Chapter 16 Things Get Award
Bella POV
When I saw Paul get hit there was something my chest that burned as pain and guilt-racked my boys in painful spasms. I don't know what was wrong theme, suddenly the high that I felt from the kiss with Jake. Turned into cold dread that filled my entire body. Then it clicked in my mind why Paul got hurt because he was looking at us. I jumped up from the bleachers ignoring the states that I was getting from the bleachers. Including Jake and Paul's mother. Miss. Uley must have thought that I was a whore for making out with one her son, but I could help it, I was drawn to Paul. No matter how much that I love Jake, there was a part of me that love Paul a little bit more. I shook my head sadly as my eyes met Pauls crumpled form.
I ran over to his limp body the others were just standing trying to figure out how he could possibly have gotten hit. The football players for the opposite team were now picking a fight with Sam who was trying to get over to Paul. I collapsed by his side, my eyes widen as I took in his sorry state. I knew that he would heal. The other day I stopped Paul on his way out of practice. I demanded to know what was wrong with him. He let it spill that he was a wolf, at first, I found it hard to believe I thought that he went insane but he took me to the forest and told me the truth. He even phased into the most amazing silver wolf that I have seen. I don't think that I could believe it but I also didn't see what that had to do with his hatred to me. He said that the reason he was so rude to me was because he felt protective of his little brother who had yet to shift. It was sweet, and it only made me fall for him even harder.
"You can't do this to me I'm trying to be a good brother." I look down the hurt look in Paul eyes as he howls out in pain from his leg twitching. But he reduced it to a dull groan as he clamped his jaw shut. Causing a hard line to form as he moaned out in I could feel it deep in need in my body as I saw the pain in his eyes."Paul tell me what to do how do I fix this." My words were a double edge sword I want just talking about his leg, I was talking about our relationship. I knew that he knew that was why I meant, but he didn't say a word about it. "Bella you are going to have to push my leg all the way down till you hear the bone snap backing into place. Do it before they see me?" I look at him I couldn't do that, it would further his pain and I just love him too much to do that. Wait love?
"Baby please look at me." I look at him and he took my hands and guide them pass his waist to land on his burning hot skin, but to me it was a comfortable warm to me. "You don't want them to find out what me and my family are right?" As he was saying that I turned back to see Sam pushing up against the guys, before running over to us. After that all hell broke out into chased frenzy. The cheerleaders were fighting the opposite teams cheerleader as the football team went at it. People in the stands screams and yells as some cheered the teams on wheels others ran form the that moment Sam dropped next to Paul letting out a worried sigh."Thank the spirits you are a right. Bella what the hell do you think that you are doing here." I felt Paul move his hand form mine causing a whimper to escape my lips. "Bella now do it." I looked at Paul's deep hazel eyes holding mine as I used enough force to push his leg back in place. I heard a snapped and he groan out in pain.
I looked towards him, his face started to settle he was no longer in contact in pain, but a light calm eased over him. "Thanks" I nodded and head but had to refrain from kissing him as Sam glare at me and then at Paul. "You didn't tell her, you fucking idiot" There wasn't any anger or hatred in his voice only this sadness and understanding. "He couldn't help it I wouldn't leave him alone till he told me. I swear I won't tell anyone Sammy not even Jake." He sighed and grumbled under his breath that he hated being called Sammy in public. "Come on Paul I want to get out to the locker room before I lose it." I watched as Sam lifted Paul up and allowed him to lean on his shoulder as Paul started limp away. I stood up following after them letting out a content sigh as pain and anxiety started to slip away from my body. But it was replaced quickly with fear as I looked over to see that my father had his arms folded over his chest and he was glaring at Jake as he looked at me with a disappointed look on his face.
The guilty just piled on as I realized that I was a terrible girlfriend,I was letting another man call me babe and baby. I walked over to my father and gave him the best and sweetest smile that I could before kissing Jake lightly on the cheek in front of my father. It felt freeing to not have to keep up with this lie anymore. "Dad he didn't tell you because I didn't want to you know, I thought, well I still think that you would have a problem with me dating a family friend so soon after mom had died." He frowned at me for a minute before looking at Jake this dim smile on his face. "Don't think that this conversion is over with but for now we should go make sure that your brothers are okay, we can talk at the dinner." He nodded as he and Jake he walked off like nothing had when I turned to look at the people in front of me I was met with Paul and Jake's mother, her amber eyes darkening with anger.
