A.N Hey guys!! OMG I can't believe all the reviews you left me I would like to thank you sooo much for that. I can't even put words on how I felt seeing how the last chapter made you react.

I really hope this chapter will get as much love as the last one.

Ok…This chapter contains some mature sexual content so please skip this part if you're uncomfortable with that.

Anyways enough rambling and please show me the love through your reviews lmao.

This chapter is dedicated to all my fantastic readers, to my sweet Kelly ( you go girl!!) and to my little Spider Monkey (hold on tight lol)

The song used is I miss you by Boys II Men

Chapter 21: I miss you and me

"Here we go with less then one minute left on the clock and the Raven are down by two. We expect Lucas James the best 3 point shooter on the team to be double teamed." Said the commentator. "This is one of the tightest final in years. Oh my! James just gave the ball to Scott who is going to try a three point even if it's his weakest point."

Haley was there, looking at her brother giving the ball to Nathan as he tried his best to make the shot. Haley held her breath and what was supposed to last half a second lasted forever for her. Please make the shot! She begged following the ball with the eyes.

"It's in! The Ravens are finally State champions!" Shouted the commentator while Haley shouted her happiness jumping from her seat.

Haley let some tears of happiness fall down her cheeks while she sat back down and started breathing again. He made it! He is state champion… They are state champions, thought Haley who couldn't help the pride she felt.

Haley and Nathan broke up a month ago and it was still pretty hard to see him around, with his crowd of sluts and with Rachel in particular. Haley was sure Rachel was sharing Nathan's bed again and it broke her heart each time she thought about that.

She was more and more happy to leave for California and she really hoped that the old saying was true "far from the eyes far from the heart".

It was pretty hard to be civil with him in front of the others, especially her brother who was still pretty cold with her. She could not believe he didn't came around by now. He told her they were ok, but she knew he was lying. Their relationship wasn't what it used to be and maybe, it never will be.

Haley thought he was exaggerating, but each time she tried to talk about it he shut her down. Haley was so frustrated that she decided to give up.

She was now there, sat while they were all up hugging each other shouting their joy to the world. She wanted to go down and hug Nathan, tell him how proud she was and that he deserved it all but no, she wouldn't do that. She would just go home take a book and try to concentrate on it while imagining which one of his groupie will be 'congratulate' him tonight after the big party they will be having in Nathan beach house. He was the old Nathan again …back to his man whore nature. She thought sadly.

Haley shook her head, took her bag and gave a quick look to Brooke who was in Jakes' arms and smiled. Brooke finally found someone she trusted and finally realized that she was enough.

At least things turned out right for one of us, thought Haley sincerely happy for her friend.

"I can't wait for tonight!" said a voice behind Haley.

Haley turned around to face the person she perfectly recognized the voice. "Why are you telling me that Rachel?" She asked calmly knowing that getting upset was pointless and that it would just please Rachel even more.

"You know…" Rachel shrugged her usually cocky smile on her face. "He is going to be so happy…he is going to take me to heaven." She added knowing how much it was going to hurt Haley.

Haley gave a quick look in Nathan's direction. He was talking with Tim. She looked back to Rachel and nodded. "You two have fun…" She said not even mad. "And…" She took a deep breath and looked deep into Rachel's eyes. "Just take care of him, ok?" She asked sincerely.

"What?" Asked Rachel really confused.

"I give up…" Haley shrugged. "I gave up a long time ago." She added with some sadness in the voice. "You won, he is all yours." added Haley scared of the fact that she actually meant it. "But take care of him when you are with him because believe it or not…he is softer then you think." Haley smiled "Tell him you're proud of him…he deserves it."

Rachel looked at Haley with real shock for a while before turning around and going back down on the court without a word.

Haley shook her head and burst into laugher. "If I'd have known that the solution to shut her up was to be nice I would have used that a long time ago." She said out loud. "Yeah right…now I'm talking to myself…Way to go Hales!" She added finally exiting the gymnasium, seeing people looking at her.

As soon as Nathan saw that he made the shot, the famous 3 points, he looked behind him to find Haley, but as they were all up he didn't see her in the crowd. He wanted to see the pride in her eyes, he wanted to see his victory through her eyes, but she was sitting. Nathan's heart broke on the spot. He finally realized what he already knew… It didn't mean much without her by her side. There is much more to life than basketball, he thought bitterly while his team-mates started to jump on him.

