Jasper's POV

I felt Isabella's fear, anger, and worry from the invisible room Aro took her to, Peter finished off the last guard, snapping his neck like a twig.

"Where is she?" Peter growled lowly. I scanned the room, looking for a button, a door, ANYTHING. But nothing appeared. I walked over to Peter as my frustration grew, i tried calming Isabella, but her shield was up, so all I could do was feel. I kept my thoughts trained on aro, feeling his every feeling. Then it stopped. Isabella's emotions cut off from me, and Aro was full of glee and satisfaction.

"NO!" I roared, hitting at the walls, willing them to crumble. No no no. this couldn't happen. Not now, please.

"What, WHAT IS IT?" Peter cried, grasping my upper shoulders as I began to sob.

"shes dead! Shes GONE!" I screamed at him, as I fell to the floor "HER EMOTIONS ARE GONE!, SHES DEAD PETER!" I sobbed into my hands like a young child, not caring about my appearance, I crushed my eyes shut, willing for the tears to run down my face. I yearned to feel her, to hear her, to hold her..But she was gone. My body went limp against the stone wall as I re thought every memory that I had of Isabella Marie Swan. From the moment I met her, those blissful weeks we had together. My mind was in over drive.

-flashback-

I was outside, fooling round with Emmett, the goof. He tried to beat me at wrestling, again. Idiot. Then I smelt her. Isabella. Emmett took that opportunity to pin me on my back as she danced over giggling. I shot up and instantly smiled at her, fixing my shirt. Her eyes went down, and I felt the nervousness, the love, and the glee in her emotions. My smile was soon a beam.

"Hey Issa, Whaddyah want? As you see this is a male sport" he kissed his muscle and I chuckled and shoved him

"Male sport, and im the only male" I laughed at his pout.

"You wanna repeat that jazzypants?" Emmett taunted, coming closer in a jokey manner.

And before I could say anything, that little rascal beat me to it.

"Emmy bear, he is only stating fact, he is the only guy here" Isabella giggled in her musical voice. Emmett turned round shock faced.

"Is that a challenge issa"?

"You bet your sweet ass it is!" she laughed as Emmett circles her, I stood to the side, watching her glide, move, twist and swirl, almost like a mesmerising dance. She pinned Emmett on his back at least 5 times, and he still wouldn't give up.

"Face it em, she's tougher than you" I called out, but he didn't hear any of it. I sensed Isabella was getting bored, so there was no surprise when she danced behind me giggling.

"Help Jas!, hes going to eat me!" she squeeled!.

I winked at Emmett, who stood still a few metres back, and reached behind me, grasping her waist and pulling her infront of me, she stood confused, before I turned my hands into little claws and started tickling her sides and neck, she roared with laughter, pleads and giggles, but I didnt give up until she was on the floor. Then, I bent over her, and whispered

"I win"

-flashback over-

"Jasper, we need to tell-" Peter gulped his sobsdown "we need to tell the others"

"No" I whispered hoarsely, "not until I see her body, not until I say goodbye"

"Jazz.."

"No peter, this is my mate, I need to.."

-flashback-

I was in my private library, reading one of the many civil war books that I owned. Isabella slowly walked in, with her favourite book, pride and prejudice. I smirked as she took the seat next to me.

"What you reading?" she asked in her bell-like voice.

"A book" I replied cockily, tilting my head "yourself?"

"Oh..you know..a book" she smirked right back at me, her eyes with child-like character. I chuckled as I continued on reading.

"Why civil war?" she asked after a few moments silece, or it may have been hours, I could sit here with her all day. I grimaced as she expected an answer.

"My past" I told her honestly "was right in the middle of the civil war"

"Where you a soldier"? she asked me, all jokey-ness gone.

"A Major" I cleared my throat "would you like to hear me past Isabella?, it has no happy ending"

"Of course jasper, I love hearing anything you have to say" she told me, snuggling into my side.

So I told her, from my childhood to joining the army, the letters I sent back home, the soldiers messing around, quickly moving up the ranks, Becoming a major. She beamed at me throughout this whole period..but then I got into maria.

"And she pulled me slightly forward, biting into my neck. The transformation was the worst three days of my existence. She gagged me, and tied me up as I begged for death, my human existence dying, minute by minute. I awoke and my neck was in flares, she pointed me in the direction of a nearby town and told me to drink as much as I wanted. So I did. I slaughtered innocent men and women for years, but never children. Even if I was dying of thirst, I would never harm a child. I think it was the human memories of my younger sister. Throughout the years maria won territory over territory, and simply because she had me. I was taught how to use my gift to inflict pain, fear, and gut-retching grief. We never lost, a gifted vampire was rare in the south, and I won a reputation. I was the strongest, the fearless one. Everyone was terrified of me,I never lost a fight. thats why I have so many scars.. I thought maria loved me, I was following my path of my creator, the one who swore to keep me safe, and happy. But every time I was dispatched to kill another young newborn after their 'sell-by-date' it killed me inside as I kept the stoney façade. Their emotions of death filled me up, and it chipped me everytime. Soon I was sick of the killing, sick of the hunger, sick of living. I tried numberous ways to kill myself, but everytime it never worked. Starvation led to slaughterhouses, Drowning meant I came back up hours later, stone crumbled beneath my fingertips, nothing went through my skin. It was as bad, that I asked a new born and his new found mate to end me. Silently in the woods. They refused, and that's when I learnt their names. Peter and Charlotte. They slowly helped me through the grief, but it wasn't enough, when their year had came, and I was sent to end their lifes, I sent them on their way, I couldn't kill the only friends, family I had ever known. They were created by ME, not HER. They promised to come back for myself. And hey kept their promise. With a few new friends, they managed to smuggle me out a week later, and ever since then, maria has been searching for me still. I layed low with them for a while, but I craved company. They were lovey-dovey, and as much as I loved them, I left them. And went off on my own, away from the humans. I refused to hunt, the killing was agony. That's where I found alice, in a deserted diner. She promised a better life, and I felt hope. I met the cullens, and for a while, they believed me and alice were a copal. But that was never the case. Her and Edward clicked, and it was like peter and charlotte all over again. Their love was smothering, and their emotions..were..different and confusing. I made mistakes over the years, and fell into depression. Until you came along, you've kept me sane ever since" I beamed at her, but only noticed she was sobbing into myside.

