Katniss POV

I yanked my bow closer to myself, My eyes frantically searching around me. and my feet dragging against the newly paved road that led into the main square. I'd barely been out 5 minutes and i could already see that Peeta was right. The place DID infact, look lovely. I'd even stretch as far as beautiful, but the last thing i named beautiful was my sister..

My grip around my bow tightened more, and sweat ran down my forehead. No. I WILL NOT have an episode, not around these people, The people that futures i protected.. It would all be a waste if i automatically started shooting in random directions.

Eyes. Eyes everywhere, i had never seen so many eyes trained on me that now in district 12. The world froze as i stepped out the shadows from the road, into the main square. A few muttered under their breaths in astonishment, others just stared. I fidgeted as i stood, weighing out my chances of running home, or facing these people.

"What's with the silence 'eh?" A older, fierce women stepped forward "Don't you remember her? of COURSE ye' all do. So stop makin' her feel unwelcome in her own district!" There were mumbles and shuffles, before everyone stepped back into their own worlds, and continued on with their duties. the woman smiled, showing her few missing teeth, and i curved my lips up slightly.

"Thankyou" i squeaked. This was my first outsider i had encountered, Someone who wasn't from my district but had moved here to get away...

"Anytime lass' After what you did for us.." she stopped when she saw my body go ridged. "Another time 'eh?, how about we go tae' the Tavern?"

"Tavern?" i repeated slowly. I had heard that word, but not here. In district 8. On that..Victory tour. two men, i remember.

"Have you nevur been to a tavern lass!? By Golly you've been missing out!, come!" and she lead the way, as i juggled my bow, and kept up with her.

I found my eyes wandering around me as the woman blabbered on. There was no stalls, not any more. They had upgrated to shops, even the small buisnesses. Women, Men...Children. All looked clean, well fed, and educated. And it was a foreign thing to see in district 12. I felt like an outsider..

"Lass?" the woman repeated, looking in my direction.

"hmm?"

"Bit different from how you remember?"

"Entirely" i chuckled with no humour. "Its great..but.."

"It's strange." she nodded understandingly. "i get ye', and here we are!"

I looked up at the building she was gesturing towards, and frowned.

"What is it?" she laughed

"The tavern!"

"But..what happened to the bakery?" Memories of my childhood passing that bakery overthrew my mind, and then My eyes widened. oh no, i hope peeta already knew. he'd be devistated.

"It blew up with the first bombs"i pursed my lips and nodded slowly.

"still want to continue?"

"yeah..lead the way" and she helped me inside.

The place was full, With most of them men, and perhaps 3 women. They all stopped and stared, and my eyes twitched instantly. The man at the bar who was cleaning the glasses stared also, before snapping out of it.

"Katniss! Good to see you" i nodded my head in greeting. It was a place, where all the liquor drinkers came together. and got served liquor. Interesting..

The woman who guided me here, walked a few steps to greet another woman. And i followed before my bow was grabbed from behind.

Bad move

My gaze turned cloudy, and i was in the arena again. i spun, my hair fanning everywhere. and knocked the large man to the ground with a swipe of my strong legs, and pinned him by the neck with my foot. My bow ready, and an arrow pointing at the offending man's head. There was loud gasps around me, as everyone caught up. i didnt blink. How DARE he.

"Katniss.."The woman called from behind me "Katniss please lower yer' weapon"

"No one touches me" i hissed under my breath. "No one."

"They know sweetheart" Haymitch was to my left "They were all warned, But he's new sweetheart"

"I don't care" i growled, my hand shaking from the strain "No one touches me"

"He knew" The woman was to my right, glaring at the man "but he's an..un-Supporter " she explained to Haymitch. i cocked an eyebrow, wanting an explanation.

"Has a...Snow opinionated view. Not fully, But not on our side either. He's the bouncer here" Haymitch told me under his breath.

"So. You're name? Bouncer?" i asked loudly, my voice venomous.

"Robbert" and he spat upwards, into my face. i didnt even blink.

"You knew. You knew not to touch me, so why did you hmm?. WHY" hissed through my teeth.

