A.N : Hey guys! This is my first posting from Canada!! I don't internet per say so I can't assure you when the next chapter will be posted. I want to thank you so much for the reviews. They really brighten my days in these pretty stressing moments. So here is chapter 10...I really hope you're going to like it as much as I enjoyed writing it. A special thanks to Allie and Jlfreak for their constant support as well as to all of you who are supporting this story from day one. You're really dear to my heart. I'm grateful behind words.
Take care xoxo
Chapter 10: We're not perfect.
The Raven's were playing against the Bear Creek Warriors and Nathan crushed the team scoring 31 points by himself. He was a scoring machine and Haley couldn't believe it. She hadn't wanted to go to the game because it was really cold between her and Nathan ever since the night she went out with Jake.
She kept building her walls up and really hoped every night when she went to bed that she wouldn't dream of him or he wouldn't be the first thought she had in the morning when she woke up, but he still was.
Haley didn't want to go to any of the games and had succeeded skipping them pretty well pretending to take of the café for her mother, but this time Karen insisted Haley go to the game because her brother wanted her there. Damn twin request! Thought Haley.
Now it was the end of the game and she didn't know what to do. She used to go down and hug her brother and Nathan, but now she was just sat there watching the players congratulate each other and Nathan in particular frozen in her spot as she saw him patting another guy on the back and getting lost in her thoughts
She didn't know where along the way their relationship changed, but it was certainly not for the best. When he touched her, it was like he was seeing her for the first time. She was a bit upset that it took a full transformation for him to see she actually did exist. Haley tried to convince herself that the physical transformation had nothing to do with Nathan's attention, but that her leaving made him realize she was important. It was like the old saying « You don't know what you have until it's gone » but Bevin made her realize that Nathan was with her, just like he was with any other girl and it hurt her more then being ignore. Be careful what you wish for I guess…She thought sadly.
"Hey lil'sis!" She heard Lucas shouting from the court bringing her back to reality.
She forced a smile on her face and waved enthusiastically. She was good at pretending even if she knew deep down her brother noticed something was wrong with her but he wasn't asking because he knew she wouldn't tell him anyway.
"I'm waiting for my hug!" He added opening his arms. Lucas actually missed his sister very much even if she was there he could see in her eyes that something was missing. She wasn't the same person he used to know.
Haley smiled and shook her head. Her brother needed her affection; he was always there for her, standing by her side. She stood up and walked down and threw herself in her brother arms.
"You played a fantastic game." She said against her brothers' chest.
"You're sweet sis…" Said Lucas bursting into laugher. "I almost didn't get the ball." He added kissing the side of her head.
"Still…" Said Haley breaking their embrace looking into his eyes.
Nathan followed whole the scene from the side and felt his heart tighten in his chest. A part of him was jealous of Lucas. Her own brother!! You're really sick man! Thought Nathan angry against his own thoughts.
About a minute later all the players were going to the changing room when Nathan was stopped.
"Yeah Dad…" Said Nathan turning around. He really gave 100 percent of himself in this game; mainly to impress Haley and really hope this time his father would be proud.
Haley was about to leave when she saw Dan stop Nathan. She saw he gave everything he had in this game and really hoped that Dan would be proud for once. She decided to hide and listen to their chat.
"So… What did you think about the game?" Asked Nathan with real concern. "I scored 31 points!" he added with a proud smile.
Dan slightly shrugged. "Well you could have scored at least 36 points if you didn't pass the ball." Said Dan seriously.
Nathan's smile faded under his father's remark.
Gosh Dan! Thought Haley angrily. Come on Nate…Stand up for yourself. She added imagining herself physically hurting Dan.
"Come on Dad! I was double teamed!" Said Nathan frustrated. "31 points, I'm sure I impressed the scouts! "
"Well…36 points would have impressed them more right?" Asked Dan.
Nathan shook his head and sighed with anger. "It's never going to be enough for you is it?" He asked with pain and disappointment. Nathan looked down and walked to the locker room.
