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I arrived outside Emmett's house and nervously knocked on the door. I was in luck he was home and answered the door "Hey, Em, I. erm, got kicked out can I stay here?" I lied to my brother not wanting to admit that I had run away as I would risk being sent back. Besides no matter how pissed I was at Emmett I never wanted to drag him down into the depths of hell that I was now residing due to that arsehole, Phil! Even when I think his name I shudder. I don't need Em worrying about this- wait a minute why would he worry about me, he hates me as do all his mates. He just stood there silently, ok how much had I had? Was I really that high to think that it was a good idea to come to my brother's place of all places. Maybe I should go back to Phoenix. I probably deserve it.
"Ok bye" I said awkwardly before turning around and beginning to walk back down the drive way when I heard Emmett growl "only a few weeks, no longer" Emmett sighed , there was venom in his voice so I could see and hear that he still that he hadn't forgiven me yet. As if I actually gave a fuck what he thought of me. I stalked past him inside. Gosh this place was just as huge as it appeared on the outside of the house maybe even bigger. The old Bella would've asked him when he won the fucking lottery but that Bella was brutally murdered a long time ago.
"Your room will be on the 3rd floor, second door on the right." Emmett said with a bored tone as though he was being forced to look after me. I said nothing and ran up the stairs. I opened the door and threw my backpack on the bed. I had been in a rush to leave so the only items I had packed had been my razors, my journal ( which I began writing in every day after the incident), 3 pairs of pants, 2 shirts and 2 sweatshirts, some pills of oxycontin, and small pouch of cocaine and of course my fake id. I realised I would probably have to find a drug dealer soon if I'm going to be staying here for a couple weeks. As I went through the contents of my backpack I found something that I hadn't realized I had packed it was a necklace that had an E pendant and next to it was a picture of Edward kissing my forehead, I quickly threw them back in the bag. Not quick enough I was thrown back into another flashback.
Flashback
It was my birthday, the one day that I hated the most. Edward was driving me to his house for my birthday celebration. As we walked through the doors , everyone jumped up yelling surprise! I'm pretty certain that my cheeks had flushed a bright red from embarrassment.
"Happy Birthday Bella!" Alice and Rose yelled as they came up to hug me, Emmett gave me his infamous bear hug.
"Emmett can't I breathe" I choked out and all around me I could hear Emmett's booming laughter filled the room as he let me down. "Show me the love." Alice said before snapping a picture of me and Edward, Edward had been kissing the top of my head when Alice took the picture. Edward grabbed a present wrapped in blue sparkly paper and handed it to me with a huge grin. I opened it carefully when I saw what he had gotten me I gasped it was a gold necklace with the letter E on it. E for Edward.
"Thank you babe I love it" I said and gave Edward a quick kiss on the cheek, Emmett wedged himself between us, putting his arms around our shoulders, separating us, he could be such a stupid overprotective brother at times. "I have one too" Edward said as he untucked a gold chain necklace with the letter B hanging from it. I stood there grinning like an idiot at that moment I couldn't have been happier. Too bad it would crash and burn.
End Flashback
Fuck me I need to get high now because whenever I'm on a down I begin to think. Thinking is hell for me so I try not to. I snatched up the pouch of cocaine and began to cut it into lines, when it had been properly prepared I snorted it. After a couple minutes the high began to set in. I started fidgeting uncontrollably I couldn't sit still and my heart started racing. A moment later I heard a knock at my door, ah shit I couldn't let Emmett see me like this. I checked myself in the mirror and saw that my eyes were dilated and I was definitely seeing double.
"Bella! Household meeting down stairs" Emmett shouted outside my door I was confused as to why Emmett shouted when he was outside my door and that he was acting like he didn't hate me. I pounded my head trying to calm myself.
"Bella" Emmett yelled irritated that I hadn't left the room yet. Actually I'm starting to get irritated of him. Stupid brother fuck off. "I'm in the shower" I yelled and turned on the water.
"There is no shower in your room" Emmett yelled back. Confused I thought to myself, what the fuck is he on there's a shower right next to my dresser, stupid me, stupid cocaine playing with my mind.
"OK fuck sake I'll be out in a couple of minutes I'm gonna get dressed." I yelled as I heard Emmett sigh. I sat there fidgeting for about 20 minutes or so I could feel the high starting to wear off I rechecked myself in the mirror. My eyes were dilated but other than that I appeared fine. I climbed well actually it was more like I stumbled down the stairs; everyone in the room looked irritated and annoyed.
"Took you bloody long enough" I heard someone mumble. I noted that Emmett was there along with Rosalie, Alice, Jasper, and the ginger chick I had noticed when Emmett answered the door. Edward stood with his arm around her. My heart skipped a beat he looked just as gorgeous as I remember but I knew that he would never want to talk to a dirty slut like me. Hey, who the fuck is the strawberry blonde and why is she wearing an E necklace. Why did Edward have a chain tucked into his shirt which probably had the first letter of whatever her name was.
"Why are you fidgeting so much?" Jasper asked. Was I? I hadn't noticed. "Why are you such an asshole?" I asked Jasper in response. I don't know why everyone looked at me so shocked, there was a long silence.
"Bella if you're going to be staying here then you're going to have to pay rent which is $1500 a month." Emmett stated. My jaw dropped did he not know just how much pot I could buy with that sort of money. "Of course if it's too much you can leave, you know where the door is and it's not like we want you here. You're a back stabbing slut." Rosalie said her voice filled with venom.
"Fuck you bimbo" I screamed back, there was plenty of vile shit I knew about her that I could have said but I didn't want to be kicked out. I walked to my room and slammed the door. I took out the razor, rolled up my sleeve, every square inch of my arm was covered in cuts and hand shaped marks. I counted to three. 1.. 2.. 3.. I then made another cut and felt the emotional pain disappear. I wrapped my arm carefully in a bandage. I took out my journal and flipped to an unused page.
Dear Diary,
This is Bella I mean who else would it be? I moved in with my brother Emmett today you know the one that hates me. My ex-friends are there too they all glare at me. My ex boyfriend who I still love Edward is here and he had his arm around another girl. She looks like a fucking skank. What a surprise. To top off my day from hell I have to waste all of my drug money on fucking rent. Could my brother be any more of a dickheaded loser? I got called a slut today, I hate it when people call me a slut because although I know it to be true. I was raped and I'm a waste of space, another worthless whore.
Signed from the whore you know as Bella.
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