Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN KYOU KARA MAOU
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From Yuuri's pov.
Warning: some nudity.
xx
I like Wolfram. I really like him. But it doesn't mean I wanted to involve myself in that kind of relationship with him.
Liar.
I don't lie. I wonder how I could lie when in my whole life the only ones I wanted to court were women. I can't fall in love with a man.
Why did you feel aroused when Wolfram hugged you that night when you were both alone? Did you ever think of pushing him away? If you had had a bit more the guts to touch him, Wolfram would have been yours already. Don't think because he acts all cold and sarcastic that he doesn't have needs. And the fact he even accepted you as his official suitor just proves my point.
That made me sweat from all the pores of my skin. I felt my " I can't like a man like this" motto weaken each day passing in that damn kingdom. Is it rubbing off on me? I mean all those strange habits, stuff and beliefs? With each instant spent with my new friends, my Earthen roots seemed to lose their strength. And it was worse when that powerful part, sly and dark like a serpent, of me encouraged me to go this way. I felt it awaken every time Wolfram was close to me.
I panicked because my skin became more sensitive when I brushed , for example, Wolfram's hand or he allowed himself to take place beside me. After noting how he behaved around me now, I could only say he didn't hate me at all, unlike what I initially thought. And it scared me as much as it pleased me.
It scared me because: one, he's a man. Second, he's very very handsome and it felt extremely flattering to have someone this beautiful around me. Third, Wolfram ignores my protests and doesn't look annoyed at saying here and there that he is very concerned by my' courtship.' One day, I even surprised him saying to his mother, during one of their 'secret' tea party, that this courtship would maybe someday lead to a serious engagement.
Really, Wolfram. Why do you make me think of Cinderella's sisters who can't stop talking about marrying the prince?
And it pleased you.
Yes and it pleased me.
Why?
" What " why"? why, why, why?" I shouted, angry, at my reflection into the mirror. " You don't have to know , you evil part of me!"
" Yuuri why are you shouting like a mad man?" asked an astounded Wolfram. He had entered my bedroom without me noticing it. I saw in the mirror he was looking at me with worry. I turned around to face him. His hand leaving the door handle, Wolfram went further into the room, and headed straight towards me.
" Yuuri, are you sick?" As soon as he was only a few inches away from me, Wolf put his hand against my forehead and got his face closer to mine:
" You're hot and red. Maybe you have some fever?"
I was too enthralled by his big magnificent green eyes to answer him. " Ah-ah Er..."
" You're definitely sick, Yuuri. You can't check your troops today! Come here."
Ooooh his perfume...So heavenly. I wonder how he managed to barely smell perspiration even after hours of training his personal troops. Not able to read my mind, Wolfram dragged me out of the room. He wasn't aware of my internal turmoil. Babbling continually, he brought me to Gisela's office. We found her sitting and writing a letter at her table, her uniform clean and proper as usual. She smiled on seeing us.
" Your majesty, Wolfram..." she put down her quill and raised up. " Is there something you want?"
" Yuuri may be sick," Wolfram started solemnly and I raised my eyes to the sky. " He needs you to check on him. Then, I'll bring him back to his bed."
I saw Gisela holding back a laugh, her lips curving upwards in amusement. She glanced at me then looked back at Wolfram:
" Right. Your highness, sit down on that chair please," she said moving a chair for me " and let me see how you're feeling." I did as told and waited. I stole a peek at Wolfram who was patiently standing next to us, hand on hip. I had all his body to the pleasure of my eyes.
So why does Wolfram please you? Do you know how many people would kill you to be able to look at him as you are now?
I looked away from Wolfram. So close. I don't know why it goes so sensual. I had never paid attention to someone like this before, and I found myself unable to distract my thoughts on something else than Wolfram's presence. It was then true that people who are extraordinarily beautiful could bewitch the others in such short a time. I was flabbergasted to be myself a victim of his charm.
