Chapter 36 I Hate Hospitals

Paul POV

I felt fear crawl into my chest as my phone started to ring, I didn't think anything of it but everyone knew never to call me at work. Unless it was pack business. The pounding of the hammers and sharpening buzzing of the power tools made it hard to hear the phone. If it wasn't for the buzzing feeling in my pockets I probably wouldn't have even heard it. As I craned my neck to look at my phone I noticed that Charlie's name popped up on my phone along with a picture of a gun.

Suddenly this icy cold feeling of dread worked it way up my throat as I shift to see my blond head boss making his way over had this kind look in his eyes as he walked passed over workers so I knew that he wasn't coming to yell at me. "What up Paul you look terrified." I looked at him he knew about the pack and everything his wife and him were the one that told Kimmy what she was when she first phased in the living room. So it made it a lot easier to leave work when it came to the pack. "It's my mates father do you mind if I take it he never call unless it is an emergency." He nodded his head giving me this understanding look before I ran off out of the congestion zone.

My figure curled around the cold vibrating metal as I made it a safe distance from the nose. But before I could even answer the phone the call just ended, but just as quickly as it ended the cold start back up again. This time I hit the bright green phone button quickly not giving Charlie a chance to yell at me for not answering the phone the first time. "Hey Charlie sorry I didn't answer the first time but I was working. What's up?"

I tried to keep my voice easy going but my throat was tight and parched as I struggled to get all the word out. I knew that there had to be something wrong because I had felt a pain in my head early that I just brushed off but what if it was Bella hitting her head or something worse. What if Jake or Embry shifted to close other and hurt her, killed her even. I was freaking myself out and I doubt that it would do me any good if Charlie confirms those suspicions. The slain on the other lien was defined as fear clawed at my heart. "Bella is in the hospital, I can't get away from work right now can you hand over there."

I nearly dropped the phone at his penance and tired voice, this couldn't be happing this had to be so fucked up dream. I ran a worried and shaky hand through my hair as I gaped at the contraction sight. I moved slowly taking each step tentatively as I tried to keep from collapsing. At the moment I just felt numb. I was so lost in thought that I hadn't even noticed that my boss was staring at me with a worried expression on his face.

I gulped ay my thick spit rain down my throat as pain rain touch me like I was swallowing glass. "Yeah I should be there in 5 minutes if I don't break any laws. See you there." I hung up the phone after Charlie's whisper a hushed goodbye, that i doubt he thought that I heard it. This shouldn't be..this can't be happening this was a fuck up my own pack mate no less. I looked up to be face to face with Kimmy's dad. "Hey I can't stay Bella is in the hospital, her condition is unknown and he's there all alone do you mind if I go." I looked at him and he nodded his head. The painted light shining through his eyes. "I'll call Kimmy and tell her that the pack will need her. Go." I nodded my head before handing him my sweat-drenched bright yellow hard hat before hopping on my bike.

I ignore my sweat-drenched skin that was backing in the heat as I drove at my top speed, wheezing passed cars as they honed and screamed at me for my wild diving. But I didn't let it stop me I had to get to my girl to get to Bella I need to know that she was at least going to pull through. Right not my mine was thinking the worst and I don't know how much more I could take. I would never forgive myself if something happened to her that couldn't heal or be fixed. "Get to her now!" I don't need my inner wolf to tell me twice, I review the engined hitting 100 miles per hour when I made it to the bright white 6 story hospital.I was coming in hot as I made it to the parking lot. I nearly flipped my bike over in the process but managed to pull to a stop when I jerked roughly on the handle bar.

I ran through the hallway so face that I saw nothing but blue of color. I barely even notice the sign that protein towards the ER that was filled with the sound of crying kid and adult alike. Even though this place had 6 stones it was still way to packed for its own good.I slow my pace to a brisk walk as I watch people holding their heads in her hand as they waited on the news, to hear if their beloved one died or live. I don't want to be there in position so please let her be I continue to walk I noticed the chicken in center with at least 3 nurses there one of them had to know what the hell was going on with my girl.