"Because its my job, And i wont let any victor WHORE be the RULER of me. I thought you were all about freedom now, Girl on fire?"

And then i shot an arrow through his right ear, pinning him, and his ear, to the wooden flooring. oh how he howled..

"Do not use my old nickname." i said blankly. before looking up to see everyone else. to address them..

"Im sure you have all been made aware, the few simple rules regarding me. Until i have recovered." i nodded down to Robbert "Let him be an example, of the difference between myself and you're former president" And i lowered my bow, and sat at the bar in silence. the crowd parting for me.

"What will it be Katniss?" The bar tender...Tibith?. Asked.

"Strong please" i told him neutrally.

The place gradually began turning back to normal, and robbert was taken to the local new hospital. after sipping lightly on my 3rd strong vodka and lime. Haymitch joined me.

"I didn't expect you to be here..." i smirked "oh wait, yes i did."

"Are you cracking jokes now sweetheart?, My heart bleeds with pride" we both chuckled At the irony.

"When did they build this place?"

"Not long ago, Got the idea from the Capital...Did you know you're more relaxed with a few drinks in you?" Haymitch exclaimed.

"I'm not going to be you;re liquor buddy haymitch" i told him, before gesturing for my next. "Ive never been a fan"

"So what changed?" he fired back,and i hesitated before leaning in lightly.

"Everything" And haymitch nodded seriously. The woman joined me at the bar to my right.

"Oh Katniss lass, Robbert deserved every trickle of blood there. So quick you where!" her eyes were bright, and amazed.

"Thanks...uh..."i stuttered. do i recall her name?..

"Rosemary"

"ROSEMARY" haymitch chuckled loudly "Dont look like one of those"

"You're not kidding there" she cackled "Stupid old bat called me a pansy name. Idiot she was" Rosemary shook her head. before taking great gulps from her yellow foam liqour. She was almost catching up to haymitch. Almost.

"Its almost nightfall Katniss" Tibith informed me, wiping down his bar. "And its a long walk, Shouldn't you be heading?"

"I'll run" my mouth curved, before it dropped. my bow. I've not ran with my bow since...The Quater Quell. And then it was in the dark, Would this trigger an episode.

"Haymitch" i whispered,wide eyed. looking to my bow. he smacked his lips before looking me in the eye.

"Ill take it home, drop it off when im back. You go, my knife" he slipped me his best knife, The one Beetee made in 13 especially for him. I nodded, and held it tightly. i nodded goodbye to Rosemary.

and i set off, just as the sun was setting down.

I started into a light jog, feeling the way my joints protested after the hours sitting. But light was thinning, and the clouds darking. i paced myself into a run. Before night hit. and my heart was hammering. I'm sure. I'm SURE there was something chasing me, something behind me.

I ran faster.

i felt the heat from the thing behind me, heard it's heavy breathing, its loud footsteps. closing in, ready to kill me. Skin me alive on live projection and screen, to my family at home. To win the games. To make me break my promise to prim..

I threw the door open, and launched myself inside, skidding along the floor, as i scrambled to kick the door shut. i then proceeded to lay on my back, and drag breaths through my lungs.

"Katniss?!" Peeta exclaimed kneeling down "Oh Katniss" he hugged my head "I was so worried!, i thought the worst. but here you are!, all well..and..Where's you;re bow?"

"Haymitch" i rasped. "Tavern"

"Is THAT where you've been?" he frowned disappointingly. he sniffed my mouth "i Can smell the stuff on you. Don't hang out there too often Katniss. Rough...newcomers"

my eyes narrowed slightly and i got to my feet "Actually, the only ones who accepted me today were people from around there" and i kicked my boots off, threw the knife on the table, and made the slow clammer upstairs.

"Accepted? What? Katniss come back! what happened?! Katniss speak to me!" i ignored him, and threw myself into bed.

i let a few tears escape before the nightmares engulfed me.

A/N' Im so sorry for not writing recently!, god im awful, Please forgive me! ill try update ASAP. But been a busy little bee!, Anyway remember to review and favourite! xo