Wolfram had nice curves. He's very slim...but not thin. His skin is soft, very smooth and fair, as if he had never walked under the sun. But it was a healthy pallor...not the one you have when you are sick. His nails, despite his daily training, are always neatly cut. I like his flaxen blond hair: it is as shining as gold, and it nicely dangles around his slightly round face. Don't talk about his green eyes. They're the most dazzling emerald green eyes I'd ever seen in my life. They seem to absorb my soul when I stare into them. As for his lips...jealousy invades me every time I remember Charles had been allowed to kiss them...and it kind of angers me that Wolfram had permitted him to do so.
You're getting possessive, Yuuri, aren't you? How difficult it is for you to deny how much Wolfram pleases you...
I gulped, not even paying attention to Gisela who was taking my temperature and asking me to show my tongue.
Besides his extraordinary looks, Wolfram's temper appeals to me more and more. His fits of anger are not so unbearable, his pride isn't that disagreeable, his coldness is not so strong...and I began to wonder if it wasn't just a mask. He deals with a lot of matters, he's mature and he can fight without people's help. I admired that in him.
There you are, Yuuri...And to think you were so afraid to tell what you like in him.
" I don't see anything wrong," Gisela started to conclude, lifting my eyelids to see, with a small lamp, if there wasn't something in my eyes. I blinked against my will and she apologized before letting go of me. " Your highness seems in a good health...Maybe just a bit tired and stressed and overworked. With what happened some days ago, you need rest and sleep. I'll ask my father to lighten your work."
"...really?"
" Oh, your voice is back again," Wolfram commented half ironically, leaning over me. " Gisela, I will take care of Yuuri. If he needs to relax, I'll be his companion."
I stood up and we left the room.
" Don't worry, Yuuri," Wolfram said resting his hand on my shoulder. " You won't have to work today. Of course we don't allow you to rest to encourage your laziness but a break from time to time can reinforce your efficiency."
" Um...don't you have anything to do today?"
" Yes I do. I must take care of you."
I turned my face away from his as he smiled. Too adorably for my taste.
" Well...I remember you and Charles have to visit the hospital of the village today."
" Ahh..." Wolf sighed rolling his eyes. " I forgot. But no problem: I'll send him a message to tell him I cancelled our meeting today."
" What? You can't just randomly choose to cancel what you have to do together."
I looked at him again. Wolfram was frowning. With the expression in his eyes, it was as though I was the one in the wrong.
" If it's for the king, he will understand. And he can go with someone else. He doesn't need me."
" I...I thought he was important for you. And he loves you."
This time, Wolfram blushed brightly and averted his eyes, crossing his arms.
" I told you I don't feel the same for him. I told him too so he's aware. It isn't as if I promised I would marry him. I said to him to wait. So he has no reasons to reproach me anything."
" What? You're scared he will make you some reproaches?"
" No. but he better not to. I won't tolerate that. But he's an adult man, he won't act stupidly."
Had Wolfram even thought that because of that, Charles von Lewisson hated me now? Did that guy think I hadn't noticed his glares and his scorn towards me? If I wasn't the king he would have kicked my ass a very long time ago. I could see in his eyes how enamoured he was of Wolfram. But unfortunately, it seems I'm the one Wolfram wants the favour of.
What did I do exactly to deserve his attention?
" EEHHH!" I suddenly yelled. Something had just gripped my waist. As I tried to look over my shoulder, my face collided with Wolfram's. We made a small "ouch" but Wolfram didn't move away from me and I found that these were his hands that had tightened so suddenly around my waist. He was nearly stuck against me, which made my body feel extremely...
" Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you," he said mischievously, though with a lot of softness.
" Wolf...Wh-what are you doing?"
" Do you want some massa-massage?" he articulated.
And even before I could react, Wolfram was slowly stroking my waist in circular motions, his eyes deep into mine. My blood rushed over my face and my heartbeat hastened.
" W-Wolf! What are you doing? Are you crazy! Not here!"
" Where then?" he asked the most innocently possible.
" N-no! D-do you even know what I mean?"
" Okay, let's use your bedroom!"
xx
We were then in my bedroom, warmed by the generous sun beams. Wolfram forced me to lay down on my bed. He almost threw me like a vulgar potatoes bag against the silky sheet then took my boots off.