Dan watched his son leave and shook his head. He was about to go too when Haley stopped him.
"Dan…Have you got a minute?" She asked as calmly as she could.
Dan turned around and smiled. "For you baby? Always…" He said nicely. "So what can I do for you?" He asked sitting on the player's bench and waving his hand for Haley to do the same.
"It's not what you can do for me…" Said Haley with a laugh." It's what you can do for yourself before you loose your son forever." She said colder now.
Nathan forgot his uniform jacket went back to the gym to grab it when he saw Haley talking to Dan and decided to stay back and listen to them.
"Loose my son?" Asked Dan frowning. "What're you talking about?"
"You don't even notice it yourself do you?" Asked Haley with disbelief. "You 're looking at your son but you don't see him." Said Haley trying to keep her cool.
"Did he say something to you?" Asked Dan slightly annoyed. He hated people telling him what to do and it was even worse when it was coming from an 18 years old kid.
"He didn't need to tell me anything…" Said Haley remembering Nathan's eyes every time he had to confront his dad. "Anyone who cares enough about him could see it." Haley looked behind her at her backpack before her eyes widened. "Wait! You'll understand better in a minute." She said opening her bag and taking out her I-pod and some mini speakers.
"Do you always go out with that?" Asked Dan surprised.
"No…" Said Haley looking at her I-pod searching for a song. "Brookie needed it…Anyways…" She said looking at Dan again. "Listen to this song, it'll tell you things from Nathan's eyes." She added turning on the I-pod. A rock song started to invade the gym.
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to the plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I
wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
Dan kept looking at the speakers, but Haley could see the emotions play on his face, she just couldn't see what he was thinking.
'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
Dan looked at Haley, different feelings were showing in his eyes. She could see pain, guilty and anger. She nicely smiled at him.
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing is alright
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand…
And now I try hard to make it
'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Haley turned off the i-pod and could see that Dan was trying to fight his tears.
Nathan had tears falling down his cheeks. This song really expressed how he felt about his dad. It was like it had been written for him and what moved him even more is that Haley knew exactly how he felt. She knows me even better then I know myself. He thought emotionally.
"I'm proud of him Haley." He finally said looking at her. "I'm just pushing him so he's not a failure like me." He added nicely.
"You're making him feel like he is a failure Dan. I…I don't want to judge your parenting skills because I'm not a parent but…" She ran her hands through her hair. Now that she started she knew she had to say it all. "Nathan bottles up everything inside and it's mainly your fault. I mean…He has a part time mom who spends most of her time raising money for a foundation all over the US and you're never satisfied with him. You always ask for more but…but there'll be a time when he won't be able to give you more and…this can be problematic."
"I'm not sure you know what you're talking about Haley." Said Dan trying to keep his cool.
"I do…You can doubt it, but I know and I can't keep standing here without saying a word while he's suffering and you're the one being the source of his pain. You know…" She cleared her throat scared was pushing it too far. "A parent's love and support is supposed to be unconditional. Nathan's one of a kind Dan…And one of the good kinds. You're so lucky to have a son like him and I think that you're too obsessed about success to notice it, but please do…Look at your son…Look at his pain." She begged sadly her voice shivering while she tried to keep her tears in.
"I…" Started Dan speechless.
"You wanted to know what I want for my birthday..." Said Haley cutting him off, she needed to finish while she still had the courage in her." I want you to show your son that you're proud of him and that you love him." She smiled. "It's not like it's not true, but tell him and stop pushing him so hard!" She added seriously. "He's only human and he's enough…he should be enough for you." She finally said locking eyes with Dan's in order to show him that she meant every word.
Nathan grimaced…One part of him was glad that Haley, the most amazing girl in the planet was fighting for him, but he was still scared of his father's reaction.
Dan laughed.
Haley frowned confused. She didn't expect him to react like that and her anger started to build up again. "I'm not joking Dan!" She said a bit harsher then she intended.
