Chapter 10 I'm Sorry What?

Jake POV

I was laying in my bed when rolled over to the sound of yelling downstairs, I thought maybe mom had finally flipped out on Paul for the way that he was had been acting but when I had rolled over to look at my door that was open there was Paul walking pass my room into his. I let a sigh how was he not in trouble I am so tired of him being able to do whatever he wants. I got out of bed throwing my feet over the side of my bed. Just sitting there slumped for a second. I had never felt so groggy in my life. I didn't know that Bella could get that wild in bed. I smiled wide as I looked out of my glass window to see that bitch off in the distance. I thought about going for a walk, but I need to talk to Paul. If we going to lie to mom, then there was going to be some ground rule.

I picked up the clothes off to the floor and grabbed the first clean pair of shorts I could find in my room. Any other time it would have been tidy but when I and Bella got in the room became a Thunderdome. As I walked to my door, all I could think about was there a different spot of the flower that we fucked on. I shook my head and walked into the hallway. Listen to my mother who was pacing back and forth in the living room, she was speaking in Quileute, which she only does when she doesn't want me to know what she was talking about. I spoke it but not as well as Paul and Sam. Just another thing that Paul made fun of me for.

I shook my head as I continued to walk down the hallway, I passed Sam's room he had the second largest room in the house. Which I guess made sense since he was the oldest, but it was also meant that he wasn't here how long was I sleeping for. I sighed and looked at the wall next to the Sams door. There was a picture of me, dad and mom on the football field with my brother. They had just helped the team with Nationals for the first time in 20 years. I sighed and shook head I missed that, but dad's dead and when he died things got a lot tenser. I made it all the way down the hallway till I made it to a door that had caution tape on it.

The bright yellow stripe was crossed over the black door in the shape of an "X", on the tape said, "Do Not Enter Unless You Want To DIE" Why was die the only one that was fully capitalized, I don't know maybe it was a typo when he orders it. Or he could have wanted it like that my brother is a bit of an idiot. I thought about knocking, but I curled my hand around the golden nob and felt a shudder go down my spine as I flung the door open. "Please let him not be jerking off." I pushed the door open further, to see that Paul was laying on his bed which was made. Contrary to popular belief, Paul's room was really clean but none of us knew because we weren't allowed in his room. Not even mom and he was a totals mommas boy.

He was looking at something on his laptop screen for a moment before he let out a sigh and looked up to see me standing at the door away. He shook his head slowly and when I met his gaze I could see this storm brewing his hazel gaze. Something that told me he wasn't in the mood to talk but I don't care. He began a dick and someone needed to say something. "Sorry" He let a long sigh exhale from his lips, so I thought that maybe I didn't hear him right.

I looked at him as I stood in confusion but I could see his eyes rolling as his lips moved to speak again. "Don't just stand there your idiot close the door." I was even more confused because he called me an idiot but there was no virulence behind his shook his head sadly and stood up closing the door before pulling me into the room and placing me gently in his desk chair. The desk was organized, he had all his textbooks neatly placed on the tops shelf above his desk. His lamp was off and there was a little speaker for his phone right next to it. "How did you afforded this stuff because mom didn't buy it."

I looked at Paul as he let out another huff of air before laying on his bed, "I got a summer job, duh didn't you think it was weird when I magically got enough money to buy a motorcycle that mom can't take away from me." I never thought about it that way, I would help but gawk at Paul's room I had never been in it before. I looked at the posters of Metallic on his wall and the original poster of the classic monster movie. There was Frankenstein, the Wolfman, the swamp thing, the monster from the blue lagoon. He even had Dracula. His flat screen was hung up on the wall which was also known. What kind of summer job was it?

"Construction. A girl I sleep around with, her dad owns a construction business, he gave me a job for the summer. If I wasn't at practice I was there. Now why did you want to talk about, I was planning on going to bed after mom yelled at me."