" Wow, wow, Wolfram! I can do that by myself!" I protested by moving away a little.
" You must feel comfortable to relax, Yuuri, I'm only helping." He then held out his hand. I stared at it in wonder.
" What?"
" Your jacket. Take it off too. It's hot already, you don't need extra-skin."
Extra-skin, uh? Weird phrasing, Wolf. Nonetheless, I did as I was told and gave him my removed jacket. He tossed it on a near chair then sat by my side. I lay against the pillow but found nothing akin to rest as he remained still, staring at me. His intense look and his " promiscuity" would be a disturbance for everyone searching for some calmness. He was undoubtedly exciting something new within me and having him on my bed wasn't helping either.
"...I think I can stay alone in my bedroom, now. If you have things to do, you can go."
Wolfram shook his head.
" Looking after you is already a duty in itself. And I want to show you that I'm more...than acceptable about this new relationship between us. And the courtship isn't something that I dislike."
...Had he been a girl, I would have gone beyond my own limits. But I have to be a gentleman, that's why I won't eat Wolfram up. As for him, he didn't seem to care much about 'attitudes and pride'. He had already retrieved his boots and was now sitting on his knees on the bed, his hands against the mattress to support himself. He looked much more at ease than me,however the slight red hue over his cheeks told me he was flustered like me.
" Relationship? You mean..."
" A serious relationship. I want you to consider me as someone worth your attention and favour...I'd like us to get to know each other better. You're not bad, Yuuri." He smiled at me. I felt my face heat up. " That's why it'd be for the best if I let everyone knows that I accept being courted by you."
" ...Wolf..." I took in a sitting position. " Are you just telling me you want us to become "lovers"?"
My blond companion only nodded as a way to answer me. And I'm pretty certain he was blushing not because the idea of two men together shocked him but rather because he was admitting his own feelings. I rubbed my temples in soothing motions.
"...Wait..We're two men...You know that?" Outside, a bird croaked loudly. For once in the day, Wolfram lost his smile and bore an expression of annoyance.
" I really don't know what the problem with that is. You made an allusion about it already. It started intriguing me so I asked Conrad to tell me why you were thinking that. All I can say is that your world seems pretty prejudiced and I don't like it one bit. After what Conrad told me, I'm even happier to be born here. You shouldn't let these beliefs refraining you." His frown deepened. " I'll be truly disappointed if you let yourself get influenced by such narrow-minded people who think it'd be bad if you were with someone like me. I'm not a monster; I have these preferences and so what?"
He had pulled the rug from under my feet. Wolfram really knows when to get information and thwart people's opinions. Defeated, I shook my head in acknowledgement. I liked Wolfram...but I wondered when I was able to get over my Earthen 'beliefs' and 'habits'. My mother would know what to tell to comfort me, even more since she hoped to see me with someone. I wonder if she and my father would accept Wolfram as their son's...'boyfriend.' I felt a small vertigo as the word rang in my mind.
" Okay," I let out with a deep and long breath. " I will never think of you as a monster...but maybe you should give some time before you hope too much," I said truthfully. " I don't want to give you false hopes..."
" But you aren't saying 'no' either?" Wolfram slightly moved back, folded his arms and showed some irritation over my hesitation.
" No I'm not saying 'no'," and let him hope again as well. " I'll...try..."
" You can. Charles isn't your rival you know."Wolf is totally smart and cunning too. He knew that pronouncing this name would only stir my anger and make me want to go Wolfram's way. I glared at him but Wolfram just smiled in triumph.
" Very well." Oh my God, what am I doing? " I'm deciding to give us a chance..." No, no shut up, you're digging your own grave you idiot! "...but you have to understand I won't change my mind overnight. I'm still very confused." I can't look at him anymore. It's my fault! I should have said 'no' from the very beginning! " I may be feeling something...but I don't know what it is exactly...give me some time and then, I'll be able to understand better. But first of all, tell me now what you like in me."
And now Yuuri Shibuya had just admitted he wasn't insensitive to a boy's attention. Damn, this world has really messed up my mind. Wolfram blinked.
