~~~The next day at Camp Olympia~~~

~~~Annabeth pov~~~

After the fight yesterday in the arena, no one saw Percy and some of us-basically everyone that was close to Percy-was still trying to get our head around the information we learned from Void and the sins. Percy...abused...self-harm...suicidal...I'm so so sorry... I failed you, I couldn't notice those signs...I'm sorry I cheated on you...betrayed you...forgive me.

I was so deep in thought I didn't even saw the rest of the seven (other than Percy) until I bumped into them. I hastily stood up and helped some of them up after that we just stood there in awkward silence some finding their shoes somehow interesting now, some playing with their hair and some just standing there. We stood there for who knows how long before I remember where I was going.

"Um, why don't we go get breakfast?"

They didn't respond but they did move and so did the uncomfortable silence, none of us utter a single word which is saying something since Leo is with us, the demigod that almost never shuts up.

When we arrived at the mass hall we saw everyone chatting happily but the thing or rather table we focused on was the Void table where Percy was sitting at drinking coffee, listening to music on his headphones and on his phone during who knows what wearing a grey T-shirt that was also a few sizes bigger and a black skinny jeans, allowing those bandages that were wrapped around his hand, and neck to be on full display, and though he seems to have no weapons on him I couldn't be so sure, while the others sitting at that table is happily chatting away leaving Percy out but said the boy didn't seem to mind

We went to our respective table and started eating breakfast I was having bacon and scrambled eggs while still looking at the Void table, Percy specifically and I noticed that most of the people-again those who were close to Percy-kept giving said boy glances but he only kept his eyes trained on his phone. I also notice that the commanders of chaos were giving each other glances like they are speaking-which they probably are- before Luke sigh and stood up going to the void table, the others not too far away. The others in the mess hall quickly took notice of their action and before you know it, you could hear pin drop silence in the mess hall

When they stood in front of Percy, he didn't even look up from his phone but he did take off his headphone allowing it to hang on his neck.

"Hello commanders, what is it I can help you with?" his voice came out smooth, rich and soft yet somehow firm, sending shivers up and down my spine after all these years he stills have this kind of effects on me, why did I even cheated on him anyway? A split-second decision because I needed someone there but Percy wasn't? Why? I'm so stupid...the ring I found...if only I've waited for him and didn't be so stupid I would have been married living happily with him but I didn't.

I was brought out of my thoughts when Luke replied.

"Hello, Perseus. I-we just wanted to talk to you."

"And what is it that you want to talk about?"

"Yesterday, after you left Void and the sins told us some kind of stuff...none of us liked and we would like some answer, please?" Bianca said softly- though we could all hear her- and as gently as she could-which is very very gentle.

" Oh, did they now, " he questioned glancing at the others sitting at that table before his eyes return to his phone." what did they tell you then?"

After a pregnant silence that seemed to have brought a thick and tense air with it, that Percy either didn't care or doesn't notice, it was probably the former, Zoe (A/N I know there's supposed to be a dot but cut me some slack, I'm too lazy) being the brave heroine/huntress she is answered him but the hesitation in her voice was as clear as day.

"They...told us that...you...were abused...self-harm...and...suicidal"

Percy hummed before finally, putting away his phone and looked up with an eyebrow raised.

"And? What of it?"

"We wanted to know if..." Ethan said but his word got caught in his throat and he couldn't continue. No one blamed him...we understood and Percy had understood what he was asking.

"If they were true? Yes, yes they are true," he said casually, his eyebrow going back in place and arms folded leaning on the table looking at those towering him with half-lidded eyes. "So what?"

"H-have you, you know...actually tried to you know...kill yourself?" Luke asked hesitantly.

I felt a lump in my throat that I couldn't swallow and tears pricked the corners of my eyes, staring intently at my ex-lover. He didn't move from his position or even flinch when asked as most people in the hall had, he answered with a smirk tugging the corners of his lips he said.

"Yes, I have. Too many times to count. I've tried cutting my wrist, overdosing myself even as far as trying to jump off a building once when I was a little child and I wouldn't be here should a stranger had not saved me. And there are many more ways I had tried. I've tried before I was in camp when I was in camp, when I was with Chaos and when I was with Void and I'm still suicidal."