"I know you aren't." Said Dan smiling. "It's just I can see now that your dad was right." He added more seriously as he saw Haley frown. "Let me explain something to you…" He said nicely. "When you were born Nate was 2 months and well…your father called me to come over and watch the two things he was the more proud of, you and Lucas." Said Dan with nostalgia.
Haley smiled as her eyes filled up with tears. She still missed her dad so much.
"When I saw you and your brother I made fun of your dad saying you were the most beautiful baby in the world because you looked just like your mother." Dan smiled. "Keith put his arm around my shoulders and asked me to be Lucas' godfather. I asked him why Lucas you know…" Dan shrugged "I was curious. And well…He told me that I couldn't be the godfather of my future daughter in law!"
"What?!" Asked Haley with big eyes.
"Yeah…" Said Dan nodding positively. "Your dad kept joking saying that we'd have a James-Scott wedding one day and that you and Nathan were meant to be." Added Dan lost in his thoughts. "I never thought about it anymore…Until now…" He added.
"Nathan and I are just friends." Said Haley not even believing it herself. "I'm just standing up for my friend…I'd do it for Brooke too!!" She added standing up and holding her head straight.
Nathan was a bit disappointed by Haley's comment. He wanted her to tell if she was still in love with him.
"That's what you think Haley..." Said Dan nicely. "But your eyes say otherwise. You know the look you had when you defended Nathan…" He said slightly shrugging. "I always dreamed of seeing my wife look at me that way, but I 've seen that look before…" He took Haley's hand. "It was the look your mom had each time she looked at your dad." Added Dan gently patting Haley's shoulder.
Haley opened her mouth but quickly closed it again. Was she that transparent?! But she was trying to convince herself so hard that she was over him.
"Well…I'll see you on Sunday baby. Thanks for everything…I…won't turn my back on him again." Added Dan sincerely leaving the gym.
Haley stayed sitting there for a while before taking a deep breath. This chat scared her more then she was ready to admit, because she was scared that it would be worse for Nathan.
Nathan watched Haley for a while from his hiding place. He wanted to walk to her, kiss her passionately and thank her for defending him looking deep inside of him and thinking he was good enough. Nathan shook his head, he had no right to listen to the conversation… Thank you so much…He thought before leaving quietly.
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It's my party
It was Saturday night and Haley was getting ready to go to a movie night with Brooke.
They are such bad liars! She thought with a laugh. She and Lucas knew that their friends organized a « surprise » birthday party at Nathan's beach house. Tomorrow, the day of their official birthday would be a boring family dinner with their grandparents and Dan and Deb of course.
Haley knew she was out of line yesterday with Dan expected him to talk about it to her mother. That conversation was long overdue! Haley reassured herself.
"Oh baby you're gorgeous!" Said Karen looking at her daughter, her back resting on the doorframe.
"Yeah?" She asked looking at her mother before looking back at the mirror. She was wearing a strapless champagne dress, which made her look like a 21st century princess. At least that's what Brooke said when she brought the dress over earlier this afternoon. Brooke said it was an early birthday present and that she needed to wear it tonight for the movies because they needed to "dress up"! Haley laughed and didn't question her friend any more because she knew how much Brooke sucked at lying. "I'm getting ready for Brookie's movie night," said Haley using her fingers as brackets.
Karen nodded and smiled emotionally. "I can't believe my babies are going to be 18 tomorrow…" Said Karen her voice shivering with emotion. "It feels just like yesterday I held you in my arms and now…" She pointed at her daughter "… And now you're both fantastic young adults on the verge of going to college."
"Aww Ma…" Said Haley walking to her mother and hugging her tightly. "You're not going to make me cry and ruin my make up just before my party are you?" Asked Haley still keeping her mother in a tight hold. "But…" Haley loosened her embrace. "But I need you to know ma that if we grew up to be what we are it's because of you and all the love you gave us." Said Haley keeping her eyes on her mothers'. "You always had faith us, you always supported us and you always showed us how proud of us you were even if we didn't always make the right choices."
