"So your ok?" Addison asked as she sat next to Callie and watched Arizona, Sofia, Stacy and a dozen or so of their friends dancing in the garden.
"We're both freaked but we decided to deal with it another day… god I'm so embarrassed, I mean I told her she sounded like my perfect women… I told my ex that… my ex" Callie grimaced.
"Well she is your perfect woman, if this doesn't prove it to you, nothing will" Addison smirked.
"Don't do that" Callie complained.
"Do what?" Addison asked innocently.
"You know what… she doesn't want to be with me Addie. I tried and she said no. I have to respect that" Callie complained.
"Yes and then you both try to move on and end up moving on with each other without even realizing" Addison laughed at the sheer mortification on Callie's face.
"If you don't do it now Calliope Torres, one day your going to have to grow those balls back and do it. And the longer you take the less time your going to have with her. We aren't getting any younger you know" Addison smiled softly as she pulled her friend into a side hug and Callie sighed deeply before pulling her phone out and reading through some of the messages before glancing at Addie who just nodded her support.
ROCKSTAR: you said we couldn't be together because if we mess it up we have too much to lose and your right so lets not mess it up. We agreed to move on and we both tried… and I have spent the last week talking to bustyblonde and thinking maybe just maybe this could be the person I could move on with because there was this instant connection there and without thinking about it I wanted to talk her all the time and I needed to know her and I needed to spend time laughing and flirting with her and then I find out that its you, Arizona Michelle Robbins, my soulmate, and it all makes sense why I was so drawn to you. Because its you, its always been you and it will always be you and if I have to spend the rest of my life proving to you that we SHOULD be together I will do that I will move mountains for you if that's what you need Arizona because I'm done not being with you anymore… I'm done pretending that I'm not still madly in love with you and I'm done acting like the second your eyes meet mine that my heart doesn't skip a beat before it starts pounding so hard I think it may jump out of my chest. So tell me bustyblonde are you gonna keep being scared or are you going to be the good man in a storm you always promised me you were and tell me that you feel it too and you want to be with me because like you once told me… I love you and you love me and none of the rest of it matters!
Callie read over it again before hitting send and glancing at Addie who nodded in approval before she got up and disappeared to give her friend some space to await the verdict. Callie returned her attention to her ex-wife who was dancing wildly with her daughter and Stacy and she couldn't help the smile that spread across her lips at how carefree and easy Arizona looked in that moment.
The song changed and Arizona left Sofia and Stacy to it as she grabbed a chair to sit on and catch her breath, she grabbed her phone and opened it and Callie felt her heart pounding as she watched the love of her life reading the most important message she had ever sent. She tried to determine any kind of body language but Arizona wasn't giving anything away.
Suddenly Arizona stepped up from he chair and made her way past Callie and into the house without any eye contant and Callie felt her heart break at the brush off. She jumped up, determined to not let Arizona walk away again and followed her into the house, rushing past Addie and Jo who were making cocktails and laughing about something. Callie scanned for the blonde hair, wondering where Arizona could have got to and noticed movement and the top of her staircase and so rushed in that direction.
"Arizona wait" Callie called knowing if she didn't hurry up then the blonde would lock herself in the toilet. She sped up, leaping up the steps, determined but just as she reached the top of the staircase she saw the bathroom door slam shut and then the lock clicked into place.
"Arizona open the door" Callie panted as she reached the door and waited as she was met with absolute silence. "Open the damn door Arizona. I will just stand here and wait… you have to come out eventually so you may as well just save us both some time" Callie scoffed as she rested her back against the door and slid down it with a sigh. "Fine… we will play the waiting game then but so you know you ARE going to lose this time" Callie sighed as she closed her eyes and prepared to settle in for the long haul.
"Callie just go away" Arizona's voice called sadly from the other side of the door.