As soon as he succeeded to get rid of his team-mates, Tim in particular, Nathan looked back at the crowd just in time to see her exit the gym without even a look behind.

Is she over us? Wondered Nathan the eye still fixed on the door when she was already gone. A single tear fell down her cheek. People could mistake it for a tear of joy, but it was actually a tear coming from a broken heart…a tear saying that without her standing next to him, none of his dreams had a sense anymore.

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The party was going well but Nathan was stubbornly staying in his bedroom drinking his pain away. He felt pathetic. He chose to let her go. He decided to be the bad one and he knew it would be hard but he never thought it was going to be that hard. And a part of him didn't even want to get better. He knew that he was letting the best thing he ever had slip away.

All he was doing was sitting on the floor, drinking his bottle of vodka while listening to depressing music, while blaming this whole situation on faith.

Nathan had a sarcastic laugh when he heard the song playing. It was I miss you by Boys II Men.

Thought I heard your voice yesterday

When I turned around to say

That I loved you babyI realize,

it was just my mind

Played tricks on me

And it seems colder lately at night

And I try to sleep with the lights on

Every time the phone ringsI pray to God it's you

And I just can't believe

That we're through

Nathan started to sing along while sipping on his bottle.

I miss you

There's no other way to say it

And I can't deny it

I miss you

It's so easy to see

I miss you and me

Nathan looked up and saw Rachel standing in the doorframe.

''Geez. It's true what they say then…'' She said walking in closing the door behind her. ''You're always alone once you reach the top.'' She added cynically.

Nathan laughed and shook his head. ''No I'm not alone, just not with the person I want to be with.'' He added sincerely.

''Right…whatever,'' said Rachel looking at Nathan on the floor.

''Yep…'' Said Nathan trying to get up. He had to keep a hand on the wall in order to stay straight up. ''I…I.'' He shrugged ''Did you come for some sex?'' He asked too drunk to even think. ''Maybe it could help to ease my mind for a while.'' He added trying his best to keep his liquor down.

''Yeah… As tempting as it is to have a drunk guy trying to have sex with me while thinking about another one the whole time,'' she said sarcastically shrugging. ''I think I'll pass,'' she added rolling her eyes.

''I just wanted her to be proud of me, you know,'' said Nathan ignoring Rachel's comment while trying to crawl on his bed.

''Argh!'' Said Rachel out of exasperation trying to help him to lie down. ''Damn man! You're such a wimp,''she said while taking his shoes off. ''You were each other's soft spot so easy to break you up.''

''I just wanted to see pride in her eyes. I just wanted to look into her eyes and see her look back in mine,'' added Nathan trying to reach the bottle on the floor.

''That's not a good idea.'' Said Rachel taking the bottle from the floor and putting it out of reach from Nathan. ''You're forcing me to be the voice of reason and I hate that!'' She said sincerely. ''Sleep it off…'' She said putting a cover on him. ''You'll regret it enough in the morning.''

Rachel walked to the door and before opening it she turned around to face Nathan. ''Just so you know…she was proud of you tonight. She was the proudest person in the room and it was all for you,'' she added opening the door.

''Why are you telling me that?'' Asked Nathan confused.

''Because you're both pathetic losers who deserve each other!'' She said with a laugh. ''And because even if I hate confessing it, what you have is love.'' She added leaving the room

''Love…'' Said Nathan trying to look at the ceiling and begging for it to stop spinning. ''Love is not supposed to be that hard,'' he added sadly closing his eyes.

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''Ouch….'' croaked Nathan waking up. It felt like his head was about to explode and even if he was awake it was impossible for him to open his eyes. ''I wanna die…'' He whined bringing a hand to his forehead. He jumped of surprised as he felt a cold wet cloth on his forehead. Nathan finally succeeded in opening half his eyelid to see Dan sitting on a chair next his bed.

''I'm sorry dad…'' Said Nathan in a croak.

''What would you be sorry for?'' Asked Dan nicely turning the cloth on his son forehead. ''Your alcoholic terrible breath?'' Asked Dan trying to joke.

''I'm disappointing you…I'm sorry.'' Added Nathan sadly.

''I'm the one who is sorry son.'' Said Dan sincerely starting to stoke Nathan's hair. ''I let you down and for that I'm sorry. I wanted to protect you, prevent you from doing the same mistake then I did and I blew it.'' Added Dan sadly. ''I forced you to take the same path then I did.''

''I made my choices'' said Nathan with the eyes still closed. ''I'm the one to blame.''

