Bella's POV

My head was swimming with strange thoughts. Some may be due to the alcohol i induced into my system..Some due to the fact of Jasper (and a little of myself's) argument, and overall..My decision to once again leave my 'mate'. What have i become?, HONESTLY. I used to be so brave, And..ME. Althrough the danger, all through the running. I was scared, Terrified even. But i was undeniably me. So when did i become to dependent on a family that i barely knew? When did my world revolve around one person? Love. The blessing, And the curse of the earth.

"You look like Edward with that face" Emmett joked, but his voice was too high, too forced. He was upset..oh what have i done to this family..

"I don't have a scrunched up face!" Edward proclaimed loudly, pretending to check the mirror, looking for any lines. Emmett cracked up, but my lips barely curve into a smile.

"Sis?" Emmett turned round to face me, concern and worry on his boyish features.

"You wanted me to embrace my former self, well this is me" i snapped back, turning back to staring out the window at the forestry. I felt a pang of guilt, before i shut it down completely. silence followed the rest of the journey.

"Almost there" Edward muttered as he took a sharp right, many, many hours later. The silence was awkward...and awful. I couldn't wait to leave the car.

"Sis" Emmett broke the silence "sis are you going to be ok?, with the denali's? we can go somewhere else if it makes you any better?. If it helps?."

i shook my head instantly "i need to go. WE need to the air, whatever. Carlisle seems to think they can help. and i hope that he is right"

soon we arrived at a huge house, almost identical to the Cullen mansion back in Forks. But instead of many brick and plaster walls, theirs was made from dark wood. i barely skimmed it over before 3 figures were standing on the narrow porch. Awaiting to make our acquaintance. i was overcome by a pang of shyness. which i instantly scolded myself on. I closed my eyes tightly and imagined my brain, spread into different sections. Memories, Thoughts..Ah, Emotions. i imagined slamming my mental wall down on my emotions, cutting them off from everything else. I was instantly calm, with a neutral facade on. i re-opened my eyes, and ignoring Emmetts&Edwards strange looks. i swung myself out of the car. i awaited them to join me, and once they did i let them take the lead.

"Edward!" Kate cried, waving her hand in an old fashioned queen wave. The brunette lady, and the olive male came slightly forward. "Edward, Emmett.. Isabella?" The male looked round Emmett's giant frame to peak at my. i nodded in a polite way.

"Hello again" He nodded, before continuing. "Carlisle phoned explaining you're..situation" his eyes bore into mine for a second, and in response mines widened slightly.

"Im Carmen dear" the brunette butted in, beaming in my direction. i found myself smiling back, keeping my teeth behind my tight lips. She reminded me of Esme, but seemed almost...girlish and as teenager-ish as her 'daughter' appeared. I already liked her.

"I remember" she seemed to wince at the memory, and i understood. it made her feel ashamed.

"Isabella" Kate followed after her parents, coming up to meet me, i moved around Emmett, so i was now in front of my brothers. My eyes narrowed, and i felt venom in my throat.

"Yes." i replied coldly, and i swear i saw her shiver, before her eyes found the ground.

"isabella..im so.."she chocked up slightly "i'm so sorry for my sisters actions, and mine. ESPECIALLY mine. This, this wasn't meant to happen..none of it i swear!, Tanya doubted my loyalty so i had to act like that with Jasper! and all she wanted was Edward!, She fed me and Irina all these lies about you, Saying that you killed newborns for fun, and lured men as prey. I was a fool for believing her, and i should have put a stop to it. i'm unbelievably sorry Isabella, can you forgive me?"

There was a long pause. an awkward, stretch of time, that i took to think. tick..tock tick..tock.. tick.. tock. I nodded slowly, and she beamed.

but then i held my finger up. "Everyone deserves a second chance. Everyone. but if you break you're loyalty to me, then i cannot promise you a happy future. i do not forgive twice" she nodded fast,

"i understand, i understand!. oh im so glad we got to clear that up. It feels like the world is off my chest"she spun in a small circle."Im so glad you three came. It will be like having a real little sister!"

"Where's irina?" Edward asked, clasping his hands.

"Gone" Carmen informed us "She ran, saying she wouldnt be apart of a family of murderers..don't fret dear. We suspected she MAY have been losing her marbles"

"Oh Mum" Kate said airily "Lets not upset the guests. Come come!, ill show you you're bedrooms!"

"Bedrooms?" I asked warily as i trailed behind Kate "but we don't sleep?" Kate threw open the door, and began the trek up the winding staircase.

"Yes, But its the illusion of privacy, A place to be alone" she threw a smile over her shoulder "Of course we can all hear you, but still.." and i understood. i undeniably understood.

The first door down the forest green corridor she pronounced as the bathroom, next was the 'parents room'. then Hers. She opened the door gently near the bottom.

"Here is Emmett's bedroom" He pushed past us, to sit on his bed .

"Hell yeah!, you still have my original Beatles Poster!. " he fingered the frayed edges, and i found myself smiling at my blood brother. Even as a vampire he was still a little boy. "ill stay here guys" emmett lay back, his hands above his head, and closed his closed the door behind us and opened the door straight across from it.

"Edward's room, Not touched obviously" kate rolled her eyes at the obvious back story that followed. Edward shot me a look, before waltzing over to the roof high shelves filled with music. "Thank god" he muttered as he shuffled through his collection. Kate gestured to the door , and we left Edward and his music.

"Guys" Kate giggled and i smiled slightly "Anyhow this is you're room" she waved to the door at the very end of the corridor, between the two guest rooms where my brothers now stayed. Kate opened the door, and gestured for me to go first (which i did). the room was in a soft purple shade, and had a fluffy carpet on the white wooden floor. The bed its self was a four poster bed, draped in white cotton hangers, and the bed was a full of feathers and fluff, including the small brown teady exactly in the center. The windows were huge, and floor length, And a bookshelf stood in the corner. a dresser, a desk (with laptop) and various bits and bobs were also included.

"Oh kate" i gasped lightly "Its too much".

"Silly" she laughed "its not enough, Carmen chose all the colours herself, and ill be honest..the only thing i chose was the dresser and teady" she laughed again and i smiled at her. "Ill leave you now, call if you want to make plans, or need me ok?" i nodded and she left quickly and quietly.

A buzz startled me from my right pocket, and my hand instantly went to the spot. where the rectangular shape was found.. My phone. i sat on the fluffy bed, kicking my shoes off on the way. and pulled the phone out. i had various miss calls from the family..but only one text. i clicked on it and i read the ugly words.

#Isabella, i cant believe you. I thought you were different. But you aren't are you?. No. i answered my own question there. You should see the state he is in, he is a MESS. A WRECK. Jasper i am talking about. My BROTHER. Esme, Charlotte and Rosalie wont stop fretting.. which brings us to the next subject, MY MATE. my mate better come back soon Isabella SWAN. or i'll come for you personally. Because he is my life. Alice Cullen#

a sob escaped my throat as my heart plummeted. I heard a knock at my door but i threw my phone at it.

"GO AWAY!" I screamed, before grabbing the teady, and burrowing underneath my fluffy cover. i went through the rest of the night. clutching my bear.