"No Arizona. I have let you walk away from me too many times in the past, I'm not letting you do it again, so if you want to break my heart then your going to have to open this door and do it to my face like an adult" Callie stood up and stared at the door willing it to open.
"Callie please… just go, I cant do this…. What your asking is impossible" Arizona sobbed.
"The only way your getting rid of me is to open this door and look me in the eyes and either tell me that your willing to give us a try, or that we are really over and that you don't love me anymore" Callie scoffed
"I cant do either of those things Callie. I cant do this, please you have to just go" Arizona begged.
"Not happening… grow a pair of balls and open this door Arizona" Callie demanded but was met with silence, as more minutes passed the more frustrated she got.
"Arizona I'm serious, open the damn door" Callie practically yelled as she stared down the door and kicked it in annoyance.
"Fine, if your not going to open the door then I will, because whether you like it or not, this conversation is happening and it's going to happen right now" Callie snapped as she took a few steps back, glaring at the door before she took a run towards it, preparing her shoulder as she slammed into it, feeling the wooden veneer shatter as the smashed in door swung inwards as gravity took hold of her.
"Calliope! what the hell, are you ok?" Arizona jumped from her seat on the edge of the bathtub and rushed to Callie's side as the latina lay on the floor rubbing her shoulder and groaning in pain.
"Shit that hurt more than I thought it would, bloody movies lying to me again!" Callie groaned, her eyes cinched tightly closed as she struggled to battle the pain.
"What the hell did you do that for you idiot" Arizona slapped her left shoulder, the one that wasn't injured.
"Because I needed to talk to you and you wouldn't open the damn door" Callie sighed as she opened her eyes and met the worried and amused blue ones.
"You know you're a moron right?" Arizona scoffed, half annoyed and half amused at Callie's effort to get into the bathroom.
"Stop running away from me… you always run away from me but you always end up right back here whether you mean to or not. We have wasted the last twenty years by being idiots… both of us. I've already started to grow old without you and it was never meant to be like this, I was always meant to grow old with you by my side Arizona… we were meant to grow old together and we messed up… I messed up… please tell me that I'm not going to have to live the next twenty years regretting walking away again… or the twenty years after that… be brave Arizona" Callie begged.
"Callie I told you… there is too much at stake. If we mess it up we will lose too much" Arizona implored as tears escaped her eyes.
"And if we get it right we could have the whole world. Everything that you and I have ever dreamed of is right there just waiting for us to grab it... Why cant you see that?" Callie scoffed.
"Because all we have done since we met is break each others hearts and break Sofia's heart" Arizona stated in frustration.
"And this could be the time we don't break each others heart… because unless you haven't noticed despite breaking each others hearts we keep falling in love with each other… tell me I'm wrong… look me in the eyes and tell me that your not in love with me and I will walk away right and never bother you again, I swear" Callie begged.
"Fuck!… Callie, you know I cant do that" Arizona groaned.
"Why Arizona, why cant you do it?" Callie smirked and raised her eyebrow challengingly.
"Fine.. Calliope I love you, I'm crazy about you and no matter how far away I run from you or how fast I run, fate is a cruel sadistic bitch because she thinks it's hilarious to just keep bringing us back together… I love you Calliope… I love you, but I cant keep losing you, every time I lose you my heart break apart that little bit more and eventually its just going to shatter apart completely beyond repair. I love you but I cant do this" Arizona sobbed as a tear rolled down her cheek and dripped onto Callie's shoulder.
"Say it one more time" Callie smiled hopefully.
"Say what?" Arizona sighed as she looked away and fought against the tears.
"You know what. Say it again" Callie begged.
"You're a moron" Arizona laughed despite herself.
"I may be a moron… but say it again" Callie grinned playfully
"Fine… I love you, is that what you want to hear?" Arizona pouted.
"Just one more time… just so I know that I'm not dreaming" Callie begged.
"Your cheesy as hell sometimes" Arizona rolled her eyes.
"You used to love that about me" Callie pouted.
