look nervous and shook my head, "Dean you are doing better then I am. You have a week headstart, not to mention your experience with raising Sam… I mean just a minute ago I had no clue he was hungry and… and you did."

Logan whined and when I looked back at him I had dislodged the bottle, I was careful in replacing it and felt tears at the back of my eyes. Dean rubbed a hand on my lower back gently, "You look so good with him Cas…"

I swallowed around the lump in my throat and blushed. After Logan finished eating I let Dean burp him, watching curiously since I had never seen it and Dean explained why it needed to be done.

Logan yawned softly and nuzzled against my chest sleepily, I gently stroked his cheek. Dean smiled and and rubbed Logan's back. "A few nights ago Logan wouldn't go to sleep, I mean I tried everything and he just kept getting fussier, finally I laid him on your chest and he like instantly fell asleep…"

I smiled a bit and looked at Logan whose eyes were closed again. I chewed my lip nervously, the overwhelming feeling that I was going to screw everything up hitting me square in the chest. I chewed my lip and looked at Dean, "Dean I… I am hungry… d...do you think you could make me something?"

Dean smiled and kissed me before getting out of the bed carefully, "Sure Cas, what sounds good."

I bit my lip, "A.. A Burger…"

Dean nodded, "Okay, why don't you take a nap with Logan while I do that?"

I nod in response, and watch Dean leave before letting out a breath I didn't know I was holding. I looked at Logan who looked completely content. I was doing my best to fight the panic in my chest. I bit my lip and tried to reach my grace out but since I was still healing it refused to leave my vessel. I chewed my lip and whispered, "G...Gabriel…"

It barely took a few seconds for Gabriel to appear with a flutter of his wings. Gabriel scanned the room then closed the door and came over to the bed, "Cassie, what's wrong?"

I shakily spoke, "I… I… what if Father was wrong… what if I mess this up brother… I… I know nothing about raising a child and… what if…"

Gabriel used his grace to make me shut my mouth and he sighed before sitting down, "Castiel look at your fledgling, he is happy, his grace is rubbing against yours and its soothing him, you just can't feel it yet because your still healing. Castiel you have always done everything you could to do the right thing, I know you are scared but you are going to be a great parent okay."

Gabriel's speech eased some of the panic in my chest and I nodded a little, I felt Gabriel let go of his hold on my mouth and spoke softly, "Thank you…."

Gabriel gave a half-chuckle before hugging me, "No problem Cassie. Now get some rest, it's the best thing for your grace right now."

I nodded and Gabriel left, before Dean got back I fell into a dreamless slumber.

((Okay guys... I am sorry it has taken me so long to get this chapter up, I have not felt like working on any of my published works and even writing this chapter has felt like a chore to me and that is not what writing is for me. I am going to try to get a chapter for my story Growing Wings up but I am taking a break for a while. I am hoping its not long because I feel so bad for leaving people hanging. Its not something I like to have done to me and its not somethng I like to do but I can't write when I have no desire to write at all. I am so sorry, i hope you guys can forgive me. I love you guys who have stayed loyal to these stories though, seriously it means the world to me.))