Chapter 45 Pack Is Strength

Paul POV

"Paul wake up." I moaned slightly as I shifted onto my side swatting at the creature of the noise before drifting back off to sleep .I wash jut in the middle of killing a 300 pound black bear when I heard that voice again. "Come Paul, your dad wants to talk to you he said it's important." I am as I slowly opened my eyes to be met with ocean blue eyes that remind me of the water at first beach.

I sighed heavily as I took in Kimmy's tousled blonde hair hiding most of her face from me. I hate to admit it but my self imposed exile was made so much better when I saw a old pack mate. Scientist were right when the said wolves were social animals. It killed me to be out there for hours alone, all I could do was hunt and sleep and hunt some I did get rather used to the routine.

"What could he wanted this early in the morning." My husky voice filled the air as she shrugged her shoulder nonchalantly. But by the way that she refused to meet my gaze, I knew that she was lying through her teeth. I sighed heavily what ever I would find out when I went down stairs.

I threw my thick red blanket back, as I felt my face heat up as Kimmy started to laugh at me. "Nice PJs. "I frowned at her as I looked down at my black plaid pajama pants with little wolves running on them. I rolled my eyes trying to shake off the embarrassment as I slipped on a tank top. I sighed and walked slowly out the room with her trailing after me still lagging quality to herself. "Don't laugh my dad put them on me last night while I was sleeping."

That of course only made her laugh harder as she looked at my arm for a moment. "Hey that tattoo, is that new?" I looked up to see her eyebrows knitted together as she tried to figure out what it was. Her bright eyes burning deep into my chest as I tired to play it off.

"What are you talking about that that has been there since I phased you know that." I watched her down frown at me as she rose on her tiptoes so that he could get a better look. I watched her frown after a minute. "I'm not stupid,I can see the curve script poking out. Right there over your heart."

I frowned as I slapped her hand away from me and growl as I pointed down to the stairs and tapped my ear. "I don't know what you're talking about. You sure that you aren't high right now." That only caused her to frown as she flipped her hair over her shoulder and laughed at me like I was the idiot. Maybe I was how long could I possibly hid it for.

We jogged down the stairs silently after that, I made my way past the quite living room before making it into the kitchen. I could see me dads from as I rounded the corner. "Hey, dad what up?" I felt my voice died in my throat as I look to see that my so-called brothers were sitting at the kitchen table.

Dad sipped his coffee cautiously as he sat on the countertop both his legs swinging back and forth. I could tarr liquid sloshing in the cup, I had clue how he drank it black. I sighed and looked into Sam's eyes that were worn as he looked at me and then Kimmy. I started to get anxiety I don't like it, my body threat to shift as my muscle began to lock and change.

I had gotten used to not begin around people rather quickly so this was a little too much for me. "Paul, me and Kimmy are going to be in the other room okay." I jumped when my dad place his hand on me, but I took in a deep breath letting myself settle. I knew that my eyes were glowing just by the way that he was looking at me. I nodded my head and Kimmy looked like she was going to argue till I tossed her a look. "I can't handle this many people in a room two is as much as I can do."

Kimmy nodded her head gently kissed my cheek before running out of the kitchen. I still couldn't believe that after everything we had been thought, my dad was the one that truly had my back.

I sighed and jumped up on the counter sitting there watching Sam for a moment till my eyes drifted over to Jake. He seemed to be shrinking in his seat and from what I could tell I didn't smell hatred or disgust coming off of him. Just grief and sadness. I sighed and looked back at Sam it was easier.

"What do the two of you want? Make it quick I'm leaving as soon as soon as I say goodbye to dad and Kimmy." Both their head snapped up like they thought that I was leaving for good and I can't say that leaving didn't have an appeal. "You have been staying in the forest this past couple of days?"

I snorted where the hell else would I stay a 5-star hotel in Seattle. "Yup, we are wolves and my family pretty much made it clear how they felt so I saw no point." Sam looked up confused for a moment before looking around the house. "Then why are you here with dad?"

I scoffed at him before turning to look at Jake anger in my eyes as I spoke. "When I left when it all went down, dad came running after me. Forced his way into my mind and saw everything, every last nitty-gritty detail. I did something that I never thought I would do and since then I have been the forest."

"He forced me to stay here for the night when I got attacked by a vamp but I'm not staying long." I looked down at my feet as Sam's gaze on me insisted on me. "I have to ask did you ever try to..."

