Twilight Fan fiction

Transitionals

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Chapter 16

Since my percentage had stopped increasing for the moment, and I no longer had to worry about training my mental shield just for my percentage, Carlisle didn't want me to train today. He thought it would be best to take a break and start fresh tomorrow.

A part of me was glad I didn't have to work with my mental shield, another part though thought I should be working. Not working with my mental shield had been disastrous for my family, I couldn't let something like that happen again. I should be practicing with my mental shield as much as I could.

Then again, I didn't really know how I was going to train my mental shield. There was no way we could continue with what Jasper had tried. All that emotion would set of my physical shield, and I couldn't deal with what happened yesterday, again.

We needed to figure out a better way to train my shield.

"You need to relax?" Edward's breath tickled my neck and I couldn't help the little giggle that escaped. Instinctively I flinched, causing my shoulder to jump up to my ear. This made him laugh.

I loved hearing him laugh, it was sweet, like the must soothing music.

His eyes caught mine and I was thoroughly dazzled, and unable to look away.

It was hard for me to believe that this handsome vampire was my mate. And not only that, he loved me, he called me Love; that was as good as saying 'I love you.' Despite what I caused, what I had done, he still loved me. I don't know how it's possible but I don't deserve him.

Every time I wonder why I had gone to such lengths to fight the mating bond and keep him and his family away, I force myself to remember I don't deserve any of their love; especially his.

I know he and the others don't believe it's my fault I lost my family, and they'll try to convince me of that. It won't work. They might be able to convince me it wasn't my fault since I couldn't use my mental shield, but they wouldn't have been killed if I wasn't being hunted.

Edward shocked me out of my thoughts by kissing my cheek. Every gesture he gives, showing his love for me makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world, but it also brings me pain. I could never live with myself if he or one of his family members were killed because of me. I loved him too much to lose him.

A surprisingly strong feeling filled me. A glanced at Jasper who lifted an eyebrow, daring me to question him.

I knew I was feeling love but I was curious why he suddenly felt like spreading it through me.

Edward kissed my cheek again, and the feeling intensified. I stared at Jasper again starting to figure out what he was doing. He grinned back at me, giving me the confirmation that I didn't really need.

Jasper was showing me how much love Edward feels towards me. The strength of that one emotion focused towards me could crush a human. Here I was having difficulty breathing thanks to the effects of Edward's love. If I had been any less of a vampire I would have been crushed by the weight of his love.

I knew the love between mates was strong, but for crying out loud this was intense. This experience could remove anyone's fear or doubts; but I had never doubted Edward's love for me.

The mating bond brings soulmates together. The bond is the connection of our love, the stronger our love the stronger the bond. He is my perfect other half and I am his. We complete each other.

It suddenly occurred to me to wonder why Jasper was so intent to crush me with Edward's love. I never got a chance to ask him.

The feeling slowly disappeared, and once it was just my emotions I had to deal with, Edward pulled me off the couch and out the door.

Curiosity got the best of me. "Where are we going?"

He didn't say anything until he stopped us a few feet from the garage. "Would you like to see a special place I like to go when I want to be alone, away from other people and their thoughts?" He smiled at me, his eyes in full dazzle mood, but I don't think he was trying to dazzle me on purpose.

I nodded, unable to speak.

His grin widened and he helped me get on his back.

I wrapped my arms around his neck. Remembering the strength of Edward's love for me, caused me to react instinctively. Before I realized what I had done, I kissed the exposed skin of his neck. His body stilled, but relaxed a second later. Then he started running.

The run wasn't long, but it was enjoyable nonetheless. I liked running with Edward. I had gone running before with other vampires, and the speed was amazing, but everything was different with Edward. Being with him made everything more exciting. Even something as boring as doing homework was made enjoyable if he was with me.

I giggled softly. I truly was in love with this vampire, and the fact that he loved me too made me want to cry tears of joy, while I still could.

"I love to hear you laugh. It's music to my ears." Edward stopped running, and helped me down. He brushed a stray strand of my hair away from my face. "Would you tell me what gave me the pleasure of hearing that sweet music?"

My face lit up, and the heat of the blush was scorching.

"The blush on your cheeks is lovely."

I giggled softly again, but for some reason I couldn't get words to form in my mind, let alone slip past my mouth.

He seemed to understand that I couldn't talk and sighed, shaking his head. "Would you like to see my meadow?" He asked, finally putting a name to the place we were going to.

I nodded, still desperately trying to get my brain to work, to form words. I had so much I wanted to tell him, but that wouldn't happen until I figured out how to talk again.

He took my hand and carefully led me through the trees. We stepped past ferns and entered the loveliest place I had ever seen. The meadow was small, perfectly round, and filled with wildflowers -violet, yellow, and soft white. Somewhere nearby, I could hear the bubbling music of a stream. This place was beautiful.

We walked to the middle of the meadow, and Edward carefully pulled me down to the ground, to sit beside him.

"This place is beautiful," I finally managed to voice my thoughts.