"Thanks baby…" Said Karen sincerely. "That's the most beautiful compliment that anyone could give me." She added taking her daughter's hand and making her sitting down on the bed with her. "Talking about making the right choice…I saw your uncle Dan today…" Started Karen.
"I know I was probably out of line." Said Haley cutting off her mother. "But some things needed to be said and it couldn't wait any longer!" Added Haley, but as soon as she saw the confusion in her mother's eyes she stopped talking.
"Please continue…" Said Karen doing her best to contain her laugher.
Haley blushed embarrassed. "No that's fine ma…you're the one who started," added Haley as a lousy invitation for her mother to carry on.
"Anyways…" Said Karen shaking her head. "Dan told me you didn't want anything special for your birthday so he'll go with money. But…he also told me that I raised a fantastic daughter whose more mature then most of the adults we know." Added Karen still stroking her daughter hand.
"Thank you…" Said Haley relieved.
"It's a compliment baby but it scares me..." Said Karen nicely. "You never took any risks, never made a bad choice and…and I'm scared that you're going to let your whole youth pass you by because you're too scared to take risks." Added Karen sincerely.
Haley looked down; she knew her mother was right. She was Haley James the voice of reason, the one who was always making the safest choice because it was who she was and she wanted to protect herself.
Karen brought her hand to Haley's chin and raised it gently. "All I'm saying honey is that I've been truly blessed to have children like you and Lucas and I wouldn't have been able to cope with your father's death if it wasn't for my angels, but growing up also means making mistakes and learning how to deal with them." Karen said before kissing her daughter's forehead. "Live your life and take some risks honey because believe me the most fantastic things happened in my life were the things for that I took risks's for." Added Karen emotionally.
"I'll try mom…" Said Haley with a small smile.
"Okay…" Said Karen standing up. "Now I better let you finish to getting ready for your movie night with Brooke," Said Karen cheerfully trying to change subject. "Because if you're not ready when she arrives she'll hurt me." She added with a laugh.
"Probably…" Said Haley nodding and pretending to be serious.
"And what about your brother? He already left?" Asked Karen curiously.
"Yeah…Peyton made him believe that she wanted to have some kinky…" Haley stopped and widened her eyes. She just realized she was talking to her mother. She blushed so much it looked like her face was on fire. "Pretzel…She wanted to have some Pretzels."
"Right…Pretzels…" Said Karen with a nod bursting into laugher seeing her daughter's discomfort. "Well…have fun tonight sweetie." She added nicely leaving the room.
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Haley and Brooke made their way to the party but it had already started.
"This is kinda ironic…." Said Haley shaking her head. "I succeeded being 2 hours late to my own birthday party!" She added with a smile.
"I'm sorry…" Said Brooke with a sad voice. "It's not my fault…Please don't be mad!" Added Brooke in a pleading tone. "My car broke down!"
"I'm not mad…" Said Haley nicely hugging Brooke. "It's just funny that's all," added Haley walking into the house.
As soon as they arrived Haley saw Nathan with his « crowed » around him.
Haley sighed, it's my birthday but he's the star. She thought exasperated. She shook her head and saw Bevin passing by with a tray of shots.
"Stop!" Said Haley stepping in front of Bevin. She took two shots from the tray. "One for me and…one for me!" Said Haley with a laugh.
"Oh boy…" Said Brooke trying to take a glass from Haley's hand.
"Come on Brookie! It's my birthday!" Said Haley cheerfully. "I'm young!"
"Oh it's your birthday too?" Asked Bevin to Haley with a big smile. "What are the odds? It's your brother's birthday too you know." She added seriously.
"Ummm...They're twins Bevin..." Said Brooke slowly like she was talking to a retard.
"Yeah, but still...It's impressing," said Bevin walking away.
"And he slept with that?" Asked Haley more to herself than Brooke before drinking the two shots.
