A.N: Hey guys!!

Thanks for the nice reviews so here is chapter 4. I know i know it's a pretty short chapter but it's because of the way the story is "cut" but since you are so sweet with me and all that i'll give you chapter 5 on sunday and it will be EXTRA long i promise!!

Don't forget to review as they make me feel so good =) and so i won't go Strigoi lmao.

Chapter 4:

Andre looked at me with both surprise and strong disapproval.

"Oh cut me some slack Andre!" I said aggressively and back to concentrating on the road again. I wanted to slap myself for asking such a stupid question since it clearly showed that I didn't value my own life so much.

I parked at the far end of the diner's parking lot and switched my position in order to face Andre. At least nobody will come bother me...I'll just be the crazy chick talking to herself! Oh Well…I couldn't care less.

"So...How soon?" I asked again as I was scared to be taken down before having the chance to even see Dimitri.

Andre shrugged.

"What do you mean by …" and I imitated his shrugging.

He shrugged again.

I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and pinched the bridge of my nose for a minute. Calm down Rose… Don't take your frustration out on him. Don't make him go away…I thought trying to canalize my anger.

I opened my eyes again to find him still staring at me.

"Are you here to help me then?"

He nodded.

Yes! Finally something going my way, I thought excitedly. "Do you know where Dimitri is?" I asked straight away. There was no need or time to play games.

He shook his head negatively.

Fuck! "Can…can you find him?"

He shook his head again

"How come you can't? Your useless-" I stopped and clenched my teeth, "Can you at least try to find him?"

He shook his head again.

"Uh huh… ok… So I'm going to die then?" I asked smugly knowing I better drop the whole Dimitri subject for now as I would probably snap if he shook his spineless head once more.

He nodded

"Soon?"

He nodded again.

"Well it won't be a first will it?" I asked with a little humorless laugh. "Anywho… the question is will I have the time to do what I have to do before I die?" I asked sounding far more detached then I felt. But his answer didn't really matter since I would try anyways.

He shrugged, which made me even angrier. If he was physically here I would probably have snapped his Moroi neck.

"You don't know much do you?" I asked rhetorically. "You won't be really helpful. But… How come you can't track the Strigoi nest? I'm pretty sure you were around the school when the attack happened right?"

He nodded

"So?? You couldn't follow them?" I asked impatiently.

This whole questioning was really using the little patience I had left. "Did they block you?" I asked randomly making fun of him really. So I was surprised to see him nod.

"Block you? Block you how?" I asked finally curious again.

He looked pointedly at me and showed me his hands moving his fingers.

"Magic?" I asked my voice full of disbelief.

He nodded.

"Damn! How… How did they manage that?"

He shrugged.

"You know Andre I love you I really do…" I said as my voice didn't really reflect that feeling, "but why on earth did you come to me? Sorry, but you are not really useful as a "help"" I said with deception.

He shook his head

"What? You didn't come to help?"

He crooked his neck.

"You… I don't get it why-?" Suddenly it seemed to fall into place. "Did… Did someone send you to help?"

He nodded.

"Who? Who?" I asked wanting to know who could control ghosts.

He shook his head.

"You can't tell me?" I asked dubiously.

He shook his head negatively again.

"Well… thank you for all this useful information." I said with heavy sarcasm. "Now I know I'm going to die, but news flash! I knew that already!!" I sighed heavily "well... You can go back to whoever summoned you and tell them that you suck! As for me, I need some food and a strong coffee thank you very much." I added leaving the car without a look behind.

Stupid freaking unreliable ghost! I thought angrily.

As I ate I couldn't help to think about the small pieces of information I got from Andre. Someone sent him to help me… Protect me. I pressed my lips together. I didn't know anyone who could control spirits like that and… and who knew that sending Andre Dragomir was the best way to attract my attention since I knew him since I was 5? He was like a brother to me on so many levels.

Could it be Lissa? Or Adrian? I never heard of a spirit user could actually "control" ghosts…St. Vladimir couldn't. Well, based on the small amount of documents I studied.

I shook my head it just didn't make any sense.

I finally looked up to see two truckers who were trying to make eye contact, but also trying to keep their eyes on my breasts.

I shot them such a dark look that they looked down in a heartbeat.

I concentrated my attention on my plate again, but couldn't help the small smile from forming.

I didn't lose it…I'm still terrifying. I thought discreetly looking at them. They were talking to each other while glancing at me from the side.

A little part of me wished they would be waiting for me in the parking lot. With my training and my natural strength I could take two human men without even getting breathless and god knew I needed a fight.

It was far easier for me to be enraged than to let the whole extent of my pain and despair surface.

I was furious at myself for leading the guardians to the caves where the Strigoi were. If I didn't, the others would have been lost forever, but my Dimitri would be safe and I hated myself for being so selfish. I hated myself for abandoning Lissa and my destiny. I hated Lissa for begging me to stay, for blaming me of abandoning her, for not understanding that I needed to go to war. I hated Andre for being the most useless ghost ever, and above all I hated Dimitri for breaking every promise he ever made to me. 'I won't let you', 'I'll always be there for you'

"Bullshit!" I shouted out loud only realizing I did when all the eyes in the diner turned to me with a 'maybe-she-is-crazy' look that I knew only too well.

I mumbled some pathetic excuses before concentrating on my newly refilled cup of coffee.

I walked back to the parking lot slowly looking around, but disappointed to see that the two douche bags didn't follow me.

Man… Ehhh I probably can manage a little fight in Spokane... It's a big enough city. I thought trying to cheer myself up.

As I unlocked the door I could see that Andre wasn't there anymore.

"Geez he was so helpful…" I said to myself rolling my eyes.

I quickly glanced at my watch. I would probably make it to Spokane by the end of the afternoon…. Maybe too late to start investigating, but… well worse case scenario tomorrow would be another day and well it will be soon enough to find out if I was getting closer or if I was facing another dead end…. my last lead.

I bit my bottom lip. Yeah… I was not in such a hurry after all.