I could hear the exhaustion laced in his words as he looked at me, this soft light coming from his eyes. "What's up with you. First, you apologize then you let me walk into your room with our being yells at. Even your insults are nicer, there no anger in them" I wonder if maybe Paul was going soft what did he do that was that bad he started being nice. He grumbled at me "After talking to Sam and running into my dick of a dad I realized that I had no right to act the way I have been lately. So tomorrow at school I'm going to apologize to Bella and start to lay off you Jake. I'm grounded anyway so leaving the house isn't really an option for me, so you might as well start hanging out at her house. Considering that she hates me." I hear the pain in that last part like he couldn't think of anyone that could possibly hate him. "Oh…." It was the only word that I could see, no other wounds really came to mind. "Anyway, like I said I'm sorry for being a dick to you."

Before I could say a word Paul's door was opened after there was a sound of a light knock, it was mom, she looked at me stunned for a moment before looking at Paul this angry light in her eyes. "Your father wants to talk to you." I watched this fear form in his eyes as he shudders and started to shake. He gulped down a large amount of saliva as I watched mom walked over to his bed and handed him the phone. "Hello?" I couldn't hear the other end of the phone, but I could tell that it wasn't grew angry and then separate all in one shot as he hears something that he didn't like. "You have no right." I looked at mom who was looking for something. I let out a sigh as she ran a hand throws my hair and I let out a light purr. "Sweaty what are you doing in your brother's room. You know how he feels about uninvited guest." I looked at her and then at Paul who as seething. "I paid for it you can't do…" He let out a low growl "Yes sir" I watched him snarl as he gave up on even talking to the man. He took the phone away from his ear and mom glared at him till he put it back to his face. "Yeah but Sam…fine whatever."

I could hear this aggravation in his voice that softened when he looked at me, "Yeah, fine, I already did." A large form started to frown on his face as he handed mom the phone. "He hung up he says you guys can finish your conversation in person tomorrow when he comes over" I looked at mom who sighed heavily and shook her head. I didn't know much about my ex-stepfather hell I want even born when they were married and even when they got divorced it was before I was even thought of. "So, what did he say."

I looked at my mom who was still carrying her hand through my light brown hair. "No bike, no parties, no girls, no leaving my room unless for school and practice. He said that if I hadn't already made a commitment to the team he would have me pulled. Then he said to apologize for being a dick to Sam and Jake, but I already did. You can't take the bike I paid for it." I hear mom let out a scoff as she gently kissed the top of my head. "Of course I can, now where is your key and while you are at it, why don't you boys tell me what is going on." I looked at Paul who getting out of out his bed and walked over to the desk. I thought that he was going to punch me like he usually does when he is mad at me. But he simply pulled the drawer of his desk.

The tan woods smelled of furnishes polish as he pulled out a lanyard of key and fiddle with the key ring. He had so many keys I don't know that we had so many locks. "What are all the keys for." I looked up at him innocently making sure to keep my voice was calm, just in case he got mad and started to yell at me again. "Ones for my locker at the school, one for the back door of the house, one for the front and one for the side. Then my bike keys which are being taken, and one for the equipment shed at the school. Everyone on the team has one even Sam."

As he finished off his explain he handed mom the keys and let out a small whimper and he realized his only ticket to freedom was gone. He crawled back into his bed while mom looked from him to me. But he didn't look at her he was staring intently at something on his screen. Maybe a movie. "You want me to take that one to." I looked at mom as Paul let out a sigh. "I was just telling Jake that I am sorry for the way that I have been acting and that I am going to apologize to Bella tomorrow."

His voice was exhausted like he didn't feel like having this conversation again for the second time, my mother, on the other hand, didn't seem like she cared for his tone. "You don't like Jake in your room so care to try and answer again. Maybe this time the truth." Paul let out a tired sigh as he walked over to his closet and grabbed a pair of striped balk pajama pants and a black tank. Before throwing them on the bed and looking at me for help.

"Mom it's true I really did come in here to yell at him for being so mean to Bella. But I kind of got confused when he didn't yell at me to get out of his room." I looked at her and she nodded her head running a hand through my hair before sighing. "Albright dear. Paul bed, you to Jake you have an early morning, the boys have an early practice and I can't drive you to school because of work, so you are going to have to go with them." I nodded my head and watched her walk out of the room before Paul collapse on the bed. "Worst day ever. Jake could you go now please." I nodded my head and walked out, I would have said something but I was too stunned to speak. He even said please and that wasn't like him, what really happen.