Tears trickling down my eyes, I know you must be shocked the Annabeth Chase crying?!?!? But I can't help it not when my ex-lover had confessed he has tried to kill himself before and so many times as well. Everyone else had the same reaction as me as well.

"W-why Perseus...?" Selena choked out.

"Because I couldn't handle it, everything and you all can call me Percy." He replied before putting on his headphone again, standing up and exited the hall, none stopped him, all were too shocked to do it.

The commanders went back to their table. The mess hall was filled with the sound of people crying and sobbing whether is a god, demigod, Commanders, Primordials or Chaos. I drown out all the noise and focus on the information I had learned.

My ex-lover a suicidal and have been his whole life... Looking back at it...why didn't I noticed all those signs before? Why didn't I confront him when I saw his dull and broken eyes when he thought no one was watching? Why didn't I noticed the way he flinches whenever he full name was being called? Why didn't I noticed the longing look whenever he gazes at a high building? There's so many 'why didn't I noticed'.

I rested my both elbow on the table and used my one of my hands to cover my face while the other I use it to run through my hair. (That's not in a ponytail) I could care less about what people think anymore. It was all my fault if only I didn't cheat on him if only I had stayed loyal if only I didn't believe those obvious lies, his fatal flaw was personal loyalty, why did any of us ever doubted him. I call myself a daughter of Athena yet is so stupid!!! My half-brother, Lucas wasn't the disgrace child of Athena I was. I was stupid enough to believe those lies despite knowing all those facts that are against those lies and lies that had no proper facts other than an egotistic boy that sputtered those lies. I choose a boy who never loved me a single second let alone the 1-month Percy wasn't there over Percy the man that loved me so much that words wouldn't be enough and went as far as jumping into Tartarus with me so I won't be alone there and enduring torture so I won't be scared for life and the man who was going to propose to me.

I'm a failure, I'm no heroine. I'm one of those people that caused the downfall of the true hero that deserved a better life. I failed everyone. And I failed him. My dear. The guy I've always loved yet I cheated on him.

I felt someone pulled me into a hug and I was pretty sure it was my mother, I hugged her back and clung onto her like she was my lifeline and cried. She didn't seem bothered that her shirt was wet in fact she rubbed my back and whispered soothing words to me while I cried. My sibling didn't mind, they know how much Percy had meant to me and how I much I must have been affected knowing my ex-lover was suicidal.