Her deep hazel eyes were staring daggers at me as she turned to looked at where Paul had been lying on the ground. I could see lee Emily was standing next to her shrinking in fear as a vicious roar formed in her throat. She stood up as she walked over to me snarling. "Miss. Uley maybe you should calm done." I could see one of her hands shaking as her whole body vibration from the force. "My son told you didn't about us being…" She let her voice trailed off her amber eyes darkening with each passing moment, turning them black as she came closer to killing. "Yes, I push him to, he really didn't want to tell me, but I just wanted to know why he hated me so much."
I watched the tension in her body leave as a man put a hand on her shoulder. She turned back, and I looked with her. The man that I saw as sexy. He was tall at least 6 feet, with sparkling green eyes and deep tan skin, when he looked at me he smiled gently. But I could tell that it's forced and rather tense. "Danny what are you doing here." I looked at the man and then at Ms. Uley her voice laced with concern and confusion. "I wanted to see my boys play though I nearly shifted when I saw Paul get hit. I should go before they see me, but I wanted to make sure you didn't kill this poor girl."
He smiled gently at me, his husky voice had me swooning as he smile at Emily and ran out of sight. I sighed and look at Miss. Uley who seemed like she was at ease now "Fine let's go we should wait for the boys by the car." I nodded my head and walk with her and Emily out of the stands. Everyone in a while I would glance at Emily and she would give me this sweet smile, it was like she didn't care that her boyfriend turned into a giant dog. I shook my head and looked at the outdoor door of the it finally opened I felt my heart skip a beat when Paul limped out of the locker room with a pack of ice wrapped around his knee in suramin wrap. Sam was debating with Charlie something about sports while Jake looked like he didn't even care. That was until he saw me and perked up. I smiled wide and he smiled back the only problem was that the smiled was meant for Paul.
Jake ran over to me and kissed me gently on the temple as Paul walked over to his mom and wave gently as he nodded his head at Emily. This frown starting to grow on his face as he sniffed the air. "What was dad doing here." He brow dropped and furred together while a grow built in his throat.I "accidentally" brushed my hand against his to calm him down and he let out this slight put as his mother raise her eyebrow at me. I shook it off and watched as dad and Sam make it over to us.
Sam kissed Emily on the lips before sliding his and Paul's bag over his shoulder. "I'm taking Emmy, in my car, Paul you are coming with us for with mom and Jake." I looked at him and he sighed heavily. "Defiantly with you no offense mom." He limped off to the car not saying another word to any of us. I shook my head before starting to walk off to my truck with my dad following me. "Bella." I watched as Sam had just pulled out of the parking lot, Paul staring blankly out of the window.I caught his gaze for only a minute before looking at my father. He's concerned brown eyes looking me over. "Are you okay?" I nod my head and he let out this heavy sigh, his shoulder slumping for a moment."Are we okay." I kissed his cheek gently. Letting my lips brush against his stubbly chin for a moment before opening my door. "Of course daddy, I understand why you are upset, you want to make sure that I am okay after everything with mom's anything I am just a little shaken up form that hit it was wild." I watched him nodded his head before walking away.
My drive to the dinner was saint, I couldn't help but think about Jake, I felt guilt run through me like an electric current. Zapping every nerve in my body, I love Jake I really do and I don't mean it act the way I do with Paul. But there is a pull that I can't understand, maybe it has something to do with him being a wolf and Jake no but there was something about Paul. I mean really I knew nothing about him and yet here he is in my mind 24/7, all I really knew for sure was that I couldn't keep doing this to Jake. I was going to have to make a decision, but I should get to know Paul before I do damn thing.
