(Im so sorry for what I'm about to write, don't hate me)
Blaine woke up.
He was still in the car.
He had just had a fucking dream, nightmare, nightmare-dream, that consisted of the breakup with him and Kurt, and Kurt telling him he loved him, yadda yadda yadda.
Blaine looked to his left and saw Kurt still driving, eyes on the road. And for a minute he forgot why Kurt was with him. Why they were driving somewhere, but then he remembered.
Cooper was in the hospital. Beautiful, nice, talented, loving Cooper Anderson was in the hospital and Blaine was dreaming, very detailed dreams, about his ex-boyfriend.
Blaine was crying again, but Kurt didn't seem to notice, thank god.
Blaine wanted to ask Kurt some things now that they were together, no. Because they had been technically together as friends for the past 2 years. Blaine wanted to ask because he knew Kurt would answer, because Kurt knew what Blaine was going through at the moment, so he asked.
"Kurt?" Blaine said
"Yeah? What's up?" Kurt said
"Can you tell me w-why you broke up with me?" Blaine asked
Kurt visually stiffened and didn't say anything.
"Y-you don't have to tell me, if you don't want to, I was just wondering because you never really gave me a straight forward reason, so I've made up a bunch of things I could've done wrong to make you wanna break up with me, so I just, I wanna know..." Blaine said
"Can I pull over?" Kurt asked
"Oh, of course..." Blaine said
Kurt pulled the car over and turned to Blaine.
"I remember exactly what I said that day for your information, and I um... this is gonna get awkward fast just warning you" Kurt said, and Blaine smiled
"I remember saying that stuff about the n-not loving you or wanting you. And obviously I don- didn't mean any of it. I loved you a lot, more than anyone else on the planet..." 'still do.' Thought Kurt
"And I, I guess I should just get straight to why I broke up with you right? Okay. So um, you know h-how Sebastian lived next door to us?" Kurt said
"Yeah..." Blaine said. His mind was running a million miles per minute.
"Well, I guess I should've talked to you about this, and knowing you, you would have forgiven me because I really didn't do anything wrong but-... he um, he came over and knocked on our door one day... and-"
"Did you cheat on me?" Blaine asked, plainly. No emotion at all. It was like if he was asking Kurt if he'd bought milk.
"No, I didn't technically... he um. Okay so I let him in right? And he started to tell me like stories and stuff, normal talk. Because I really wanted to prove that Sebastian was a good guy. And then he um, started talking to me, like flirting. And I felt really uncomfortable but he didn't leave, so he um, kept going. And then he forced himself on me, and kissed me and stuck his hand down my pants..." Kurt said
"Oh my god." Blaine said, looking down
"I didn't tell you because I thought you would think that I was cheating and then you'd break up with me and I- I wasn't okay with losing you like that, so I decided that I'd break up with you before you broke up with me... which is stupid because your not like that and you probably would've helped me but... I just didn't want you to know."
"And nobody does know besides you and Sebastian obviously. Blaine it was horrible. I couldn't kiss you without thinking of Sebastian forcing himself on me or I couldn't let you t-touch me like that without thinking of Sebastian doing it and I just. I just thought it would be better to just leave before you found out by Sebastian making it seem like I wanted it or something." Kurt said
Blaine was looking at him with wide eyes. All Blaine was thinking was 'im gonna kill Sebastian Smythe.', but other than that, he was thinking how people are supposed to break up when they don't love eachother anymore. Or when one cheats like how Kurt had done when Blaine did. When something happens when they defy eachother. That hadn't happened. They had both stayed loyal to eachother and Kurt had broken up because he was scared that Blaine would shun him or not believe him. And that broke Blaine's heart.
"I wouldn't have broken up with you. I would have- I would have helped you. I, you should have let me help you Kurt." Blaine said sweet and softy, knowing this was a touchy topic.