"Hey easy tiger!! You're tutor girl not alcoholic girl!" Said Brooke taking the empty shot glasses from Haley's hand. It's going to be an interesting night...She added to herself.
Haley walked in the living room, trying to find her brother since she had already lost Brooke in the crowed.
This birthday party sucks big time! She thought knowing that it was mainly for her brother. She had already drank four shots and started to feel hot. At least I won't be a tight ass! She thought bursting into laugher by her own stupid joke.
As soon as Mouth the DJ for the night saw her in the living room he stopped the music.
"Yeah…here comes the birthday girl!! She finally made it!" He said shouting in the microphone. "Where were you girl?" He asked laughing.
Haley blushed when all the faces turned to look at her. Her only wish was to be invisible.
I guess I'm still a tight ass… She thought looking around for help.
Nathan could see her discomfort and joined her fast, giving her a hug to stop the staring. At the same time he threw his hand in this air to ask Mouth to put some music again.
"Aww…Nathan Royal Scott…" Said Haley looking at him with puppy eyes. "You saved me! You're a sav…ver," She said thinking.
"Have you been drinking?" Asked Nathan with a smile.
"Drinking?? What do you call drinking?" Asked Haley cupping his cheek. "I had a few of those…" She said pointing to Bevin, who was at the other end of the room filling glasses of shots.
"Ohhh…" Said Nathan widening his eyes. "I see…" He added putting a hand on Haley's back.
"Yep…" She said nodding. "You're hot tonight Nathan Royal Scott. You know that? I could kiss you right now!!" She added looking around.
"What?" Asked Nathan bringing his head down so his ear was next to Haley's mouth. He heard it! He knew she said she wanted to kiss him, but she caught him by surprise and he couldn't kiss her here, in front of all these people.
"Where's my brother?" She asked like nothing happened.
"I saw him go upstairs with Peyton about 10 minutes ago. He told me something about a promise or something." Said Nathan nicely, still keeping his hand on her lower back.
"I see…" Said Haley nodding. "Kinky sex!" She added bursting into laugher. "Bevin!" She shouted.
Almost immediately the tray was in front of Haley's face.
"Thank you Smith!" She said taking two shots from the tray. She turned her attention to Nathan. "Boy that girl is dumb, but she does learn fast! I get why you wanted her." Said Haley slightly jealousy.
"I think you've had enough already…" Said Nathan trying to take the drinks from Haley.
"Nope!" She said drinking them fast and grimacing before he could take the glasses from her. "I'm acting young! You see I can be a moron!" She added somewhat proudly.
"Okay… Now you're done." He added seriously pushing her slowly, but firmly from the living room.
"Nah…I'm going... I'll be good I promise." She said raising her hand like she was swearing in court. "Stay with your groupies!" She added with her thumbs up. "Who's going to get a piece of Nathan Royal Scott tonight?" She asked with a suspenseful tone. "Find out in the next episode..." She added waving bye to him and starting to look for Brooke.
Nathan watched her go and sighed shaking his head. Why was she acting like that? That's not the girl I know…the girl I love. He thought walking behind her. He froze. "Wait…the…the girl I love?" He whispered to himself with disbelief.
He turned around and saw a young team player. "Hey You… I need you to keep an eye on her for me. I need to go out for a while, but don't leave her alone…Understand?" Said Nathan in a menacing tone.
The younger man nodded fast and went to stand behind Haley.
Nathan looked at the door. "I really need some air!" He added to himself.
Haley was wondering inside the house and started to regret the 6 shots she had. She even had some trouble keeping them down, but she was doing her best to do so.
She finally found Brooke who was laughing with some boys. Geez even drunk I can't be as cool as her. Thought Haley with a smile. She told Brooke she needed to go upstairs for a while in order to keep her liquor down.
I shouldn't have drunk... She thought grimacing looking for an empty bedroom before finally finding a room and lying on the bed as the room spun around. Stop spinning…She asked the ceiling before closing her eyes.
