A.N: OH MY guys! This is the last chapter and I'm very sad about it but it had to end eventually right?
I'll maybe write a sequel later but I'm not sure just yet so…I'm not promising anything.
I wanted to reiterate what I wrote chapters after chapters, your kind words really REALLY kept me going and there is no word to really express my gratitude.
You can find the link to the picture of "view" from the balcony as well as the Ring on my profile =)
Anyways I hope you'll enjoy this last chapter…I'm pretty sure many of you were waiting for that scene.
Love you all
Steffy
Chapter 23:
Two months later:
I was sat on the lounge chair on the wooden balcony of the Log Cabin that Dimitri and I were occupying for the last 3 weeks.
I was watching the sunrise in the horizon and the view was as breath taking today that it was on the first day.
The Log cabin was his grandmother's and the balcony had a direct view on the Baikal lake and it was magical. Who would have thought that such a paradise could be hidden there?
The first time I stood on this balcony I was just speechless. It made Dimitri chuckle and when he asked me if I still thought he came from a desert wasteland, I just shook my head.
In the 5 weeks I spent with his family, I really felt welcome, like I was one of them. They were so welcoming, so warm so full of love. It was a new world for me but I loved every minute of it. Dimitri's sisters were my sisters, and I love his grandmother and mother very so deeply.
Dimitri once told me how much love there were in the Dhampirs communities but you really had to be there to really appreciate it. The weather was maybe cold there but their hearts were hot with love. As soon as I was there I was considered as a full Belikov with everyone. I even started to learn Russian as Dimitri thought the swear words (he did reproach it playfully to Kashka but he didn't really care) shouldn't be the only thing I had to know.
When I left his mother even succeeded to get some tears out of me when she said 'I can't wait for you to come back Doch" (Daughter in Russian)
When Dimitri suggested for us to have some times just the two of us I was so happy but also a bit sad to let this new family behind. I liked being there but being alone with the love of my life was just too good to refuse.
His grandmother approved of us so much that she lent us the nice log cabin she had at the lake. And I never thought it was possible, but everyday I woke up next to Dimitri, I loved him even more. I truly felt blessed and I knew I wouldn't get enough time in this life to show him the extent of my love.
A small breeze made me shiver and I tightened my grip on the plaid blanket I was wrapped in. I didn't sleep well last night I had an email with news of the Academy and I was starting to long for them, for this life I thought I could leave behind.
Everyone was doing just fine, they were happy, having a blast teaching but… I had to admit it, I missed my friends. I missed my Lissa but I needed to be with Dimitri more than I needed them and if I needed to abandon a part of me behind it had to be that one as I knew already that I could hardly face the world without him by my side as he would probably hardly face it without me.
"Hey…" He said with a voice full of sleep from beside me.
I jumped in surprised and looked at him, and like everyday, looking at him made my heart fill up with love.
He was bare chest in cotton pajama bottoms and his brown hair was loose brushing his muscular shoulders. His eyes were full of sleep. He looked like an angel and he was mine.
"You know how beautiful you are when you wake up?" I asked with a smile.
"Not even as close as you are." He replied walking to me to peck my lips.
"Come on," I said moving at the side to leave him some space and opening the plaid for him to join me. "Watch the sunrise with me."
He nodded. Laying beside me, I rested my head on his shoulder as he wrapped the plaid around us.
I kissed his shoulder and sighed with content.
"What's wrong Roza?" He asked lovingly doodling aimlessly on my back with his thumb.
"Ummm? …Nothing it's ok." I said fondly.
"I know you better than anyone in this entire world Roza," he said coolly kissing my forehead. "You miss her?" He asked but there was certainty in his tone.
"I do…a little." I said feeling guilty to admit, while in his arm, that I could long for something more.
"It's alright," he said and there were no hurt in his voice. "It's an important part of who you are Roza and I fell in love with that part as much as any other part of you. I don't want you to change."
"I love you more than anything else... As long as you're with me, I'm happy." I said sincerely.
"I know that Roza and I love you more than it's even possible to comprehend," he said tightening his embrace. "Do you want to go back?" He asked nicely.
I shrugged. "It doesn't matter," I said trying to sound detached. "What do you want to do?"
He exhaled a bit exasperated and rolled over so he was on top of me to look deep into my eyes. "That's doesn't sound like the girl who stole my heart," he said quickly kissing the tip of my nose. "Don't take me into account please and just answer that simple question…Do you want to go back to St Vladimir?" He asked keeping his eyes on mine.
