A.N: OMG guys thank you so much for the reviews. I didn't expect such reactions to the story! I'm so pleased I can't even put words on what I feel!! You are so awesome! Anyways as promise here is chapter 4. I hope you're going to enjoy it. Please don't forget to review and tell me what you think. It really motivates me to update faster!

Anyways…I can't wait for the episode tonight…Only one left before the finale sniffsniff.

I also want to give a special thank to HJS-NS-23 the best beta ever and one great friend…you rock girlie. I also want to thank Allie for her help and support…you rock too girlie.

And of course a special thank to the one who reviewed, you know what you mean to me!! You guys rock!!

Well...I'm done rambling. Just one thing the song I'm using is I gotta go my own way by Vanessa Hudgens.

Thanks again, love you all.

Chapter 4: I gotta go my own way

2 Weeks later:

"No you're not going and that's final!" Shouted Lucas to his sister in the kitchen.

"Since when the hell do you get to decide for me?" Asked Haley furious too. She finally admitted to her brother that she was leaving for Europe, but she never expected him to be so insanely mad. "You're only my brother Lucas! Not my dad or my husband!" She added her face red with anger. "You can't stop me! I'm going and that's final."

"Try me sis!" Said Lucas in a menacing tone. "There's no way I'll let you go to Europe." Added Lucas punching the kitchen table.

"Stop you two!" Shouted Karen walking into the kitchen. She looked at her two children with disbelief. It rarely happened for them to fight, but this time it was big, she could hear them from outside. She figured out why they were fighting but she decided to ask to make sure. "What the hell is happening here?"

Lucas looked at Haley with defiance in his eyes. "I'm glad you're here ma." He said his voice shivering with anger. "Your daughter here…" He said pointing to Haley "thinks she's going to go study in Europe and that you would let her!"

"Argh!" Said Haley with anger throwing her hands up trying her hardest not to slap the shit eating grin off his face.

"I am…." Said Karen calmly looking at her son.

Lucas smile fell as he looked at his mother in disbelief once he understood what his mother meant. "You can't be serious Ma!" He shouted. "You can't let your 16 year old daughter travel half way around the globe without supervision."

Karen walked to his son and took his hand. "Listen Lucas... You're her brother but I'm her mother!" She said calmly but firmly. "I know her and I checked the program. She's safe there and I trust her."

"But…Ma…. You can't trust a teenage girl! She's…a teenager!" He added not even acknowledging his sisters presence.

"I'm here you know! You moron!!" Said Haley with anger.

Karen quickly looked at Haley to show her that she was clearly not helping the situation as she groaned in annoyance of her brother's over protectiveness.

Haley stood up. "I need some air! I'll be back later." She added to her mother's attention before glaring at Lucas and storming out.

Lucas sighed and ran his hands through his hair in frustration. "You're making a big mistake mom." Said Lucas not even angry anymore. "Haley's not ready for the world. She's …She's my baby sister." He said like it was an argument.

Karen smiled. "I know it's hard to understand son and believe me I really appreciate that you'd protect your sister in any situation but…She has to face the world too you know. Be supportive to her and show her that you trust her and love her. She's not a baby and she's more mature than most of the people I know." Karen kissed her sons forehead. "She'll go anyway, with or without your support Luke but…"

"I love her mom." Said Lucas looking at his mother.

"I know you do and she loves you too that 's why your support is so important." Added Karen. "Your sister's leaving at the end of the month."

Lucas looked at Karen with surprise. "Already? But school's not even over!!"

"Well it will be at the end of the month and she's going to spend summer studying some European Authors." Said Karen nicely. "Listen…" She looked at the clock. "I really need to go back to the café. I…I'll come home early." Added Karen guilty to leave her children when they were distraught but it was still open and the waitress she hired was still quite new.

"That's fine ma…" Said Lucas with a reassuring tone. "I'll talk to her, I'll set things right." Added Lucas finally surrendered knowing the fight was lost.

"That's good baby." Said Karen hugging his son tight. "I'm proud of you." She added leaving.

Lucas took a deep breath. You've got to get your act together Luke….Don't let your sister run away from you. He thought going up to Haley's room.

He sat on her bed and looked around. He smiled looking at the pictures that Haley had on top of her desks. There were many of her and Brooke but there were also a lot of her with him. She was smiling with her eyes sparkling.

"I love you little sis." He whispered looking at her desk. He suddenly frowned seeing a notebook of sheet music. He took it and flipped it open. He knew that he was breaking his sisters privacy, but he couldn't help it. He wanted to know what she was thinking. Over the last few months he felt like they lost their connection, like her eyes weren't shinning as much as they used too.

One song was not finished; it was the last one she worked on. It was title I gotta go my own way.

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall every time
Another color turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok…
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way….

"What are you doing!!" Asked Haley aggressively yanking the notebook from Lucas's hands. "This is private Lucas!" She walked to her door and pointed outside. "I'd like you to go now." She said her voice still shivering with anger as her finger shook with fury.

Lucas sat back on her bed ignoring her demand. He looked at her with sadness in his eyes. This look took Haley aback for a second, she expected him to be still upset but defiantly not sad.