She woke up about 30 minutes feeling a bit better, but still with a headache starting slowly but surely. I'm going to pay tomorrow... She thought while her eyes started to get used to the dark.
"It's Nathan's room." She said out loud standing up. She turned the light on and started wondering around the room. She looked at the pictures and trophies in the room. She was so deep in her thoughts she didn't hear the knock on the door before someone walked in.
"Are you feeling better?" Asked Nathan behind her.
Haley jumped around with a picture of him at a basketball game.
"Sorry I didn't mean to scare you…" Said Nathan sincerely. "It's just…I wanted to check on you." He added nicely closing the door behind him.
"Don' t be sorry, it's your room…" She said showing him the picture. "I shouldn't be here anyway." She added guiltily.
"You're welcome everywhere you know that don't you?" Said Nathan nicely walking to her and putting his hands on her shoulders. Gosh… I just love being in contact with her skin, he thought.
"Yeah…"Said Haley grimacing and sitting on the bed.
"So…" Said Nathan sitting beside her. "You won't even guess what happened to me today." He said looking down at her.
"Tell me…" She said feeling the butterflies in her stomach. She was sitting with Nathan on a bed at a party. He was so close that she could smell his cologne.
"You know usually on Saturday morning's I get woken up by Dan banging on my door at about 6 am." Said Nathan looking down at his hands. He didn't know why but his palms were sweaty, he was so nervous which usually never happened to him. "Usually it's to run or shoot hoops or whatever he thought I did wrong during the game."
Haley just sighed, but didn't say anything. She tried yesterday and if it didn't work, there was nothing more that she could do.
"Anyways… I woke up this morning and looked at the clock it was 9 am! I jumped out of bed and ran downstairs," said Nathan with a laugh. "I was actually worried and I found my dad in the kitchen reading the newspaper. And you'll never guess what he told me…" Said Nathan quickly looking at her. "He said that I played like a real champion last night and that I needed a real nights sleep." Nathan cleared his throat. "He…he also told me that he loved me and that he was really proud of me."
Haley raised her head and looked at Nathan who was still looking down. It worked!! She thought relieved.
"And he added that whatever I decide to do with my life he'll love me no matter what. He said that I was a fantastic person and that he made a lot of mistakes with me and that he'll do his best to repair them all because..." Nathan stopped for a second to take a deep breath, reliving this moment was as emotional now as it was the first time. One of his wishes finally became a reality and it was all because of the girl sitting beside him.
Haley gently put her hand on his shoulder. Nathan put his hand on top of it as they both felt a shock.
"Because he didn't want to loose me." Nathan finally added locking his eyes on Haley's.
Haley smiled as her eyes shined because of the tears. "I knew you were enough Nathan, you were always enough…" She said sincerely. "It just took him forever to realize it. I better go meet the others now," she said looking at the alarm clock.
She had her hand on the handle when Nathan spoke up.
"Did you do it?" He asked standing up.
"Do what?" Asked Haley confused.
"Think of me when you were in London." He finally asked seriously. "When you left you said these exact words I'll think of you…so did you?"
Everyday… She thought instantly. "Of course I did!" She said with a smile. "I can't believe you remembered that." She added sincerely impressed.
"I remember everything about you…" Said Nathan locking eyes with her as her breath caught in her throat.
"Why are you doing that?" She asked with some pain in her voice. "You don't know how hard it is to get over you…it's almost impossible." She simply stated before looking away. "Every time I think I'm succeeding I see you and it's like I'm back to square one again." She added sincerely.
Nathan looked at her without a word. He knew she was drunk and he didn't know how much of what she was saying could be trusted. "It's the alcohol talking…" Said Nathan nicely looking at her tenderly.
"I wish it was…" Said Haley with a sad laugh." I know what I'm saying, alcohol actually loosens up my inhibitions, but that's it." Said Haley sincerely. She locked eyes with Nathan. "Don't look at me like that!"