I'm not going to leave Jake for a man that I know nothing about. I looked up to see that Sam, his mom, and my dad cars had already pulled up to the diner. I was the last one was I drove way to slow. I could feel this scowl form on my face, I didn't even notice I was so caught up in my thoughts of him. I sighed dreamily as I pulled the truck to a stop and turn it off.
I roughly shoved my keys in the back pocket of my jeans be returning my curls behind my ears and jumping out of the car. Which was the worst decision I could make, my feet slipped under the wet black asphalt. All I could do was brace for the impact of the cold hard metallic door of my truck. I felt the wind rushing at my back but I never felt the impact, instead I felt warm arms wrapping around my waist keeping me in place. I open my eyes to set that Paul had this cocky smirk on his face as he gently place me on the ground and pretend like it was no big deal.I was so stunned that I didn't say a thing I just blushed madly as he limped into the diner with his mother and brother. I shook my head before walking into the diner with Jake our figure intolerance. But it felt like a valuation.
When we made it into to the dinner everyone cheered on Paul and Sam as theses proud smile form on their faces. I couldn't help but grin as I sat down across from Paul. The waitress came over timely and took our drinks orders. After that she fluttered behind the countertop."So, Paul, Sam how do you, like forks high school so far. You've survived your first week." Sam chucked but Paul simply frown, I don't think you could say that Paul survived his week, he has had it rough since Monday. Sama dark eyes left Emily's face long enough to talk to my father. His smooth voice washed over me like ocean waves. "Good but we actually transferred over to the school last years after Billy passed away. So, we have friend before this year. Plus, we both quickly joined the football team, so it was pretty easier to get used to the pace of the new school."
His answer seemed so reserved, almost as if he had gotten asked that question a lot, Paul on the other hand rolled his eyes like he wasn't the least bit interested in this conception. "Hey mom there is a party for the team begin held at a player's house could I go." His voice sounded so hopeful it was kinda cute. His mother on the other hand didn't think so, I watched her hazel eyes darken,as she thought about something unpleasant. "Nope you're still grounded getting tackled didn't change that." I heard him let out an angry growl as my dad looked at him. "You mother know was is best, shouldn't you take this time to focus on your studies." Paul scoffed at him as Sam snickered. "I get straight As, so going to a party every once in a while doesn't do much. I have one of the highest GPAs at the school." He said it was a smug undertone and I had to admit there a lot for him to be proud of. Charlie's cocked his head to the side in concussion from Pauls statement. "Funny your father told me, you use to have a rough go at school." I watched this shiver go down Paul spine as his smug smiled was replace with a sneer.
Sam visibly shuttered, and their mother sighed dreamily at the mention of Danny Uley. I smiled at it, it was so cute that she was still in love but at the same time it was messed up. He hurt my Paul and I didn't think that was the least bit okay. I look at Jake he seems to be the only one that didn't notice the change and if he did he didn't say a word.
"I haven't failed a test or gotten below a B since I got out of that comma. I study my ass off every night so a party should be no big deal. But I begin punished for something that was out of my control." As he said it, his hazel brown eyes darted to looked at my face. I could see the edge of his lips twitching as he smiled sweetly at me. Love in filled his eyes as Charlie looked at him. He went to go say something but the waiter came back just in time to take the orders.
Dinner counted peaceful but there was this tension in the air, but after a while the tension left with dad. He had to head back to the station for the night. Jake smiled wide at me before looking at his mother. "Mom can Bella come over." I could hear the amount of joy in his voice but also the need to be with me. I was staring at Paul the whole night and had barely spoken to Jake but there was this desire in his voice that I couldn't overlook. But she frowns as she looks at me. "Why when you snuck her into the house to have sex with her while I was at work." I watched Jake shudder and I did as well, but it was for a different reason. The fire that was in Paul eyes as unmistakable. He was mad at me, I looked down at my lap, as this embarrassment spread across my face.