I look as the nurse in the font most computer terminal, she couldn't have been older than 20 barely older than me. I was supposed to trust her with information that could save a life. Yeah right I just looked over once but nothing I saw gentile me with any deep brown eyes and light brown hair was pull back in a sloppy bun as she sighed in my direction.I guess she was taking in my disheveled appearance and thought I belong in a psych ward or something. "I'm looking for Isabella Swan she is my girlfriend, I was called by her father to meet him down here. What is her condition." My words came out a jumbled mess, rushed and I barely had any breath to finish the stance. I didn't even know that I was out of breath till right now.

The woman took a deep breath like she is trying to tell me to do the same but I would calm down when I knew what was going on. When I could see my sweet Isabella face and feel the utter relief that came with knowing that she was safe. Then feel the guilt that came rushing in after I realized that I had failed her."Sir I can't tell you anything about Isabella no matter if her father called you You have to be family, you just need to wait." I snarled what the hell was she talking about I didn't give a damn I wanted to see her, there was no one more important other than her mate. Which just so happens to be me. "Kill her and anyone else that tries to stop us." My wolves cold voice echoed in my head and it a murderous shiver down my spine, that wasn't what I wanted, but I was getting to my breaking point. "I'm sorry miss about him, Paul come on."

When I hear Sammy voice before I even saw him but I just felt like breaking down, she was in there hurt and it was possible because of my pack mates people I was supposed to trust. I was just about to get out of work. I was going to swing by and spend the rest of the day with her. But now I ere I am in a hospital with fear and anxiety taking over every part of my being. How did this day go so wrong and what happens when I was gone. I looked at Sam as fear welled in my heart and filling my lung making it hard to breathe.

"I don't understand how this happened, she was on the rez, she should have been safe. What happened they said that she was seriously injured and that is all they would tell me. Sammy what the hell happened where were you." Fear was replaced with anger that was starting to creep into my chest causing the pain to slowly slip away only for a moment.

My gaze locked with Sam, his eyes, his gaze cold as he sacked me fact and then my disheveled apache as his icy gaze started it calm me image of Bella dead flash in my mind and I started to shake this couldn't be happening she had to be safe, god, please let her be safe. "Paul calm down she is okay, alright, she just hit her head a leech got into her room and pushed her down the stairs Emmett was there, and he kept her safe, he drove her here. He's talking to his dad right now trying to figure out what is happening."

His tone was gentle and for an amount, I just let the word wrapped around my mind calming me and my wolf. But confusion walked into my mind as I thought about what he said, what did he mean that Emmett saved her. He shouldn't even be in forks and why was Bella at her house when she knew that I wasn't there to protect her. She should have been at the rez where the rest of the pack could protect her. Were Sam could have protected her, where I should have been protecting her. I was a disappointment just like my father always used to say to me, I was the one that fails the only person that I should have been angry at was myself.

I looked passed Sam strong shoulder to look at Embry who was looking at me for a moment but the minute that our eyes met he dropped his gaze. Like he couldn't meet my gaze, the fucking pussy this was because of him I feel it in my I look at Jake he has this guilt-ridden expression on his face along with this confusing but I think that was because of me. I shook my head this couldn't be happening, this had to be some kind of sick dream right. I collapsed in one of the dark blue chairs and rest my head heavily in my hands. I gently rubbed my temples as I moaned into my hands. I could feel my eyes burning and I resist the urge to cry, I just wanted to see her. I had to be selfish and get a summer job what the hell was was wrong with me I should have been by her side.

"I should have been there I shouldn't have left for work I'm such an idiot. What was she even doing in Frocks, she knew to stay there, if I can't look after she or you can't. Then there is the whole Emmett thing. He was in Port Ange doing some research on the army. What the hell was she doing home Sammy?" I tired to keep my voice was sounding broke as I looked up to see all the pity wrote and Sam e and I krne that he could tell that I was broken.

My baby my angel was in a hospital bed and I had no idea what her condition was. I failed her, she was trapped in a house with a blood sucking leach that wanted to kill her. Emmett save her, he did my job, and he himself is vampire and he did a better job than me. What was wrong with me what the hell kind of mate does that make me. I looked up at Sam giving him a questioning gaze none of this makes sense why was Emmett there and why wasn't she was Emily's house where it was safe. "Paul she left because of something that Embry said but this wasn't and isn't on him. Got that!"He was trying to be kind with his word but I could still hear the stern warning.