As I walked out into the hallway when I heard my stomach rumble, I shook my head Bella really did wear me out. I walked down the hallway trying not to make a sound when I made it to the kitchen. There was a figure looming over the stove. At first, I thought that it was mom and I was going to sneak back up the stairs but when I looked it was just Sammy. I smiled before walking into the kitchen as he watched me for a minute.

I didn't make eyes contact with him I just went over to the fridge and grabbed and yogurt before looking at him as I search for a spoon in the messy draws. "Where were you? You missed mom getting into a yelling match with your dad. Then Paul getting into a yelling match with your dad and he even apologizes to me and let me come into his room." As I was speaking IN dug deep into the silverware drawer. But I found the spoon just as I tried to watch Sam cooking a steak as he looks at me stunned. I mean he couldn't even form words. "I'm gone for like 20 minutes and I missed that much." I stifled a laugh as he shook his head sadly.

"You hungry I can make you one." I shook my head and sat on the countertop and ate yogurt as I watched him cook. "Sam?" I looked up at him, my voice sounded small and this worried frown started to form on his face. "What wrong Jakey." I looked away for a moment feeding it too hard to meet his worry and cold gaze. "Paul said that he saw his dad and realized he didn't have the right to be a dick. The waist is the story there when ever I mention him you, mom, and Paul all tense up and look away like it is too painful to talk about. I get that he didn't treat mom the way she should be but still it couldn't have been that bad right?"

I looked at my big brother there was this sadness in his eyes as he turned off the stove before throwing his steak on a plate. "Jakey it's not that simple. He treated mom like a queen, it was me and Paul he treated like man was cruel and that is the nicest way to put it." I looked at Sam who was shuddering at the mere thought of his father. "What I tell you, you never tell anyone." I looked at him a nodded my head as he took the seat next to me.

Every time that he cut his steak it almost looked like he was hoping that it was his father, the aroma of the streak filled my nose and it made me wish that I agreed to let Sam cook me a steak. When he cut the meat, it was still a little raw I don't know how or why he would it his meat, medium rare, it was too chewy for me. "When I was 4 and Paul was 3 moms started to work night shifts at the hospital and dad was a firefighter, so he works moorings. It was the perfect schedule till he lost his temper one night.

I don't know why it set him off. But Paul couldn't sleep without this little-stuffed wolf mom gave him for his birthday. It pisted dad off, he said we are Uleys and Uley's don't sleep with stupid little stuff wolves. We are wolves. I don't even know was that meant. He bought too much into the legends. He took the stuffed wolf and those it in a closet locking it. But Paul being Paul was pig-headed and found a way into the closet and took the wolf found out and beat the crap out of him."

His voice falters as he started to cut another chunk of his steak before popping it into his mouth and swallowing. He didn't even bother to swallow and as I looked into his eyes I knew that at that moment he was close to breaking. His big brown eyes were filled in sadness and grief."I came running down the stairs and tried to stop him, but a 4-year-old angst a 26-year-old man didn't work out in my that, he didn't stop whenever he got pissed he just went for it. Mom never found out we didn't have the heart to tell her.

Dad made her happy even if he hated us. We couldn't do that to her, that was up until 4 years ago. You might not remember it was before Billy ended up in the wheelchair?" I thought about it and he was right 4 years ago dad and Paul were both in the hospital. "Sam what are you saying." My voice started to shake I couldn't trust myself to say a word. "4 years ago, Paul flunked some super important test and we were spending the weekend with our dad. The school called, and he flipped out. After that, the beating was so serviced that he put Paul into a comma for a few days. Billy found out and went after dad only problem was that dad put him in that wheelchair. The guy is dangerous and he was a wild temper that couldn't control. The same temper me and Paul have which is who we do football to keep it in check."

I never thought about it, I always thought hate it was strange that Paul and Sam would come home with bruises that they calmed were from football, but mom never believed them. I watched Sam stand up and placed his empty plate in the sink. "Sammy…" I looked down at my hands I don't even know what to say. I just bought up a lot of uncomfortable and probably traumatizing memories and I felt bad.

