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Song: No Shame by Tina Arena
Chapter 15: No Shame
Eight weeks later:
Haley and Nathan were at the tutor center trying to prepare Nathan for his upcoming English exam. They were doing their actual tutoring sessions in public places because otherwise they wouldn't get any work done if they were somewhere in private, in fact they couldn't keep their hands off each other.
Every morning Haley woke up even more in love with Nathan and each time he locked eyes with hers she could feel her body heat up. Haley bit her bottom lip and sighed loudly. The relationship between Broke and Jake was becoming stronger too and they were becoming less and less discreet about their love.
"What's bothering you?" Asked Nathan twirling his pen between his fingers, while discreetly caressing her thigh under the table.
"People are starting to talk about Brooke and Jake…" Haley whispered.
"That's a good thing," said Nathan not even bothering to lower his voice, "We've been together for two months already and we're still keeping the truth from your brother." He shook his head. "I'm really starting to wonder if you're enjoying that we're unofficial!" He added with pain showing in the eyes.
Haley's eyes widened with surprise. She couldn't believe Nathan could think that. "How can you say that? We already talked about it didn't we?" She asked gently reaching for his cheek.
"Yeah we did Angel, but that was two months ago and you said « for a little while »." He put the pen back on the table. "Geez Hales! Two months is more then a « little while »!" He took both her hands and put them on his heart. "There's only pride here Hales. Pride that a girl like you…." He crinkled his nose. "Let me rephrase…Pride that you see something in me and that you love me." He shook his head "don't you get it? I want the whole word to know that I love you and…and that you love me back!" He took a deep breath before continuing. "And a small part of me can't stop but think that you 're ashamed to love me and that you're using Lucas as an excuse not to make us official."
Haley looked at him for a while not believing what she was hearing. Didn't he know it by now? She asked herself before shaking her head and standing up. "Ok tutoring is over." She said seriously. "Come with me," she added giving him her hand to take.
He grasped the small hand in his and felt an electric shock go through his spine. It was always the same…every time she touched him.
He followed her to the school parking lot.
"Where are we going?" He asked confused and a bit worried seeing the determined look on her face.
"My house…my room…" she said nicely sitting in the car seeing the worry in his eyes. "There's something I need to show you." She added mysteriously.
"Okay…" Said Nathan intrigued.
As soon as they made it to her room Haley walked to her desk grabbed her Lyric notebook while Nathan sat on her bed staring at her quizzically.
"Okay…" She started to move uncomfortably sitting beside him. "Some people have dairies to write about their feelings, but like you said yourself, music is the only real thing I am able to talk to so…" She shrugged slightly. "While some of us express their feelings through a diary or some fictional characters in stories, I do it in music."
"I know that Hales…" Said Nathan nicely looking at the notebook as if it was the Holy Grail. He knew that reading it would be like reading Haley's heart.
"Look at it…" She said handling it to him hesitantly. "They're almost all talking about you." She cleared her throat. "And look at the last couple pages…it's songs I've written since we started to date." She added biting her bottom lip nervously.
Nathan flipped the pages cautiously until he read the song she wrote on the last page. She called it No Shame.
It took me twenty years to stand up straight and tall
It took me all of twenty seconds for everything to fall
I don't worry about my pride anymore'
Cause pride is something, I just can't afford
I'd go beggin' in the rain
If I could spare you any pain
When it comes to you,
I have no shameNo shame,
no shameThere's no life by your side,
I wouldn't liveThere's no sin you could commit that I would not forgive
I don't try to understand anymore'Cause I just know my world, begins at your door
If I could keep you from the cold
If I could make your tears my ownI'd do anything,
I have no shameNo shame - for the first time in my life
No shame - to get it right for you I wouldn't think twice
No shame - nothin' I won't sacrifice
There's nothing I won't do baby
To get you through the night
Fallin', fallin'I'll be there to reach you baby
To catch you when you're cryin'
I'll be callin', I'll be callin'
With a love for you that has no name
I have no shameI'd go beggin' in the rainI
f I could spare you any pain
When it comes to you, I have no shame
No shame - for the first time in my life
No shame - to get it right for you I wouldn't think twice
No shame - nothin' I won't sacrifice
There's nothing I won't do babyTo get you through the night
Nathan looked up directly into Haley's eyes surprised. "You really mean it?" He asked his voice shivering emotionally.
"Every word…" Said Haley nodding her head and gently brushing his cheek. "If only there was a way for you to read my heart." She added with a smile.
Nathan smiled and gently kissed her lips. It was like a breeze of fresh air during a hot summer day…indescribably good.