''It's never too late to repair the mistake we make son.'' Said Dan taking Nathan's hand. ''Being a man is not about not making any mistake, but about your ability to repair them.''

''I asked Whitey to get me into Stanford.'' Said Nathan finally opening his eyes to look at his father. He finally revealed him his big secret, telling him that he was going against «the plan».

Dan smiled and Nathan couldn't believe his own eyes. ''I know you did son.'' He said nicely. ''Whitey asked me to help him with that and I'll do everything I can for you to get in.''

''Why?'' Asked Nathan stupidly. ''You've always been so hard on me, so demanding… Why did you change?''

''Why?'' Asked Dan surprise. ''Because a little birdy whispered it to my ear.'' He said with a laugh remembering the chat he had with Haley in the gym. ''I can see she is right for you Nathan. You were a different person by her side. You were a better man than I will ever be.'' Added Dan sincerely. ''And because I can see so much love in her eyes when she looked at you that I know she'll make you happy like I've never been.''

Nathan looked at Dan with incredulity.

''It's not too late… She loves you too much to have moved on.'' Said Dan knowing what his son was in doubt about it. ''Go and talk to her…don't hide yourself. It won't serve you right,'' added Dan with concern.

Nathan nodded. ''I was thinking about asking her to prom.''

''That's a good step... A special someone for a special occasion.'' Said Dan standing up. ''Don't give up son. You're too young to give up on what you wish for,'' added Dan nicely. ''Take that…'' said Dan giving two aspirins and a glass of water to Nathan

''Thank you….Thank you for standing by me.'' Said Nathan sincerely trying to smile.

''It's what a parent is supposed to do,'' said Dan at the door. ''I'm sorry that I forgot that for a while. But please, don't forget to take a shower and brush your teeth before going to see Haley.'' Said Dan seriously. ''You seriously stink a weird mix of alcohol, sweat and vomit. It's just terrible,'' he added nicely. ''It's okay with me, but it's not really attractive,'' he added.

''Uh huh,'' Nathan simply said turning in the bed. He was starting to fall asleep again and his thoughts as he was falling asleep, were the possible ways he had to get Haley to listen to him and what he wish would happen.

Dan stayed standing there, looking at Nathan sleeping. He was so proud that Nathan was scarifying himself for Haley's happiness. Whitey told him everything when he asked for his help. But Nathan was an extraordinary young man and he deserved it all. I'll do anything I can for you to be happy again son…I swear, added Dan to himself quietly closing the door behind him.

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Haley was getting ready to meet up with Brooke and Jake. They asked her out so many times, but she always found a good excuse to refuse always staying home trying to read a book. She said "trying" because each time, her thoughts would go to Nathan asking herself who was sharing his bed and then when she was coming back to reality, she forgot where exactly she was on her reading. So she had to read the same page over and over again.

But she didn't have an excuse anymore. She had to go, knowing she was going to Palo Alto just before prom and being back just for a couple of days for graduation. It's time to start a new life, thought Haley buttoning her shirt, knowing she could not move on with Nathan around her.

Someone rang the doorbell. Haley frowned and looked at the clock "I'm not ready!" She said running down the stairs.

"I thought we were meeting at the …" She said opening the door expecting to see Jake or Brooke, but her smile immediately faded leaving a blank expression on her face.

"Hey…." croaked Nathan seeing Haley breathless. Her long blond hair lay on her back and she was bare foot. He could see her perfect little toes polished in red.

"Lucas isn't here…" She said coldly trying to close the door to his face, but he brought his hand up to block it. "What the fuck?" She added with surprise.

"I wanted to see you," said Nathan simply forcing his way into the house. "You look beautiful," he added once he was in.

"Of course I do!" She said with sarcasm. That's why you dumped me! She added to herself. She sighed. "What do you want Nathan…?" She asked with clear annoyance walking into the living room. "I mean, it's such an honour! I've got a State Champion with me!"

Nathan followed her, not being able to stop looking at her bottom moving gracefully to each of her steps.

Nathan moved, uncomfortably, in his spot. She had her big eyes fixed on him. Each time she was around, he would lose all his courage and all he was wishing to do was fall on his knees telling her he made a mistake that he should have never let her go and that he would love her forever. But he couldn't do that. She had the right to live her dream and being 3000 miles apart was the price to pay. Whitey said to Nathan that he was going to try his best to help, but he was only human and his chances to succeed were really slim.

