Chapter 02 [Yukio POV]

Alone in my room, I closed my eyes and sighed. What was all of that…? Lucifer kissed me, and twice. He wanted me to join the Illuminati. I wanted to know more about myself and maybe I could do it if I joined them, but that meant to betray my brother and everyone. I didn't want to do that.

And… there was another thing I didn't understand at all. The kisses… Felt very strange for me. I kissed some girls before and I didn't feel anything. But this time… this time it was completely different. Lucifer defined his feelings as ''love''. Was it the same for me, too? If that was the case, this was a serious problem. To say I would fall in love with a demon… Nonsense. Impossible.

''Yukio!''

Rin entered the room, and since I didn't expect him to arrive so soon, my body shivered a bit when he called my name.

''Yes?"

''Uh, nothing, I'm back.''

''O-oh, I see.''

Quite ashamed, I looked away and Rin stood in front of me, confused.

''Are you okay?''

''Why do you ask?''

''You seem a little… odd. Did something happen while I was with Shima?''

''No, nothing at all.''

Rin arched his eyebrow doubtful. I just pretended nothing happened and continued to read some papers of the work.

''If you say so.''

Rin sat in his bed, without stopping watching me. I felt quite awkward.

''What?'', I asked, a little annoyed.

''Uh... Yukio, why is my bed so wrinkled?''

''What are you saying? I don't know''

Rin closed his eyes and stayed quiet for some seconds, and then he opened them again, smiling.

''Yeah, I think I'm just thinking too much.''

''Yes, you are.''

The days passed and I didn't get to see Lucifer again. Maybe that was great for me, but... I didn't like it. I felt strange… I really wanted him to come see me. But what about joining the Illuminati? I hadn't decided that yet. Probably the next time we meet I should reply him. After all, he even disguised as a student so no one would recognize him. He really did an effort for me, and I couldn't deny it.

But still... that two kisses still misted my mind. What was this feeling? It truly was something special, and I felt I couldn't leave it fade, but was it really good? Was falling in love with the enemy something I could handle?

Wait, what did I just think? I didn't fall in love with Lucifer, not even a single bit! God, what was I going to do? Things would get really messed up if this continued like this. Lucifer loved me. And even if I didn't want to admit, maybe I did too. After all, he was handsome and popular. How to don't fall in love with someone like that?

...I felt ashamed of my own thoughts. Even though I didn't want to do so, I had already admitted I loved him.

Some days more passed, and everything was calm and quiet. No Lucifer, no big troubles. Only boring missions and lessons. I liked that peaceful ambience, but I felt something was missing. Of course, I knew what it was, and still refused to admit it. When did I become so stubborn?

But eventually, Lucifer came visit me again. He gave me time to think, and I didn't waste it at all. My answer was ready. He entered my room since Rin wasn't there (Shima had took him again) and walked in. I swallowed hard, I was very nervous.

''H-hello.'', I said.

''Yukio Okumura...''

He approached me and I looked at him.

''Did you decide if you are going to join us or no?''

I nodded and he smiled just a bit.

''And what did you decide?''

''I...''

I bit my lip, still doubting. Was it really a wise decision? Was it okay for me to be a little selfish, just once?

''I... I will join you.''

Without letting me saying anything else, Lucifer lowered and pressed his lips

against mines. I opened my eyes wide, surprised. When he broke the kiss, a dark blush covered my face.

''W-Wait! Even if I'll join you, that doesn't mean you can do those kind of things!''

''I can't? But I love you.''

''Yes, but...!''

I closed my eyes, very embarrassed, and then I looked away.

''But I don't know what to do...''

''What are you talking about?''

''I... I think I like you too.''

I covered my mouth in shame, hiding a part of my reddened cheeks too.

''...Yet I don't know what to do. Do you want to go out with me, right?''

''Yes, I think so.''

''Is it really right... you date me? I mean... we are enemies.''

''Not now, you're part of the Illuminati.''

''B-but you are a demon.''

''And? I don't care those things.''