" What I like in you? That's simple." He unfolded his arms and scratched his ear in a pensive manner. " Well...I think you are...really cute and touching...and I trust you. Despite the fact I hate Humans, you succeeded in making me see past that...and I'm sure it's a good thing. But watch out, it doesn't mean I'll trust all of them! Some of them are truly sly and bad! But you..." his blush darkened. " You are a good person, Yuuri...I want to help you to become a good king. I feel like I could give all my strength to help you to reach your goals..."
See, Yuuri. Isn't it some proof Wolfram may start loving you? He would give his life for you.
Shut up, evil part of me. I am already confused like hell. My heart fluttered at his words and I found myself looking away and trying to settle my gaze on something. But I was too touched by what he had just said to keep my composure. That was almost embarrassing...in many ways.
" W-wow" I said with a shaky voice. " You changed your opinion about me."
He smiled too and lowered his eyes.
" I guess only idiots don't change their opinions."
" But you were so cold and disdainful with me! That's a shock to hear you say that!"
He shrugged:
" I was not going to praise you at the beginning. It would have been too easy for you. You need people to talk harsh to you sometimes. It will only help us to see what you're really made of."
Nodding, I felt glad the tension seemed to soothe.
" Thanks for trusting me, Wolfram."
" You're welcome." He stood up and smoothed the wrinkles of his clothes. " Sleep, Yuuri. Gunter and big brother won't scold you because you're taking a day off." He waited until I completely lay down on the bed.
" And you? What are you going to do?" I enquired.
" Me? I'm organizing my 'removal'."
I raised an eyebrow.
" Removal? What do you mean? Are you going to go to another castle?"
" Of course no! Where did you hear that? I'm just going to get a bedroom closer to yours. Like this all the court will know that I'm accepting your advances."
He smiled cheekily before leaving the room, the most satisfied in the world.
I swear now with the internal dialogue I had with this mysterious part of myself everyone was plotting against me!
xx
The rest of the day was going on eventful. To begin, Charles totally ignored me when we had a lunch all together and even said Shin Makoku should have had Gwendal as its king. Well...Wolfram told him to cut it out and show some respect towards me. Charles replied he must have been awful- though he wondered what wrong he'd done- not to have Wolfram's love in return. Of course, his words embarrassed and upset Wolfram who said Charles would completely lose his respect and his friendship if he went on like that. Good childhood friend said nothing after that but continued glaring at me with daggers. Then, in the stables as I wanted to ride Ao, Stefan Engelbert, who had healed from his wounds and was now taking care of my horses, dared to tell me he was disappointed to see me choose Wolfram because von Bielefeld who, despite being a good soldier, was capricious and harsh. I could only defend Wolfram, which unfortunately made Stefan a bit sad and sulking for the next hours. A few hours later, the brunette girl who was with the Humans tried to kill me but failed and was sent to prison. As I tried to meet her in her cell, she finally told me her name " Greta". She was so sweet and seemed to be a lost child only who needed new " landmarks", help and affection. I talked with her during some hours. She opened up a little even if she didn't hide the fact she thought the Demon King was a cruel monster who despised every human being. She still mistrusted me a little, but now I could tell we made some progress. I can't force anything: I saw how scared and shaking she was when I only made one step towards her. I felt very concerned about her and asked that she was treated well and given good food until her trial.
Before dinner, Conrad and I played baseball and I invited him to go with me to Earth when I had to go back. He then asked me some things about my natal place he didn't have the time to learn or see. I answered the best I could even though some of his questions intrigued me.
As for him, he was asking me with a wide smile if I was getting accustomed to this world. He threw the ball to me. I caught it easily, though detected he had restrained his strength greatly.
" I'm getting used. There are still odd things, like some of the customs or...the colours of fruits and vegetables...but I guess as long as I'm feeling fine, any world could fit me."
"...That's good," he said. " I wanted to do something special for you to make you feel more at ease here...I know you're already doing a lot for us and I wanted to thank you."
" Really?" I felt shy. " You don't have to."
" Yes, I want to," he insisting again with his charming smile. " What about creating together a baseball team...or making your people know about your favourite sport, your majesty. Would you not like it?"