I closed my eyes a second before looking at him and again and whispered, "yes."
I expected him to be hurt but it never happened. A wide and genuine grin spread on his face. "It's settled then. We're going back. I'm pretty sure they'll have a teaching position for me. And Home is where you are anyways. You're my peace of mind Rose, my sanity," he said before starting to give me some open mouth kisses along my jaw line. I instinctively wrapped my legs around his waist.
"No not now," he said against my lips and it shocked me. It was the first time since we were officially together that he stopped me.
He is probably more hurt than I thought I thought sadly unfastening my grip around his waist.
"I'll be back in a second," he said rushing into the room. When he came back he had his light hoodie on.
He stood the back resting against the railing of the balcony looking at me with a strange look in his eyes.
I sat straighter, the feet on the floor. "What is happening Dimitri?" I asked not able to conceal the stress in my voice.
"Oh, don't worry it's all good," he said but I could hear the worry in his voice. "Or at least it could be."
"Ok…" I said confused.
"You see I've wanted to do something since we arrived here and…" he shrugged slightly. "I think I was just a coward and always waited, found an excuse but now we'll go soon and I need to do that before we leave."
He reached out with his hand. I took his hand and stood
"You know I love you right?" He asked looking at me. I nodded . "You know I'd give anything and that I'll do anything just to make you happy, to keep you safe." He added still really intense.
I nodded again but a lot slower with wary. "Yeah me too I---"
He kissed my lips quickly to shush me.
"Please…" He begged. I smiled. "You know that everything I have, my heart and soul are yours."
"I do… As mine are yours." I said with emotion.
"Ok, now that's all cleared up," he said in an attempt to calm both of us "I need to ask you something."
"Anything!" I said quickly which made Dimitri smile.
He took a small velvety box from the front pocket of his sweater and got down on one knee.
I brought my hands on my mouth knowing only too well what was happening.
"I love you Roza, I never thought that kind of love existed somewhere else than in the Hollywood movies and then…then I met you and you made me whole! You patched my heart that I didn't know needed fixing. You became my essence, the reason of my existence." He said the voice shivering with emotion. "I understood the moment I saw you why Earth had been created and it was only because we needed to be together." He took a deep breath and looking at me the eyes glistering with tears. "I know it isn't much but…" He opened the box "Rosemarie Hathaway would you marry me?"
I couldn't speak. There were so many things I wanted to say, but couldn't say. I just nodded letting tears of happiness fall down my cheeks.
"Is that a yes?" He asked taking the ring out of the box and slid it onto my fourth finger.
"Yes! Of course I'll marry you!!" I shouted, jumping into his arms. "I'm already yours anyways!" I asked kissing his lips forceful.
He made me twirled in his arms laughing with happiness.
He finally settled me down. "You know you just made me the happiest man in this Universe."
"Well I owed you that much since you just made me the happiest woman in this universe!" I added cheekily I finally looked at the ring which was both simple and sober, just like us. ''It's beautiful, the most beautiful ring in this world and it's priceless as it comes from the only person I'll ever love. You gave me your heart and soul Dimitri... I'm the luckiest woman who ever walked on Earth.''
I took his hand for him to follow me inside. ''What do you think about going back to bed?'' I asked suggestively.
He laughed and hurried up. ''Oh yeah! Future Mrs. Belikov'' He pulled me along this time and jumped on the bed taking me with him.
I laughed. ''Mrs. Rose Belikov? I love the sound of that! You know that I never felt as good as I feel now.'' I said laying beside him letting my hand roam on his chest.
Dimitri closed his eyes. ''Ya ne ma-gU bez te-byA zshit' '' he said in a whisper. ( A.N- Means 'I can't live without you')
Hearing Dimitri deep voice whispering in Russian that he couldn't live without me made me shiver.
I honestly never thought it was possible to love someone as much as I loved him but that how it was. And now, when I was secured in his arms in this seclude place where only each other truly mattered, I understood that all the obstacles we faced made us realized that we couldn't be one without the other. All this pain made us stronger in a way that we truly became just one.
We were ready to face the future together and we knew now that there was no obstacle that our love, strength and faith in each other couldn't overcome. As long as we'll be together…We could face it all.
And sooner than we could have expected…We had to face it.