" Fine" I lifted my head and smiled wide before walking out with Jake following me, my dad had already paid the hack when he left. So, we were on our way back to the house when Jake cleared his throat. I could still he was staring at me, because his glare was poking holes in my body. "What is it Jake?" I tried to keep my voice from sounding irritated, but he won't stop staring and it was making it hard to focus. "Why did you run to my brother on the field?" I felt a lump rise in my throat and no matter how hard I swallowed it down, my throat becoming thick and dry from the uniqueness."What do you mean by that? He was hurt and even if it he is being a dick to me. No one deserve to be screaming out in pain in agony by themselves on a cold field."
I knew that I was making him feel bad, but a glut trip was the best way to get him off my case rather than telling him that I might be in love with his brother. Jake quilted down after that and I pulled up to his hose. We had beaten his mom and brother back, so I let out a sigh and turned to look at Jake. He gave me a weak smile and I could see his guilt in his eyes that broke my heart. "Sorry I just thought the way that he was looking at you tonight, that you might have a thing for him." I resisted the urge to break down and tell him the truth, "Baby you are the only one that I wanted to be with, your brother has treated me like grave since the first day that I meant him. You have nothing to worry about it, Paul is a total dick." As I was saying it, I made sure that my voice was laced with honey to make him believed it. But even as I spoke the lies every part of my body was screaming telling me I was a horrible person for saying all of it. My entire body, mind and soul screamed to just tell the truth, to run into Pauls arms and never leave. But why, I didn't know anything about him.
But Jake seems to buy the lie, he gave me a peck on the cheek and jumped out of the truck, I noticed that Sam was pulling up into the driveway. When we got to the door, Jake unlocked it and walked into the living room, dragging me along with him. I collapsed on the couch, pulling my legs up to my chest and rested my chin on top of them. I heard the door slam shut and then open again.
I could hear the chatter of Sam and Emily before they burst out into laughter. They walked into the room and Emily smiled at me before sitting on the couch next to me. "Where is Paul?" I watched Sam stiffened and Emily sigh before whispering soothing words into his ear. Calming him down so that he didn't shift in the living room. But I look at her confused for a moment before looking out the front window to see Paul getting lectured by his mother in front of the living room mirror. He let out a sigh like he was tired of hearing what she had to say. I shook head sadly and looked at Jake who was walking back into the room with a cup of hot chocolate in his hands for me. I took it willing and sipped it.
It warms my insides as I slowly sip it carefully not to burn myself, I watched Jake walked around and grab the remote off of the coffee table during the flat screen on. "What are we watching." I looked at Sam and then at Jake they were talking about what to watch when Emily sat down next to me and smiled wide.
"Bella it is nice to meet you, you're a very sweaty really is a shame" I nodded my head and she is smiled wide as she giggled and looked at the door that had just opened and what did she mean that it was a shame?Before I had the chance to ask her, Paul walked into the room for a moment flashing me a grin before walking up the stairs where he disappeared into his room. I looked set Miss. Uley who was frowning as she looked at Sammy then me. "I have to head to the hospital, they need a nurse to cover." I watched as Jake and Sam both slammed their heads up and looked at me and then at their mother.
Emily just shook her head sadly. "You are leaving us alone with Paul, but he is in a bad mood." I looked at Jake he also seemed terrified of Paul. "Sorry you will have to deal, Sammy kept your brother in line while I am gone." This time he didn't object to being called Sammy he just nodded his head and look at me for a moment before shaking his head sadly. "Why don't we watch Good Day to Die Hard," Jake nodded his head as Sam option and collapsed on the couch next to me while Sam put the movie on.
Sam took a seat beside Emily and pulled her into his lap as they cuddle together it made me want that same kind of contact but with the wrong brother. I shook my head and tried to focus on being with Jake in this moment. To watch the movie and finally stand by my man, but my heart drifted upstairs. I knew what my heart wants but my head said Jake. After a hour of painstaking dilbation I decided that I couldn't just sit here,I tune over it Jake and told him I has to go to the bathroom and he nodded his head. "Alright I will paused it." I shook my head no, at him, "It alright I will be right back." I run up the stairs when I thought that he wasn't looking and made it to Paul's room without being seen. I decided not to knock on the door, I doubt he would answer if he knew that it was me.
