Dean's POV

After plating Cas' burger, I grabbed him some water and turned to leave but was met with Gabriel standing in the door, "Gabriel move,"

Gabriel shook his head, "Hang on Dean-O. Listen Cassie just called me into your guy's room because he was having a freak out. Mostly thinking he was going to screw everything with your little Nephilim up…"

I bit my lip and sighed gently, "Damn it… I was hoping we could avoid the freak outs till he got to feeling a little better… not that I want him to freak out anyways but…"

Gabriel held up a hand to stop Dean's rambling, "I know Dean I get it… there is only so much that can be done… I just wanted to make you aware of it. I used some of my grace to help him fall back asleep, so I would probably just throw that burger in the microwave to heat it up later."

I let out a heavy sigh before nodding, "I hate to say it because you're an asshole who killed me over and over and tortured my little brother and abandoned my husband when he was a baby but… thank you."

Gabriel made a face of mock hurt, but I could tell he wasn't that bothered by what I said, "Low blow man, but sticks and stones Dean-O"

I rolled my eyes then turned and threw the burger in the oven because I was not about to reheat a burger I made in the microwave. I did take the water and some crackers, so Cas could snack on them when he woke up.

When I got back to our bedroom Cas was fast asleep with Logan cradled on his chest and my heart tightened in my chest some, because before when I had laid Logan on Cas' chest he had just sort of been laying there, but now Cas was actually cradling Logan holding him tightly like he was his whole world and I knew in all honesty he was. I pulled my phone out and took quite a few pictures of them before gently laying down, Logan stirred more than Cas did. I was wide awake though and watched my boys napping, and my heart swelled that I could call them my boys. I thought about how many times I nearly lost Cas, nearly lost my own life. Of course, there had been times when we had both lost our lives for real and it seemed like it would be the end of things, the ending that brought us together as far as our relationship went, still haunted my dreams sometimes, and then the accident. Now though things seemed settled, I hated to say we might be getting a happy ending because I mean c'mon we are Winchester's but, it seems like we just might be. Silently I knocked on wood because I really didn't want to jinx us, especially not Logan, he deserved everything to go good for him.

A few hours later Logan fussed gently, Cas had moved, and I couldn't really see Logan's face because it was shielded in Cas' chest. I started to get up, so I could get on the other side of Cas get Logan from him, but Cas's voice stopped me, "Shhh… you're okay…"

I smiled a little before softly replying, "Is his diaper wet?"

Cas turns back towards me and makes a face, "How do I…?"

I smile a little and hold my hands out for him, "Can I have him, so I can show you?"

Cas hesitates but I can tell it isn't because he doesn't trust me and just because he doesn't want to give him up, but eventually he carefully hands him to me. I let Cas sit up and move up on the bed as well before laying Logan on his back and unbuttoning his onesie at the bottom and feeling his diaper and instantly I can tell he needs changed, "Here Cas feel," Cas looked at me nervously but he felt the diaper and I could tell he had no idea but I spoke softly, "He is wet, and he probably pooped too, I am going to go get the changing pad and a diaper for him and change him in here so I can show you okay?"

Cas nodded again, "Okay Dean…"

I gave him a small smile, "It's okay Cas, I know you've never really dealt with babies before and it's okay. We probably should have done a little bit of teaching you before, but I wasn't thinking, I'm sorry"

Cas took a deep breath and he started to say something, but Logan fussed more, and Cas carefully picked him up. "Shhh it's okay little one, daddy is going to change you."

I smiled but got up and went to the nursery across the hall, grabbing what I would need, the changing pad, a new diaper, and wipes. I also grabbed a new onesie and a swaddling blanket for Logan.

When I went back into the room Logan was even more fussy and crying now, I shifted the blankets and laid out the changing pad, then looked at Cas who nodded and laid Logan on the changing pad. I carefully pulled off Logan's onesie completely and he of course started screaming, I knew Cas was uncomfortable by the way he tensed. I spoke, "It's just because he is cold,"

Cas chewed his lip but nodded but he was still tense, and he stroked Logan's head his screaming calming some. I carefully changed Logan and he was wet and had pooped, Cas made a face of disgust, but I explained to him about making sure Logan's little penis was always covered with the diaper pretty much because chances are he would pee otherwise, and it would go everywhere.

Cas nodded along as I spoke, and once I had the diaper on I cleaned it up and threw the dirty one in the trash and then handed Cas the onesie, "Think you can do it?"

Cas looked nervous, but he nodded and took the onesie and studied it for a moment before unclasping the bottom and slipping it over Logan's head like I had with the other one and he only fought with Logan a little to get his arms in the holes before clasping the bottoms. I smiled as I watched him, "Good job Cas, see you can do this."

Cas blushed, and he bit his lip gently then looked at the blanket, "Are you going to swaddle him like we read in those books?"

I nodded gently, "Yeah, or I can show you and you can try? He seems pretty content right now."

Cas nodded, "I would like you to show me and try for myself."

I smiled and carefully picked Logan up, laying the blanket down, then laying him on top of it and showing Cas how to swaddle, "You want it to be tight, because otherwise he will get out of it really easy, plus they like it tight, reminds them of the womb or whatever."

Cas smiled a little and nodded before carefully taking Logan who was still swaddled and was clearly content, checking the swaddle seeing how tight it was before he carefully unwrapped Logan. Logan fussed a little but once he was rewrapped he blew little raspberries.

((So I had a day off work this week and didn't have any school work to do or any other plans so decided to have a chill day and I realised how long it has been since I really updated this fic so here you guys go. I am sorry I really needed a break, I can't guarentee another update will come soon because now I am trying to juggle work and school but I hope this helps some. Thank you to all those who have read this, left me reviews, and followed and favorited this story and me!))