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Chapter 5:

Damn Montana winter I thought rushing back to my room. After helping Lissa getting ready for the evening I was going back to my room to finally chill out.

This morning was pretty awkward but Christian saved my butt once more.

"I mean they just came up like that, Alberta almost broke the door." Said Eddie shaking his head while we were having breakfast.

"Yeah!!" said Lissa looking at me frowning. "It was so hard to go back to sleep after that. It was one hell of an adrenaline rush and they were not even pretending to be strigoi or anything." She quickly looked at Christian. "It was like they were checking if Eddie and I were in Bed, don't you think it's super odd?" She asked him.

Christian kept his eyes down on his cereal bowl and shrugged slightly. "You know they probably were doing some random check to see if the novices were respecting the rules." He added with his natural smugness.

"Oh yeah! I didn't think about that" said Lissa with wide eyes looking at Eddie with a smile. "Lucky you are so professional!"

Eddie chuckled and Christian shot me a quick 'you-owe-me-one' glance before concentrating on his breakfast again.

After a little while Lissa went to the feeders with Eddie.

"Do I want to know about last night?" Christian asked me still looking down to his cheerios.

I sighed. He just saved my butt here, honesty was the least I could do. "Well I'll be honest, no I don't think you want to know it and if you really do I'll tell you but" I reached for his hand for him to look at me. "But If I tell you what happened last night you'll have to keep it from Lissa so…"

He didn't look happy about that. "So What? Better not asking then?"

I shrugged. "You can't feel guilty of not sharing what you don't know."

He smiled. "Ok I let it slide for now guardian but when it will get too obvious I'll ask you the direct questions."

"And I'll answer truthfully." I said locking eyes with him to show him I meant it.

I was almost at my dorm now.

"Wow… That's one hell of the way to go to the banquet" said Dimitri with a low chuckle.

I was so lost in my thought that I didn't even notice that he was standing just in front of me on the path.

He was dressed in tailored black pants, a white shirt and his hair was very neatly tightened at the nape of his neck. He was clearly of guardian duty tonight.

I looked down at my outfit and couldn't help to chuckle too. I looked like a hobo. I was wearing a over worn, overstretched pair of gray sweat pants, black ubber boots, a red xxxl hoody sweatshirt stating 'Heaven doesn't want me & Hell's afraid I'll take over.' and my white winter coat. We could say I was multicolored. And of course to complement this perfect homeless look was my hair since I took a shower after class and fell asleep in my room before being woken by Lissa shouting for me through the bond.

I left to help her without even trying to put some order in my hair mess. I probably had the Medusa hairdo right now.

I looked up to him, he had a little light of amusement in his eyes. I couldn't be bitchy anymore. It was draining me that was sure and hurting him was hurting me. I could try to be distant and not being a bitch right?

"I'm not going to the party" I said smiling tentatively "but I'm pretty sure I would not get unnoticed."

"Not going? Why?" He asked with what seemed to be disappointment.

"Oh you know how much I hate all this formal crap and if I can get a night to chill out without facing the crown bitchy faces. I'm all for it!" I said sincerely.

"Yeah…" He said grimacing. "But won't you feel too lonely? I mean I think that every senior will be there!" He added really concerned.

I thought about Adrian maybe sneaking up later and I blushed and of course, I tried to hide this discomfort with attitude. I turned on myself…."Well maybe I should go like that then…I'm sure I'll have ALLLLL eyes on me."

"You'll have all eyes on you whatever you are wearing." He said regretting straight away to have expressed his thoughts out loud.

I was serious straight away. I didn't want to play with my heart anymore. I was seriously getting tired of this constant pain that was sure. "That's crossing the line Dimitri." I said with a straight voice with all the seriousness I had in me. "I won't accept those insinuations anymore."

He was about to say something when Eddie showed up opening the door of the dorms in a hurry.

"Why Ed you look dashing!!!" I said surprised as it was the first time I did see Eddie all dressed up.

"Oh Rose thank god I found you!" He said with such relief in the voice that he got both mine and Dimitri's attention.

"What's going on Ed?" I asked seeing him rushing to my side in a black suit.

"I…" he looked at Dimitri and flush slightly in embarrassment but nodded acknowledging his presence. "I can't do anything with this tie" he said giving it to me. "Please… please Rose." He whined.

I chuckled and rolled my eyes. "What would you do without me?!"

"Not much" he said chuckling too.