"I'm not as sensitive about it as Paul is so don't worry about it, Jake. Just don't bring it up to him, I'm sure he knows that I told you but just don't bring it unless he talks about it first. Okay?" I look at him and nodded my head before he sighed "Alright come one we should head to bed. "I watched him walk up the stairs forcing me to follow after him, I didn't even know what to think at this point. So I walked into my room and collapsed on my bed.

I woke up to the sound of shaping beeping as I looked at my alarm clock it said 6 am, dammit who set this alarm. "You up dear I have to go but I wanted to make sure that you didn't sleep in." I looked at my mother who was smiling polarity at me. "Why can't I just have missed today." She let out a light chuckle. "Today is Wednesday and the boys have a big game in 2 days, so it is going to be early practice like this until then and I have the morning shifts all this week. So that I can make to the game on Friday night so you have to wake up early. Sorry sweetheart." I nod my head and rolled out of the bed and down the hall to the bathroom. I had to piss like a racehorse if you know what I mean. I opened the door to see that Paul was brushing his teeth and washing his face when I walked in.

I could tell that he was looking at me in the mirror, but he didn't say a word he just finishes what he was doing and walk out of the bathroom. Quite Paul was strange, I don't like it. I shook my head and watched him disappear down the hallway before closing the bathroom door and getting ready. By the time that I walked down the stairs, mom was gone and Paul was sitting on the counter top drinking his steaming hot coffee while Sam made eggs.

I didn't even know that Sam knew how to cook. He made enough eggs for an army, but I only saw three plates. "Do you always cook this much before a practice." I looked at Sam with a slight smile graced his lips. "Yup carbo-loading kid it's not just a myth." I let out a small laugh as he passes me a plate and left on on the counter for Paul. Who hadn't move he was sipping his could see the white smoke coming up from the cup and hitting him right in the face. But he didn't seem phased by the heat. "You're going to eat." I looked at Sam as he had this frown on his face. "Eat Paul." His voice blocked no arrangement it was cold and commanding and something in same snapped as he looks at Paul. Paul snarled under his breath but grabbed the plate and scarfed it down. For someone that refused to eat he sure was hungry.

Sometimes he could vex me like no one else when they both finished eating they looked at m. I guess they figured that I wasn't going to finish my food which they were right this was too much for me. I passed them the plate and they split it before Sam grabbed his bag and sling it over his shoulder before throwing the pot into the sink to soak. "Alright mom gets out of work at 3 and schools over at two but we have practice until 5 so you re going to have to wait for her to get out of work. She doesn't like Bella driving you home. She had a heart attack when she called me to practice the other day. Sorry kid."

I late out a growl what the hell was I wrong with me catching rides home from school. But Paul could go out to eat with radon girl a then bring her home a bang. But I kept having to wait for none of them to drive me home. I snarled as I made my way out of the house walking out the back seat. There was no point in sitting in the front it wasn't worth the trouble.

The ride to school was quite Paul was staring blankly out of the window and Sam was looking at black asphalt that was slipping under the car as he picked up his speed. It was awkward usually Sam talks to Paul about the game that was on last night. Or their next play they would be doing for practice. Or they were talking about a party that they were going to go to, sometimes they even talked about their homework. But not today and it didn't feel right.

That was when there was a ringing sound in Sam's pocket. But it was in his back pocket "Paul" Paul grunted, Sam didn't even need to ask a question Paul just knew he wanted his phone. He answers it and then hit speaker. "Sam you there?" I knew the voice, ii was Emily. "Yeah, babe and you are on speakerphone careful what you say." I hear her growl al little bit like she wished he has taken her off. "Sorry but I'm driving" I shook my head and looked out of the window. "I'm coming down to see your game on Friday." She sounded so excited, but Sam just let out this groan as Paul stayed quite, usually he made a joke about Leah, but not this time. I don't like new started to make me feel bad thus was on me why he didn't talk to the rest of the family.