I ignore the warning on the caution tape and pushed the door open and seeing Paul's room took my breath away, I looked at his walls first, the originals monster movie poster were hung up on every inch of the wall. Even the wolfman which I thought was funny consider he was a real wolf and he doesn't act anything like that. They were even the original prints,he was a total monster nerd, just like me. I wonder how he got them though. I shifted my eyes to the balcony where you could see the beach for here. It had to be a great landscape to look at when he woke up in the morning. "What are you doing in here." I was surprised by a husky and tired voice. In that minute I noticed Paul looking up from his desk. Textbooks and notebooks laying across his desk And a small lamp light lip up the room. "Funny I didn't figure you for a bookworm." I looked at Paul as he closed his door and locked it. I guess he didn't want Sam or Jake walking in.
He brushed up against me in the process and the moment our skin came in contact he jumped back.
He sat down in his wooden chair and looked back at his books for a moment like he was wondering something. "You can sit on the bed if you want." I looked at Paul before I move giving him a slight nod of my head to show that I hear what he said. As my feet carried me to his bed I noticed that it was neatly made, there wasn't a single wrinkle on his comfact. His bed was made, his closet was close but no doubt was clean, his room was well organizing and his tv hung up on the wall but there was a view loose cords. He seemed to put together for a teenage boy. "What happened" I pointed to the wall and he let out a harsh laugh. "My mom and dad are what happen they took my Xbox and all my games the only reason they left the tv was because they took the cable box to. It total is bullshit" I felt this guilty crawling out of the pit in my stomach and up to my throat. "Don't do that Bells" I hear how stearn and commanding his voice was and I don't know what I was doing but I stopped it
When I looked up he had this gentle look in his eyes, I could tell that he cared about what I thought, and he knew that I was feeling guilty. "I can smell it coming off you, don't feel guilty,I shouldn't have talked to you that way. I can be a abusive jerk and when I don't get what I want. I am a lot like my father and trust me that isn't a good thing." I could see the pain in eyes when he looked at me. "Come to me please." I knew my voice sounded small but with his hearing, i knew he hear each word crystal clear.
He late out a sigh but shook his head no. "I can't Bells you are dating my brother my little brother, me betraying him like this,he wouldn't ever forgive. I know it may not seem like it, but I do love and care for my little brother." I understand that what we could or will do could hurt Jake and I know that he was being selfless but what about what we wanted dammit. I wanted Paul not Jake. No matter how much I love Jake, there was this connection with Paul that tugged my heart in the other direction. "I made a decisions Paul and you can either listen to what I came up with or you can ignore me." I hear him let out as low snarled as I stopped talking. "Fine Bells what did you come up with." I walked over to him and knelt resting my head on his knees.
At first, he softens but soon he loosens up and started to cart his finger through my hair. "I decided that I am going to get to know you and you are going to let me. After a few months, I will decide which one I want. The kind, caring, bother, who is sweet. Or the sexy, smart, badass that makes me feel like my heart will explode from happiness. Okay?" I looked at him our gazes meeting for a moment "Fine ask away." I let a triumph smile as I stood up and sat gently in his lap. "Favorite movie of all time." He let out a laugh and sighed afsnit my neck as he places a kiss on my neck. "Dracula for the simple fact that I know those don't want real Vampires but they're better than the ones in real life. I mean vampires that sparkle lame. You?"I felt him kiss my arm trailing his kiss, each one full of love. I looked at him and sighed heavily before looking "It's going to sound so cheesy, but the wolfman." I grinned wide at him and he smirks at me
I let out a sighed as I thought about another question but every time that he placed a kiss on my skin. "Stop you are making it hard to think." I looked at him for a moment as he let out this dark chuckle. "Can't help it you smell so amazing. I just want to kiss every part of you. But I will try to stop. Butrt since you are havign troulbe let me help you out, I love monster movies especially the classic, though the books are better, my favorite pastimes is watching movies, and video games. I love bikes and cars, I'm kind of a gearhead. I hate romantic comedies and loud annoying people. I'm allergic gracile and wolfsbane, oh and nut can't forget nuts. More than annoying I love cake and steak. Anything else you want to know."
