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Chapter 17:

I kept staring at the ceiling…it was almost time for breakfast, thank God. I didn't succeed in going back to sleep. Each time I closed my eyes, I could only see Adrian expression when I told him my vicious lies.

I sighed and went to take a shower and walked slowly to the commons for breakfast as I expected there were less than 10 persons in the room and it was just fine by me. I was pretty sure I looked like a mess and I didn't need everyone to see that.

It was very early Saturday morning and I was pretty sure that 95 % of the senior dhampir went to bed less than 2 hours ago.

I sat down at a table in the far corner of the room with a very strong cup of coffee and a chocolate donut. I needed the comfort that only sugar and chocolate could bring me at this point.

"Good morning sunshine!" Said Chris, straddling the chair across from mine. "I never expected you to be awake so early with the wicked party the novices had last night." He said with a grin but something was off in his eyes.

"I didn't go to the party," I said with a shrug. "I needed an early night." I added trying to hold his glance.

"Of course," he said simply taking a sip of his own cup of coffee.

"So, we'll train together tonight then. Did you tell Dimitri you were back?" I asked suddenly, cheered at the idea to have him back to training. It was fun to train with him and it was also super hard and tiring so I could sleep better at night.

Chris grimaced slightly.

"What?" I asked curiously.

"Well… Umm…I wanted to see you to tell you goodbye actually," he said a bit sadly.

"Goodbye? Goodbye why?!!" I asked completely shocked. Did Adrian send him away to annoy me? I didn't think he was so petty but I did hurt him at the end of the day. "You won't be Adrian's guardian anymore?"

"Well yeah…" He started like I was missing the point. "Adrian is leaving today in fact." He said and when he saw me paled he put a hand on top of mine. "He phoned me a couple of hours ago, in my room…" He shook his head. "He was pretty drunk but I'm sure I got it right." He said, "we are set to leave the Academy this afternoon."

"Leaving…" I whispered not even looking at him anymore. That was painful to imagine. I probably spaced for a while because I came back to reality when he put a hand on my shoulder.

"Rose? Are you okay?" He asked now sitting beside me.

"What? Yeah!" I said forcing a chuckle. "I'm just tired. I didn't sleep well and I think I'm getting a cold." I shook my head. "Well I'm sure gonna miss you!" I said with a smile plastered on my face. "I loved working with you and I learned so much already."

"You are one kind of student, you know." He said sincerely. "I loved teaching you, I never saw anyone learn that fast except for me." He said in an attempt to laugh. "But I'm sure we'll run into each other again."

"Of course…" I said but I didn't hear a word of what he said. I just couldn't stop thinking how it will suck not to see Adrian anymore. It was actually physically painful. The nausea was back now! I really needed to work on that! "I've got to go now but you take care, ok?" I said kissing his cheek before leaving, not even waiting for his answer.

I made it back to my room and started to put some order in all my crap as I will be moving out soon enough and I had to keep my mind busy for a while doing anything to keep me from thinking.

I knew that Adrian leaving was for the best. It was too risky to keep him around as I didn't know if I would be strong enough to keep pretending.

I went through all my school materials, which was now separated in three piles. The 'to keep', 'to throw' and 'to burn so it made me suffer'. I'd need to ask Christian to take care of this one…

Speak of the devil… He stormed into my room like a tornado.

"You broke up with him?!" He asked reprovingly crossing his arms on his chest.

"It's none of your business okay!" I said coldly standing up from the floor.

"Well, you should slide in Lissa's head then...to see what you've done to him! She is with him now, mopping his tears!" He said really angry. "We were walking to the commons for lunch when we found him walking around campus…" he grimaced. "Well…Walking is maybe exaggerating; failing to walk is probably more accurate!" He added still staring at me. "I never saw him so drunk ever since I met him!! He is broken and it's because you left him since you are still in love with the 'other' apparently" he added using quote finger.

I shrugged.

"May I ask you who the 'other' is Rose?" He asked standing on my way.

