Chapter 44 Heartless Bitch

Kimmy POV

Seeing him like that, a shell of the man that I knew, the man that I knew the one that saved me was long gone. The man that made the pack seem like something exciting but now without him seemed had a right to feel that he wanted to. But they all thought that he was being selfish,but they had no idea and the only person that knew the real reason he didn't hold back i sitting in the house talking shit.

Then there was Bella how could she not follow after him,how could she be so cruel as to fight there bond. To slightly silently while the guys dissed him. I thought telling him that Bella was sick could get him running back to the pack but he didn't even blink. Now I see that I was wrong he be the one to swallow his pride he had been swallowing his feelings for a year.

I looked up to see that Bella' Russett organ truck pulled up next to Jared Triumph Daytona 955i bike. The sleek red bike glowing in the sunlight. Any other time I would have admired it but now all I wanted to do was scream and yell at them for being so heartless. As I broke into the door I doubled over panting heavily I ran all the way here in human form that was a good 20 miles deep in the forest. The fuck was I thinking, I kept my head bowed as I tried to catch my breath.

"Good timing cuz we were just going to call you say hi to Quil." I slammed my head up and looking over each of the guys till my eyes rest on the new kid. He was a little lanky to me I thought we needed muscle not more untrained pups. He had to be the smallest one here other than Seth. But give him a year and some good eating and I'm sure that kid will buff up.

Then there was Jake, he had these thick teeth marks on his neck that was still healing, soon it just disappeared. But the damage he did to Paul psyche would stay for a lifetime. "Your such a piece of shit."

I let my eyes glow gold as he looked at me this confused look on his face. "What the hell are you talking about Kimmy, run into your little boyfriend." I look over to Bella who was sitting still at the table, talking avidly to Emily like she didn't have a car in the world. t

"Yeah I did, you are a horrible person and you should all be lucky to breath the same air as him. Leah was he a piece of shit when he held you when you were crying over sam. Or when he went after Sam punching him so hard he shattered every bone in his arm and had to sit out a whole season of football for you. Or when he took your brother to the hospital when he was getting bullied at school."

I heard her take in a deep sigh as he stopped breathing simply staring at me in shock before I turned to see Seth letting out a sharp whimper. Was I not supposed to tell his sister that. "Oh he didn't tell you that he got pushed down a few flights of stairs and Paul not only drove the kid to the hospital but kicked the guys been bullied once since then have you Seth."

I look at him and he shook his head no salt before trying his head away from me in shame. But I wasn't nearly done, I turned out Bella who hadn't even bothered to look up from her conversation with Emily. Who was talking home redesign for upstairs or something?

Just watching her there, being normal and happy pissted me off more then any trash talking could. He was depressed and in his wolf form 24/7 and she couldn't even be bothered to think about him. "You, you're almost as bad as Jake, shutting off your connection to him when he is hurting, telling him that he is being selfish. You have no idea how much shit he's caught for you. Go head Jake tell them, tell them."

I snarl wildly a Jake and him glare at me angrily, I could see that he thought his actions were just sided. But nothing just wanting your brother to kill himself. "Everything I said was justified, after what he did he should be lucky that I didn't say worse so keep your fucking mouth shut. It's not like he took any of it seriously."

He couldn't serious he obviously didn't see the same man that I did, I shifted my glare to Sam he had to know. But as I looked at the confused and hatful expression on his face I knew that he had no clue. Always the doting big brother just never to Paul.

"I want to see everyone outside shift now god dammit." I looked at them and Jared touched my shoulder gently. I yanked it away from him "Your the worse you were his best friend get your ass outside I want to show all of you." I looked at Bella's back, not bother to look at me but I could tell she wanted to know what was going on by how rigid her posture got.

I jumped out the house, imply taking in a few deep breath, letting the cool yet humid air clean out my senses. Then I shifted something in me snapping as I was met with angry thought for the pack. Sam snarling as he commands everyone to shut up before trying to me. I could tell by the demanding air that he was ordering me to talk.

I scoffed as my anger rolled over the hive mind. "See for yourself, what kind of man he is-Me" I took in a deep breath and let the memories of earlier run in my mind, bit and piece of our conversation filter into my mind.

"He said that my father should have beaten me to death, that I was better off dead, that I was a waste of valuable oxygen and I should just go kill myself before I hurt someone else. All I could do was grin and bare it. I would apologize and say how sorry I was for ruining his life. Then I would have to go on like everything was normal. When all I wanted it really do was crumple up into a ball and cry. Me of all people crying."