What the fuck did he mean by that, no one would make Bella do something that she didn't want to do, not even Embry the dick. She was one of the most stubborn people that I met and Embry managed to make her leave, yeah right. He had to be lying to me there was no way that she would leave without a great reason. There was something that he wasn't telling me. But that would make sense, she could have called Em to keep her company he would have kept her safe.

I shook my head this was so twisted I was the wolf and I couldn't do my basic function in life I was pitiful."I just want to see her, I can deal with him after." I tried to keep my voice from quivering but I failed as I hear Sam sigh before wrapping an arm around me pulling me into a gentle hug before letting go. When I looked up there was Carlisle his gentle golden eyes looked at me as sorrow filled them as he took in my sorry state no doubt.

I was still in my sweat-drenched work clothes, my canvas boots covered in mud as saw dust decorated every inch of my clothes. "Well doc what is the word?" i stood up and looked at him, he was winter white and I couldn't tell if it was because of his worthy of hoe I would react to his news. "Emmett got ot her in time so she wasn't bitten. But she does have a fractured ankle, so she will limp for a few days but she should be fine. She also has a pretty bad 3rd degree concussion. She can't be asleep for longer then a 1 or 2 after that she had to be woken up and and she lost some blood, there was a gash her in head from when she hit her head on her bottom is lucky." I let out a sigh as I tipped my head back sending a silent pray to my ancestors. "Thank you for for saving my girl"

I let out this exhausted sigh before looking at Carlisle hopeful for a good answer to the question that I was about to ask. "Can I see her." I looked at him and he is nodded his head at me giving me this kind smile before opening the large white double doors that lead further into the ER.I could feel the whole pack at my back as I walked past doctors who were running around trying to diagnose their patient. I floated effortlessly as I made my way to Bella scent that was mixed between hers and Emmett's. A forest pine smell clung to the air.

When I opened the large cream colored door I was met with the sight of a dark yet large hospital room. Bella laid up in the bed with her foot slightly elevated as a thick white bandage was wrapped around it. Her eyelids fluttering as she slept with a gash stick tube up in her right temple. Sitting next to her bed was Emmett large form as he gently stroke her hand that he was admitting from every pore of his undead body.

This complaint and platonic loving look filled his eyes as he slowly turns his head when he hears me shifting in the room. He stood up almost immediately wrapping me up in a hug before I could say a word. Bella was right the guy love to give bone crushing hugs. But I didn't mind this time usually I would push him off of me but I couldn't tell him how grateful I was that he saved her."Thanks for saving her man." I pulled out of the hug and slapped him on the back but he simply shrugged his shoulders like it was no big deal. "Hey what are friends for. She was awake a little early told me what happened, it's fucked up you know."

I didn't know what the hell he was talking about and that was evident by the confined expression that forms on my face. But he didn't have time to explain himself further because the red of the pack filed into the room. Kim and Jared were standing off to the side as Emily clung to Sam's side as he moved further into the room. Jake and Embry leaned on any other side of the door like they were uncomfortable. Emmett's dad looked at him giving him a look that said time to leave. "I let her talk but we gotta to hang out I'll get something that the pack might find useful."

I looked at him but nodded my head pushing my fist out and he hit my fist right back with his ice cold one before running out. I still called over my shoulder once more, "Thanks for saving my girl." He just shrugged it off again as I moved to sit in the chair that Emmett had left vacant. My eyes were drawn to Bella as I saw her sweet face. I wanted to caress her cheek but I figure that I had caused enough damage today. So I simply watched her sleep till her eyes flutter open and tears started to well into her eyes and she giving me this adoring look."Paul….thank god you are here." Her voice cracked after she said my name before continuing to speak.

She didn't once let her gaze slip from mine, her amazing chocolate brown eyes taking in every detail of my face. Not once letting me think that she was angry or disappointed in me for not being there."Sorry for causing so much trouble I know that I should have stayed on the rez but I am just so tired of people saying that there is something wrong with our relationship. It really gets on my nerves so when Embry said that shit I couldn't help but leave. I knew that I should have gone back to your house but after what happened this morning I didn't want to be rid of you. So I left but I am so sorry that I worried you."

