The Monsterhood Friend chapter 41
"The stormy relationship"
After being dragged along by kurumu that felt like an eternity I finally arrived at her room, room 343 weird coincident, "Shiva, I'll just tell you know it's a bit messy in here so can you stay out here while I clean for a sec?" I just nodded and rest on the wall, "I still can't believe this is happening, I'm actually got invited to a girls room" I was profound full of excitement. This would be the second time going over to anyone's room, I only ever went to tsukune's, "okay you can come in now" the door pride itself open but no kurumu stood at it, "umm kurumu? Where are yo-Wahhhh ahh ha! What's going on!?" when I walked in there was rose pettles leading to the bed where they were spread around even more, and lights were off but candles lit the room and kurumu was sitting legs folded, down to her underwear holding a 'yes' pillow, "please… be… gentle with me, darling~" WHAT IS THIS! She was blushing hard and acting sheepish. "wh-wh-what go-go-going on here?!" I was surprised "shiva, your so dense" what?! "a girl gives you signals and you're still confused" what, what, what "I-I-I did see your signals… it's just…" she was confused with a mixture of concern, "just.. what?"
"it's… just.. I don't feel prepared for such a jump"
"why? We've been together for so long, I love you and you love me and I really want you to be with me forever" I feel a horrible shake in my heart "I know!, I know but I'm scared" she looked shocked to hear this, "scare of what? Shiva talk to me" 'you should tell her of your pain' a voice echoed in my head "I-I-I'm scared of… attachment" this caused a ripple to strain on my heart "attach…ment?" kurumu was confused "are you afraid of getting close to me? Do you actually despise me?!" she jumped to conclusions fast "No!, no, no, no I'll never hate you it's just…"
"Just what! Shiva!" she was tearing up fast, "I'm terrified of falling to deep in love with people! I don't won't to get hurt because I was attached to someone who couldn't love me!" I broke in tears before she could and became frustrated, "I-I'm sorry for yelling. I should leave you alone" I turned away a went for the door but a pair of hands locked me in place, "I'll never hate you either, even if you wish me dead I'll love you and I don't want you to be mad because of me" kurumu hugged me tight, I was an emotional wreck, crying my tears till red eyes and voice damaged, "w-why… do y-you even care about m-me?" I managed to say, "because you're a strong person, building your walls so high that no one can challenge you" so she cared about my strength "however with walls so high not even friends can help you, and I know what that feels like" she ranted on, "I came here with one goal in mind, to never let anyone climb my walls and live soullessly in this school attaching men with my looks" my heart acked hearing those words "but you, moka and even tsukune came around and broke down my walls seeing my true emotions and even though I treated you terribly you embraced me with caring arms" I still don't know where she's going with this, "and that's why I care about you because of how much I put you through you didn't think harshly of me and now I'll do the same! I'm break those walls and embrace you, caring for you whenever your in pain" he hugs became softer, "so please, let me continue to care for you, love you and make all the pain in the past disappear" she responded growing ever so close to my body, I rotated around, and was meet with the beautiful eyes of forgiveness, that I broke into tears "k-kur-u-mu~" my eyes drained like a watery can, and my voice scratchy, "I-I w-was so broken before I met you~" I responded, "I never want to feel pain again" she gave me her best smile with tears still falling "y-yes shiva I'll never hurt you or let you be hurt ever again, I promise" this finally fully broke me and dropped to my knees closing the hug kurumu was still giving me.
We cradled each other for about twenty minutes straight just relaxing in the others embrace, it was like we were sleeping. "hey shiva darling?" kurumu was the one to break the moment "yes, kurumu my love?"
"do you think we should go to bed? I'm at least tired and it's pretty late," good point she made, "wait are we sharing a bed?"
"yeah, is that alright?" she responded blushing a bit "oh yeah no problems here, might want to wash myself first"
"oh yeah, you do kind of smell" she waved her hand her face gesturing stench, "hey don't be so mean" I complained giving her a laugh, "hehehe, well the bathroom is past the kitchen you'll see it" she smiled and pointed to her right. It was a pretty small bathroom only fitting a bathtub and washing station but it was still pretty big, I sat at the station and grabbed a shower head and turn it on hot. Water leaked from my hair to the end of my back filling me with comfort, then the door slid open, "huh?... Uh! Kurumu!" she stood at the entrance with nothing but a towel, "um, um, um wh-what is going on?"
"I thought you could use some help washing your back?" she was sheepish again, blood leaked from my nose, "o-oh.. kay" she strutted her way over and sat behind me I handed her soap and sponge and she brushed away. However she couldn't let her quietness best her, "you know, I've taken a notice that your skin is very rough and edged, like there is no trace of smooth feature"
"oh yeah, that's what I pay for being a sensitive person, rough skin to protect a fragile heart"
"well I'm going to change that" she declared "oh really?"
"yes, I'll protect you from now on and you'll never have to hide away your heart" she was too sweet for this world, "thank you, kurumu." Eventually we got out of the bathroom, all nice and clean, and the realisation just hit me, "oh dam, I didn't bring my sleepwear" I spoke frustrated "oh no worries I've got clothes for you to wear" wait a second "you do?"
"yeah come look" she opened a sliding door to her cupboard and low and be hold a bunch of clothes and shoes around my size "W-what?!"
"what do you think?" she responded proudly, "well I'm think how and why?"
"well it wasn't easy, because I wanted to surprise you but no one really knew your weight and height aspect, so I had to steal your entrance format to find your sizes" so that's how, a bit creepy nonetheless, "and why I did it, because if were going to live together I'll need to ready to help my darling anyway I can"
"well okay kurumu, but you don't have to think so far ahead, we're still young and only been dating for a few months" she giggled at me "I'm not going to change my heart because you haven't agreed yet, I'll wait… because I know you'll say yes" imagine if I pulled a 'no' on her, she'll be so shocked, "fine, It's been a long day do you have a futon I can sleep on?" I caught her fidget and blush, "oh… there isn't a futon to use, because… we'll share a bed" she looked at little down, "are you sure? I can just sleep on the floor?"
"No!.. n-no I can't let you, I Won't let you" she empathised the won't "o-oh, kay but I'm not really comfortable, sharing the same bed after what's happened" she looked really annoyed "well I didn't plan for you to be such a virgin" I was insulted?! "hey! Why so mean now" her emotions did a 360 has she just puffed at me "what are you going to do about it? Clearly you won't get in my bed so you can't prove me wrong?", she crawled under the covers and tried to provoked me, and it worked "fine you win, move over" I received a slap on the wrist for grabbing a the blankets "you've missed your chance, now you get to sleep on the floor!" she threw a pillow at me causing me to be confused "wha~? You were just pressing me in to sleeping with you now I'm on the floor?"
"punishment for being a dense virgin" she rolled away from facing me, I was so hurt but I should of seen coming, "sigh have it your way, I'm sorry kurumu" when she rolled over she saw me bowing over then walk to the window, "wait? Where are you going?"
"this study session was fun kurumu, but it's gotten late I'll be heading home" I shot a dull expression but a smile nonetheless "wait you said you'll spend the night with me?!" she jumped straight out of the bed "yeah, I'm sorry I guess I'm too much of a virgin" her eyes snapped to sadness has the words struck her like bullets "s-shiva I didn't mean it" she pleaded "no, no your right bye kurumu" I took off blasting out the window "Wait! Shiva don't go! I'm SORRY!" I could hear the tears playing their melody in her words.