"Come on Nathan spill it!" She said tapping her foot on the floor. "I need to go…" She added showing him her watch. In fact, being alone with him while he had his blue eyes stuck on her was making her weak in the knees. He was so sexy without even trying to be. He was wearing a pair of black cargo pants and a red shirt with Jordan's number 23 on it. I bought it for him! She thought shaking her head.

"Why are you in such a hurry?" He asked with hurt and curiosity.

"What is it to you, huh?" She asked nastily. "We're not dating are we?" She grinned. "I'm actually meeting a guy, I'm going to get laid." She added standing straight looking into his eyes where she could see pain. "You should be proud of yourself… You were so good in bed that now, I need to satisfy my needs more often," she added with a wink.

Nathan walked to her and grabbed her arms. "Why are you trying to hurt me, huh?" He asked with anger.

"Oh, don't worry I would never hurt you as much as you hurt me!" She said trying to keep it up because she felt like she was starting to lose control with Nathan's hot breath on her face. If she knew that the last time they made love would be the last she would have done everything to record every single touch in her mind. If she knew the last time would be the last she would have enjoyed it more, she wouldn't have taken it for granted. Why not…She thought closing the distance pressing her body against his.

"What…What are you doing?" He asked the voice full of emotion and confusion.

Haley pressed her breast against his chest while standing on her tip toes in order to start playing his earlobe with her tongue. "Maybe…maybe we can satisfy each other once more…" She whispered huskily to his ear. "Did you find someone more satisfying then I was?" She asked with some apprehension now softly licking down his throat. What if he says "yeah?" She thought

Nathan was completely breathless. So many emotions were going trough his body that he couldn't speak. He just shook his head negatively.

"So…just a good fuck no strings attached," said Haley with a renewed confidence seeing Nathan so turned on. "Are you with me on that?" She asked, letting the hand that was caressing his chest go down South.

Nathan's thoughts on the situation, weighing out the pros and cons of getting physical with Haley again.

As soon as her hand pressed against his manhood through the fabric she could feel him harden. "I guess it's a yes…." She added hoarsely forcing him to sit on the sofa.

"Yeah…." moaned Nathan not believing that Haley was about to be his once more. He helped Haley taking off his shirt. He was now sat on her sofa, shirtless and as hard as he could get with Haley standing between his legs.

"Say that you still want me Nathan…." She said gently pressing one of her knee between his legs.

"I want you," he groaned.

"Say you need me," she added sensually licking her bottom lip.

"I need you…" He added closing his eyes. She didn't even know how much he meant it.

Haley smiled, even if her heart was still hurting like hell, she was about to be his one last time and this time she'd do anything to remember it all. She stopped playing him with her knee and he groaned with frustration. '"Don't worry Nathan…it's about to become way better," she added slowly sliding her thong down.

"Come to me…" He asked desperately, following the travel of her panties down to the floor.

Haley sensually walked to him and sat on his lap and started to move slowly on top of him.

"Stop…" He asked breathless while starting to unbutton her shirt. "Or it's going to be over before it even starts," he added seeing she didn't wear a bra under her shirt.

Haley stopped him when there were only two buttons to open, but still leaving him full access to her breast. "I'm keeping my clothes," she said sensually caressing his hair.

Nathan nodded and started to attack her breast with his tongue, sucking on her harden nipples. Hearing her moan his name was driving him over the edge but he used all his strength to control himself.

"You're driving me crazy angel…" He croaked before starting to attach her left breast.

"Don't…don't call me that." Said Haley in a breath rolling her eyes with pleasure. I'm not your angel anymore, she added to herself. Haley rose a bit from the spot she sat on in order to unfasten Nathan's belt and she unzipped his trousers.

As soon as Nathan felt Haley's fingers looking for his cock he groaned louder. "Let me help you…" He said guiding her hand in order to set him free.

Haley smiled when she felt his manhood between her legs. "I want you in me…" She said locking her eyes with his.

"I want to be in you…" He said putting each of his hands on her hips to help her up while she wrapped her fingers around his length placing him to her entrance. Nathan helped her down slowly.

Haley couldn't hold her moans while she felt him entering her, slowly. It was like he was back where he belonged. Once he was in her completely, she started to move slowly arching her body against Nathan's. "It feels so good…" She admitted while he helped her to find the perfect rocking rhythm with the hands still on her hips.

They started to both moan louder and faster as Haley brought her hands on Nathan's shoulders to rock faster.

Nathan brought this left hand on her breast and started to massage it.