Haley sighed blissfully. "I love when you kiss me Nate, but…" she looked down and took his hand in hers, she kissed his palm. "But you're right about something…If I'm honest with myself …I do use Lucas as an excuse not to make us official." She added in a whisper.
"Excuse me?" Asked Nathan, both shock and surprised evident in his voice.
"But you're wrong on my motives." She added louder then before, but still looking down.
'I'm listening…' Said Nathan nicely but firmly his heart pounding on his chest.
Haley stood up and started to pace in the room. "Let's face it Nate…" She started not even looking at him. "I'm tutor girl…I'm a dork, I'm ordinary!" She shrugged. "I'm Haley James! My brother's popular, my best friend's popular and now my boyfriend's super popular!" She shook her head. "And…I'm just not…"
"Haley please…explain yourself! I don't get you, try to help me understand." He smiled trying to ease the atmosphere. "You ARE tutor girl! You make everything understandable."
"Yeah…" She smiled at his remark. "The only thing is when everybody knows about us they'll think… « What does a guy like the great Nathan is doing with a girl like Haley James?» and a small part of me is wondering the same thing…" She added with a sob. "What are you doing with me Nate?" She asked finally facing him.
Nathan could see the doubt in her eyes. He stood up to face her and placed his hands on her shoulder. "Haley how…"
"And a part of me can't stop thinking that one day you're going to start asking yourself the same question." She finally looked up, her eyes filed with tears. "Since we got together there's this aching deep inside that sometimes surfaces'' she said pointing to her chest. ''Once you get what you want you're so scared to lose it." She added with defeat in her voice. ''I…I…''
Nathan closed the distance between their bodies and crashed his lips on hers. Hearing her doubts was hurting him, he wanted to ease her mind and make her understand. ''Look into my eyes Hales…look inside me." Said Nathan emotionally. "What do you see?" He asked looking deep into her eyes. "You're NOT ordinary actually really far from it!'' Added Nathan sincerely. "You took my heart Haley James." He still saw the doubt in her eyes and continued. "You're smart, funny, beautiful, caring, loving and so good in bed" he added kissing her nose. "You're perfect…I'm the one thanking God everyday for capturing your heart," he added seriously.
Haley finally smiled brightly and leaned on her tiptoes to kiss him. "I love you and I'll tell Lucas everything tonight!" She added with conviction. "You're right I want us to be official. I'm so proud to be yours!" She added with love shining in her eyes.
"I want to be there to help you!" Said Nathan nicely hugging her. "He needs to see how much I love you. He'll accept us easier I think." He added kissing her forehead.
"Let me this time…I'm Lucas' soft spot," said Haley seriously. "I need to calm him down first." She bit her bottom lip. "Maybe…Maybe you can drive to Canada for a couple of days," she added trying to joke.
"That's an idea…" He said kissing her palm sensually. "I'm so glad you decided to make us official." He added now kissing the pulse point of her wrist.
Haley closed her eyes and moaned. "I…What about a biology tutoring session now?" she asked breathlessly her voice full of desire.
"Geez…I thought you 'd never propose that!" Said Nathan with a smile against her lips before jumping with her on top of her bed. "So now miss James…What are we starting by?" He asked kissing her jaw line.
"Ummm….What about that?" She asked starting to unbuckle his belt.
"I like your way of thinking…" He added starting to unbutton her jeans.
Once they were done, Nathan held Haley tightly against his body. "Every time we made love…it gets better." He added kissing her forehead. "I don't want to be without you anymore."
"You don't have to be." She said kissing his chest. "As long as you keep loving me, I'll be by your side," She added raising her head softly and biting his bottom lip. "What about a shower?" She asked cheekily.
"Huh? You want to take a shower now?" Asked Nathan with confusion loosening his embrace regretfully.
"Kinda…" She said attacking his lips again. "I just don't want to take it alone," she added arching her eyebrows seductively.
"Oh…" Started Nathan catching on to where Haley was going, he jumped out of bed and took her hand. "Come on Angel…What're we waiting for? I need a good scrub," he added with a wink.
Haley laughed and followed him to the bathroom. "I'll scrub wherever you need." She added seductively.
They were under the warm shower laughing, kissing and touching…so lost in their own little world that they didn't hear Lucas' car drive in the driveway.
I can't believe they are doing that to her! Thought Lucas with anger, closing his car door. He drove to Jakes' house to ask him for some help with the younger player's training when he saw it. Jake was making out with Brooke. Her own best friend!! He thought shaking his head and walking up to Haley's' bedroom. He wasn't going to tell her just yet but he was looking for Nathan in order to give Jake the beat up he deserved for betraying his sister.
Lucas noticed that Nathan got even more protective of Haley lately, and was sure he would go ballistic knowing Jake's behaviour.