I glare at her completely in shock I don't even know how to begin to start, I was the one that failed her not the other way around. Yet she was the one that apologized to me. "Bella baby you didn't do anything wrong, you left and I should have been threat protect you, I'm just lucky that Emmett was able to pick up my slack I'm sorry for failing, the moment that I felt that pain in my head I should have rushed over to you.I don't deserve to call myself your mate." She frowned at me for a meant her start not hard like i would have thought. But gentle and loving an she started to bust out into laughter forcing me to look at her completely dumbfounded. "You're such a idiot this isn't your fault you goof, I should have stayed on the rez but then again that was Embry fault"

She gave me a sly smirk that told me she was kidding and don't actually blame Embry. But I did I was angry I failed sure and that was on me but he could have at least tried to stop her and I know that he didn't/ I looked at Embry snarling at him resist the urge to rip his fucking throat out. I knew that my eyes were starting to turn red when I got this burning sensation in them for only a moment before it went my blood lust was getting out of control that meant that Sam would lecture me later tonight about getting better control of myself but I was so done with the control. It was good to give in every once in a while though. "Do I still have to run patrol with him this time I really do think that I will kill him."

I knew my voice was low and menacing but I couldn't help it, I was beyond pissted and scared out of my mind about what would happen if I left Bella's side ever again. When I met Sammy's eyes they are sad and understanding light in his eyes. He knew what it felt like to have your mate in harm's way and I know that he would at least give it a decent minute of thought but the moment that the corner of his mouth started to twitch downward like he was getting ready to say no. I knew that I wasn't going to get to stay with her. "You can't blow off patrol for me, you really think that it's wise to leave two pups by themselves on patrol, you have to be out of your mind in grief. I'm fine you should go." I hear Bella soft yet amused voice as I turn back to her.

This fire of determination flickered in her eyes as this sly smirk formed on her face, before I could even say a word the door slammed open and Kimmy was standing there out of breath. She was doubled over panting as her blond hair was a horrible mess, her deep copper skin was covered in layer of sweet as she looked up her eyes were glowing gold for a moment before disappearing. "Sorry, got here as fast as I could."

I smiled lightly, as Bella giggled beside me and squeezed my head lovingly before looking up early at me. "You should go you need the run anyway, Kimmy can keep me company till my dad picks me up…." "Even then I'm not letting you out of my sight, unlike Embry." She snapped at him before skipping over to my seat and punched me playfully in the arm. "Go I got this, plus you're not going anywhere right, Sammy." She looks up with these wide innocent puppy eyes but she knew exactly how he felt about people outside the family calling him Sammy.

Sam rolled his eyes as this sneer formed on his face, he hated it when she called him Sammy, because he knew that she was just making fun of him and Sam hates being made fun of."Yes and stop calling me that it pisses me off. Jared can you take the girl back to the rez we don't want to overwhelm Bella." I looked at Sam grateful for that he simply walks over to the left side of the bed and sat down in the vacant chair. Smiling gently at Bella as this protectiveness formed in his eyes. I guess he blamed himself to. "When you get home I'll be close by in the forest surrounding your house. You will be fine." Bella smiled wide at him but didn't say a word she waited for Jared and the others to walk out of the room before saying something. "Can I brush your fur."

I and Kimy busted out into laughter as Sam cocked his head to the side in confusion, he looked at me this confused and irritated look on his face as we counted to laugh at him. My guess is that he didn't find any of this funny. "What?" It was the only thing that he managed to croak out before I and Kimmy started to break out into another fit of laughter. Bella slapped my arm telling me to shut up but it was half-hearted she was enjoying Sams confusion as much as us.

But after a moment and we had called down she spoke again only this time she spoke more slowly. Like Sam was a confused child that simply couldn't understand her. "Can. . . You know when you are in wolf form." I felt Sam confusion lesson but there was this sinking sweet order in the air that I knew was his embarrassment. "No way."His cooper skin turns a bright red as he looked over Bella trying to figure out if she was serious. I know that Bella could tell that he wasn't going to change his mind so I eat a thick fake stream of tears ran down her face.

