'I hate Mondays,' ran through his mind, but hating wasn't exactly the right word, and he wasn't sure it was the fact that it was Monday that he hated. He didn't want to be here. What was he doing here anyway? He should've been helping Lynette adjust. That's how he felt about it at least. Then a thought crossed his mind, was she still just a friend to him? Was she more than a friend? What was going on? Everytime he was near her he felt butterflies in his stomach—uh oh!
He blinked a little at the realization but also knew what that meant. The odds of her rejecting him were pretty high, all things given. He wasn't sure he could keep on acting like just a friend around her, and he wasn't sure how she'd take finding out. Her rejection would be nothing like Chloe's he knew this. 'It isn't you, it's me. Honestly! I promise it's just me,' rang through his head in Lyn's soft voice. He quietly scanned the classroom who would be able to give him an inside view into her perspective? His eyes landed on an unlikely person for him to ever seek advice from, but he also knew that she was the most like Lynette as far as their independence and gender non conformation.
He resolved himself to ask for her help after class. Right on que, the bell rang. Kim quickly slung his backpack over one shoulder and approached his intended target.
"Hey shrimp," Kim greeted.
Not missing a beat the pink haired girl glared at him and demanded, "What do you want, Kim?"
Kim hesitated, rubbing the back of his neck a little, "Uhh well—I was—could we talk?"
Alix felt her eyes grow until they nearly popped out of their sockets. Talk!? Not race? Did he have a fever?
"Uhh, yeah, sure. Let me just grab my bag and we'll chat," Alix agreed as she slung her backpack over her shoulders and stood, heading out of the classroom.
"Are you coming with me?"
Kim nodded as he followed her, "yeah."
The two left the school grounds and headed towards the park, Kim couldn't for the life of himself ever understand why she was so into roller blading, and going to skate parks.
"Alright, so talk," Alix coaxed as she sat on a park bench.
Kim sat next to her, but didn't look at her.
"I got something huge happening I'm not sure what to do about it," Kim began.
Alix raised a brow at the statement.
"I've had this one friend since pre-school—recently somethings have happened that made me realize she isn't just a friend to me. I like her. I mean I like like her, but I doubt she'd ever feel the sameway. Which brings me to the big part of the issue. I don't know if I can keep doing everything she and I do together but not flirt with her, and I know if I tell her it'll probably ruin the friendship we do have," Kim admitted.
"Whoa, heavy," Alix commented with a slight chuckle.
"Look, nobody can really tell you what to do here, Kim. Ya know? Whatever happens, happens and you move forward. Maybe it won't be the outcome you want, but you'll have closure at least," Alix offered.
Kim nodded a little before replying, "That's exactly what I'm afraid of. Losing her. I had a crush on Chloe before but that was just physical attraction, I realize that now. There's nothing about her to actually love."
"And this girl's different?"
"Completely. She stands up to Chloe, literally the one person I've seen force Chloe into her place and shut her up. She's a trained lifeguard but even before that, she'd dive into water without hesitation if someone was struggling to swim. She doesn't think, she just acts, because she doesn't allow herself to think. I both love and hate that about her. I want her safe, but I get the feeling if I asked her to stop helping others I'd get slapped," Kim rambled.
Alix blinked a little as she listened.
"I could tell her favourite colour is any shade of purple, she likes light pink and blue too but purple's the big one. She loves swimming, and she does track and field. She also plays guitar, she sings, she models, she took years of ballet lessons…"
"—Kim—It's Lynette, isn't it?"
A pink blush tainted the male's cheeks as he asked, "It's that obvious, huh?"
"Well I seem to recall a brunette girl diving into the deep end of the swimming pool when I realized I couldn't touch the bottom of the pool anymore. I couldn't swim back then," Alix admitted.
"I don't know what to do," Kim confessed, as he ran his hands over his face.
"I can't tell you what to do. That's something you have to figure out. Would you rather live with her not knowing, or chance living without her? Ultimately it's your choice," Alix repeated.
"What would you do if I confessed to you?"
Alix wrinkled her nose, "What?!"
"I mean, some things about you, the fact you're a tomboy, the way you are against adversity and challenges, you're kind of like her, that way," Kim explained.
Alix rolled her eyes, "I'm a little more focused on getting into the Olympics than I'm focused on dating. Since you asked though, if a guy did confess to me and he was nice enough, I'd give him a chance. He'd just have to realize that I'm not sacrificing my dreams for anyone."
Kim nodded a bit and then a thought occurred to him, 'I wonder what Lynette's dreams are? She's never talked about them.'
"I heard a rumour that she's been removed from her parents custody," Alix probed.
Kim gave a heavy sigh and nodded, "I heard that one too but I'm not really in a position to say anything."
Alix nodded as she stood up, "Alright. I gotta get a few hours of practice in. So you know though Kim, I don't think you're alone in how you feel. She seems to be more relaxed with you than anyone else. Even Adrien and they've done modeling gigs together this year."
Kim chuckled a bit as he nodded, "She probably just thinks of me as a good friend, though."
"Let me ask you Kim, can you pin point when you fell in love with her?"
Kim thought for a moment before a smile grew on his lips, "It was last Thursday. We didn't have morning classes on Friday, those exams were done, so we were planning to skip. We went for a bike ride on Thursday night, right to the airport where the planes take off. She's always loved airplanes. We just sat in the grass watching them—until the cops came and got us."
Alix now had a confused expression as she continued to listen.
"She leaned into me and whispered, 'we could run for it'. I could only think two things. One, her parents were going to kill me. Two, this girl's insane. Make a run for it from the cops? That wasn't just crazy it was dangerous. She just laughed and went over to try to charm the police officers into letting us go. They put the cuffs on us, and put us in the back of the cruiser, when they put her into the car she actually asked the cop if he had a light. She doesn't smoke, I have no idea what she was thinking, but I couldn't help laughing. Pissed the cop off, but I realized she was taking my mind off the thought of going to jail. She was just going wild and I saw this freedom in her eyes. I fell for her right then and there," Kim recanted.
Alix smirked as she shook her head and headed off, "You got it bad, Kim."
'Yeah. Tell me something I don't know,' Kim thought to himself as he stood up and broke into a steady paced jog.