"Is it really how you feel?!" Asked Lucas pointing to the notebook. "If that's the case I'm…I'm sorry." He said looking down in shame.

Haley looked at the page Lucas was looking to and sighed. What could she say? "I…" She sighed and sat beside him. "Yeah…sometimes I do feel disconnected like…like I don't belong, but it's not your fault Luke." She wasn't angry anymore just exhausted. She put her hands on top of his. "You've been the best brother I could have dreamed of but I need to find my own way and stop following your footsteps."

"I can't believe you'll be away in two weeks." He looked at her. "I…I'm going to miss you." Said Lucas finally giving in. "Please be careful you know European dudes are all like wanting to get in your pants."

"Yeah…Just like Americans!" said Haley laughing at her brother protectiveness. "I'll be careful Luke…Like you taught me too and you'll visit and I'll be back for Christmas." Added Haley trying to cheer him up.

Lucas sighed and shook his head. "its not the same," he mumbled.

"I'll miss you too…I love you big brother." Said Haley nicely sitting closer.

Lucas wrapped his arm around his sisters neck and kissed her forehead. "I love you too little sister and I'll crush any guy trying to get in your pants," he added seriously.

"Of course you will…" She said kissing his cheek loudly.

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2 weeks later

Haley had just locked her last suitcase. She sat on her bed and sighed. She was scared to take the plane and travel half way around the globe to study, it was a good scared but she couldn't stop asking herself if she was really making the right choice.

Brooke was coming with her brother and mother at the airport in the morning to say goodbye to her.

Haley had said goodbye to almost everyone…Almost because she hadn't really seen Nathan since the incident last month. They were both avoiding each other. She was avoiding him because she was scared that her desire to leave would fall just by looking in his baby blue eyes and that she would start to believe in something that would clearly never happen. He was probably avoiding her thinking she was some kind of hysterical teenager.

Haley had a sarcastic laugh, she had to say goodbye, she needed to look into his eyes to move on. She looked at the clock, her brother would be back soon with the pizzas. She took her handbag and ran downstairs before she backed out.

"I need to say goodbye to someone ma." She shouted to her mother in the kitchen. "I'll be back soon." She added closing the door behind her and starting to run down the street with one destination in mind.

She arrived in front of Nathan's house and looked at her watch. 5 minutes!! Wow I broke a record here! She thought. She ran so fast and breathless that she felt she was about to pass out. She knocked at the door without waiting for her breathing to come back. I need to do this fast! She thought.

Nathan opened the door and look at her with surprise.

"I didn't expect to see you." He said looking at her having trouble to catch her breath. "Please come in." He added letting her the space to walk in.

"Nah…." She said finally able to talk. "I just came a minute to tell you bye." She said with a fake smile, trying to hide her pain.

He looked at her and gave her a bright smile. It seemed so sincere that Haley frowned. "Thanks baby J. I would have been so sad if you had left without saying bye." He said walking to her closing the door behind him.

"You could have come to see me too." She said jokingly trying to hide her discomfort.

"Yeah…" he said looking down. "But I knew you were angry at me for some reason and I didn't want to bother you anymore so…I avoided you." He finally admitted.

Haley didn't talk for a while. That's the reason he avoided you? She thought with disbelief. "Don't be silly," she said slapping his arm. "I was having a pretty bad day and well…" she shrugged "I don't know for what stupid reason I diverted all my anger on you" she said trying to sound sincere. You fucking liar!! She added to herself.

Nathan gave her a nice smile. "So London huh?! I hope you're going to have fun. We'll miss you here." He said coming closer to her.

She closed the distance and hugged him tight. "I'm going to miss home too." She said to him. I'm going to miss you so much!! That's what I should say, but I can't. She added to herself angry.

Nathan was rubbing her back. She didn't want to break their embrace. It felt so good. "And please remember you're doing good Nathan. Try not to live up to other people's expectations. If he can't be proud of you it's his business not yours. You're enough Nate and if he can't see that, he's the one with the problem." She added finally breaking their embrace reluctantly.

Nathan stayed frozen, he never expected to hear such words coming from anyone, he thought he was pretending well enough but Haley saw right through him.

She saw what a failure he was in his father's eyes and it felt so good to hear that he wasn't the one to blame.

Haley looked at Nathan who seemed completely lost in his thought. Maybe I should have shut my big mouth thought Haley twirling her pinkie ring nervously.

"Well take care…" She said turning around to leave.

"Wait!" Said Nathan catching her arm finally coming back to reality. "How…How did you know?!" He couldn't help but ask.

Haley brought her hand to his cheek. "I know you Nathan and I can see how you feel even if you don't want me to" she said nicely. "Your eyes say it all and…and" She took a deep breath. "I think I know the real Nathan Scott and he's pretty amazing to me. "

Nathan smiled and hugged her again. "Thank you…You don't know what it means to me that a person like you sees something in a person like me. You're such a great friend Haley James." He added with emotion

Haley's heart broke for the hundredth time since she met Nathan. You made the right decision. She thought her eyes filling up with tears. "Take care of yourself Nathan Royal Scott, I'll think of you." She said quickly giving him a peck on the cheek before running back home.