I didn't care what others would think of me now. The only thing I do care is that I still love him, I still love my seaweed brain and want him back, but I know is not possible so at least... I want him to be my friend again.

~~~percy pov~~~

"Because I couldn't handle it, everything and you all can call me Percy," I replied, put on my headphones and left the mess hall. I know they are crying but I could care less about them or what they'll think of me, all that matters is my new life with Void, the sins, End, him and those demigods.

I walked to the sea before letting my headphones hang on my neck again. I use the water in the sea to create a Void message- something like an Iris message but different-and called them.

"Hey"

The first person to hear me over the blasting music was Lucas, he jumped when he heard me and placed a hand on his chest, where the heart the located.

"Oh my gods, Percy!!! Don't scare me like that!!!"

I chuckled and my eyes twinkling with amusement. Hearing and seeing him jumped the demigod became aware of the Void message present in the room.

"Anyway, I know all of you might not want to come to camp but...can you please come? Please, I don't think I'll be able to handle it by myself and I know Void and the Sins won't be here all the time, they have their duties."

I sent them a pleading look, really hoping they would agree, they helped me a lot like how others did as well and I know Void and The sins have other duties and won't be able to say here, maybe until I'm used to being back here.

"Of course we would Percy, we understand," Our king. Though that was left unsaid, all of us knew that Jay wanted to say that. " we'll be there don't worry."

I knew what he wanted to say, and though I'll never admit it, there's always this warm feeling I have whenever one of them call me their king. I beamed at them and said our goodbyes after they had ended the call I sat there by the beach listening to the sound of waves crashing and enjoying the breeze it brought. It was peaceful and how I wish I can stay here, like this, forever. But of course I can't, there are people who still need me, Him, Void, End, The Sins, and my knights, they need me--as much as I need them.

But the peaceful moment didn't last long, nightmares and tortured sessions plague my mind. I felt like I couldn't breathe like someone was choking me even though I was alone. Alone...I'm alone. The feeling of nothingness, despair became clearer, it was always there but now it was in full force and it nothingness is a black hole consuming everything within reach. And I hate that feeling, the feeling of nothingness, helpless and useless I hate it. I want to feel something, anything at all and the only way I can stop the consuming nothingness was the pain.

The pain of cutting yourself, the way your lungs no longer feels like it is being crushed, you're no longer being choked, your mind cleared of all dark thoughts, nightmares, and tortured sessions

I slowly unwrapped my bandages, revealing crisscrossed scars and cuts that travel from my wrist all the way to my shoulder, some were fading while some were still healing while some were new, very new.

I took out my razor and started cutting myself, letting myself enjoy the pain it brought, I love it. The pain. If only it always help, now it helped but I know it won't always help. Though I'm glad that I don't have to keep cutting myself, Void, the sins, End, Him and my knights may not say it but they don't like the fact that I have to cut myself to cope--because they care-- which is why I found 2 other methods to cope. Methods I never understand why people do it so much until it helped me too and I'm glad I found the other methods but it doesn't always work sometimes during those 'bad days' cutting won't work and the other 2 methods don't work as well, nothing does maybe dying but I don't know I can't die--unless Void allows me to perks of being Void's champion.

So the closest thing that helps me is isolation, the only thing that can help me during those 'bad days' is that you leave me alone to deal with it and most of the time by the next day I'll be fine--the longest at most is 1 week--and they know is the only way to help me during those 'bad days and no matter how much they wish to help, they had to restrain themselves because they know is the only way.

I rewrapped the bandages before allowing myself to stay there enjoying the view, the breeze, the pain and peace it brought for my mind. But it didn't last as long as I wanted it to, a horn disturbed my peace and I allow the smile that was tugging at the corner of my lips to grace my features. They here.

I left the beach but not before glancing at a place where certain people were and gave them a smirk.

~~~??? Pov~~~

~~~at the beach when Percy is cutting himself~~~

Oh. I didn't want to believe it, I didn't want to believe the child I once called my brother could actually hurt himself and has a high chance of being suicidal so my husband and I decided to followed him out when he left the hall. He seemed so peaceful after he made the call with whoever they are.

But then suddenly, his eyes became so dull and broken it broke my heart just seeing those eyes. I've hurt him before and I did it again after bonding with him. I'm terrible! Those eyes he had when we were torturing him, they were full of fright, horror, betrayal, Sadness and most of all acceptance and defeat.

At first, when we started to torture him, he was constantly fighting and denying but halfway through those eyes started showing defeat but it was not very visible and he was still fighting but then one day he completely stops. He stopped talking, fighting and denying. He just hung there limped and didn't even bother looking up when one of us entered.

He screamed when we hurt him for days on end but those eyes always remained dull and defeated. It never had that light it used to have even after he was banished and betrayed by the gods and his loved ones, he didn't care what happened to him anymore, he completely gave up on everything.

I still remember what happened that day we told the gods what we did to Percy and why. Hades and Apollo had a take it hard but Hestia...she had taken it the hardest out of all three of them. I could never forget those eyes, they were downright terrifying.

~~~Flashback~~~

Hearing that there was going to be a war that the Gods and demigods may not survive was enough for Chaos to asked us to help them--seeing as how one of his children had Earth as a domain and how he loves that planet.

We arrived at the throne room and as always the gods were arguing except for 3 of them, Hades, Apollo, and Hestia. The first 2 looked like they were deep in thoughts by the dazed look they had and the latter was physically tending to the heart but her mind seemed to be somewhere else.

"Ahem" Chaos coughed, to catch their attention after we been standing there for at least 5 minutes and within those 5 minutes, I've been cursing all of them in my mind with a few other primordials sometime joining me with their input and own string of curses.

All the God turned to us and upon seeing us, their eyes became as wide as saucers and they quickly bowed to us. I enjoyed seeing these punny and prideful gods bow to us--Zeus more than the others--however, Father had other ideas being the humble one and quickly told them to sit down and created a sofa for us to sit on.