"I still love that about you… but your still a moron. A moron who now has a broken bathroom door" Arizona scoffed.
"It was worth it just to get to hear you say those three words to me again" Callie offered honestly as she made an attempt to get up but her shoulder hurt too much so Arizona offered her a hand and pulled her up.
"Do you reckon there's a break or dislocation ortho godess?" Arizona asked as she gently inspected Callie's shoulder despite not really knowing what she was inspecting for.
"Nah its just bruised… but you can kiss it better if it would make you feel better" Callie smirked playfully.
"You're just trying to get me to kiss you" Arizona laughed despite herself.
"I don't suppose its working is it?" Callie laughed.
"You're a moron" Arizona scoffed.
"I know, you keep telling me" Callie grinned. "just kiss me already will you"
"Callie! we're not doing this. I get that you want to but there is too much to lose, that's not going to change" Arizona sighed as she stepped away from Callie and put some physical distance between them.
"Ok… lay it out on me, what exactly do we have to lose?" Callie asked, her eyes telling Arizona that she wouldn't be getting out of this conversation anytime soon.
"Sofia…" Arizona started but was cut off instantly.
"Is a big girl now, and will understand if we try and it doesn't work out. She will just be happy that we actually tried again, and isn't that a good standard to give to our daughter anyway, to not be afraid to try again when its your heart on the line? to not be scared of love and to always fight for what your heart wants and needs" Callie begged.
"Us Callie… we have just got back to this place where we can talk and be in the same room as each other, I don't want to lose this" Arizona offered as she motioned between them.
"And if it all goes to shit, which it wont! we will make it work… we may not talk for a week or two while we get some space, but if we can get here once, we can get here again" Callie offered confidently and waited for Arizona to give more excuses.
"There's too much pressure for it to work" Arizona provided eventually.
"Then we keep it between the two of us for just now, that way no one can pressure us… we get to just get to know each other again, and reconnect and then one day down the line, if we still feel like we can do this then we tell people, and if we don't feel like we can do it then we take a few weeks to recover and then we work together to get back to being friends without anyone even knowing" Callie suggested.
"You really want this, don't you?" Arizona asked nervously as she watched Callie intently.
"I do, I really want the love of my life back, I really want my family back, I really want you back Arizona… but I also need for you to want it" Callie begged.
"One date. You have one date to convince me that this is a good idea and that we can do this… that's it, no second chances after that, one date and if it doesn't work then we go back to being friends and you don't get to ask me again" Arizona relented.
"I can work with that… but you better prepare yourself for the best first date.. in fact the best date EVER. Because baby I am going to blow your mind" Callie smiled sweetly.
"We will see… you better make it worth my while Calliope… after all these big claims tonight you have a lot to live up to" Arizona winked as she left the bathroom and skipped down the stairs.
"Hey Riz… whats got you smiling?" Alex smirked after seeing his best friend skip down the stairs with a mega watt smile.
"Nothing… I'm just having a good night. Wheres the secret lover" Arizona smirked back at him.
"Shut up" Alex whispered as he glanced around them nervously.
"Hey Alex, question… when you and Jo were together… did you ever get any inkling that she had ever… you know, played for my team?" Arizona asked.
"What… are you crazy?!" Alex scoffed before looking in the direction Arizona was motioning and finding his ex laughing and being very hands on and flirty with a certain redhead.
"Nah no way… shes just drunk and letting her hair down" Alex laughed.
"Are you sure? I mean they look a little too hands on for my liking" Arizona smirked knowing she was being mean by winding Alex up.
"Just cause your all Dr. Lezzo doesn't mean everyone is" Alex smirked.
"That's Dr McLezzo to you" Arizona winked with a laugh as she watched Callie pass her, clearly favoring her shoulder and pretending not to.
"Karev do me a favor. No questions asked…" Arizona asked seriously, glancing to Karev who nodded and waited for her to continue.