He trailed a kiss down my neck to my collarbone forcing a shiver to go down my spine as a soft moan escaped my lips. I looked him in the eyes I could see this pain in them as he looked at me like there was a question that he didn't want me so I was going to ask it anyway. "Your dad, you seemed really upset when you found out that he was at the game. Then with the comma, and the moment your dad was brought up at dinner. You whole family ?"
He looked at me this small whimper escaped his lips as he dragged me to his bed, he laid down holding me in his arms as he let out this excited breath. "If a tell you can you stop making this so hard me to resist you." I let out this small giggle before kissing a soft spot on his jaw. He let out small animals growl. "My father adore me and Sam were kids that will till Sam turned 4 and I turned 3. He hated the idea of me sleeping with a stuffy wolf, it was what my mom gave me. Hw locked it up in a hall closet but I got it out. I was a badass as a baby, picking locks before I could even though a punch. But then he found out and beat the crap out of me and sam.
We never had the courage to tell mom, he just made he so happy we don't think that it would be fair to her if she left him because of us. So, we didn't say anything, we tried to keep him happy,anything to keep that from happening again. He would swear that he loved us afterward and he said it enough that we believe him. But the more we messed up and mom had a night shift at the hospital. He would take that time to beat us like red-headed stepchildren. Then one day…."
His voice broke as he looked at me this fear his eyes, he thought I would reject him, and I don't think that it was fair. Did he think that I was so shallow that I wouldn't love him if he was messed up? "I can't even get in small hot cramp spaces. I freak out, my heart starts to hammer in my chest as anxiety fille every part of my being.I watched my mom die in front of my eyes. We are all messed up Paul nothing you can say will change my mind." I hear how soft my voice was Paul purred in my ear running his fingers through my hair. "One day I failed a test and they kicked me off the football team on the rez, my dad didn't take it well. In fact, he beats me into a comma, Billy went after him, he lost it and tried to attack him, but my dad was an alpha and Billy well he wasn't. He ended up in that wheelchair because of me. After that, I never failed another test. Not because of the team but because I'm afraid that my dad will come after me again, I know that it sounds pathic"
I looked up at Paul, his gazes meeting mine, I got lost in his hazel gaze, soaking in all the pain and relief that was coming off of him. That was until his doorknob twisted then there was a nock. "Paul, have you seen Bella." He let out a tortue sigh. "I told you we shouldn't do this." I recognize the voice that was at the door a minute ago, was that Sam. I watched Paul get out of the bed and over it the door, unlocking it before slowly killing it. Revealing Sam and Emily on his arm. This smile on her face as she peered into the room to see me laying on Paul's bad. He smokes black sheet seemed so comfortable. "Whats up Sam?" I watch him frown at me before sighing. "Jake fell to sleep during the movie, I put him to bed, I think that mom slipped him some allergy pills, so he would fall asleep. Hey, Bella" I looked past Paul's shoulder to see Sam smiling sadly at me. I got out of the bed and went to walk out but Paul's hand curled around my wrist.
I let out this sigh but a smile formed on my face as he wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me back into the room. I looked at Sam and he shook his head sadly. "Just remember the wall is paper thin and Jake still her boyfriend." Sam walked away with Emily and Paul closed the door. "Can we talk for a little bit longer." His face was so hopeful that I couldn't deny him. I would give him what it mean,I was going to have to break up with Jake I couldn't do this to him. But nonetheless i climbed on the bed and spent the whole night talking and getting to know Paul.
I woke up to the sound of yelling downstairs, I late out an moan and looked up to see that the doors to Paul room was slowly opening. His mother has walked into the room and she shook her head angrily. "You can't be here right now Jake will wake up soon. Paul!" I hear him moan as my side as he opened his eyes while snuggling in my side it was too fucking cute. "Paul baby" He moaned at my voice but open his eyes bore letting out a whine as he looked at his mother. "Nothing happened mom" I let out this light sigh as he whimpers at look she gave them. "I don't care Paul that is your brother's, girlfriend, Bella come with me. Paul get dressed and be downstairs." We shudder as I got out of the be following after her.