I felt pain fill my heart and work its way into my mind. Seeing him like that was enough to make me cry but it was the next part that truly broke my heart.

"Sometimes I wonder why I wouldn't just let Edward kill me. If it eases his pain then I guess I should do it. What is the point of living if someone that you love more than life wants to see you dead. Sometimes I still think I should just end it. Hell I had that thought running through my mind when mom looked at me like I was something to be hated…..Kimmy please go I can't cry in front of you I just can't." His sadness hit me hard as I pulled my mind back to the present.

I let out a painstaking whimper as I felt shock and anger rolled over the hive mind, the anger and shock were there. The crippling pain and sadness was mind, I had to blink rapidly to keep my tears from streaming down into my fur. "You're all jerks it's that simple I get that what he did was beyond fucked up. But it takes two to fight. He was been swallowing Jakes shit for a year. He couldn't take much more of it."

I looked at Jake letting my lips curl in disgust as I bared my fangs at him, a low snarl escaping my lips as I watched him bow his head. Refusing to meat anyone's gazes let's see how proud of his actions he is now. I shifted back into my human form as I hear shifting on the porch.

Bella seems so small without Paul near her, I took in a deep breath simply standing there naked for a moment. I didn't care if the guys saw me but it need to be said. "Just to let you know basically Jake told Paul that his dad should beat him to death and that he was worthless and better off dead. The response I got from Paul was that he should have let Edward kill him and he still thinks about killing himself because there is no point in living when someone you love more then life hates you. That was the man that you decided to give up on."

I watched her cold mask crumple away as she dropped to the knees, pulling them up to her chest as she began to cry. My body surged forward to confront her but fuck that shit. She deserves to feel a little bit of hip pain. I shifted back into my wolf form, only to be met with Sam alpha command running over them. "Do what you want I'm going to make sure that Paul doesn't kill himself."

I ran off at full speed the way that Paul spoke, the way that he acted told me that he might do something stupid. I knew that he loves himself way too much to do that but it seems like things were spiraling out of control for him. I ran further letting my legs burn as I ran further and farther till I caught his scent leaving Forks.

The red oaks faded out of my line of sight as pine trees formed, the smell of snow approaching was heavy in the air. I had even just ran passed a moose, he was leaving this was Canada. Was he really leaving forks over this?

I kept running he couldn't leave after everything, he just couldn't. I kept running till I saw it. Paul laying in a deep crimson red pool of blood, with a pal figure looming over him. The man lips curled back as he snarled and leaned in close to Paul. Only stopping when he saw me standing in front of them. The cold glint in his golden eyes as he smiled wicked at me. "Do you mind I was just about to eat your little friend here." Before I could even say a word Paul snapped up and ripped his head off.

He looked back to me, confusion hug in the air as he wobbled towards me, his front leg was bloody but fine, "It's not my blood I just got a good whack of my head, the blood is from an elk I had hunted up here. What you doing back, I told you not to come back." Paul sounded so broken but his shock seems to keep him up he began to run.

"Never mind we can talk about it later come on we should go before his friends show up." I nodded, ignoring the searing pain I was in as I started to run. Though it took a lot of energy I let out a shaky breath as I tired to speak to Paul. "Where are you going." i looked at Paul but he didn't even pretend like he hear me, he just kept going. After 20 minutes he finally spoke in a hazy and exhausted voice."I have to get back on tribe land, it's the only place safe. Come on."

We ran for hours before we came to a tall red house snuggled deep in the woods, still on tribe land but far from any other house or even civilization. The three-story house was red with a black trim. It was almost impossible to make out the house with the coverage provided by the red oaks.

There was a motorcycle sitting in the paved driveway, it was a black chopper with the image of a silver timber wolf bathing in the moonlight next to a black female timber wolf. Next to it sat a chevy dodge ram truck, it was black and glossy the thing looked armored. Then I was hit with a smell of cinnamon and winter pine. It was a familiar scent but as Paul shifted and slipped his pair of shorts on he didn't say a word. Phased slipping my close on as I surged forward as he wobbly on his feet in threatening to tip over. "What are we doing here?"