"I know, but I-" Kurt said
"No, no I get it. Don't worry I get it. I'm so sorry that happened to you Kurt." Blaine said, looking at Kurt with sad eyes.
"Okay..." Kurt said sniffling
"So um, I think it's important that I tell you that Sebastian lives next door still. He's hardly home so we shouldn't see him, but I um. If you don't wanna stay I completely understand that. I'll be fine." Blaine said smiling at Kurt
"Blaine this was 2 years ago, I'm over it by now, and I don't wanna leave you alone, I know how it feels when your brothers not healthy and around, I don't want you to feel and go through that alone." Kurt said
"Kurt, you were almost raped. I- I don't want you around Sebastian alone." Blaine said
Kurt nodded
"Okay, listen Blaine we still hang out once in a while and I'd like to think of us as really good friends. So as um, as a really good friend, I'm gonna be there for you."
"Plus I won't even be alone because you'll be there so it's fine." Kurt said
"Are you sure?" Blaine said, looking at Kurt
"No, but it's okay. I trust you." Kurt said
Blaine smiled at that. Kurt still trusts me, he thought.
"Are you alright with me beating up Sebastian next time I see him? I won't tell him why, but I'd really like to get a few good punches in" Blaine said smiling, playfully
"Of course, is actually appreciate that." Kurt said smiling
Blaine took Kurt's hand, Kurt looked at him with eyes that asked "what are you doing?"
"Listen to me. It doesn't matter if we're broken up, and just friends. That doesn't change the fact that I will still always want you to be happy and safe okay? Y-you should've told me. But I'm happy that at least your telling me now. Your very strong. I'm proud of you, for going through that alone." Blaine said, and then immediately removed his hands
"Thank you" Kurt said looking down.
"Well then!! I guess we should get back to driving you home eh? We gotta see Cooper tomorrow morning." Kurt said as he started to move back onto the road
"Right. Cooper at the hospital" Blaine said. And Kurt smiled sadly at him.
They drive home in silence and Blaine pinched himself to make sure that he wasn't dreaming this time. He couldn't go through that again...
"Okay so um, it's the same room that we used to have obviously... and it's still the same set up... I tried to move it around after you left but I just liked how you had had it better" Blaine said slightly smiling
"Okay, can I um, can I shower? That hospital was gross" Kurt said
"Sure, just use whatever I have in the bathroom" Blaine said
Kurt walked into the bathroom and Blaine sat on the sofa, thinking.
This is fucking crazy!! Who told you it was a good idea to have the man your in love with, which just so happens to be your ex-fiancé, which just so happens to be Kurt Hummel!! Into your fucking apartment? Huh? This is a big red sign. Your supposed to be over him. You are though, right? Your over Kurt, right Blaine?
Who am I kidding. It would be a lot easier to believe that without the knowledge that Kurt's taking a shower right now.
And poor poor Kurt. He didn't deserve any of that. He didn't deserve to feel scared or like he couldn't tell anyone, he didn't deserve to have to keep that sort of thing inside for so long. And Sebastian didn't deserve getting away with it.
But that wouldn't last long. I mean I'm not going to stomp over there now, it's 5 am. But maybe in a few days when Coopers awake and well again.
Shit, and Cooper. I still can't wrap my head around the fact that coopers in a coma. Could potentially die. Shit shit shit. My parents fucking suck!! His wife's a bitch that just wants our family money and the only person that answerd me was Kurt.
I'm not suprised thought. Kurt was, no matter what the label was as a relationship, Kurt will be there for me. He'll always be there for me. And now I know, think, that maybe he still cares about me? He didn't break up with me because he didn't care anymore, right?
"Fucking A" Blaine said. And he threw himself back into the couch. There were way to many things going on his his head right now. With Kurt being back, Cooper, his new found hatred for Sebastian and his family, he just wanted to get drunk.
Which he could.
He definitely could.
"Now that's a grand idea, Blaine Anderson." He thought to himself