"No you may not… And… I can do whatever I want with my life." I snapped back.

"But when you lie Rose… When you tell me you have to make some decision and I see you cry well, it become my business!" He said not angry anymore just really concerned. "There is much more behind that since I know you are miserable too even if you are doing a hell of a job hiding it but I know it's just a lie…" He brought his hands to my face for me to look into his eyes. "You told me how much you loved him…Why did you let go Rose…Why?" He asked nicely.

"I told you. There is more at stake that you could even comprehend Christian." I said taking his hands off my face. I started to put my 'to keep' pile in a carton box just to give me some consistency. "I swore I'm just doing what I'm supposed to do and you have to drop it. You promised you would let it slide and that you would keep everything I shared with you to yourself. You gave me your word Christian and it's important.!!!"

Christian nodded. "I love you Rose, and you are my best friend believe it or not." He kissed my cheek. "I'll do anything to spare you pain" he said a fierce look on his face. "I'll see you later…I'm sorry" He added storming out as fast as he came in.

"That was….interesting." I said warily throwing myself on the bed. Well I guess my friends were going to be angry with me for a little while but… They will forgive me, they loved me. If only I could tell them that I never wanted to hurt him. I would rather get stab than hurt him but life of more explicitly the Queen didn't leave me with any choice there.

My stomach growled and I looked the clock. Wow it was almost the time with my training with Dimitri! Cleaning did keep me busy all right.

I sighed, went to our little kitchen to grab a granola bar and a carton of orange juice before walking slowly to the gym.

At least Dimitri was a constant in my life…I thought sadly.

When I made it, Dimitri was stretching while listening to music… It was weird. He turned around and smiled at me. He didn't have the 'Lord of Doomhood' look anymore uh…

"So Rose," he said as I was stretching. "I heard that Chris and Ivashkov were leaving." He added trying to sound detached but I could hear the longing and curiosity in his voice.

Stupid male ego!! I thought so angrily.

"You heard right," I said still trying to sound detached. "But…" I stopped stretching and looked at him crossing my arms on my chest. "You seem in such good mood… It's a nice change, it's true, but can I ask you what triggered it?"

He shrugged "Well it's supposed to be a secret but you passed the field training as the first place which mean that you are going to graduate top of your class!" He said as proud as a soccer mom.

"Really? Top of the class?" I asked and even if it was something I always dreamed of happening you know… Just to shove it right up the ass of those people who thought I was not good enough. Well, it didn't feel as important to me anymore. "Cool," I said fastening my hair into a ponytail.

"That's it? I thought you would be jumping and running around shouting 'in your face' repeatedly." He said with a chuckle.

"Yeah…" I said with a forced smile. "I guess I just grew up." I added with a shrug.

"I know you did…" He said but I knew they was a double meaning behind that statement as he seemed almost sadden by the fact. He was the one who wanted me to be more demure and now that I was, he didn't like it? Douche!

"Ok, let's train," I said taking an offensive position.

I won the first match, he won the second one.

"Ok, a last one to declare the winner." He said with a grin.

I didn't intend to give my best. I just wanted to be done and go back to my room.

He brushed my legs off and as I fell flat on my back he came to hover over me locking my wrists over my head.

"OK you won… Let me go now." I said trying to sound cool but I was really uncomfortable.

Dimitri ignored my request. "Plus now it's Rose and Dimitri, the old team again just like before…like nothing has changed." He added apparently very pleased about that.

"Like before…" I said starting to move my wrist showing him I was uncomfortable that's when the unthinkable happened. He bent down and crushed his lips on mine.

What the fu--!! I thought fighting him off furiously. I managed to get my hands free and slap his face off of me as hard as I could.

"Are you out of your freaking mind?!" I asked flush with anger standing up. "You don't go around assaulting people!" I added with the desire to hurt him.

"No, it's all good Rose." He said seriously with a smile like I didn't speak. "I have it all figured out."

"Oh you do?!" I asked with heavy sarcasm. "Please comrade, enlighten me!" I said crossing my arms on my chest with anger.

