A.N: Hey guys. Thank you so much for the reviews of the last chapter. It mean a lot to me. I know you're all upset about Naley but…. Anyways this chapter is mainly Haley but don't worry you'll get some Nathan soon. I'd like to dedicate this chapter to all my readers and my reviewers in particular because you guys make me work harder to please you.
Ok I stop rambling now. I hope you're going to enjoy this chapter and don't forget to review…a old friend is back and a "new" appear!
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Chapter 22: I will Remember you
Haley was standing in Tree Hill airport, again, saying goodbye to her friends. It has been 5 weeks since the Ravens won the championship, more than two months since she had been with Nathan. Only two months, but it felt like another lifetime.
She will be gone only for a couple of weeks, just the time to find a flat and go to Stanford's open house. As they all left and she was about to board the plane she saw him. Haley was worried. A part of her happy to go and a part wanted to stay to face her feelings and future without him.
Nathan was there standing at the exact same spot that he stood two years ago and even if she wasn't sure that what she saw was true before, she was pretty sure that this time it was real. She looked at him, locked eyes with him for a couple of seconds. She couldn't describe what she saw in them, but all she knew is that looking at him was hurting her as much as it did two months ago and she hated herself to be in love with him, still.
She finally found the strength to turn her back and boarded the plane.
As she sat and closed her eyes she saw him standing in front of her, still occupying her deepest thoughts. She let out a small sarcastic laugh, the appearances probably look so different than two years back, but she was doing the exact same thing, runaway to heal her heart.
She took a deep breath and started to hum a melody she had just invented. It was obsessing her…She needed to put words in it…the lyrics will be about Nathan…They were almost always about Nathan.
She took her lyrics notebook and started to write, the words were coming in a flow as she kept seeing Nathan standing in the airport.
It's daybreak
And you are asleep
I can hear you breathe now
Your breath is so deep
But before I go
I look at you one last time
I can hear a heartbeat
Is it yours or is it mine
I look at your lips
Haley instinctively brought her hand to her lips and could almost felt Nathan's warm and soft lips on top of hers. He is still under my skin. She thought desperately.
I know how soft they can be
Do they know what they wanted
The times they kissed me
And your hands
I held in mine
Now they're reposing on the pillow
Will they ever miss me sometime
I bet you won't or not for long anyway! She thought bitterly. ''You're definitely not my Edward and I'm not your Bella,'' she whispered to herself looking at the song that was taking form.
I'll remember you
You will be there in my heart
I'll remember you
That's all that I can do
And I'll remember
Haley couldn't stop thinking about Nathan's eyes, how they used to look so deep into her like he was trying to read her soul.
Your eyes
That always makes me shiver
Now they are closed
They do sometimes twitch although
And your bodyI could own for an hour
It sent me to heaven
With it's speed and power
Haley wrote while blushing, remembering how intense it was during their love making. It was one of the reasons that made her think that they were so special. She felt empty now without him being there to hold her in his arms.
Haley shook her head, she was so lost in her thoughts and writing this song that she didn't even notice that she was almost in Palo Alto. The place where the beginning of a new life was awaiting her.
I'll remember you… She thought stepping outside of the plane.
As soon as she saw Chris' warm smile, her hard heart started to ache a little less. She gave him a big warm smile. It was a real one and this hadn't happen for so long that she was not sure if she could have a genuine smile anymore.
''Hey, my rock star!'' Said Chris wrapping an arm around her shoulder and kissing her forehead. He had a little chat with Karen the day before and he knew exactly how Haley was doing and how she was dealing with her broken heart because…she was dealing just how he used to do himself. ''I missed you.'' He said sincerely trying to hide the pain he felt for his friend broken heart.
« I missed you to, » said Haley sincerely happy to see her goofy friend. ''So did you find some flat for me to visit?'' Asked Haley curiously. ''I didn't even know that you knew the city.''
Chris smiled and drove off. ''You're not renting a flat,'' he said mysteriously. ''You're staying with me!''
''I know I'm staying with you, now. But I need a flat for later.'' Said Haley laughing. ''So in which hotel are you staying while recording your album?'' She asked looking at the city by the car window.
''You'll see…'' said Chris keeping his eyes on the road.
They passed the campus and Haley felt her heart tighten seeing the place. It was her childhood dream, her oldest dream just standing there at reachable distance. The campus was quiet, for now, but in no time it was going to be full of students from all over the world.
Chris turned about two streets down the campus and parked the car in front of a luxurious apartment building.
They got up and he opened the door to an enormous living room where Haley immediately noticed the piano.
''Oh my God, Chris…'' Started Haley looking around ''This place is…This place is…'' Haley couldn't find the right words. ''Whose place is it?'' She asked curiously.
Chris laughed, closed the door and put her bag down. ''It's ours baby!'' He said trying to sound cheesie.
''Huh?'' Said Haley confused. ''You know when I said 'if you see a nice flat close to the campus kill the landlord' I was kidding.'' She added seriously.
''Oh no!! Geez...Sorry!!'' Started Chris pretending to panic.
They both burst into laugher. It was good for both of them to be together. What was better then two broken souls being together to ease the pain.
''Nah…it's mine Hales.'' Said Chris taking her hand leading her into a room. ''Come on let me give you the tour.'' He said nicely, opening the door to a big bedroom.
Haley looked at the room curiously. There was an oversized Stanford sweatshirt on the bed. It was an old model, as she could see. It was at least 5 years old. She looked around and saw pictures of her and Chris on the wall as well as some of the songs she wrote over these terrible months which, she had sent to him.