"Please, Sammy it's the least you can do since you couldn't get me to stay on the rez." I smiled at Bella's antics before kissing her head gently and looking at Sam. My eyes flash red for moment before I smirked at him. "Might as well agree to it, she will do it either way and if you snapped at her there are going to be some problem. By babe Ill be back after my patrol, there's no way I'm going to that stupid bonfire" Before Sam could order me to go I ran out of the room and out of the hospital but not before running into my mother. Good old mom, now I had to deal with her shit. "Sweety what are you doing here." Her amber eyes began to fill up with both question and concern she really thought that one day I will snap at work and attack would have been bullshit if that didn't already happened a few months ago.

I knew that if I brought up Bella she would say that the girl is just a nuisance and put herself in here. Even though my mother like Bella she hated what we did to jake and sometimes she lets that show. Which is why I tired to keep the Bella talk to a minimum around her."Nothing just someone I know got hurt I was paying my respect. Look I really can't talk I got patrol with Embry and Jake gotta to go." Before she could say another word I hope on my bike and revived the engine do wring out the sound of the birds singing before driving off. I pulled out of the parking lot but this time I did the speed limit until I hear a honking. I looked up from the black asphalt road that leads to la push to see Charlie's cop cruiser pulling to the side of the road.

I really didn't have time to do this Sam would kill me if I didn't get to La Push but at the same time I wasn't in the mood to have Jake and Embery in my head just yet. I pulled off to the edge and hopped off of my bike before walking over the the cop car. The brown and white paint seems to shine a little brighter in the summer sun. It was internet though pulling up to a cruiser instate of the other way around. The irony isn't lost on me but at the moment, my thought were with Bella. I shook my head trying to get the image of Bella in that hospital bed out of my mind when Charlies brown eyes look over me, they are critical and cold. "Where are you going." I sighed at his angry tone made me feel bad for Bella. "I wanted to stay with Bells but I have to be back to work, I have my brother and our friend Kimmy looking after her. I didn't want to go but Bella told me to. I tried to argue but you know how stubborn she can be."

I looked at Charlie's his hair, sticking out in all directions as his eyes scanned my face widely to see if I was lying or something. I don't know but he had a lot more of gray hair theses days. Must have been some long nights and strange cases leaving him stumped. I shook my head sadly he must have been racking his brain on some kind of case. "Yeah I suppose she does, how is she?"

I smiled at him glad to get my mind off of vamp stuff for a while, I shifted m body so that I could look at the hospital off in the distance. "Not that bad, she as a cut on her scalp from falling down the stairs, a 3rd-degree concussion and a fraction ankle. says she will limp for a few days but she is fine. You heading over that way to see her right." I watch this small simple form on his face and the worry lines started to leave his face. Though he did seem paler.

His eyebrows twisted as the same chocolate brown eyes as Bella did one last look at me."You know at first I wished that she would have stayed with Jake, not you. But you grew on me kid, you were what she needs a kick in the ass to get her out of the slump that her mother death put her in. You take good care of her and that is all that matter to me. I'm heading over there now but I can't say there was a murder up in Seattle that I agreed to help investigate. Your brother or friend willing to stay with her." I chuckled, they weren't going to let her out of their sight. "Yeah of course but be careful Charlies, your Bellas whole world." I just watched Charlie smile at me for a moment before waking off.

By the time that I got to the forest lien and shifted the pained thoughts of Emery entered my mind. I started to thrust into the forest deeper taking in the sent of the warm forest air and the moss that littered the red oaks. I did my usual run by myself letting my paws sink deep into the black soil as I stared out to break out into a run. The sounds o rabbits and other small game were running through the bushes and trees. It was all so peaceful that I let my thought go blank just letting my mind focus on the feeling of running.

If there was one head that no one has seen into that's mine and that's how I wanted to keep it. I run to the creek the natural barrier between our land and the Cullen's land. I let out this exhausted sigh what I wouldn't give to just lay down and take a rest for a moment. My muscle aches from work and the stress that I was under at the hospital that I could have done without. "He's not going to kill you, you heard Sam this morning, he ordered him to play nice. Which means he is incapable of breaking that order.-Jake."