Lucifer sat in front of me with a serious look in his green eyes. Oh man, he was really handsome.

''Then...''

''I want to go out with you.'', he repeated, making me blush even harder, ''What's your answer to that...?''

''It's...''

Lucifer's hand warped mines, and I felt more relaxed because of that. Only touching me he... he did make me happy. Could I pursue that happiness? The first real joy I experienced in my entire life full of dramas?

Some tears fell through my cheeks and Lucifer wiped them gently.

''It's yes...''

He smiled and kissed me again, and I accepted the kiss.

I was really glad. For the first time, I sensed my life had a meaning, and it was to be with him. Lucifer had enchanted me completely, and I couldn't run away

anymore.

''Hey, Lucifer…''

''Hm?''

''Will I live in your base from now on?''

''I guess so.''

I looked to the sheets while Lucifer's hand still carressed mine.

''I feel very confused.'', I whispered, ''I don't know if this is the correct decision. I don't want to hurt Rin and the others, and I don't want to hurt you either. But Rin is my brother and you killed a lot of people. I think I should be on his side…''

''Listen, Yukio. This decision is about you. Not about Rin Okumura nor me. You have to do what you want to do.''

''Yes, but…''

''It's understandable you are confused. Take your time to accept this. First of all, we should transport your equipage to the base.''

After that, I moved to the base of Illuminati, letting Lucifer help me. We didn't talk too much during the process, and my head was a mess. This was what I wanted to do… right? Then maybe I should just stop worrying.

My new room was quite big, and comfortable. I felt I could live there at ease. Lucifer leaved me alone in the room and I started to arrange my belongs. I wondered about how would Rin and the others react to this. Rin will probably shout at me, while worrying very much. Shura will order me to go back fast. And… what about Shiemi? She will cry a lot, and begged me to return with them. Then, Rin would support her.

That's right. Rin wasn't alone, and Shiemi wasn't either. They could support each other.

''They will be okay without me.'', I said to myself.

Suddenly, the door opened and Shima entered, with a silly smile in his face. It made me angry.

''So you joined us, huh?''

''And what about it?''

''No, nothing.''

I didn't stand him at all. His non-serious attitude, his sarcasm, his jokes. He was really annoying.

''I saw it.''

''What are you talking about?''

''I saw Lucifer kissing you.''

My heart started pounding faster and a blush appeared in my face, but I tried to sound calm.

''...And?''

''Did you join because of that?''

''Why do you need to know that?''

''No reason, but... You should be careful. Here, if you get blinded by your emotions, you'll be dead in no time.''

I looked at him quite angry, and he didn't change his smiling expression.

''Shut up.''

''Okay, okay...''

He walked off the room and I pressed my teeth together in frustration. What did he know about me? I was stronger than what he thought. I could handle that. I wouldn't die, even if I was there because of my feelings.

Plus, my feelings weren't the only motive. There was something more I thought... Maybe joining the Illuminati I can discover more of my birth and myself. I needed to use this opportunity so much as I could.

But Shima did have a point. I needed to be more confident and secure. Lucifer wasn't everything in my life now. I should be careful.

That night I didn't sleep too much. It wasn't easy for me to adapt to the new room and I was very nervous. A lot of things happened, after all.

The next morning I woke up pretty early, and I dressed up before going out.

The base was really big and I had to pay attention so I didn't get lost. The halls were large and had a lot of doors everywhere.

''If I recall, Lucifer one was number 104...''

I walked through the corridors until I found the door with a ''104'' on it. Starting to feel strange again, I asked for permission to enter, and Lucifer's voice give me the right to do so, so I slowly opened the door and closed it after that.

Lucifer was sitting in his bed, attached to a lot of machines I hadn't seen before. I was totally surprised.

''Lucifer! What is this!? Are you okay?''

I approached him, very worried, but he was just as calm as always.

''Didn't I say it to you? My body is weak and ill. But don't worry, I'll be fine if I...''

''No, you won't!''

Lucifer looked at me, surprised for my serious voice.

''You really need to take care. Please...''