The idea was wonderful and I found myself almost hugging Conrad like a little boy thanking Santa Claus.
I was happy.
Wolfram thought I smelt bad when I came back to my bedroom to change clothes before dining. So he tossed me a towel and ordered me to go to the bathroom for a good bath. I sighed but agreed and was already on my way for my private bathroom. What made me halt in my step was noticing Wolfram following me, towel in hand too.
" Wolf?"
" What?"
" What are you doing here? I know where the bathroom is."
" It's not that: I'm taking a bath too."
Well well well.
" Is your own bathroom in the same direction?"
" I'm going to use yours. Yours is the best." He walked towards me.
" Let's go, Yuuri. We'll be late for dinner otherwise."
" Wait! You aren't going to bathe with me!"
" Why not? We'll get to know each other better. I can rub your back if you want." He smiled brightly as if he had suggested the best idea.
I marvelled at Wolfram's ability to find any response possible and without never losing his temper. He was already opening the white doors of my bathroom. I couldn't take advantage of the pleasure to see such a large pool filled with a seemingly delicious hot water for Wolf had all my attention.
As I stepped in gingerly and hesitatingly, Wolfram chucked our towels on a long white bench then unbuttoned his own jacket.
" Undress, Yuuri. You're not going to bathe with your clothes on."
Remaining silent and motionless, I let Wolfram say:
" Well, your idea of hygiene is indeed very weird." I looked away as he removed the rest of his clothes. I, with febrile hands, took my clothes off. I wonder why I'm feeling so troubled and hot. It's not the first time I'm having him so close AND nude at the same time. We slowly went in the hot water. I kept a certain distance with Wolfram, even if from the way he stared at me I could see he didn't like it. So he moved closer.
" Yuuri. Which shampoo do you prefer?"
He fetched the coloured bottles standing on the edge. There were one green, one pink, one blue and a red one. I chose blue. Wolfram asked me if he could wash my hair. I refused. He frowned but shrugged and chose the red one. Did he choose to stand straight in front of me, to wash himself, on purpose? It didn't look so as he was perfectly calm and composed, unlike me. My heartbeat had quickened so much that I feared to see my heart piercing my chest.
" Wolf...Have you already bathed like this with Charles?"
" Uh ," he stopped massaging his hair to look at me.
" I said...have you already bathed like this with Charles?"
His eyes widened.
" No. Of course no! Why do you think that? It's quite an insulting thought."
" I'm sorry...As you were very close... I thought maybe you have already done a lot of things together."
" Like?"
"...nothing. Forget what I was saying...Uhm..." I rubbed my shoulders with a cloth damped with water and soap. I sensed Wolfram's stare on me but didn't dare to look at him again. Then, he kept washing himself, gracefully and delicately. My eyes were caught by his dainty moves, the fine lines of his body...the water that rolled down his skin...his wet hair and mouth. I'm very confused to feel this strong for a male. Wolfram looked at me again.
" Yuuri?" he was closer to me, he asked gently: " Are you fine?"
" Y-yes...of course, why wouldn't I?"
He leaned over me and narrowed his eyes:
" Look into my eyes and stop lowering your face." I tried to do as he told me. I felt myself flushing. Wolfram kept a firm gaze on me. As I didn't react nor move, he slowly lifted a hand and brushed my bangs that were almost hiding my eyes. He was so delicate and soft that I shivered. " Yuuri..." I couldn't answer. Therefore, he got very close. His face too. His eyes gradually closed shut and his lips were on mine.
I felt like heaven was wrapping me in its warm embrace. I closed my eyes and tried to savour, despite my extreme nervousness, my first kiss but I was almost frozen by such an unexpected act. His lips are incredible.
I intended to press harder...but suddenly, something pulled at my feet and separated me from Wolfram, a roaring sound reaching our ears. What the heck? " Yuuri!" I saw him shout, eyes large with fright and flabbergast, as I was taken into a swirl of water. " Wolfram!..." He stretched his hand but it was too late before I could grasp it.
Next...I was in my Earthen bathroom...and I could hear my parents' voices from the garden.
TBC