Dear readers and followers,

I apologize for this to come out as an 'update' on your emails, but unfortunately it is not. It really saddens me that I have come to say this, but it needs to be said now. Fanfiction isn't what it used to be, and I miss it. Unfortunately, you can't make everyone happy: my fellow guests and anonymous reviewers/messengers have expressed that. There is no way for me to give answers to 'Guests' and 'Anonymous' reviewers when they can't even log in for me to reply. It would make the process easier. I know I can't make everyone happy or satisfy anyone with what I write. I can't cater to your needs and wants; I am human and not perfect. Sure the story to some may seem to repetitive. To some the story is dull. The story for others is annoying with Japanese words, characters, Kagome not being herself, pairings not happening, romance not occurring.

I can go on and on; it's exhausting.

And I am not only speaking for myself, I am speaking for other fanfic authors who try their best to update, write, and fill your fanfiction needs. But I don't think I have to repeat myself: we are human. We have lives outside of writing fanfiction – which we don't get paid for. We have jobs, school, family issues, etc. we have to attend to. So fanfiction is an escape, not a place where we seek how much a person is annoyed at the story, how much a person is mad at it, or how bored you have become.

A few words: don't like it, don't review it or read it. Simple as that. Now, usually I don't want to come off as rude. And I definitely don't want to give this image of myself, but enough is enough. All we ask is reviews. Criticism is fine, but there is a way to word it rather: "I'm annoyed", "There is no romance, so I can't read your stories", or "I'm bored of it already". Sorry I can't deliver what you hoped, but here is an idea, write what YOU want to read. That is all the advice I can give as a writer who has been on ffn for so long. Trust me, I improved over the years, but doesn't mean I am perfect. Writers want words of encouragement. I don't care about the number of reviews, nor do I care about the content of the review, but I do get tired of seeing anonymous reviews being too scared to come out.

I am going to receive hate for this, but I do this for you guys. I do it in my free time which I could use to do other things. For those not aware, I have been dealing with high levels of anxiety and depression, and now BDD, along with an eating disorder. I don't need the pity, but these are things I deal with it daily. You can hate me for saying this, but I don't think fanfic authors have been able to fully express how they feel. We thank those who have stuck by us for so long, encouraged us, etc. We truly appreciate each one of you. As simple as a one word review to a paragraph, we cherish it.

One review shouldn't get us down: continuous ones do.

I can't count the many times I received hate both here and on Tumblr. I am still writing. But after the latest Love Hoop update, I can't help but want to delete my whole ffn account and tumblr. Why put myself out there? Why come down with the hate? I will say this again, I cannot write to what everyone desires. I try and try to change outlines, change stories, AND trying to keep everyone in character. Romance? I am trying, but I can't write things like chemistry happening at first glance. It's called character development, which I rather write about. People hate a weak Kagome. Please, we all have our days where we can be tough, but break every once in a while, whether it's because of an event or person that triggers it.

I am not sure what I should do now, but it's apparent to me that this account will probably be deleted soon.

Sorry I had to come out to say this and sound passive aggressive, but some things need to be said. Nothing makes anyone happy anymore.

I do want to thank those who have reviews, sent me love, and support. Really, you are all the only reason I have continued thus far, but I can only take so much.

Sincerely,

Mizuki