after the touching moment passed and saki, tarou and little baby girl and the nurse were happy
creeaaak*
the door opened and a doctor came in
"Mr and Mrs tarounoshi?" asked the doctor
both of them looked at the doctor and nodded
"good, I've received the test results, it seems your daughter is 100% healthy" said the doctor checking things on his clipboard
both of them had a breath of relief, their worries were subsided.
"so have you guys thought up of a name yet?" asked the doctor looking at them
both tarou and saki looked at the doctor and then at each other as they hadn't thought up of any names yet.
saki giving it a moment of thought spoke up
"tarou san, yuna chan had once told me that you had already thought up of names for children way back ago" said saki
tarou is surprised and embarrassed by her remembering it
"uh...um.. kinda...sorta..." he answered
"can you tell me what name did you had in mind for a girl child?" asled saki
"um...hana tarounoshi" he said
"hmm hana tarounoshi,hana chan..., yes that does sounds good to ears" said saki
saki then looked at the baby for a moment and looked up at tarou and spoke
"tarou san, meet hana tarounoshi.." she said holding up the baby
tarou's eyes widened, for a moment he was surprised but then his eyes softened up when he looked at the baby who was looking at him
he gently took the baby holding her close to his chest
"nice to meet you hana chan" he said with a smile
doctor took the hint and writes down hana tarounoshi on the notepad
"well Mr Mrs tarounoshi, I'll be taking my leave now, you can be discharged in a few days" he said to them and leaves ,taking the nurse with him.
after the nurse and doctor had gone it was just tarou,saki and the little girl in the room
tarou hadn't stopped looking at the little baby in his arms, he didn't knew that something could be soo delicate and fragile yet soo beautiful, he was filled with this brimming emotion to protect this person in his arms with all his life whom he hadn't even known for more than 10 minutes.
' is this what it means to be a father?'
he thought to himself but this feeling was not meant to last for he knew that he wasn't the father of this child, the glowing smile on his face simmered down to low-key happiness
he looked up to saki who was looking at him as she also saw the sudden change in his facial expressions
and with a heavy heart he spoke
"saki chan..."
"yes..?" she asked curiously
"i... I don't think you should give hana chan my family name..." he said
"..." there was a moment of silence in the air
" it's just that, i don't want you to be caged to me, and giving hana chan my family name, would mean that you would get bound to me, and i promised you that after you deliver your baby i will help you become independent so that you can survive on your own and i feel that if i give hana chan my family name it would hinder your future, you and hana chan need to start from a new beginning and having my name will be a hindran-"
"yoshida..." she spoke suddenly
tarou who was looking down all the time during his speech looked up at saki seeing that her head was down
"...my family name is yoshida" she said still looking down
"oh.., well you see, we won't have to change the name right now,we can do it after you are ready, i just thought that it would be best if i was to let you know..." he said quite nervously
saki finally looked up
"it's alright tarou san, after all you are not my husband, and I've already been imposing on you soo much..." said saki
"saki chan its not like that, i didn't mean it in tha-"
tarou tried to explain thinking that saki might have misunderstood his intentions but he was cut off by saki mid sentence
"gomene, tarou san but I've been a lot tired since hana chan came, would you mind if i could get some rest.." said said in a not so convincing smile
"uh...oh!, of course I'm sorry I didn't take your condition into account, I'll let you have rest and I'll come back later" he said as he went towards the crib and slowly and gently placed hana in it
"goodnight hana chan" sid tarou to hana
"take care saki chan, have lots of rest, I'll be back later" he said and he went for the door
creaaaaak* *tap tap tap tap*
creaaaak* *thub*
after he left saki laid down on the comfortable bed, she squirmed around trying to find a comfortable position but only ended up getting frustrated
Bumft* a pillow hit the wall
it was thrown by saki
she laid down, arm over her head, partially covering her eyes
after a few moments a drop of tear rolled down the side of her face, thinking back to what tarou had said before, she knew that it would be difficult for any man to accept a child that's not his, who would want to give their family name to the child of a whore.
(A/N: I'm not calling her a whore, but this is what its going through saki's head)
even if she thought that tarou was a saint person it would still be too much to ask of him to accept a child that is not his, even still, saki couldn't help but felt upset a bit over it
"I'm soo stupid..." she said
"stupid... just stupid..." she said two more times
though the exhaustion of giving birth did actually have an effect on her, she slowly felt her eyes drowsy and before she knew it she was sleeping
(5 minutes later)
tap tap tap tap*
creaaak*
"saki chan?" said the guy peeking through the door a bit
' oh, she's asleep' he said as he peered across the room
' there it is!' he said after locating his bag
he slowly walks across the room, careful enough to not wake the sleeping mother or child
he picks up his bag and turns to walk out
but not before he notices something
' huh? a pillow, was it always here?' he thinks to himself
nevertheless he picks up the pillow to place it on the head besides saki but as he does it he notices something
he notices a trail of dried out tear on the side of her face
tarou sorta realized that he was the reason for those tears
he felt guilty, he placed the pillow and turned out and got out of the room
( a few days later)
"you ready to go saki chan" said tarou as he pushed her on wheelchair with hana in her arms
"yes!" said saki excitedly
"I've already told yuna san we're coming, she's ready at her place for celebration" said tarou
"yay!" said saki excitedly
the end
hey guys, it's been a while, i know that the chapter is short, but i feel like it's better to write it in this way to show incremental changes in saki's life than large chapters that course through months of timeline each, still i hope you guys like it