Bella's POV;

"You would take blood here" he pointed "and here"

I nodded thoughtfully as Carlisle showed me, lightly pressing down on the humans skin. We were currently at forks hospital, Him teaching me the basics of medical care as he has been doing the past few months. The first day was terrible, Jasper had to come and sort through my pitiful emotions after I saw a young woman die of cancer. I was in floods of tears, cursing god and all..but I was soon distracted, and since then have built my tolerance.

"I don't think i caught you're name" The human spoke in a gruff voice, clearly his air valves had been around too much fumes in his lifetime…great, now im sounding like freaking Carlisle!

"Isabella Whitlock" I beamed at him, looking up from his result chart. He seemed momentarily 'dazzled' before he shook his head clear.

"Whitlock?, you look like one of 'dem" he thrust his thumb in the direction of Carlisle, who was tending to a patient nearby.

bI laughed lightly "Sorry to disappoint, but I AM one of them"

He thought for a second, before propping himself up on his elbows and looking at me thoughtfully "You dating that Jasper guy? The real quiet one?"

"Married" I laughed "and I wish he was quiet, all he does is fight with my brother"

"Brother?...His son, what's his name…Edward?" he seemed real interested, and he wasn't going to waver anytime soon.

"Emmett" I corrected "My blood related brother" I paused before looking down "and your tests are clear, you're free to go"

"Thank god" he mumbled, before sliding off the bed "Place was starting to freak me out, all screaming kids and stuff" he replaced his hospital shirt with his own, and put his jacket on "will I see you again"?

"Unless you get admitted again, its unlikely. I'm…what's the term…anti social" he chuckled before retrieving his belongings, slinging them over his back, and walking past me.

"Goodbye Isabella!" he called, before leaving out of sight. Carlisle was suddenly next to me.

"New friend?" he grinned, swapping the chart that was in my hand, for the one he had. "Mrs Lawson, Bed 16"

Ugh. Patricia Lawson, 87 year old, and bat crazy. She was admitted two weeks ago, and she hates me guts. Which amuses Carlisle to no end. I try be nice, honestly, but she hates me.

I sighed deeply, before waltzing over to the sour old ladies bedside.

"Not you" she croaked as I came into her sights. Her wrinkled up face frowned, and her beady eyes turned beadier "I want someone else"

"Mrs Lawson, I believe you are scheduled in for a MRI at half three this afternoon" I ignored her gaze, and ignored her pitiful request.

"You don't belong in his family, you're a flaw to their perfection" she croaked louder, licking her chapt lips. My eyes narrowed slightly.

"I also see you haven't been taking you're daily doses, either you take them, or we feed you them through a tube" I forced out.

"I 'aint taking no pills that you provide" she childishly crossed her arms "You might kill me. That's your plan innit?, to get me out?" her eyes narrowed into slits "I aint going no where, not till your long gone"

I almost laughed then. She seemed to think I'd die off before her. Which was hilarious, me being immortal and all. But I kept my calm face on.

"Mrs Lawson, I recommend you to be ready for half three" I spun on my heel, and started walking in the opposite direction.

"Freaks…The lot of you!" she yelled after me, before coughing her guts up. I smirked slightly, before I felt immensely guilty. No, I don't even wish injury on old Mrs Lawson.

"Fun and games?" Carlisle was suddenly once again at my side, and I glared playfully.

"You threw me under the bus" I pouted "you know she hates me"

"True true," he smirked, taking my board, "but she hates us all"

"Batty crow" I whispered under my breath and Carlisle gave me a disapproved look.

"Carlisle Cullen, Just the man I wanted to see" Lizzie Hynd came into view, from behind her long front desk.

She was a chubby woman, weighing 17 stone, and acting like a young teenager. Wearing mini skirts and small shirts that the buttons almost burst on. I mean honestly, you're in a hospital!. She didn't think much of me, but I could clearly see jealousy on her face. Not that I wanted her to be jealous, Just the fact that she acted like a child. She was stuck on Carlisle though, casting him flirty looks, sending him disgusting notes, slipping her phone number to him. It made Carlisle uncomfortable, and it was hilarious to watch. He could pin me for Mrs Lawson all he wants, But he knows I have him tied with Lizzie.

"Hello Lizzie" Carlisle greeted friendly. I let out a small chuckle, only for us to hear and he glared at me quickly.