"Nathan…Oh Nathan!" Shouted Haley biting her bottom lip as she moved faster and faster.

Nathan left her breast in order to bringing his hand to her neck. He closed the distance between their two faces. He wanted to kiss her, explore her mouth, rediscover the taste of her, but she immediately turned her face so he kissed her cheek.

"No…No kiss…" She said the voice shivering as she felt about to climax. Kissing was too personal and she was not ready to let that happen. She pushed him back on the sofa and took his hand to bring it to her breast and hold on them while massaging her own breast with his hands.

Nathan felt Haley's tight body become tighter as she screamed his name. He understood that she just climaxed and closed his eyes finally letting go everything inside of her. She was his one last time.

Haley stayed with him inside for a couple of minutes resting her forehead on his shoulder. She felt so good, so satisfied, but the aching of her heart was still there. He maybe filled the gap in her body, but he didn't fill the gap in her heart, he void that he had created.

Nathan started to gently rub her back. "I missed you so much…" he whispered on her ear without thinking. He felt her push back looking at him. Why did you have to open your big mouth! He thought with anger.

She got off of his lap fast and started to bottom her shirt up. "I'm really late now! But thanks for the sex. I'm satisfied now…" She said looking at the clock in the living room pretending that having sex with Nathan didn't affect her.

"I… That's all it was for you?" Asked Nathan with disbelief standing up putting some order to his clothes.

"What?" She said with a slight shrug. "All right it was a great fuck!" She added putting her thong back and tighten her hair into a ponytail. "That's what you wanted no? That's why you came isn't it?" She asked still not looking at him. She was scared that he would see right through her. She opened the entrance locker looking for her shoes.

"No…" Said Nathan with sadness clearly showing in his voice. "I came to ask you to prom," he said keeping his eyes on her back.

She was about to put her shoe on when she froze on the spot and did something that Nathan didn't expect. She burst into laugher. She turned around the shoes in hand.

"What's so funny?" Asked Nathan with both anger and pain.

" Oh I'm sorry…" She said finally putting her shoes. "I didn't mean to laugh so loud but don't you think it's funny?" She asked sincerely. "After dumping me a month ago and I quote 'because you don't love me enough'. You ask me to prom?" She shook her head. "Sorry dude, but it's surprising that's all." She added looking for a jacket.

Nathan sighed with annoyance. He expected her to react like that, but with what they just shared he thought she would be more reactive. "Prom… Prom is special Haley and what we had was special." He said with emotion walking toward her. "I wanted to share this special night with someone special to my heart."

"Oh, cut the crap Nate!" She said taking her bag but not finding her keys. "We were as special as any other high school sweethearts." She said sincerely looking for her keys. "They all think they're so much in love that they are or were special but 90 percent of them break up after prom so please…." she shrugged. "We weren't special…" She gave him a sarcastic laugh. "Just a couple of dumb teenagers," she added finally finding her keys. "Let's go," she said opening the door.

Nathan didn't move and looked at her with disbelieve. "Who are you?!" He asked rhetorically. "Where is the sweet and kind girl that once shared my life? You're mean and bitter…" he added sadly.

"Well, that's the prerogative of the dumped one Natey!" Said Haley with a clearly exaggerated enthusiastic tone. "As for the mean and bitter part…you're the one to thank for it." She pointed outside.

Nathan started to walk slowly out.

She looked down and groaned with annoyance. "I won't be here for prom Nate, so don't worry I won't go with anyone else."

"What?" He asked shocked standing in the doorframe.

"I'll be in Palo Alto." She said seriously. "I'm going there to find a place to live…" She added avoiding the part saying that Chris was going to help her find a flat.

"What about finals? And graduation?" He asked still surprised.

"I will leave in 3 weeks just after the last final, but I'll be back for graduation." She closed the door behind them and started to walk to her car Nathan walking beside her. Haley kept her eyes on her car. Hide your love Hales, she thought. "And I'm leaving again the day after graduation to spend my summer in California," she added sitting on the car. She looked at him "Tree hill gave me everything it had to offer… It's time for me to move on." She added closing the car door and driving off.

Nathan stood there watching her car disappear down the road. Tears started to fall down his cheeks because he understood that he lost her forever, but what Nathan Scott ignored was that Haley James parked just two streets down and put her head on her steering wheel breaking into tears. She knew that what she had with Nathan was special that's why it was hurting so much.

In next chapter: You can run and you can hide but your heart and pain will follow you everywhere.