He smiled gently. "It's nothing compared to you."

I blushed, and looked down. I could be the most boringly plain person in the world and he'd still think that. That's what finding your mate was about. Finding your perfect match and knowing they are perfect for you.

Flaws and all, the little voice in my head spoke up. I knew that was true but just like any insecure teenager, I didn't understand it.

One of his hands cupped my cheek, while the other pressed something into my hand. "What are you thinking?"

I tried to look down to see whether or not the coin in my hand was a penny, but he forced my chin up so I was looking into his eyes.

His eyes were in full dazzle mode, and my face broke into the goofiest of grins. He chuckled, no doubt thinking I'm crazy; but he waited patiently for me to get my head back on straight.

Of course once I got over his dazzling eyes, I blushed over my ridiculous grin. I covered my face with my hands and stifled a groan of embarrassment.

I was off the ground and set on his lap quickly.

"Don't be self conscious," he whispered in my ear.

I shifted on his lap so I could look at him. "I thought you couldn't read my mind?"

This made his face split into a smug grin. "It's getting clearer."

"If it's so clear than what was I just thinking about?" I couldn't help challenging him.

His face turned thoughtful. Moving carefully he caught hold of my chin and tilted my head from one side to the other. It took me a moment to realize he was reading my face.

"Well," he paused, "I can only think a few reasons why you'd be self conscious, and from what caused you to be self conscious, I'd wager I've got a good idea."

I raised an eyebrow, and waited.

His hand gently brushed over my raised brow. "You're thinking about us. You don't see yourself clearly, you know."

I was shocked by his statement. "Why would you say that?"

"When I compliment you, you look away. You don't believe me when I…"

"No, that's not it." I didn't want him to think that. "I know that's how you see me, I just can't comprehend it. You're the most handsome person I've ever seen, and I'm just me."

He chuckled softly, surprising me; I hadn't expected him to laugh at me.

"Like I said, you don't see yourself clearly. Surely someone like you knows, my kind are meant to seem beautiful to our intended prey. I'm beautiful on the outside but you, my Bella, are beautiful inside and out."

I laid my head against his chest, over his silent heart. "And you're not?"

He sighed and rested his cheek on top of my head. "Love, there are things in my past you don't know about. I've done some terrible things." I could tell it was difficult for him to tell me that.

I moved carefully so I could meet his eyes. "And I haven't?"

He glared down at me, his look disapproving. "Why can't you see that what happened wasn't your fault?"

"Whose fault was it?"

His eyes hardened. "The Undermining and the Hunters. The people who attacked you, who are after you."

"That's precisely my point." He was shaking his head, but I continued before he could interrupt me. "They're after me, if they weren't…"

He clamped a hand over my mouth. "You had no say about being a Transitional right?"

Since he didn't move his hand, I nodded my head.

"And you're powers come from your parents right?"

I nodded my head, not liking where this was going.

"You're parents knew that you'd inherit both of their powers right?"

My eyes narrowed. How dare he blame my parents? I tried to push his hand away to give him a piece of my mind but he trapped both of my hands in one of his, anticipating my reaction.

He ignored my struggles and continued his line of questioning. "Your parents were mates right?"

I just glared at him so he continued.

"Didn't you say that it was impossible to fight the mating bond?"

My only sign that I was following this conversation was a deliberate bat of my eyes.

"Your parents couldn't fight the mating bond, they didn't have a reason to until you came along. It was destiny for your parents to be together. So really you only have destiny to blame, that and the Undermining and the Hunters."

I shook my head, and he sighed in exasperation, releasing me.

"Why Bella? Obviously I can't understand the way you think. Why are you so bent on believing your family's deaths are your fault?" His voice was pained and frustrated.

I ran my hands through his hair in an attempt to calm him down. "Edward, I could have protected them."

"No!"

I flinched at his harsh voice and he calmed slightly.

"Bella, can't you see that in all honesty you couldn't have protected them, not like they needed." His arms tightened around me and he tucked my head under his chin. "Bella, you are strong, but your mental shield wouldn't have been able to protect everyone."

"Must we talk about this now?" I asked, feeling and sounding defeated.

He sighed and kissed my forehead. "I love you Bella. You don't know how long I've waited to say those words." I honestly hadn't expected him to change the subject, but I'm glad he did.

Looking up into his eyes was a mistake I should have known not to make. The words I wanted to say to him were lost the moment I met his eyes. The love I found there was so intense I forgot how to talk again.

How was I supposed to tell him I felt the same way, when I couldn't speak?

He didn't seem to mind my silence, in fact he seemed oblivious to it, since he continued talking.

"I've been thinking about the conversation we had on the plane ride to Chicago. The one we had briefly about you avoiding us, to keep us safe." He sighed, and his face filled with sorrow. "What Alice said about me doing the same thing if the roles were reversed, she was right, and she was right when she said I would have left."

My heart started hammering in my chest. Did he want me to leave? That didn't make any sense, he just told me he loved me. But maybe I'm just too dangerous.