I let out a harsh laugh when he couldn't even finish the sentence, "Yeah I have the other day, I decided that there was no point and went to Canada in the hopes of that the vamp would kill me"

I watched them, there reaction of shock and dismay had them frozen in place. Shame washed over me as I realized that it was coming from looked horrified but I simply laughed again this must have been cruel but I couldn't make myself feel bad for it. "I'm kidding, I wouldn't do that to dad and doesn't just affect the person, it affects their whole world, their family. I wouldn't do that unless I really couldn't take it."

I looked at Jake for a minute as Sam let out a bone-chilling shutter. "What about Bella?" I sighed before turning my gaze to the front door, I'm sure that she was out there. "What about her, she made it clear she was done with me. Why would I care what happened to her, she shut off our connection, that was on her. I can't feel her emotions anymore but she can feel mine and she still isn't even once thought about breaking the silence,it only proves she doesn't care."

Sam let out a worried sigh before looking at me like I was the idiot in all of this. "When Kimmy told her that you were going through, she spent the rest of the day crying, when she woke up this morning and we told her that we found you she just went back to crying. She hasn't turned the connection back on because she has been crying out her eyes for almost 2 days now."

I watched them both shifted uncomfortably but I doubt it was because of me since I was staring out the kitchen window .I had a perfect view of the trees .Birds with cobalt blue feathers were shining in the sunlight as the sung there song. "Why are you here if Bella wanted to see me she could just call and ask where I could scream and I would come running. So why are the two of you here,make it quick I got a lot of hunting and running to get back to."

I looked up to see that they were staring at me wide way. Jake cleared his throat speaking for the first time since he got into the house. "I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have said any of that horrible thing to you.I was hurting and I lashed out blindly at you even when you didn't deserve it."

I nodded my head as I looked at him, he cringed under the weight of my store. What did he expect a thank you, for me to say that it was all good he had no idea, what I went through. "Anything else you want to good cause I caught some stuff that I wanted to say, your apology doesn't mean much jake, you ever swallow the barrel of a gun and couldn't pull the trigger bruce you bitched out at the last minute. Ever thought about tying ankle weight to your legs and jumping off the cliffs. All because your little brother wants you gone from his life permanently?"

I could hear shifting in the other room as dad worried that I might lose it. "I'm fine dad" I could hear him let out a gruff laugh but he stopped moving all the same. Jake looked up this broken expression on his anything I had seen before. Wait that is a lie, that was the look he had on his face as they lowered Billy into the ground. Sam took his turned to look at me. "The pack isn't the same without you." I laughed that wasn't why he was here "No you are here cause you pups can't fight, they can't track, and they cant hunt. That is why you are here."

Sam stood up outrage as he glared at me "Now I'm here because my little brother was in pain and I had no clue. I'm here because I failed you, I trust you more than any else in the world and you can't even trust me with the fact that I would listen to you and try to see things from your prospective."

"I'm here to beg for your forgiveness and to come home even though we failed you. If we are going to die in this war I want you by my side. I don't give a damn about the pack if it means I don't have you in it."

I stood there stunned, too stunned to speak, I don't know how much of it was true and how much of it was bullshit. But I knew that Sam meant every word of it, I looked over to see Jake looking down at his hand unable to meet my gaze. I nodded my head slowly before taking in a breath and looking up to see that the door opening.

I snore heavily more animalistic that I had ever heard my voice before, whoever it was slammed the door shut. I wasn't used to that man people and I like to think that being a lone wolf was easier at times.

"Paul I can't tell you how sorry I am for all of it, that I was so absorbed in my relationship with Emily and the pack to see how much pain in you was and are in." I nodded my head slowly and looked at Jake. "Where is Bella now?" I looked at Sam who was slowly standing to his feet. "At my house."

I nodded my head slightly and took in a deep breath "Leave I'll be there soon." I looked at Sam then Jake. Both with expectant looks on there face neither one of them wanting to leave the kitchen until they got a definite yes. After standing in silence Sam finally spoke, "So does that mean that you are joining the pack."

I sighed and looked back to the living room there was always this saying that dad would quote. "Pack is life, pack is strength." I looked up at Sam and he smiled when he realized that I was rejoin before walking out the house. Jake was as his back, one the door slammed I took in a shaky breath. It was time to get dressed and deal with my imprint.