I rolled my eyes I was hoping that I was out of their range but I can hear their thought which means that they are close. I started to run trying to get as far away from them as possible as this false sense of calm washed over me. Embry the fucking idiot he didn't really think that I can't fight the order did he. I had the alpha gene just like Sam, just like Jake. If you try to fight hard enough there is a way around it for that I would be dumb enough to go against sam that is like a death sentence. "Just great so you can still kill me.-Embry."

I stopped running at the end of a barrier as a whimper ripped into my mind and the flashes of gray and red forming in front of my eyes. I locked my jaw and allowed my eyes it take over their bodies. Both Jake and Embry were both ways too small to take me on but together, maybe there would be some trouble not that I wanted to fight them. I would be the one to blame. "I have no interest in running over talking to either of you so if you don't mind I'm going back to running alone. I'll take the south you two take the north and try to keep off the Cullen land. They might be cool with me but Edward has some serious hate for all of us. Especially you and I Jake so watch it.-Me"

With that I took off I didn't want to have to talk to them any longer then I need to, but I heard the thundering of paws behind me an I knew that they were following after me. I didn't need the image of them staring at my hind legs to tell me that they were following me. "Is there a reason that the two of you are following me.-me" I didn't stop running I just keep going jumping effortlessly over logs and fallen tree like I had done this thousands of times before. Which I had done I mean there were some perks of being a wolf for 2 years. I watched as memories of me and Sam talking flashed through my mind the only problem was that they weren't my memorise. I watched Sam and me speaking about Jake and it forced me to cringe just letting my mind slip for a second as feeling so guilt and pain rolled over the hive mind. "Dammit!-Me" I put my wall back up and ran faster this time outrunning the both of them they weren't used to running on 4 legs instead of 2.

Within second I was out of sight of them, I could hear a whimper that sound like it was coming from Jake but Embry was the one that's mind flashed in mine as he spoke. "I think him choosing to not kill me is even worse that means that there was something coming down on me down the road.-Embry" I guess they must have forgotten that even though he was talking to Jake, I could still hear his thoughts. "I don't know but I am confused how can I hate someone that is in that much pain he doesn't make this fair.-Jake" Jake let out another whimper and I was worried that something was wrong but as I enter into Embry mind I could see Jake laying on the ground his head on his front legs as his tail curled around him. I shook my head they were supposed to be patrol to the north.

Once I had finished checking the northern and eastern barrier I made my way back to the north, someone should be patrolling and it shouldn't be those kids. I shook my head as I felt two minds entering my own I must have ran out of telepathic range. "There you are we have been freaking out-Embry" I heard the sound of his pain as memories flashed into my minds. A vampire with fiery red hair was shooting fireballs at them as he ran over the boundary and didn't look back. It must have been neither one of the leeches heading to Seattle. "Why didn't you chase after him.-Me"

I felt my anger rolled over the hive mind causing the two of them to whimper but I didn't care they should have killed that thing, it would have been one less threat to the girls. I shook my head and ran at full speed till I was staying right in front of a small russet brown wolf and a gray and black wolf. I shook my hand sadly. "You two are idiots what the hell were you thinking letting him go, jeez what has Sam been teaching you?-Me"

My voice rang with anger but I wasn't really pissted at them at least not to take my focus off of Bella. But now I am sure that they were going to tell the nest about our new members. Which will take away from the surprise of our numbers which I doubt will affect us that much in the long run. Unless they choose not to move up there plans now that would be a problem but it is too late to harp on it me."Well it's time for the bonfire and its mandatory.-Jake." I shook my head sadly and looked into his golden eyes for a moment before letting out a large sigh "I'm not going Jakey I have to be with Bella shift and head back to Emily's I'm sure that she is cooking for the bonfire. Later-Me"

I took off I know that Bella had to be back at her house by now and I couldn't help but let my thoughts drift to her. The last time that we take we had gotten it a huge blow out fight before heading out Emily. I let out a sigh as I let the memories float back into my mind.

