Jaspers POV
I Pushed Carlisle's Car to the Maximum. Bella Clutched her seat in one hand, and my hand in the other.
"Where are we going Jasper?" My Mate asked me, choosing her words carefully.
"AirPort My Mate" I purred out. She furrowed her eyebrows.
"Why did they let you out?" Bella asked me after a second, confusion filled her voice.
"They didn't, I did" I shrugged, still driving at the same speed.
"What?" Bella's terrified stare met my eyes and I smiled lovingly, using the back of my hand to caress her face, removing any tense lines.
"They Are not the boss of me, they tried to keep me apart from my Mate, they knew I would break free eventually. Wrong move on their part" My voice went hard near the end.
"Jazz, what happened?" She whispered after 5 minutes. I sighed and let go of her hand.
"Maria..she…I cant explain it but…she made me re-think my whole life. I was overcome with grief…I saw him bella, I saw Peter. He spoke to me, promising to help. And he Fucking didn't" I growled low "then he sows up today, all alive and well, may I just add, and thinking I would jump and get better..noo" I hissed and she flinched.
"Sorry Isabella…"
There was silence, until we got to Seattle.
"Jasper, can we sleep in a hotel tonight?" she asked me.
"Isabella…." I thought of the plane ride, and the chances of them finding us.
"Please Jazz, im going to faint I swear" I nodded and carried her into the lobby, paying for a room, and getting her tucked up in bed.
"Love you Jazz" Bella whispered before falling into a deep sleep.
"Love you too Isabella" I told her, kissing her forehead gently. I paced the room as hours passed.
Peter was…Alive?. How? What? Why?…
Why didn't he come help me?…If he saw everything, Maria…Self Harming…
A sob caught in my throat and I launched myself towards the bathroom. I quickly shut the door and began to shake as the memories of everything came crashing down on me…
My Past…
Peter's Death…
The Shame…
The struggling…
The Lies…
The False Hope…
Everything…
"Stop it" I growled to myself.
"Im stronger than this, im Major Jasper Whitlock for Christ sake!" I hissed at myself looking in the mirror. I didn't see a Major, I didn't even see a man. I saw a scared, scarred, little boy. I began to sob again, and I curled into the small corner, my legs up to my chin. As I sobbed I ripped long gashes onto my arm, venom oozing out, leaking onto the tiles of the floor. I sobbed harder, Im such a disappointment.
I ripped harder, faster, trying to rip the scars off my body, the ugliness was hidden inside though, the monster, the beast was inside me.
I didn't even notice sunrise.
My throat was raw with sobs, but I couldn't stop! The ripping of my flesh helped…a lot.
Bella's POV
I woke up early, and before I even opened my eyes. I patted the space next to me, only to be met with the cool sheets. I ripped the sheets away as my eyes scanned the room. No Jasper. My heart pounded loudly in my chest. They I heard something come from the bathroom. Almost…the sound of ripping vampire flesh. I slowly walked towards the bathroom, and opened the door.
The smell of Venom hit my nose first and it began to sting.
Second, I noticed Jasper curled up in the corner sobbing.
THIRD , and lastly, I noticed Jasper…ripping his wrist off?
Self harming….oh shit.
"Jasper!" I cried, falling down next to him.
"Get away Bella" his voice was shakey, and full of pain.
"Please stop Jazz" I whispered, trying to de-attach his teeth from his wrist.
"I cant" he whispered sobbing. I ran back into the bedroom, and quickly located Jasper's phone.
Thank fuck he still had Peter's number.
I wrang it 3 times before he answered
"Jasper?" he asked, the wind coming to a hault on the other end.
"No its Bella" I told him, my eyes keeping trained on Jasper.
"Bella!, where are you?" he asked suddenly "where's jasper?"
"Help please" I whispered. My eyes filled with tears
"Bella, please, What's happened?" he asked, afraid.
"Jasper…he's resolved to…Self harming" I sobbed out.
"Oh jesus!" I heard the pain in Peter's voice "Where are you?"
I gave him the address, before hanging up and going back to Jasper. I ran my hands through his hair slowly.
"Don't worry, we'll get you help" I soothed as tears ran down my face.
He kept ripping.
Soon enough, there was a knock at the door and I flung myself at it, there stood a man who I presumed as Peter, Carlisle, Emmett, and Rosalie.
"Please…Help him" I sobbed out as I curled into a ball on the bed. All 4 ran into the narrow bathroom and I heard all 4 gasp.
"Jasper" Peter chocked out "What have you done?"
"Jazz…man" Emmett was speechless.
"Jasper…"Rosalie breathed.
"Rosalie, Please go comfort Bella, we will get Jasper home" Carlisle told her before she was next to me, hugging me.
"Rosalie…Rose…I don't…understand, why?…Jasper….why?" I garbled out my speech. Confused.
"Im not sure Bella, But we WILL help him, im sorry you had to witness that first hand" she held me as I sobbed.
Emmett came out, and quickly came over to me and Rose, holding us both. Then Carlisle came out with a grave look, then Peter came out…with jasper in his arms. Jasper was still in a ball and he has a crazy look about his eyes.
"Emmett" Carlisle nodded towards Jasper and Emmett held Jaspers wrists together in his own hands.
"We need to go" Peter snarled at us. We nodded and I quickly packed everything of mine and jaspers before we quickly made our was to reception.
"Oh My!" the receptionist gasped, standing up.
"It is okay, im Doctor Carlisle Cullen. My Son Jasper has had an emotional break down, his real mother has been killed in a car crash. He has not taken the news well" he spoke to the lady as Peter and Emmett walked out.
"Do you need an ambulance?" The woman asked.
"No, no. We are taking him to hospital right now, if you'll excuse me" he rushed off out, and me and Rose followed.
"Rosalie, you and Bella sit in the front. Rosalie, you drive. Peter will hold Jasper in the back and me and Emmett will run" we all nodded and set off.
Please get better Jasper…I don't know how much more I can take.
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