"Betsy Mcmillan is having a birthday party in the office" she checked Carlisle up and down before continuing "You just HAVE to come!" she grabbed his hands and started to pull, towards the lounge.

"You too Isabella" she called, not bothered in the slightest to add any friendliness, before returning back to stroking Carlisle's arm. I followed, laying our boards on her upcoming desk, before retiring to the lounge.

I arrived in the middle of happy birthday, with Carlisle in the grasp of lizzie. The humans cut their cake, and started handing it out, in which Carlisle refused, saying he had eaten earlier, taking my excuse. I stared to refuse, but one of the other nurses thrust it into my hands.

"Honestly im already stuffed" I pleaded, in which, they sniggered and some tutted

"You Career mom's!" Camilla laughed "Always on your feet!, no time for yourselfs"

I blinked through the red haze that was forming, and my stance hardened.

"Actually I cant have children" I replied in a monotone, putting my cake onto the table "Now if you would excuse me…" I headed for the door

"Maybe because she's anorexic" Rose whispered into Camilla's ear, and they giggled together.

I opened the door, and looked over my shoulder. My eyes dark.

"Oh, and im not anorexic" and I slammed the door behind me, stiffly walking down the hall.

"Been kicked out have you?" Mrs Lawson sat smugly, watching me walk. I cast her a dirty look before snapping back.

"Shut up you bat" I hissed, swiftly walking past. I heard the rush of footsteps behind me, but I kept walking.

"That daughter of yours is a disgrace!, I should have her reported!" She hissed to Carlisle.

"I'm sorry mrs Lawson, but.." I heard him gesture towards me, before rushing after me, as I walked out the doors, and in to the pouring rain. He of course, followed me.

"Im so sorry" he whispered from behind me, he tried to lay a hand on my shoulder, but I shrugged it off.

"Don't care" I shrugged, but my face showed a different emotion. Longing.

"What they did was un explainable" he continued

"I just want to go" and as the words left my mouth, a Volvo came speeding round the corner, water droplets flying in the air. The door opened and Edward rushed outside.

"Alice called" he quickly nodded once to Carlisle, before fixing his eyes on me "Are you ok?"

"Fine" I gritted out "Can we just go?" and he held the door open for me, I quickly got in, shut the door, and he joined me a second later. We were soon peeling out the car park, and on route home.

"Alice told me what they said" he breathed out, looking at my tense, balled up shape.

"I was just being emotional" I shrugged, tears welling in my eyes.

"No. you weren't" he put his hand over my clenched fist "now truthfully tell me, are you okay?"

I paused for a second, a minute…hell it could have been an hour and I wouldn't have noticed, I was once again wrapped in my emotions.

"No" I whispered out, before sobbing into my hands.

"shhh" Edward pulled the car over, and gathered me into his arms "its okay" He just sat and held me for hours, the rain lashing down on the car window screen. Sobs wracking my body. He didn't say anything, just held me. Occasionally rubbing my back. That's what I loved about Edward. As Emmett was the loud, outgoing type of brother, Edward was the quiet overlooking one. If it was Emmett that was with me right now, it would have been immensely awkward. They all played a vital role in my life, my family did, and I honestly couldn't imagine life without them.

After the rain was long gone, and there was a sparkle of sunshine, I slowly regained my thoughts and emotions.

'Why was I honestly so worked up?. I've never had an eating disorder in my life, well, human life at least. So it obviously wasn't that. Maybe it was the baby jab?...No. of course not. I never wanted a child, never.

So why did my heart clench when I thought of the term baby?

Why did I feel longing when I saw a child run down the street?

Of course I didn't want one. And even if I did, it was impossible…But. I might want one. A Baby Boy, the spitting image of jasper, running around the grass. Or a girl. With my old brown doe eyes, Jaspers long, curly blonde hair, Tripping up everywhere. Inheriting my clumsiness. I may not have had a chance to think about it in my HUMAN life. But in my vampire life? I wanted a child. I wanted jaspers child.

"What are you thinking?" Edward asked softly, helping me sit back up. I rubbed my face, and smiled a real genuine smile. I may not get a child, but I could dream.

"Nothing" I practically sang "Shall we?" I gestured to the now, dry, road. Edward switched the car back on, and was about to drive, when Carlisle's black Mercedes parked behind us on the side road.

Carlisle hastily left his car, and jogged over to my window. I rolled it down to the bottom, and Carlisle poked his head inside.