I brought my hands around his neck to put the tie into place and starting to make the bow. I saw so many things pass into Dimitri's face that it made my hands shake.

I took a deep breathe and concentrated on Eddie again. "You know what, you probably are freezing lets go back up and you'll change belt too because this one is horrible" I added pretending to laugh but in fact I felt very uncomfortable to be studied by Dimitri that way.

Eddie nodded.

"I'm their fairy godmother what can I say!" I said to Dimitri trying to sound as detached as I could. "Well I wish you a good evening" I added as Eddie gave him a goodbye nod and followed me inside.

After Eddie left me to meet with Lissa and Christian I decided to chill a bit before changing and getting a bit less 'ewww' and a bit more 'wow' for Adrian.

Even if I wasn't trying to seduce Adrian… Oh who I was kidding! Of course I was trying to seduce him even if it was a bit annoying to admit it.

I settled on my desk and surfed on the internet for a little while but got bored quickly. I sighed and looked at myself in the mirror.

"We're just having fun! It's just lust and desire….We don't even really know each other. It's not more, can't be more and won't be more." I said out loud confident.

A light knock on the door made me turn around and I automatically looked at my alarm clock.

Uh the party only started 30 minutes ago. I thought curiously. I chuckled walking to the door as it was probably a sullen Eddie or Christian in need of a good 'Rose help me feel better about this crap' moment. However when I opened the door my smile faded straight away as I paled.

Of course it was Adrian standing in front of my door! He was the person I wanted to see but I was looking like hell and looking at him made me feel even worse.

The man was really spectacular in tuxedo. I've seen both Christian and Eddie in Tuxedo but seeing Adrian standing here glorious….It has been an insult to call them dashing. He was so perfect in it that he seemed he was born to wear one.

For the first time he made me feel insignificant, almost ugly and I didn't like that. I still had my medusa hairdo and my hobo clothes…I thought about closing the door for a second but I knew it would be silly.

I sighed finally looking into his eyes. He seemed sadden by something probably realizing how plain I was.

"You… You want me to go away?" he asked unsure of what to do.

"What?" I asked stupidly with wide eyes. "No of course not!" I said sliding on the side to let him in.

I thought I saw him sigh with relief but I was probably imagining.

I closed the door and stood my back against it while he walked into my room and quickly looked around.

"It's just that…Well…" I blushed in embarrassment. "I didn't expect to see you that early and well… I'm so not presentable."

He turned around and looked at me like I just said the stupidest thing he ever heard. "You are lovely…really lovely." He added with a smile taking off his tuxedo jacket and putting it on the back of my chair.

I rolled my eyes at him but it was still very good to hear. "How did you managed to get out after like 30 minutes?" I asked sincerely impressed.

He laughed his rich laugh that made me tingle everywhere.

He unfastened his bow tie and opened the first button of his shirt. "Apparently I was not a very good company so my aunt said 'if it's to be sullen all night long better go back to your quarters' ." He shrugged, "she didn't need to tell me twice! I said hello to everybody… made sure they all saw me around and snuck out."

I saw him look around. "Please make yourself at home" I said as I realized how small and bare the room was.

"Really?" He asked cheekily.

I looked at him warily but chuckled and nodded positively.

"Cool "he said grinning showing his fangs again. It was pretty amusing as he used to do the same kind of smile than Lissa, which was mouth closed, but with me now, he was showing everything like he was so comfortable. He sat on the edge of the bed, took off his very expensive dressing shoes, that I saw afterward were Gucci, and laid on top of the bed opening his arms wide and letting a little space on the side.

I laughed. "Well that is making yourself at home!" I said standing at the foot of the bed when the only thing I really wanted to do was to run into his open arms.

"You said to do so!" He said with laugher in his voice. "But there is something missing to be really comfortable and it's you in my arms."

I shook my head and did my best not to run in his arms but he probably saw the eagerness in my face as he chuckled when I joined him. I rested on my side, half on top of him. My head on his chest my left leg entwined with his.

He kept me tight beside him encircling me with his left arm while stroking my hair with his right hand.

We did make out two or three times but we mainly talked and it was strangely comfortable, dangerously comfortable. We were together like that for long, really long but I didn't feel like moving I was too comfortable like that and his slow breathing and his even heart rate led me to think it was the same for him.

"You know what's strange?" I asked while softly rubbing his chest through his dress shirt.