We quickly got to business not wasting any time and started discussing and warning them about the upcoming war and what we should do. But Apollo absentmindedly said.

"If the only Percy was here, he would be the hero again."

Hearing his name all of us had either darken face or scowls--other than those 3 gods-- and then Zeus asked Tartarus if he knew how Percy was doing now. Tartarus smiled and we started talking about how he had lived with us before then we advanced to his betrayal and that some scowl and some scoff saying something along the lines of once a traitor forever a traitor.

While the other 3 gods looked away but before their eyes were out of view looked away I could see the disbelief in their eyes but I simply shrugged it off and thought it was a trick of the light.

After we told them if Percy's punishment. There was only silence before all the gods--other than those 3 again who glared at others-- cheered. But they were silenced when the flames of the heart roared and reached the ceiling of the room. We all looked at Hestia only to see her sitting there with her bangs covering her eyes from view but the flames behind her were roaring and full of life. Finally, she looked up and those eyes...those eyes gave me nightmares for days. They were terrifying, she was terrifying. She glared at us and those flames spread throughout the perimeter of the throne room and she didn't stop them. She let them run wild like her emotions.

We all flashed out of the throne room, and none of us dare entered the room, only watching it from outside, too scared to even step in even Zeus and Chaos didn't dare to step in, opting to let the raging goddess to her thing and only go in when the flames stop, Poseidon was too stunned to even do anything and even if he wasn't, his water wouldn't be able to put out those flames. And even the God of fire couldn't do anything and was for once in his life sacred of those flames that helped him created so many things.

Eventually, those flames died down a little, some were no longer there while some were still burning. And Hestia was in the middle of it all kneel in down with her hand in front of her, her shoulders shaking and tears streaming down her faces. She looked up and even though her face had tears streaming down that didn't hide the fact her eyes were still coursing with pure cold anger, glaring at us, she screamed while she cried and some of her flames reacted to those emotions. And surrounded her roaring at us showing us just how angry she is.

After that, she flashed out but all of us was still too stunned to even move. And that day hunted us for days and even weeks but even with no nightmare we still fear Hestia. And that day we were reminded of just how powerful and scary the first child of Kronos and Rhea really is when anger.

~~~Flashback ends~~~

I snapped out of the flashback when my husband nudged me and asked me to looked at Percy. He turned to him and would have gasped in shock should my husband had not reacted fast and covered used his hands to covered my mouth.

What I'm seeing brought me to tears and my shoulders started shaking, out of the corner of my eye I saw my husband blinking hard not wanting to cry.

In front of me, Percy was cutting himself and those other crisscross scars and cuts that was litter from his wrist all the way to his shoulder. And he is still cutting himself. I couldn't deny it anymore, he was telling the truth...oh my Chaos! I could feel my tears running down my cheeks and my husband turning me around and gave me a hug that I really needed.

I quickly returned the hug and cried, his chest muffling my sobbings and I could vaguely hear him whispering soothing word in an attempt to calm me down even though he himself had tears.

"Shhh...Nyx...is okay...gain him back...whatever...take..."

I knew he meant.

"Shhh is okay Nyx, is okay, we'll do everything to gain him back, whatever it takes."

And I agree with him. We will do everything it takes! I dried my tear and turned around when I heard the horn and saw Percy had a smile, he stood up and walked away but not before glancing at us and smirk.

He knew we were here, the whole time. Erebus shadow traveled us until we were in front of the camp, where all of them had gathered. And on top of the hill, there were 6 teenager teenagers and a 15-year-old girl.

All of them looked familiar until I saw the Auburn hair teen with gray eyes then I remember that these were the guys Percy was talking to.

And by the things floating above their heads, they were demigods.

There was

An Olive tree with an owl

A Winged sandals

A Mirror

A Moon

A Hammer

A Snake and Phallus

And last but not least

A thunderbolt.

(A/N I'm not really sure about those symbols so I checked google and those are from Google, sorry it is wrong and please tell me if you know the correct one.)

And even though I'm not a mind reader I know that out of some of this new demigods some had entered camp before judging by how there was some sharp intake of breath while some including me all had one thought

Who the Hades/ Chaos are they?