"Everything ok?" Carlisle looked at me, in which I nodded, and then he looked at Edward. From my corner of my eye I saw Edward slightly shrug, before nodding. I smiled at my father figure.

"Can we go home now?" in which, Carlisle nodded, and backed away from our car.

"Race you" I told him, smirking. Carlisle looked at the deserted road, before nodding, a playful smile on his lips, and he jumped into his car. I traded seats with Edward, and we both started our engines.

"Please don't wreck it Issa" Edward pleaded, stroking his car "It's my favourite"

"Cant promise anything" I sang. Then Edward started the count down

3

2

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GO

I peeled out the bay, almost ramming into Carlisle's Mercedes, in which, Edward almost cried out.

I smirked as I changed gear, and speeded slightly ahead of Carlisle, but soon enough, he was catching up. I put my foot hard against the accelerator, but I couldn't shift him!,

We sped along the long winding road, Neck in neck. We came up to our narrow drive way, and I swerved, hoping to get in there first, because no way in hell were we both fitting in. BUT Carlisle also swerved, knocking his car into ours, and he raced down the drive way.

As we went headlong into a tree. There was a huge dent in the front, almost, ALMOST crushing the engine. The front glass was shattered, and the two front wheels were punctured. Edward was silent as I almost passed out from laughing.

"You're car is shit Edward" I laughed, throwing it into reverse, and heading SLOWLY down our drive.

We arrived moments later and Carlisle was standing next to his car laughing. We rolled next to him, and I parked and got out. I lightly shoved Carlisle pouting.

"Cheat" and he chuckled in response. We turned and I saw Edward still inside his broken car, he had a pout, and kept stroking the leather spot where the airbag was.

"My baby" he cried, hugging the chair he sat on. I almost died of laughter as I helped him out. He frowned at me, and the wind shifted, drawing my attention to the scent.

Jasper. And it was fairly new.

I sprinted inside, before anyone could stop me, and I threw open the door.

"Emmett come see Edwards face!" I cried out, awaiting the booming laughter, but there was none.

"Emmett?" I asked again, but there was silence. Panic was slowly starting to creep in

"Jasper?...Alice?...Esme…Rosalie?" I peaked into the living room and kitchen…nothing…

I crouched low as I heard approaching feet, a growl stuck in my throat. But it was only Edward.

"They went hunting in Canada earlier today" he held both hands up in surrender.

"Oh" I said, straighting up from my crouch "Oh…Okay"

"They will be there for the rest of the week" Carlisle added on, stepping inside "And peter and Charlotte are hunting nearby. They will be back in a few hours"

I nodded. Disappointment filling me, I wanted to spend the rest of the day with Jasper…I wanted to show him the vision of…Oops. Shields down.

I quickly snapped my mental shield back up, and if I had been human I would have blushed. Edward cocked an eyebrow but said nothing.

"Would you like to do something whilst we wait?" Carlisle suggested, gesturing to the living room. But I shook my head.

"No thank you…I was actually hoping to read some more of you're medical journals?" it accidently came out as a question.

"Of course" Carlisle beemed. He seemed to like the thought that one of his…family members…were interested in helping humans, as much as himself. He nodded towards the stairs, letting my leave, and I quickly rushed upstairs, plucked a journal, and headed for Jaspers room. Even though we don't share a room, I tend to spend much more time in jasper's room, compared to my own. i quickly shed myover clothes, and slipped on a t-shirt of jaspers. It obviously drowned me, but it was comfy, and it smelt of him. I sat crossed legged on his..OUR..bed. the journal in my hands.

I did read. Atleast for a while I did, but eventually even the thought of the main arterial veins of the heart, bored me. So I set it aside. Wondering what else I could do to try fill time. My laptop was at the other side of the room, and I had a clear idea of what I wanted to do. I grabbed it swiftly, and loaded it up. I typed in the correct description of my need, and clicked on the correct link.

Mary…no…

Robert..no

Shannon?...deffinatly not.

Ah . there they were. The perfect names.

Samuel And Clara.

I closed my eyes, imagining them. From their looks, and laughs. To the things that couldn't be seen, such as personality. I was so caught up I didn't realize I had company until she spoke.

"Baby Names?" Charlotte spluttered from beside me, and I closed the desktop quickly, avoiding her gaze.

"Issa…You got something to tell me baby gal?" she perched on the end of the bed, holding my shoulder. I frantically shook my head no. no, if I told them, then they would tell Jasper. And he would miss his family hunt because he would rush back, and then id have to explain and…no.