"What's that?" He asked kissing the top of my head.

"Well you're here for quite some time and you didn't even go for a cigarette and well…" I blushed "I know from your breath that you didn't drink at all." I added snuggling a bit more against his chest.

"Because I don't need any help!" He said all teasing gone now. "You see, well, I know you figured that one out long ago, but the alcohol and cigarette helped me to ease the pain of the auras, because seeing the aura made me," he stopped and took a deep breath and I felt him stiffen slightly as I realized he was about to reveal to me a secret.

I kissed his chest to encourage him to speak even if I knew it was a mistake. The more secrets were revealed, the more involuntary connections were created but I could reassure myself to the fact that a high ranked moroi would never fall for a dhampir and I didn't intend to let the things go that far on my side and well my heart was still Dimitri's anyways.

"Well nobody knows that and please please don't freak out" he started with apprehension "but usually when I sees the aura full form well I get hit by the people emotions too. It's like I'm a little empathic and it's messing with my feelings but when I'm with you." He kissed the top of my head a bit longer. "I'm at peace with you…I'm happy enough and I don't need to feel numb." He added so seriously that it tightened my chest.

I didn't know what to say and presumed that staying silent was the best I could do right now.

"It's okay my Rose you don't need to say anything." He said as he understood my discomfort. "I did freak you out huh?" He asked trying to sound nonchalant but I could hear the anxiety in his voice.

"No not really…" I said honestly as I felt his body relax. "It's just that you're full of surprises and it's pretty hard to understand you that's all."

"We've got all the time in the world to get to know each other." He said resuming stroking my hair.

"Yeah…" I said begging for a change of subject. "Let's start that now then…What's your favorite movie?" I asked with a smile propping up to peck his lips.

"I love when you do that… instigate our kissing," he said brushing my lips with his fingertips.

I settled back on his chest. "I'm waiting" I said cheerily.

"Oh right my favorite movie!" He said with a chuckle. "Also known as 'a discreet way to avoid the intimacy of the moment'" he said but he didn't sound more upset than that.

We asked each other questions for the next hour or so…. The most random things possible as favorite movie, color, food, sports etc…

He sighed looking at the alarm clock. "It's very late Rose, the banquet is probably finishing now, I better go before the halls fill up with people."

I grimaced. "I guess it's better that way." I said trying to sit up but he tightened his arm around my waist.

"Do you have plans for tomorrow?" He asked expectantly.

"Well tomorrow morning I promised to train with Eddie and tomorrow night it's movie night with Christian and Lissa as well… I'll go back to sleep in his room."

"But where are you sleeping in his room?" he asked randomly.

Here we go… I thought. "I'm sleeping in the bed…with him." I said as detached as I could.

He didn't speak for what seemed to be forever. I was about to say something when he spoke again. "I never thought I would ever be jealous of Oreza… I guess that day just came"

"But... We're just friend…There is nothing between us." I said as panic started to crawl viciously in my body.

"Oh I know that don't worry it's just…he get to sleep by your side." He sighed "damn lucky strigoi wannabe" he said shaking his head.

I couldn't help but laugh and finally made it out of his arms. "Right! We were in a bed for like 4 hours and you didn't even try to get my clothes off!" I said as I was actually honestly surprised about that. "And you keep rambling about how you want me."

"And you think that it's just your body I want?" He said sitting up on the edge of the bed apparently displeased with what I said.

"Come on Adrian!" I said playing truth "you didn't know me and don't know me yet you can't say it's my personality that attracted you to me." I smiled "but it's just fine! I promised, I'm fine with that…" More than fine I added to myself.

He nodded like he had a lot more to say but that it was better to keep it to himself for now.

He put his shoes and jacket back on, then came to stand before me, his hands on my shoulders.

I could see I hurt him and I hated that. I wanted to take back my words.

"Would you spend your afternoon with me?" He asked looking at me with expectation.

"Of course!" I said resting my hands on his cheeks. "As soon as I'm done with Eddie I'll join you. "

He smiled and pecked me on the lips.

"Sleep well my Rose, I know I will!" He said with a wink before leaving the room quietly.

I knew as I looked at the door that this 'thing' we were sharing was heading toward the 'we're so screwed, we'll end up hurt' road but I knew I would continue nevertheless.

It's like when you assist to a car crash, you know it will be ugly but you can't stop from looking.

You really are glutton for punishment!! I thought groaning throwing myself on top of the bed.