"I realized in Missoula that I couldn't pretend any longer so…" he took a step forward and I automatically responded by taking a step back. "I mean, I can't be Lissa's guardian anymore, not when I would have been ready to sacrifice her to save you!" He said not even ashamed by the fact. "So, I'm going to ask to be assigned at the Court where you'll be with Lissa and Christian and then we could be together in the open as you always wanted."

"And what about me Dimitri huh?" I asked getting furious by the second. "Don't I have my say in that? Don't I get to choose?" I shook my head with disbelief.

I could see a flash of anger in his eyes like I was betraying him. "He was not right for you Rose," he said frostily.

"Fuck that! You-" I suddenly frowned and looked at him warily as what he just said started to sink in. "Wait… How do you know about Christian and the Court? It's not even official yet." I tightened my hands in tight fists. "And how do you know I was dating Adrian and that we broke up?" I asked scared to understand only too well the puzzle forming just before my eyes.

"Face it Rose!" He said all smug apparently not impressed by my furious look. "Maybe the young ones, your friends, could approve but you saw how your mother reacted! And the…" he pursed his lips together realizing his mistake.

"YOU are the one who sold us out!!" I shouted with disbelief. "I can't believe it!" I added taking support on the wall as I was getting dizzy.

"I did that for your own good Rose. I--" he started

"Shut it! SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I shouted, throwing him the basketball I found on the floor. "You always think you know what the best is for me but you don't! You never did!!" I added far beyond furious. I actually thanked heaven I didn't have any weapon or I would probably stab him to death. "You took the man I love away from me!! He meant the world to me and you knew it!!

"Love him?" Asked Dimitri dumbfounded.

"Yeah love him! But you know what? You won! I won't be with him anymore, but so help me God, I would rather die than to be with you ever again!" I said almost spitting. "You were one of the person I trusted the most!! You could have said Jump I would have said 'how high?!'"

"Rose…I had to! It was-"

"You saw us at the cabin!" I said cutting him off. "I was not paranoid…" I added as I was talking to myself.

"You don't know what it did to me!" He said the voice shivering but I didn't look up. I couldn't look at him or I was sure I would jump on him to try to gauge his eyes out with my own fingers. "It broke me! When I left you in front of the dorm… I went to phone my friend working at the designation council and asked him if I could ask to be transferred from Lissa's guard to the court. He said it was possible, but that it was not that good for my credential but I didn't care. It was too late for that… I realized that you were the best part of me and that I couldn't let you get away." He sighed. "So, I tried to find you and I thought that maybe you were at the pond. And when I saw that he stole your innocence…I almost showed myself to beat him to death."

"He didn't steal it," I said coldly saying word after word. "I gave it to him, just as I did with my heart." I added looking him straight into his eyes to show him I meant every word.

"You know what? You won," I said again picking up my bag from the floor. "But just so you know…you're dead to me…just like I'm dead to him."

"What Rose? No, listen..." He started begin.

"Go whine to the Queen…Guardian Belikov." I said storming out.

I couldn't believe that Dimitri did that! He could have taken away my career just to keep me away from Adrian. He knew how important guarding was to me but he would have taken it away nevertheless. Jealousy…I couldn't even believe how petty…how tricky he could be!

I was almost at the dorm now and the uneasy feeling on my stomach started again.

Geez was I becoming the vomiting kind? The chick that vomit each time she is shocked…maybe it was just a freaking stomach bug…I shook my head. Was everything fake here?

I stopped by the dorm fridge picked up some food and went back to my room. I quickly texted the 3 musketeers, telling them I was still feeling sick and that I would stay in my room tonight.

I was pretty sure that, with the whole Adrian issue, they would be more than happy and based on their texted replies they were glad enough.

Eddie even told me that Meredith caught a weird virus and that I should go check with Olendzki.

Well I would tomorrow as now I had officially nothing left to do.

Adrian and Chris left, my mentor was dead to me…no, nothing to expect in the morning. That was pretty scary.