As if she read my thoughts, she spun me round to look at her "We don't have to tell the major if we don't want to" she told me, squeezing me gently "now whats all…this" she gestured towards the laptop and suddenly it came blurting out.

"One of the girls at work today, she mentioned me being a career mom, which I told her I was infertile. I was accused of…it doesn't matter…but it got me thinking. I never had a chance to think about it in my human life, and if I did, which I cant remember, I honestly disliked kids. Maybe it was because of the era we were born in? who knows. But I started yerning for a child of my own Charlotte!, YERNING. And the worst of it was, that I was yerning for mine and Jasper's child!. I was INCORPERATING our looks into their faces, their lifes!. And I wish…I wish it was real" I sagged against Charlotte. "But it will never happen"

"Oh honey" she signed, patting my shoulder "us women of the family have all went through that stage"

I sat up quickly "really?" I was hopeful, maybe I sounded too crazy. Even to myself. Too…hormonal.

"sure we have. And you know what made me feel better?" she paused before answering her own question "I made a scrap book"

"A Scrap book?" I repeated uncertainly. I wasn't going to stick pictures of fish into a paperback. It sounded too much like therapy.

"A Baby scrap book" she corrected herself smiling gently "with names, outfits, little details off the interweb…it helps. Honestly" she prodded. And I nodded. A baby scrap book. Even if I started yerning again, I could always look back at it…this might be good…

"Okay" she grinned, producing an old leather blank book from one of the drawers "first. Have you decided in names?" I nodded again.

Charlotte grabbed a marker, and did many swirls on the front page, naming it, then she paused waiting for my answer.

"Samuel Emmett Masen Whitlock" I started nervously "and Clara Rosalie Mary Whitlock. Rosalie is herself, And Mary is Alice's first biological name, So it works. And Emmett is obviously Emmett and Masen is.."

"Edwards biological last name" she finished proudly as she scribbled it down. "Perfect"

"do you have a printer?" she asked a second later, and I pointed to the side of the room. She hooked up a cable and set the laptop in front of me.

"Now" she said firmly "This is the most important part…How they look"

"But.."I started frantically. They were so flawless, so perfect in my head. How could I incorporate all those small details into pictures?..

"Minor details? Don't worry. We have lots of pictures to cut up" she winked, before peter called her from downstairs "Gotta run, but jot down a few ideas, and let me know ok?" she kissed my forehead before leaving.

So I jotted. Well…wrote many lists. Lots of lists. How i thought of them. With jaspers Blonde hair, down to Clara's waist, how the sunlight would make it look gold. Samuels dark brown hair, also in curls like his mother and father. The eye shape being similar on Samuel to that on Jasper, and Clara's being similar to mine. Her big, round innocent blue eyes shining. She obviously took her eye colour from her father. Samuels being brown. Clara was tiny, I could already tell she would be smaller than me. Unlike Samuel, who was already muscular and well build. Almost like his father, but not near enough. Their skin was both snowy white, but Clara's took on a light blush in the cold weather, (even though she couldn't feel it) or in embarrassment. Samuels was just hard and white. Clara was shy, but highly intelligent. She saw the world, like no one else could see it. She could see the wonders like no one else. But if you got to know her, she was outgoing, lovable and loyal. Samuel was loud, lovable and Sometimes crazy. He was very social, and sporty. He was fiercely loyal towards his family.

My hands twitched to touch them, to speak to them. I knew I would do anything, ANYTHING to have these two perfect children. I carefully closed the scribbled up book, and put it back in the drawer that it came from, also adding the few prints that I had made. I abandoned the laptop on the desk, and got my mobile out, and snuggled underneath jasper's covers. I breathed deeply, inhaling his scent. I grabbed my mobile from the bedside, and Phoned Jaspers mobile.

After a few rings. My love answered.

"Isabella" he breathed. And I almost cried then. My heart twinged to be with him

"Hi Jazz" I whispered, my voice full of emotion

"How are you baby?" I heard him sit down on the other side.

"Ok...I came home and you weren't here jazz…You didn't tell me" I paused dramatically before adding a cheeky "Bad boy"

He chuckled on the other side "Im sorry babe, Alice insisted we left early. I heard…I heard about what happened at work" I was silent. He knew. Did he know how far the feelings went?

"Ignore them Isabella. They don't even know you, not like we do. Their opinion does not matter" he spoke firmly and I smiled to myself. He didn't know. He doesn't need to know.