"whats the matter Isabella?" I whispered, horror washing over me..she thinks im monster

"Oh Jasper!" she flung herself onto my lap sobbing "im so sorry all this has ever happened!, you don't deserve this, that, ANYTHING. Anything but happiness!. Oh please forgive me for ever asking, im so so sorry!" she hiccupped her sobs and pleas out and I was baffled.

"Isabella..its not your fault, this happened years and years ago, before we even knew eachother existed, its my past, not future. Shh" I pulled her in closer as she quietened down, and we sat like that, for the rest of the night, almost, but not sleeping.

-end of flashback-

I cried and screamed, as the memories over washed me. I remembered every detail of her, every breath she took, every eye movement, everything. And yet, a part of me wouldn't accept she was gone..even if I did see her..body..it would still yern for her.

My anger was getting greated, as I heaved with sobs.

"ARO YOU FUCKING BASTARD, COME OUT SO I CAN RIP YOUR FUCKING HEAD OFF!" I seathed in this..throne room. Aro's humour increased, before his emotions suddenly switched to fear, before turning off all together.

"Aro's emotions are gone too..something must be in their with them!" I hissed at peter.

"Jasper.."Peter whispered to my left

"what," I looked up and peter was standing beside an open doorway, his mouth open.

"I just.."he waved at the wall.

"NO TIME!, find Isabella!" and we walked through the small room.

"do whatever you did before peter" I told him, at the wall of this tiny room, that barely fitted us both, he waved at the wall twice and a doorway began to open, slowly. And then a mouth watering smell hit me.

Blood.

Aro;s pov

I dragged the knife slowly across this mans throat, and I was suddenly airborn, flung to the side. I watched as Isabella breathed heavily in, before her lip rose over her teeth, and pierces the mans throat, grasping him close to her body, small moans emitting from her body. My Princess of darkness has awoken!, she licked every drop from his body, before throwing his body against the corner of the room, bones crashed and crunched as he hit the floor. Her ruby eyes snapped towards mine, and my happiness grew. I stood quickly and she growled in warning.

"More?" I asked, waving towards the other humans, she growled me away, before dipping into the other human's fresh blood, her eyes closed everytime. NOW she looked more like a vampire, quicker, darker shadows, more pronoun cheekbones, toner muscles..it was like the transformation all over again. Blood squirted everywhere, as she carelessly ripped human, after human over, not feeding for hunger, but lasting in the afterglow of her first feed, She drank and drank and drank, until all my humans were high and dry. Dead as a desert sand.

"Come, my princess, we have many a work to do" I told her, my hand out. She hissed at me, and crouched low.

"You do not order me, more" she hissed , and I took the mistake of rolling my eyes, she had me pinned by the neck at the other side of the room in less than a second

"More" she told me, her eyes piercing mine.

"yes yes, I understand, but after the work you must do, we shall have another..feast" I wrinkled my nose at the mess.

She giggled this creepy, childlike laugh that made my venom freeze, and me to tremble.

"You do not understand" she purred "not more blood, more death" and then, she grabbed my neck, and it went black.

Isabella's POV

The haze lifted and I was instantly confused. What where why..i looked around and I froze in terror, what happened?!, aro was dead at my feed, human bodies littered the room, it was stenched in blood, it ran everywhere..what..

I looked down at my red hands, and fell backwards, crawling away, from I don't know what, myself?. No, please no. I found myself looking into a broken shard of mirror and then the horror hit me.

Ruby red eyes.

I sat in the corner of the room, sobbing. I killed..too many to count..i killed..ARO. I drank, I slaughtered, I killed. I killed the innocent.

The walls began to move, and my guilt and anguish increased. I heard the intake of breath from two males and I sobbed into my hands.

"KILL ME! PLEASE!" I screamed at them, and there was no response. I peaked through my hands, and my worst fear came true.

Jasper and peter stood in front of me, gob smacked.

"Issa.."Peter gulped.

"Isabella" Jasper whispered, crouching down to eye level. I closed my eyes as tears formed.

"please, don't look at me..i..dont deserve it. I slaughtered..tens of people, HUNDREDS of people..oh god..and aro?..im a monster!" I threw my hands up in the air. Sobs making my body vibrate. Jasper silently pulled me onto his lap and hugged into me, his eyes closed. He breathed deeply through his nose, and his body..curled..around mine.

"W-What are you doing…jasper, I just slaughtered humans!, I killed the innocent!, HOW can you still love me?" I sobbed into his shirt.

"I never stopped loving you Isabella, even when I thought you were dead, all those days of hunting for you, my heart and body acked for you. Your my mate, and I love you. Even if you were not my mate, I still would love you. We all slip up, even the best of us, you were forced, I will never hold that against you, remember my past?" he soothed

"yes" I whispered, memories clouding my vision

"that's how I felt with maria, come, its okay.." he lifted me bridal style and through the number of rooms, into the throne room. I gazed at all the dead bodies.

"don't look" jasper breathed, as he carried me out the castle, with peter behind us, I peaked over jaspers shoulder at peter, who gave me a watery smile.

"lets go home issa"

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