Lucas knocked and walked in. "Haley? Hales?? Where are you little sis?" He shouted hearing some noise in the bathroom.
Both Haley and Nathan immediately froze when they heard the familiar voice.
"Damn! I forgot to lock the door." She whispered to Nathan. "You stay here. I'll be back in a minute." She added with confidence
Nathan just nodded.
"I'm coming," she shouted putting her robe on and walking carefully outside her bathroom, not opening the door too wide so he couldn't see inside. Lucas was waiting in front of her door.
As soon as she closed the door Nathan walked outside the shower and wrapped a towel around his waist. Please god you have to help us out of this one… He thought pleadingly.
"Sorry to interrupt your shower baby J." Said Lucas with a warm smile. He felt so guilty to break Haley's heart so soon. Poor baby… He thought. "You had a tutoring session with Nathan this afternoon right?" He asked nicely.
"Why are you asking?" Asked Haley a bit defensively. She looked down to see Nathan's clothes lying on the floor just on the side of her bed. She swore in her head and walked nonchalantly to her bed. "Yeah we had one but…but we're done," She added discreetly pushing the clothes under her bed. Once they were under the bed she sighed with relief.
"I know you're done!" Said Lucas with a laugh. "You wouldn't give him a tutoring session in the shower," he added rolling his eyes.
Haley nodded and smiled uncomfortably. "I don't know where he is." She said pretending to look at her bookshelves. She hated lying to her brother, especially straight to his face.
"Aww okay…" Said Lucas shrugging, ''I just need his help for something. "I'll give him a call," he added just thinking about what he would say and taking his cell out and dialling Nathan number. As soon as he did he heard a phone ring in Haley's room. He scrunched his eyebrows with confusion. "I probably dialled your number…" Said Lucas not convinced seeing Haley's turning white.
Lucas looked in his repertory and pressed on Nathan. He could hear the song "Strong" by Kanye West coming from under Haley's bed.
"What the fuck!" Said Lucas walking to Haley's bed and looking under it. He saw a pile of clothes and took them out from underneath it. He looked at the clothes for a minute before looking at Haley angrily.
She opened her mouth to talk, but closed it straight away. We're doomed!! She thought looking down.
Lucas finally concentrated his attention on the bathroom door looking at it with fury. "Oh you gave him a tutoring lesson in the shower alright!" He said between his teeth pushing Haley out of his way before opening the door.
Nathan's smiled faded straight away when he saw Lucas standing in front of the door. He was breathing heavily and clenching his fists so hard that his knuckles were white.
"It's not what you think…" Said Nathan. It was the only think that crossed his mind but he realized his mistake straight away when he saw the anger in Lucas's eyes grow even stronger. Nathan tightened his grip on the towel.
"Not what I think?" Shouted Lucas with fury. He walked to Nathan and knocked him down punching him straight in the nose. "Oh that's good," he shouted again "I thought you were FUCKING my sister!!" He added even louder.
Nathan stayed down avoiding Lucas' glance. He didn't know what to say. Lucas found out the worse way possible.
"I hope it was worth it because it just cost you our friendship." Said Lucas still with anger, but not bothering shouting anymore. "We were never friends!" He added pointing to Nathan. "I trusted you more then anyone and you betrayed me!" He added looking at Nathan with disgust. "You're just a two faced bastard and you know it!" Added Lucas turning around to leave. He gave a sad and disappointed glance to his sister.
He was about to leave when Nathan finally spoke.
"I love her! More then life!!" Said Nathan finally standing up. "And…and if you can't get that well…" He shrugged "I guess our 'beautiful friendship'IS really over," added Nathan sarcastically
''Excuse me?" Asked Lucas with defiance turning around.
Haley stood between them. He wouldn't hit me! Thought Haley.
"You perfectly heard me! I love Haley! I don't fuck her…I make love to her!" He added looking straight into Lucas' eyes. "I…I just love her."
"I love him too…" Said Haley still standing in front of Nathan. "I'm sorry you found out this way," she added sincerely
Lucas looked back and worth at them. He sighed, "Get lost! Both of you!!" He said leaving the room and slamming the door behind him.
"I need to talk to him…" Said Haley turning to face Nathan, she had tears in her eyes. "I need to set things right and I've got to do it now."
Nathan nodded walking to her and hugged her tight. "I understand…" He said lovingly kissing her teary eyes. "Go find your brother…I'll wait for you at home." He added picking up his clothes from the floor. "I love you baby and that's all that matters." He said gently stroking her cheek.
"I love you too…Thanks for being in my life." She said emotionally looking for clothes to put on before going after her brother.
In next chapter: Sometime all you need is love…