DISCLAIMER: I do not own any of The Royals characters, however I own some original characters that you'll get to know them one by one.
Hi everyone!
I wanted to update Hypnotic before the new season started but I couldn't finish it sooo here's my late homage to the 4th season!
And what an episode... :(((
I'm not gonna spoil it for some of you that still hasn't seen it... But oh the feels...
Here's to a good year and a good new season!
And I'm sorry, again, for not updating Captured... But It's coming hopefully, in a couple of months, when I get some time to myself. :(
And the song used in this chapter is "The Only One" by James Blunt.
ENJOY!
Chapter24_The Only One
"You realize how ridiculous we're gonna look, right?!" Jasper asked as Eleanor rolled his wheelchair into the hallway. She replied calmly: "Yes. But I don't give a fuck." Jasper shook his head laughing, but deep down he was grateful. He was going crazy spending all his time in her room even though Eleanor tried to cheer him up constantly. But eventually he announced that he wanted some fresh air and Eleanor volunteered to take him out on palace property.
The crazy thing was that she dressed up for the occasion and Jasper couldn't help but notice they looked exactly like a picture taken at a charity. He laughed at the thought and Eleanor asked: "What's so funny?" Jasper shrugged and answered: "Just replaying some old memories in my head."
Eleanor frowned as she masterfully avoided hitting a very expensive statue blocking their way. Soon she laughed out loud remembering how Jasper was desperately trying to protect her image at different charities. She practically had asked for morphine for God's sake.
Jasper sighed saying: "It feels like a long time ago." Eleanor nodded, even though Jasper couldn't see, and he went on: "God, I still can't believe half of the things that happened." Eleanor asked as they finally got out of the palace and into the beautiful garden ahead: "Things between us?"
Jasper answered honestly: "Yeah…" Eleanor scoffed and let out: "That makes two of us…" Jasper took a deep breath, enjoying the feel of cool breeze on his unshaven face, and confessed: "I was such a fucking jerk." Eleanor chuckled bitterly but kept quiet, not wanting the conversation to go on any longer.
But Jasper wanted to get some things off of his chest so he said: "I saw you, you know… when I was unconscious." Eleanor stopped dead in her tracks, stopping the wheelchair as well. They were already inside one of her favorite gardens and no one was around. So she turned and crouched in front of him on the ground.
"You did what?" She asked excited and he gave her a visible smile and started: "It was a nightmare actually." Eleanor pouted but Jasper hurriedly explained: "You weren't the nightmare. It was someone else." Eleanor frowned as Jasper looked away, contemplating if telling her about Samantha was the right thing to do.
Eleanor put her hand on his thigh and called his name quietly. Jasper looked at her and shrugged: "I saw Sam. I woke up living in a house with her and our two kids." Eleanor's eyebrows rose but she didn't say anything and Jasper felt confident enough to go on: "It was hell, Len. I kept asking her about you and she was trying to avoid the conversation."
Jasper nervously ran a hand in his already messy hair and didn't look in her eyes when he whispered: "She told me you were dead…" Eleanor gasped, squeezing his hand and making him look at her. Jasper was crushed. She had never seen him so broken before. Her throat was starting to close up, tears forming in her eyes for the hundredth time that week.
Did all the words I never said
Hurt as bad as those I did?
You know I never even cared
Not before you
"Baby I'm right here… You saved me…" Eleanor whispered as she rose and kissed him, letting her tears soak his face. Jasper kissed the side of her face when she pulled back and said: "You were there, on the floor, shot and bloodied. Len, I was so fucking miserable…"
If I could go and turn back time
If I could only press rewind
I would bleed this heart of mine
And just to show you
Jasper was visibly shaking as he let those words out and Eleanor hugged him tightly. She didn't know how to calm him down, she just kept whispering 'baby, it's over' and kissing his head. But Jasper wasn't finished: "You asked me why I didn't help you… Like I was the reason you were dying…"
I'll be the first to say I'm sorry
The first to say I'm stupid
Why do I always take it there?
Eleanor pulled away and tried to reason with him: "I would never…" Jasper asked: "But I was, wasn't I?" Eleanor asked confused: "You were what?" Jasper looked down and said: "I was the reason you were miserable for so long…"
Is it hopeless or maybe you still want to
Meet me at the altar?
And I will lay it all to bare
Eleanor kept going: "That's… not related to what you saw. It was right after that gun scare…" Jasper nodded his head but insisted: "That was what I thought at first. But my head, it just fucking went there. To you, hurt, and Samantha saying I was there when you were shot. I shot you, Lenny. With the fucking blackmail and not wanting to admit that I loved you and so much more shit… I hurt you Lenny…"
And I told you all my secrets,
All my fears, I've let go
Eleanor was looking at him, speechless, so many pieces of memory hitting her at the same time. All those time she took what she wanted from him and all those times that she wanted more and he didn't oblige. All those times crying in the shower for falling in love with a cold-hearted criminal. All those times he made her feel like he didn't love her.
And it's flawless
You are the only one,
You are the only one,
Don't you know?
But those memories were in the past. He loved her. He had made her so happy that she never felt that void in her heart anymore. The void that unknowingly had grown inside of her. He had jumped in front of a bullet for her. He had almost died for her. She was never sure about anything in her life but she was sure of Jasper's love for her.
And I told you all my secrets,
All my fears, I've let go
So she smiled, in a broken way, but she took a hold of his face and stared him in the eyes when she said: "You did. But your love was the best damn thing that had ever happened to me, Jasper. So don't you feel sorry for me in your nightmares. I'm the happiest I've ever been. And it's because of you."
And it's flawless
You are the only one,
You are the only one,
Don't you know?
Jasper was breathing hardly, his eyes shifting from her teary eyes to her lips. All the insecurities and guilt he had always carried around with himself vanished. His heart felt overwhelmed like it was overflowing with joy and he needed to share that happiness with her.
Don't you know
That the hardest part's not having you to hold?
So he kissed her and she kissed him back eagerly, wanting to show him how much she loved him. After everything they have been through and with the love they shared, they were sure nothing and no one could tear them apart.
Don't you know
This old heart of mine can't bear to see you go?
But not everyone thought the same. A few feet higher than them, the Queen of England was looking at the romantic scene in front of her disapprovingly. And next to her, Samantha, was biting her lower lip with a mixture of anger and jealousy.
And they had a plan.
Samantha's not letting go, eh?!
Leave your thoughts behind, lovelies!
Xoxo,
S