"Like what?" Asked Nathan nicely still looking at her lovingly.
"Like you care for me"! Said Haley pointing at his gaze. "And don't talk to me like that, don't say you remember everything I said it's…it's inappropriate between friends," she added confused.
"What if I don't stop…" asked Nathan in a whisper walking toward her. He stopped so close that they could feel each other bodies' warmth.
"I could do something stupid…" Said Haley raising her head to look in his beautiful blue eyes. They were darker then usual because there was something she didn't expect to see…desire. What the hell! I've only got one life right? She thought throwing her arms around his neck and starting to kiss him passionately.
Nathan pressed her body against his as he begged for entrance with his tongue. Haley obliged straight away as the two moved in sync.
Make some mistakes…you need to be with the one you love even if he'll never love you!! She added to herself bringing her hands on his chest and starting to unbutton his shirt.
Not like this! Thought Nathan understanding where they were heading…not while she's drunk…He added to himself breaking their kiss and taking her hands in his to stop her from unbuttoning his shirt. "No Haley..." He said breathlessly his voice full of desire. "I don't want that for…"
"What?" She asked stepping back. She felt ashamed. Stupid girl!! What did you expect? She thought. "You're not attracted to me that you refuse when I'm throwing myself at you?" She asked angrily. She was angrier against herself then she was against him.
"No Haley. You don't get it…" Said Nathan calmly reaching for her.
"Don't touch me!" She said her eyes full of tears and pain. "Stop playing me Nathan okay… You know what? Better yet forget I even exist! Next time you see me don't talk to me…I'll be just fine!" She added storming out.
"Haley wait!" Shouted Nathan dashing out of the bedroom after her.
At that exact moment Lucas came out of one of the guest room with Peyton when Haley collided with them.
"Hey sis… Are you okay?" Asked Lucas hugging his sister. He looked at Nathan and frowned. They both looked sad. "What the Hell happened?" He asked more aggressively to Nathan.
Haley understood that she would be causing trouble between the two best friends and decided to save the situation. Think fast tutor girl!! She told herself.
"I…It's…" Started Nathan. I love your sister Lucas…I want to be with her, but when she's sober… I don't think he'll like that! Thought Nathan with sarcasm.
"Nathan has nothing to do with it…" Said Haley trying to sound as sincere as she could. "I drank a bit too much and I shouldn't have…" she said shrugging. "Nathan followed me upstairs and started to become all fatherly to me. It pissed me off… That's it," said Haley blowing out some air near Lucas' nose to show him she had actually been drinking.
"Oh…" Said Lucas surprised. "Well…He's right…Thanks man…" Said Lucas in an apologetic tone.
Nathan shrugged. "Don't mention it…" He said guiltily. He wanted to make love to Haley and if she were sober they would probably be doing it right now. He couldn't stand his best friend's grateful look because he would have betrayed him without even feeling guilty about it.
"Come on little sis…" Said Lucas with a laugh. "Let's drive you home." He added kissing her forehead.
"I can drive her home if you want Luke." Said Nathan trying to sound nonchalant. He wanted to explain himself to Haley tonight because a part of him knew that if he didn't do it tonight things wouldn't be right again. "It's your birthday party man. The two stars can't leave." He said with a laugh.
Lucas looked down at Haley who still had her face buried in his chest. He sighed. "No that's fine. I 'll be back in a few." He added tightening his arms against her sister.
Once Lucas and Haley left Peyton turned around and looked at Nathan.
"I'm sorry…" Said Peyton sincerely. "You're lucky Lucas is dumb with love because I can see the love you feel for her in your eyes."
Nathan looked at her and sighed. "We're done before we even started," he said sadly.
"You don't know that…" She said nicely." I don't think she even knows it. You can't see what you spend years trying to forget about." She added with a sad smile before going down to where the actual party was leaving Nathan alone with his thoughts.
In next chapter: A new character is making his entrance...expect some big surprises and revelations!