Flashback

I watched her get dress in her room as some Thousand Miles played on her iPod dock, it was one of the few songs that I didn't agree with her on. But more importantly, my mind was with the new pack members. We were going to have to have a bonfire for Embry and Jake but didn't I want to go. Did he want me to be there probably even want to kill me, which I could understand why? The prize for world's worst brother definitely would go to me. "Hello, Pauly" I looked up to see this aggravated look on Bella's face as she stomped her foot on the ground and anger lines start to form on the corner of her mouth. "Sorry, what did you say, babe."

I looked at her, hair chocolate brown curls hang loosely on her face as she slowly pulled her hair up in a hug messy bun. She glared at met before shaking her head like she was trying to blow off the fact that I wasn't paying attention to her. "Nothing just forget what I said, oh wait you cant forget what I said because you weren't even listening." Her own voice was snarky and rude and I was trying to be nice but I had other things to think about than her shit. "Isabella look at me." I made my voice boom as she let out a moan and turned to look at me. Both her hands on her hips as I slowly rose from her back and kissed her neck then her cheek. "No Paul you're not going to make my anger go away by seducing me."

I let out a low groan before pulling away and sitting in her desk chair while looking at a picture of her and Jake when they went to some street fair way back. What the hell did she even still have the stupid ass picture. I simply turn around and looked at her for a moment before sighing."I'm sorry if I wasn't paying attention to your insignificant problems seeing as how my brother hates me and wants to kill me. But please let's talk about you." She looked at me wide eyes for a moment before snarling and slamming her foot in the ground before walking over to me. Nothing but rage in her eyes. "I asked would you please come with me to Phoenix next week to see my mother's grave it will be the anniversary of her death. But you are right it is insignificant compare to your alive brother that at least has the choice to want you dead."

I felt guilty crawl into my throat as she looked at me nothing but angry tears filled her eyes as I felt her disgust and rage hit me like a cannonball. When she spun sound on the heels to run away from me I grabbed her wrist yanking back on her arms as she looked at me. "Don't touch me you lost that right now let go Paul or so help my god." I scoffed at her threat what the hell was she going to do dump me, maybe sleep with my brother.I watched her eyes widen in shock as she looked at me.

"You did not just think that" Fuck this stupid bond now I got her in my mind to. "I regret never telling Jake. I should have told him I fell in love with his piece of shit self-absorbed brother who only thinks about himself and thinks that everyone else's problems taker a back know what fuck off and get out of my house."

I snarled at her and stood my hand still firmly place on her waist as my other hand gripping her chin forcing her to look at me. I saw nothing but hate and anger in her eyes as she looked me like I was nothing but a piece of shit that wasn't worth her time. "Well, you are so maybe you should get to stepping bitch." I scoffed at her, watch a few movies and now she thinks that she is a gangster. I growled at her.

"I never said that my suffering was greater than your, but you're such a train wreck that you are used to begin every once center of attention. It was funny I'm not allowed to be upset after you basically destroying what little family I had left. But I'm the piece of shit and not you." I watched her eyes pop from shock as she cocked her fist back ready to punch me but I caught it with were there in a stalemate just simply looking at each other when my phone went off. I let out a snarl of aggression as I looked down at the called id. "Sam"

I shook my head and answered the phone and his voice rang out over the sound of pots and pans clanging in the background.I heard Emily giggle as I snarled lowly I didn't have time for this. "Watch yourself,Paul I just wanted to tell you that we are having a pack meeting tonight be there and bring Bella. No more of this bullshit the imprints need to bury the hatchet just like you and Embry got that." I noticed how he didn't say Jakes name, which meant that he thought Jake still had the right to be pissed at me and I couldn't agree even more. "Yup we will be there.

End of the flashback

"Wow that looked horrible so are you guys good now-Embry" Mother fucker I thought that I was out of telepathic range which meant if he saw that then Jake saw it. Shit, this is just my fucking luck. I don't want him to see into my mind for reason that were my own. "Like what I would be glad to hear them-Jake" When I looked up to see his russet brown wolf and he didn't look like he was moving. This was so annoying I didn't have time for this I had some serious apologizing to do and now it wasn't just for Bella. This was going to be a long night and I can't say that I was happy about that.