"What do you think that you were the only one that visited him in the forest?" I snapped my head up to see Danny was crawling out from the underbelly of his truck. Shifting his bright green gaze to look Paul up and down. A worried frown appearing on his face as the scent of concern filled the air.

"What happened?" A groan escaped Pauls lips as he spoke to his father, "Nothing dad I'm fine I just need to lie down for a little bit." He sighed heavily as Danny moved over to us in two short strides. "Kimmy be a dear and tell me that is going one." I sighed and looked at Paul who had this loo that scream keep your mouth shut, but I couldn't if he was injured. "He was attack by a vampire when he was hunting."

"Dammit Kimmy why would you tell him that, now he going get all..." "All what worried about you, yeah that tends to happen with my pup gets hurt." "I'm not a pup don't call me that." Paul seemed to pout as his father laughed gently at him. "Whatever you say bud."

He moved over to Paul running a gently head through his head like he was trying to find something. "There no bump which means that you aren't going to have a concussion. But you have been eating nothing but meat, elk and bear isn't going to do it for you. Come one I'll make you something to eat while you rest in your room."

Paul nodded his head not even bothering to argue which was new for him, I felt awkward standing here when they were having a personal moment. But Danny turned over to me giving me a gentle smile that lit up his sparkling green eyes."Thank you for looking after him, I know that he can be a handful." I giggled at the statement like he was talking about a toddler and not a teenager.

I helped him carry Paul up the stairs before gently laying him on the bed. Paul letting out this content hiss as his back hit the cool sheets. I'm sure that it was better than laying on the warm forest ground at night. "So why did you come back? Why were you looking for me?" I look at Paul for a moment taking his exhausted form.

I thought that he would have a harder or thin from since he isn't eating as much as he used to when he was in human from all the time. But he looked more ton I think that he got more muscle. But I guess when you eat red meat all the time and basically run and hunt your days away you tend to buff up. His biceps were thicker and his calves were more tones.

"I see you checking me out Kimmy but you haven't answer the question." I sighed and looking over my shoulder to make sure that his dad wasn't there which he wasn't. "I was worried after what you told me, about..." Paul put his hand up

"My dad already know the truth about all of it about debating suicide, he hunted me down after everything happen and demanded to know what happened. Eventually he worked his way into my memories after house of bugging me. The truth wasn't pretty let me tell you and he didn't take it well either."

I sighed and nodded my head that would make this a lot easier to talk about,"Anyway I was worried that you might kill yourself so I hunted you down, thank god that I did. Anyway, I hope you won't get mad at me but I showed the pack my memories of our talk. When I left hey we're in an uproar."

I heard him let out a content sigh as he pulled me closer to him with one of his arms. He pulled me close to his chest his warmth spreading over me as he let out a breath he had been holding me. I thought that he might yell at me not hug me that was a big shock. "Thanks but you didn't need to."

I sighed and nodded my head as his dad came in the room this slight smile on his face. "Here Paul eat this and then get some rest." I looked at the plate to see that there was a thick t-bone steak, with mashed potatoes, yellow rice and broccoli. "Dad..." Paul whined like a little kid forcing me to laugh lightly.

"You know that I hate broccoli." Dany chuckled as Paul sat up taking the plate from him before Danny shifted to look at me. "Come on Kimmy I made a plate for you too." I nodded my head throwing Paul one last glance when worry crept into my chest."Are you fine alone, I'm not going to walk up the stairs to find you gone am I?"

Danny laughed at me as his green eyes lighting up with both joys and worry, "He can't, he did that the first night when I told him to stay. I had to put alarms on his window so I know if he is trying to sneak out."

Paul frowned like he didn't find that amusing at all but he let out a long heavy breast before tearing into his food. Not paying either of us any more attention then he had to. I walked down the stairs shaking my head sadly before looking at Danny strong back as he moved around the house. "Sit."

I took a seat at the dining room table and watched him move around the kitchen till there was a loaded plate sitting in front of me. Danny simply leaned against the wall looking out the window there was a perfect view of the forest line from here. Was he worried that the pack would come looking for Paul. I'm sure in his day they killed wolves that left the pack. "Do you know what happened with him and Bella at Phoenix."

I looked up as I shoved a large helping of steak into my mouth as I chew vigorously I had a scoop of buttery mashed potato already on my fork. Swallowing it down as he spoke. "Yeah I do, he hasn't told you yet?" I sighed, shaking my head no, my mind drifts out that mess two days ago that felt like a lifetime ago.

