Jaspers POV.
White. White is safe. Thats where i am now, in a square of whiteness. My sheets are white, the floor is white...the walls, there is no windows. I still have most of my belongings. Except my civil war stuff, and my fathers pen knife. They re decorated my room. I dont understand, do they expect me to get better?, do they expect me just to become...alright?. I do not want to dissapoint them, but even im not sure i will get better.
It has been two weeks since that insident. That one at the hotel. Bella has only been over 3 times. I hate myself even more for putting my mate through this.
It was Thursday. And i was lying in my white bed, my hands behind my head. Staring at the ceiling. I could hear them all shuffling about downstair, and their worry pouring out. Then a truck. Bella. I stood quickly looking around my room, making sure it was clean. As always, spotless.i heard my mate walk up the steps and i looked in the mirror for a second. I looked like hell. I shuddered and plastered a smile on my face. I then walked down the stairs.
Isabellas pov.
It had been two weeks since the hotel, i often woke up screaming. The look on Jaspers face, helpless, in pain, the struggle, the Craziness!. I shivered and quickly put my coat on. After scribbling my dad a note about friends and stuff, i grabbed my keys and got into my truck. I sighed as i drove down the road that connected the Cullens House to the main road. Jasper just keeps going downhill. I dont blame him really, anyone would...but how is our relationship meant to last...no, shut up Isabella. Your just going through a rough patch. Jasper needs to sort through some...stuff. And it will all get better! I nodded as i drove down the driveway. I parked and walked up the stairs. Esme opened the door for me, a small smile on her face.
"Welcome back Bella," she told me, gently hugging me. The rest of the family was quickly in the hall, all in the livingroom i guess.
"Heya Belly Boo! How are you!" Emmett asked in his booming voice. I turned to answer but my breath caught in my throat. There standing on the stairs, in jeans and a white shirt, a smile on his face. Jasper.
"BelllaaaaA?" Emmett moaned, then he turned. "oh shit, jasper!"
"Jasper dear!, how wonderful to see you!" Esme cried, clutching Carlisles hand tightly. I beamed at Jasper. He was quickly by my side.
"Hello again Darlin'" Jasper said in his texas drawl. He took my hand and kissed the top lightly. I blushed red and he chuckled before inhaling. He stopped breathing for a moment before resuming. I raised an eyebrow but he chuckled and stepped forward to hug me. I squeezed him tightly to myself. Breathing in his scent. Mmmm...my mind wandered for a second. I wonder what he would taste like?. I was brought out of my thoughts by Emmett laughing, and Jasper nuzzling my neck.
"what was that about darlin?'" he whispered on my flush skin, and i blushed deeper. "What brings you here Bella?" Carlisle asked, smiling between me and Jasper.
I took this momen to realise Charlotte, Peter and Rosalie werent here.
"umm..." i just pointed at Jasper and everyone laughed.
"upstairs?" jasper asked. I nodded and he carried me bridal style upstairs and into his room. He layed me onto the bed, covered my body with his and began kissing a trail between my neck and chin.
"Jasper" i breathed, pulling him closer. He chuckled and pulled back. Smiling ear to ear.
"Yes my mate?" i giggled and kissed him on the lips. He pouted when i pulled back.
"Hey, no fair darlin', " he whined and he swapped us over so i was on top. i snuggled against him, sighing.
"Whats with the content feelings darlin'" he asked me, kissing my nose.
"just happy, being here...with you" i smiled.
"wheres the others" Jaspers eyes went a little glazed and i got a little nervous.
"Rose is showing Peter and Charlotte the hunting area" he said in a monotone.
"when was the last time you hunted" i stroked his cheek.
"2...3 weeks..." he mumbled and i shot up. He raised an eyebrow and i pointed to the door.
"hunt now..." i ordered and he whined.
"i have to go soon...but ill be back, IF you hunt" i told him and he shot off. I quickly went downstairs.
"how has he been" i asked esme and she frowned.
"this is the first of him coming downstairs...since...the hotel" i winced "he hasnt hunted, hasnt spoken until today. He hasnt hurt himself at least. I think you make it better" she smiled and i told everyone goodbye before heading home with a promise to be back tomorrow.
Jaspers POV.
I hunted a small fox. The closest thing to the house. I was only 15 minutes before running back. Bella was long gone. I walked in quickly and shut myself up in my room. Resuming my lying down position.
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