"Calm down Love, no one is going anywhere," he reassured me; no doubt hearing my increased heart rate.

"I was just trying to let you know that I understand. You cared enough about us to try to stay away. That's why you still keep us at arm's length. You care so much about us, you can't bear for anyone else to get hurt. And despite the fact that we think we can take care of ourselves, you're living by example.

"Your parents loved you so much, that they separated; they left each other to protect you. Their example told you that to protect people you love, you have to stay away from them."

He gently took my face in his hands. "That's merely one way to protect the people you love. It was the plan that worked the best for you and your family, but it's not the option, for us."

I let a small grin flash across my face. "You seem so sure that you know how I feel about you."

He grinned too. "I've known how much you've loved me for a while now. In fact I understood how much you loved me after thinking about what Alice said. If our roles were reversed, eventually I would have left to protect you from me."

He shook, while pain crossed his face quickly. "Just the thought of leaving you, crushed me. What gets me though is the fact you knew how the bond between us would affect you, and you still went through that pain to protect me. If that isn't love I don't know what is. It might have been misguided, but that doesn't matter now.

"All that matters is that we love each other, and we'll work together from now on to fight our troubles." He leaned his head down, resting his forehead against mine.

Our lips were so close, but there was something I had to do before I could kiss him, or let him kiss me. "I love you, more than my own life."

"You are my life now, Love."

I'd fantasized about my first kiss for years, but none of those dreams had ever had someone like Edward in them. My heart was threatening to beat right out of my chest as he glanced down at my lips before meeting my eyes again.

We leaned in even closer to press our lips together, when his phone rang. Killing the mood instantly.

Edward growled in annoyance and pulled his phone out of his pocket. His face was torn, the emotions of anger and worry clearly written there.

"What is it Alice?" He asked, worry taking center stage.

I couldn't hear what Alice said. She must be speaking quickly. Surprisingly though I could hear Anna and Cissy crying. The two of them were in full tantrum mode. I was suddenly scared to go back to their house.

Edward snapped the phone shut, muttering to himself. He shook his head then pocketed his phone. Before I could ask him what was wrong he was on his feet, and had carefully flung me onto his back, a second later we were running back to his house.

"What's wrong? I heard the girls crying."

I couldn't say for sure, but it seemed like he sped up, but I had thought he was already running as fast as he could with me on his back. I tightened my grip around him, anyway.

"Anna's furious that you're not in the house. Jasper's trying to help her calm down but she's fighting him."

I sighed. "She's not going to be happy with me."

He shook his head in disagreement. "She's mad at me."

"You can't know that?"

"Alice said I was the one she was mad at."

To show my support I kissed his neck like I had earlier, but this time I tried to put all my love into the small gesture.

Edward flinched a few seconds later. He most likely could hear everything going on in his house now. He could probably hear everyone's thoughts too.

We hadn't even crossed the river, and I could hear Anna. I was mortified that his family was dealing with this without me. Anna was my responsibility and I had left her there for the Cullens to take care of, while I went off with Edward. How was that fair? It wasn't, and it was that simple.

He stopped running once we reached the front door, and helped me down. We braced ourselves, and he opened the door for me.

I stepped into the house and watched the scene in the living room nervously.

Rosalie was holding Anna on the couch, trying to calm her down. Anna's little body was fighting, trying to get down and away from Rosalie. She cried, and screamed, and I'm sure if she had something in her hands it would have been thrown across the room.

Cissy was in Carmen's arms, the woman was cooing to her, speaking softly in Spanish.

Jasper looked terrible as he tried to help both of the girls, and Alice had her arms wrapped around him, trying to send him all her love, to counteract all the negative emotions in the room.

Everyone else was at a loss of what to do.

After a quick assessment I knew Anna was the one who needed me more. I crossed the room as fast as I could without messing with my balance.

Rosalie gave me a grateful look and handed Anna over to me.

I wrapped my arms around her, holding her tightly. She settled in my arms, her head on my shoulder, and her tears soaked my top. As she slowly calmed down, so did Cissy. Eventually she was able to talk away through her tears.

"You weren't here. You left me."

I kissed her forehead, giving her a squeeze. "I won't leave again, I promise."

She nodded, silent tears still streaming down her face. She cried herself to sleep that night.

I watched her as she fell asleep. We had taken one giant step back. How was I ever going to get Anna to be comfortable being away from me? She couldn't stay by my side forever.

I glanced around the room searching for Edward, needing some form of reassurance. He met my gaze and looking into his eyes, I knew he was thinking the same thing I was. How were we going to wean Anna away from being with me constantly?

Author's note

This wasn't what I had originally planned for this chapter. Edward grabbed the story and took it down a different path. And when I tried to get it back on track, Bella took over. At least Anna made sure the chapter ended where I was planning for it to end.

I only have one question this time, and that one would be about the one I ended the chapter with. Do any of you guys have any ideas or guesses, of how they plan to wean Anna away from Bella?

I hope you guys like this chapter, I'm sorry it took so long to get it to you.

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