"Im not bothered "I shrugged "Me and Carlisle had a race, Edward was a passenger, and I smashed his car almost cried" I laughed at the memory and Jasper chuckled lowly.

"I did not!" Edward cried from downstairs. I could almost hear his lip pop out in stubbornness.

"Lier!" I cried out, before returning back to the phone "Are you having a good time? I miss you"

"yeah" he chuckled again "Alice threw a fit over her heels, which Emmett broke stabbing a was pretty gross, but worth esme's lecture, Rosalie was screaming...and I miss you too" my heart swelled at his news, and the fact that he was also missing me.

"LET ME SPEAK TO MY SISTER" Emmett yelled on the other end, before I heard him snatch it "Hey sis"

"Now Emmett, you behave yourself okay? And LEAVE Alice alone!" I heard a thanks bella from alice in the distance "And if I find a mark on Jasper, brother or no brother, you're dead…AND DON'T wind esme and rose up too much okay?"

He huffed on the other side "You are absolutely no fun. How are we related again?"

I laughed " im the thinker. I think for both of us..Now put someone else on..You're boring"

"ME?! IM BORING?!" he cried out in angush, and I heard alice grab the phone.

"Bellaaa!, I miss you so much! Could you do me a favour and order the new charm bracelet from tiffany&co.? Its on sale! Only a few thousand!, oh, and don't worry, karma is coming for those girls at the hospital…oh! And did you HEAR about what Emmett did! He's so disgusting, and right in it's eye! Rosalie almost vomited!" she rushed out quickly, and I almost shuddered at the eye part.

"I miss you aswell Alice. And of course I will. And hopefully, and Emmett's just a disgusting creature" I laughed lightly

"Oh. Jasper wants the last word, you're batteries dying. Tell Edward I love him, and to do what he was thinking at three! byeee" she blew a kiss and the phone was handed back to Jasper.

"I love you, and I honestly can't wait to see you Isabella Whitlock" his voice was thick with emotion. And I wanted to hold him so bad then.

"I love you too. And it's only a few days Okay?" I was almost crying.

And that's when my phone cut out.

"NO!" I cried, throwing it. It bounced off the wall and left a nice dent. I sighed deeply and left the room and headed downstairs.

Edward first came into view, and I heard Peter and Charlotte…upstairs…and Carlisle was in the kitchen, on the phone.

"You okay?" he asked, standing up in a gentlemanly way until I sat next to him. I nodded and curled up.

"I spoke to Jasper and the others" I stated after a second. He nodded thoughtfully.

"I know, I heard…"

"You were listening?!" I cried out, shoving him slightly "Edwardd!, we could have been…oh nevermind" I rolled my eyes as we heard peter and charlotte.

"Alice told you to do what you were thinking at three" I told him, my eyes on the tv.

"Okay" he sucked in a breath "Can I ask a favour?"

"Sure Eddie" I teased facing him slightly.

"Shut ittt" he hissed playfully, and I growled "Anyway…I was wondering…"

"Just spit it out" I sighed deeply in a playful manner.

"You're a pain Bellsy…But I was wondering, if for a day or two, you could shield everyone in the house's minds?" he asked nervously. This I wasn't expecting…but…

"Sure…Any particular reason why?"

"I just need to think for myself, for once at least. I need to sort through some stuff, and I need a clear head" he patted my shoulder as he stood "Thanks a bunch"

"Wait!, when do you want me to start?" I also stood

"Whenever" he shrugged and wlked into the hall.

Ill do it now. I thought to myself, and I closed my eyes. Brick walls on every mind, slamming its shut. I heard a gasp from Edward and I opened my eyes, keeping hold of the connection. He was hunched over, holding onto the banister, and I rushed up to him nervously.

"Edward?" I fretted nervously and Carlisle joined us.

"Son? What's happened?" he placed hand on his arm.

"Issa"…he gasped out. And I understood. He was in shock.

"Will someone tell me whats happened please?" Carlisle sighed stepping back. I looked at my bare feet nervously.

"he asked me to block everyones mind inside, and I guess it's the shock" I shrugged and Edward straightened out.

"Its amazing. Its so…clear and I feel like me!" he gasped, his eyes alight. He rushed forward and hugged me tightly "Thank you so much!"

I hugged him back. He seemed so happy…so childlike. And I swore right then, that I would keepthis block up. For him. For my brother Edward.