"Paul are you mad at me." I knew that my voice sounded small and childish but I also didn't think that he would hear me. But he proves me wrong by turning around this confused look written all over his face as our gazes met. It made me uncomfortable so I looked down at my lap were my hand were resting. "Why would I be made to you Jake." I looked at him even more sure that I was the reason he was acting so stored there wasn't a single insult in his whole since.I felt a frown form on my face as he shook his head sadly "Jake I'm not mad at you, I'm just too tired to speak okay?"

I looked at him and nod my head, but I knew that something had to happen last night. "What is that all about. Hi Jakey." I smiled"Hi Em" She giggled at the name and then I heard her voice become less cheery. "Paul" I heard Paul let out a huff of air not staying a word to her. "Okay Jake as right there is something going on, I should be down on the rez by 3." I think this time that I heard Sam let out a whimper. "We have practice, so we won't be there sorry." I looked out the window the school that was within distance. "No biggie I wanted to come see you anyway. Bye babe, love you." Sam smile at that "Love you too."

When Sam let out a low growl I watched Paul put the phone back in his bag "She can't come down, Leak is coming to the game Friday night with Bells." I looked at Sam why was he calling her Bells that was my thing. "How does she know Leah and how do you know that she is going with Leah." I knew my voice sound accusatory because Paul let out a dry laugh. "Bella told me when I drove her home last night, she said that she met a girl by the name of Leah when she was on the beach and invited her to the game after they got to know each other. The only problem is that there's only one girl lay the name of Leah on the rez and she is my ex and my current girl's cousin. Both of which are going to be at the game. Life sucks."

Paul responds with a nod of his head as Sam pulled the car to stop and hopped out. His body was rake with tension as Paul jumped out with both of their bags in his hands. "Jake you come with us practice for the hour." I nodded my head there wasn't anything else to do. "Sure" I walked with them out of the car and to the stadium. While they went to change I stared at the rising sun.

When I look back down the whistle was blowing and they were standing to trace, the couch was talking to Paul who nodded his head and then ran off onto the field. When I looked over at the track there was the cheerleading. Jessica was there she waved to me and I waved back but I knew she was one of that girl that was only friend with you till she got what she wanted. I shook my hand and watched the footballer run drills repeatedly.

Paul was talking people down right and left, some of them didn't even get back up. You would have thought that the couch would be angry with Paul. Who could have been possibly injuring his own teammate? But he was cheering him on. I shook me each when I felt something vibrate in my pocket. When I pull out my phone there was Belle's name on my phone. I smiled to myself before checking on the message. "I had to head to school a little early you here?" Looks like this morning got a little bit better. "Yup the bleaches meet me?"

I felt this stupid grin start to form on my face as she texted back be right there. I smiled and felt the sun on my back as the birds chirped happily. When I turned to my left there was Bella walking over to me. I shook my head and watched her face light up with a smile as she sat next to me kissing me on the check. "How did you sleep." She let out a girlish giggle as she looked at me, I shook my heads say, "You wore me out, but I sleep well." I looked at her as she straddles me a trying kissed from my neck to my lips while flipping her hair to one side. So that it wants in her face.

"Good, thought I might have broken you." I laughed and kissed her again for a few minutes before the whistle went off. I thought that it was for the players but as I looked passed her shower to see half the team watching us."Bells" She smiled and turned to see them, all of them were watching except for the opposite team's running back, he was chasing after Sam. But Paul sacked him so hard everyone turned their heads to see it. "Damn!" I looked at Bella as she turned back to locate me this wild grin on her as she kissed me again before getting off my lap. "He hit him a little too hard don't you think." I looked at her and agree there was something off about him.

After the bell rung the team started to take their showers and get ready for class when I slowly started the descend the bleachers with Bella. When I look at Paul he was standing there this frown on his face like he didn't like what he had to do next. He looked at Bella and then at me, his frown slowly turned into a nervous smile as we finally made it to the bottom of the bleachers. Bella glare at him as she rolled her eye and folded her arms over her chest like she was so very him and his bull. "Isabella, I just wanted to say that I am sorry for the way that I have been acting and you don't have to worry about me bugging you or being a dick ever again." Then he just walked away just like that.