"When I brought it up he blew it off and told me about the things that Jake said to him was the reason that he lost it. That it had nothing to do with the trip, so he didn't even bother talking about it. After that he started to get choked up and asked if I would leave. He said he refused to let me see him cry."

He sighed before resting in the chair, laying his head on his folded hand and taking in a deep upset breath. "Well I'll give you the short run down then, he can give you the one explanation when he wakes up. When there plane landed they went to her mother grave and then back to the house. Where he met her family the only problem is that not only did they not approve of Paul they hated him for one thing that couldn't change."

I looked up confused for the moment before choking on some of my broccoli, he could be serious. "Your kidding me her family is racist and they what? Treated him like dirt." He scoffed and shook his head sadly. "I wish that was all they did, they treated him below human, hazed him, said every racist name and joke in the book at him. Bella rose to his defense but she couldn't be around him 24/7"

"Paul knew that they were really only there for Bella to have time to mourn her mother death so he didn't want to take away from that. He never spoke up, never called then intolerant or assholes or filthy humans. He didn't attack them he didn't say a damn thing and son Bella stopped rising to his offense. I have never seen that boy cry and you know our checkered past. Your know what the two of us have been through."

I nodded my head I was shocked when Paul told me but it was hard to control the inner wolf, and sometimes it can seize control at times and I know that personally. Sometimes my wolf wanted me to kill my father because he was an outsider and sometimes I don't always win that fight. So I got the struggle of it.

"Yeah he did, I get it the inner wolf is hard to tame, trust me I know better than most." I watched Danny give me a sad smile before nodding his head. "Paul mentioned your wolf and your situation with your father. But not once had he ever cared, not even when he woke up from that comma."

"So holding my crying son put me in a rage, he didn't even cry when he was born the doc was worried that he was dead. But between Jake, his mother and that stress from that trip he spent the better part of 2 hours crying in my ars till he tied himself out. My strong boy..."

He groaned as his voice started to shake, I could tell he was trying his best to keep his composure. He slowly stood up and tok in a shaky breath before flashing me a sad smile, "I'm going to check on him make yourself at home and I mean that. The fact that you stood by Paul when no one else would mean a lot to me and to him."

I nodded my head watching him walk out before clearing my plate off and walking into the living room. Just staring at a picture of Paul and his dad at the championship game from this year. He was so proud himself, he got the most record tackles of the year, the team even nominate him for captain. That seemed like a lifetime ago, I sigh as I drifted further into the plush black couch. Before I knew it I was dozing off.

I woke up to a knocking at the door, the sound of birds singing drifted into the window and I was laid under a thick black duvet. I rubbed my eyes as I slowly fell out of the be with a thud. "Real graceful Kimmy." I grumbled under my breath as I slowly rose to see a picture of Sam and Paul as some fair. The must have been Same room.

I hopped off ht cold hardwood floors, staring blankly around the room as I noticed a old picture of Leah, and Sam when they were still dating. Leah had this wide smile on her face that I don't think I had ever seen before. The girl doesn't do much smiling but I got that. I sighed heavily as I heard hushed whispers from down stairs.

"Dad I know that he is here we just want to talk to him." I could hear Danny sighing as I snarled under my breath and ran down the stairs. I could see Sam standing in the doorway with the whole pack at his back. Well aside from Quil who was like a ticking time bomb. "Really you brought the whole pack to talk. Your a shit brother Sam."

I walk to into the open no longer holding behind the wall separating the stars from the living room. Sam's pointed glare burned right through me as he snarled under his breath. "What is she doing here." I hear Jared growl angrily at Sam for the way that he spoke to me."She was busy looking after you little brother after he was attacked by a vampire up by Canada." Sam eyes widen as he heard Danny's disappointed and angry tone.

But when he turns back to look at me he has a gentle smile playing on his lips. "You and Jake can come in, but that's it, to many people will overwhelm him, he hasn't been in human form for more than a hour of two in the past 3 days. To many people at one time could spook him into a phase. Me and Kimmy are the only two people he has seen since everything went down."

His voice was soft as he took a breath holding it light before trying to look up at the stairs. Like he was making sure that Paul had woken up yet, for all te shit he catches Danny is a good dad. "Kimmy dear and go get Paul please." I nod my head throwing a quick glare at Jake and Sam who were making their way into the room before running up the stairs.