Trying to sort out some thoughts and venting while doing a small study on both charoix relationships. I never enjoyed Young charoix as a couple if i'm being honest.
Croix always had a complicated view onrelationships, especially in her younger days.
She hated how such a simple thing would consume people's lives, how it would become their one priority. She has always been ambitious, always had dreams and goals, so she could not imagine leaving all of that behind for someone.
It was all she had. No, it was who she was.
From the start, she was a dreamer. She decided that she was meant for greatness. She would work for it and achieve it. She decided she would be as good, if not better than the nine olde witches.
She could not help but look down at those who did not have such ambitions, those who only wanted those mundane things like relationships. She even thought they were pathetic whenever she heard them crying and complaining about it.
She would walk around the hallways and roll her eyes at all the drama that could have been avoided.
People always seemed to think that they could never be happy without being with someone, and sometimes they would lose their individuality to get with that person. Everything would become about that one person. It was no longer something that is about them, it always had to be shared or neglected for the sake of the other person.
It was a concept that she could not get behind.
That was why she was too wary of dating Chariot.
Unlike some couples who would get together just for the sake of being a couple or the people who jump at a relationship thinking they found the 'one', the two were close friends. They were best friends, and Croix did not want to lose that.
She did not want to lose herself, to give everything to Chariot, including her own dreams.
She ended up doing it anyway. She made the mistake of getting together with her.
At first, it started great, fun and exciting then it started falling apart. The lilac haired witch started to feel the cracks of what they built.
They would rarely spend time apart and they wanted each other's full attention all the time. Croix's jealousy would get the best of her, Chariot's need for love and validation took over her. They didn't have a compromise. They weren't individuals anymore, they were always Croix and Chariot.
The cracks grew bigger when Chariot received the shiny rod, and the wounds ran deeper when Croix pretended that everything was fine so she wouldn't hurt her.
It wasn't a relationship, or perhaps it was and Croix was right about relationships being an ugly mess. It consumed their lives, it left them depending too much on each other, it took away who they used to be, and on top of that they never dared to speak about their problems so they wouldn't break it.
In the end, it left them both with a terrible heartbreak, and it left them thinking that things wouldn't have gone this way if they remained friends.
It wasn't the only thing that ruined them, but it was a huge part of it.
Croix's hatred towards relationships grew over the years. She felt anger whenever she passed by someone talking about it, whenever she saw someone crying about it, whenever she saw someone happy and excited about it.
To her, these people were digging their own graves. They were placing their hopes on happiness on one thing, and she knew from experience that being with someone would not automatically make you happy.
It will not fix all the other messes in your life. It will not fix you.
Therefore, when years passed, and when her plans failed and she and Chariot made up, she could not go for it.
She wanted to find peace without it, to heal without it, and it was a difficult road to take. She could have stayed, and they would have been like a pair of wolves licking each other's wounds, but she knew it was not right.
Chariot knew it as well.
The lilac haired witch took her to reflect on things in prison, then took her time to work on the cure. The redhead never asked for it, and it wasn't that she did it just for her, but this was for Croix too. This was something that would help her heal in her own way, something that lay her down a better path.
When the ministry decided that they could use her talents, she took the opportunity to travel, and see the world in a new light.
She took time to get better… To be better, because that was something she should do by herself, and for herself.
Now, she looked back at those days as she stared at the ringer in her finger. It never worked before, and it couldn't have lasted long.
This time though, things were different. They were different.
They came to a compromise, and their relationship was so much different from the past. She and Chariot understood each other, gave space to each other. They had a life outside of one another, other bonds to maintain, jobs, and dreams. This time though, some of their dreams were intertwined, while others remained separated.
Chariot started to gain more confidence, and helped Akko with her magic, and her performances. There were times where they would perform together. Sometimes Croix felt a bit jealous that the brunette would take most of her wife's time, but at the end of the day she knew that the tired redhead would throw herself into her arms and breathe in her scent, missing her after a long day.
Croix was working on improving her modern magic, and it was a challenge now that the seal was unlocked, but she had made a few deals and her inventions were starting to see the light of day again. She was also working with the ministry to keep track of the overflow of magic.
It wasn't a relationship, not those people talk about. It was like they were each other's home, comfortable, warm, and at peace.
It wasn't the old excitement, the many eager kisses, or the endless hours they would spend together when they were younger.
It was a lot calmer, gentler, like a flame that never burns out, but never burns anything else.