"Callie and I may have had a small argument earlier which resulted in Callie tackling the door open and hurting her shoulder. Can you just go check her out and maybe strap it up for her. I would do it but you know.,. its kind of my fault she hurt herself and she wont want my help… please sweetie" Arizona begged and battered her eyelashes.
"Fine… but quit teasing me about Mered… my secret lover" Alex corrected himself then groaned as Arizona giggled before walking off.
"Cal… take your top off" Alex ordered as he approached the latina.
"Huh… no! You take your top off!" Callie glared at him.
"Torres, Riz told me about your argument and you hurting your shoulder… take your top off so I can strap it" Alex smirked as Callie looked at him completely confused before realizing that Arizona had offered her a cover for her obvious shoulder injury.
"Oh right yeah. The argument. Bloody door getting in my way" Callie laughed nervously as she grabbed a first aid kid and tossed it on the counter and pulled her top off.
"Nice" Karev winked, motioning at her black lacy bra.
"Quit perving" Callie punched him in the arm with her good hand.
"Jesus, fine. Roll your shoulders back so I can secure it in the right place" Karev glared at her as he rubbed his arm.
"Are we playing doctors and nurses over here or something?" Jo grinned as she plopped two cocktails down on the counter.
"Jo, how much have you had to drink?" Alex asked as he cast a glance at her before focusing on Callie's shoulder.
"Some… but not enough" Jo grinned.
"Here Josephine I made you a shooter…its called the 'I'm partying with my ex I need to get drunk' enjoy… Alex, want one?" Addison giggled as she handed Jo a shot glass filled with a red liquid that she had named impeccably after all the ex's and ex hook ups in the house.
"You're a bitch when you're drunk Addie" Alex scoffed.
"You're a bitch period... bitch" Addie winked.
"Bite me" Alex laughed.
"In your dreams Karev… that is never going to happen again" Addie laughed.
"Wait… you slept with Alex?" Meredith asked in shock, glancing between Alex and Addie.
"A very long time ago… like soooo long ago… the last time I lived in Seattle" Addison scrunched her nose up at the thought as she watched Meredith glare at Alex before storming off.
"Quit standing and go fix it Alex" Callie whispered harshly as Alex looked towards her, nodded and chased Meredith up the stairs.
"Umm, what was that?" Addison whispered mischievously.
"Nothing, your drunk so mind your own business" Callie told her as she tossed the strapping tape at the redhead and pointed to her shoulder. Addison caught the tape and started taping up Callie's shoulder and motioned for Jo to give them a second.
"Hey I'll have one of those ex shots before you go" Callie asked, taking the shooter and downing it. "Shit this is actually good" Callie grinned.
"I know right, the woman is a goddess with a cocktail shaker… now tell me, what happened to your shoulder, and what happened with Arizona" Addison whispered.
"We had a disagreement and she wouldn't let me in the bathroom and I really wanted in that bathroom so I may have taken the door out" Callie smirked when Addison laughed.
"Your so bad ass" Addison nodded approvingly.
"So we may be going on a date and may have agreed that if we were to go on this date and some more dates we would be keeping it secret for a while so that there is no pressure or risk for now" Callie whispered as she tried her hardest to not let her smile erupt across her face.
"I'm so happy for you" Addison grinned as she pulled Callie into a hug.
"Hey! be subtle, your not meant to know" Callie smirked.
"Sorry I'll be subtle… and if you need me out of the house so she can be around just let me know" Addison winked mischievously.
"She lives alone next door… I'm pretty sure we can go there instead of here" Callie laughed.
"Ok, ok… your secret is safe with me" Addison grinned.
"Addie, stop talking and drink… you will sober up if your not careful" Jo laughed as she handed the two women a cocktail each.
"Jo your on fire tonight" Callie laughed as she threw her top back on and hopped off the chair. "now lets all go and see the people we invited over here to see you Addie" Callie smirked.