''...Okay. I promise to be careful.''

''Thanks.''

I smiled a bit and Lucifer requested me to lower a little. Expecting him to kiss me, I did so, but he only hugged me kindly. It was so warm, so nice...

''Lucifer...''

''Tell me.''

''I'm sorry.''

''Why do you apologize?''

''Well... I don't know, I just felt I had to apologize to you.''

I heard a low laugh from Lucifer and blushed a little. He was very cute.

''I should be the one sorry here.''

''Why?''

''I kind of forced you to join, didn't I?''

''No... I did this because I wanted to.''

''I see... But I'm really glad you are here with me now.''

I closed my eyes, enjoying the moment with a smile. I was glad too. Even if our love was wrong and everyone denied it, it was real. He loved me and I did love him too. We weren't doing anything wrong. We just wanted to love each other.

''I love you.'', I whispered.

''I love you too.''

Lucifer stopped the hug and moved back some centimeters so he could see my face. His eyes were so deep and hypnotizing... I could be all day watching them.

Lucifer shortened the distance with a soft kiss I was waiting. He warped his

arms around my hips and rested his head in my shoulder. It was very comfortable to be like this, with him. I felt at home.

The door opened, making us snap out of it. Homare was there, watching us with a strange expression, as we only blushed getting away from each other.

''S-sorry for that. What did you want, Homare?'', Lucifer asked.

''Commander, could you come with me for a second?''

''Yes, just wait a minute.''

Homare left, leaving us alone once more. I looked away, very embarrassed, and Lucifer stood up taking off the machines that tied him.

''Well, I'll be going now, okay?''

''Y-yes.''

Lucifer gave me a last kiss in my forehead before walking away the room. I sighed, ashamed. ''Now a lot of rumors will spread...'', I thought.

When I returned to my room, I realized someone had left a Illuminati uniform in my table, surely for me. After all, I still wore the uniform of the Real Cross Academy. I changed my clothes as fast as I could and then I looked at myself on a small mirror. Just the clothes made me look really different. Like a whole new person. Now I had left everything behind.

Maybe it wasn't the best decision after all, but it was the first one I made by my own. And I felt somehow proud of it. Of myself. I smiled to the mirror and asked to myself what should I do after that. Maybe I should ask Lucifer once he finished talking with Homare.

I didn't know all the building yet, so I started walking and walking through the halls without a special destination, seeing all the different spaces and doors. It was really huge, more than what I'd expect. And before I realized, I didn't know how to return. I got lost.

With a sigh, I searched for someone who could help me, and then I saw Shima. I didn't want to talk with him, but there was no one else by that area.

''Hey...''

He turned towards me, surprised by seeing me there.

''What are you doing here?''

''I... uh... got lost.''

Shima made a lot of effort to contain a laugh and that just made me even more annoyed. He really pissed me off.

''Yukio Okumura getting lost in his new house... This is so funny.''

''Stop it. Just show me how to return to my room.''

''Ah, yes, yes.''

He started walking, expecting me to follow him, which is what I did.

''Hey... What should I do if your brother asks me where you are?''

I gritted my teeth without knowing what to answer. Rin...

''Do whatever you want.''

Shima smiled and we continued advancing until we arrived to my room.

''Thanks.''

''You're welcome.''

I entered my room and opened my eyes wide when I saw Lucifer there.

''...I didn't know you were here.''

''Yes, I was waiting for you.''

''What's the matter?''

''I need to explain you what will be your duties and your position in the Illuminati.''

I sat next to him to listen properly.

''You will be under the orders of Homare. This means you will form part of my bodyguards, the Phosphorus. Make sure you obey everything she says to you. There won't be many situations where you'll be in front of the battles since you are only my bodyguard. Still, your duty is just as important. If anything tries to hurt me, you must protect me, no matter the cost.''

''I planned on doing so from the start.''

Lucifer smiled gently and I did too.

''Even so, please, be careful. I don't want you to be hurt.''

''I know. I will.''

''Promise?''

''Yeah, promise.''