''Wh…Your flat?'' Asked Haley confused looking at Chris. ''I know your career is just starting Chris. There is no way that you have enough money to buy this kind of luxury flat that close to the campus.''
Chris rested on the door frame. ''It's been mine for a while….I inherited it.'' He added purposely, leaving the whole story out. ''Do you like the room?'' He asked to change subject.
''I love it!'' She said sincerely. ''Is it yours?'' She asked naively.
Chris laughed and shook his head negatively. ''Nope…This is your room Miss James! I hope you're going to enjoy staying here for the next four years.'' He added with a smile seeing her face light up.
''I…I…'' Started Haley walking to the bed. ''I don't know what to say!'' She added sincerely. ''Thank you so much!'' She said with tears in her eyes to have such fantastic friends in her life. She felt so blessed.
Chris walked in and pulled her into a bear hug. ''No, thank you for being in my life,'' he said kissing her forehead. ''It's going to be quite a ride!'' He added with enthusiasm.
''It is…'' Said Haley trying to sound enthusiastic too sitting on the bed while carefully taking the sweat shirt from the bed and putting it on her knees while caressing the fabric.
Chris sat beside her and put a hand on top of her. ''I know it's hard to turn your back on all of it,'' he said nicely ''And I'm so sorry that things ended the way they did with Nathan. I was sure you two would last,'' he added sincerely.
Haley nodded positively keeping her eyes on the sweat shirt. She knew there were no point to lie to Chris. ''I really thought we had the real thing but…but It just felt apart.''
Chris sighed and stroke her hand nicely. ''You know someone once said « I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you can learn to appreciate things when they are right, and sometimes good things in life fall apart so better things can fall together»'' He added nicely. ''I'm sure you'll look back in a couple of years and see it was for the best.''
''I'm not sure of that Chris.'' Said Haley sadly. ''But…'' She finally look up. ''I would have never bet a guy like you would quote Marilyn Monroe!'' She added with a grin honestly surprised.
''Oh….'' Chris redden slightly ''you knew that…'' He added a bit embarrassed. ''Yeah… I confess I'm a Monroe fan!!'' He added over dramatically.
Haley laughed and concentrated her attention on the sweater again. ''This is a nice sweater…'' She said nicely.
''This is the most important thing I have Haley.'' Said Chris seriously ''and…and I give it to the most special friend I have.'' He took a deep breath. ''You know one day you asked me what hurt me inside… why I was broken.'' Added Chris looking into Haley confused eyes. When she nodded positively he stood up and give her a picture.
''Oh he is wearing the sweater…'' Said Haley looking to the handsome tall and well build brown hair guy on the picture. He had a big flashy smile and such a light in his eyes that we could see he was really happy.
''It's my brother Emmet.'' Said Chris nostalgically.
''You've got a brother?'' Asked Haley with shock. ''I didn't know that!''
''Yep…'' Said Chris keeping the eyes on the picture. ''I had a brother, but he died when I was 17.'' Added Chris sadly. ''I lost everything in one summer. My dad said I was not his son anymore when he discovered the truth about me so…'' Chris eyes filled up with tears. ''So I ran away from home. My brother was here for a week so he took the car to find me and he had an accident, he died on impact.''
Haley hugged her friend without saying a word.
''As soon as the funeral took place I left home and…and I've haven't seen my parents since. My father bought this flat for Emmet when he got into Stanford and well…'' Chris shrugged ''Emmet left it to me in his will.'' Chris had a little laugh and shook his head. ''Tell me how many 22 years old do wills huh? Not much! That's why he got into Stanford law school.''
''I'm sorry Chris really'' said Haley nicely rubbing Chris's back. ''I know how it feels to lost someone you love.''
''I know you do sweetie…'' Said Chris happy to have confessed the truth about what made his heart hurt. He explained to Haley that he was glad she decided to study to Stanford because it forced him to face his life again and that it was actually a good thing that he was recording his album here.
They stayed the rest of the day chatting about how great Palo Alto was and planning their tour this summer.
Haley went to be bed pretty early it was a pretty emotional and tiring day for her.
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Haley woke up pretty early and sneaked into Chris's room, but he was not there anymore and his bed was made.
Haley walked into the kitchen where a little note was awaiting her.
Make a wish…it's your first night in California. Enjoy the first day of your new life. I'll be at the recording studio all day if you want to come. Love u.
Haley smiled looking at the note. She was going to go and surprise him for lunch.
Chris….Thanks for being here with me. Thought Haley sincerely knowing that if Chris decided to stay in Palo alto it was for her and only for her.
Haley got ready and followed Chris' directions to get to the recording studios. She was even surprised that he explained them so well. She could recall their attempt to visit London and Chris wasn't the most helpful guy.
As soon as she arrived at the studio the receptionist looked on the list and indicated her where Chris's was.
She walked in the recording room and looked at Chris singing behind the window. He was singing one of the last songs that she wrote and sent to him.
« Can I help you? » Said a warm voice bringing her back to reality.
She shook her head and look to the piercing blues eyes locked on hers. It was the sound engineer talking to her. « I'm sorry…I'm just listening to Chris. »
« Yeah, ok…But who are you? » He added a bit louder.
« Oh I'm sorry! » She said, completely forgetting to introduce herself. « I'm Haley…Haley James,» said Haley giving him her hand.
However, the young man kept looking at her the mouth open with shock not giving his hand back.
« Hey! You here? » She asked shaking her hand in front of his face.
''I…Sorry! But…'' He shook his head. ''You are Haley James?'' He asked confused
''Yep.'' Simply said Haley frowning.
''The Haley James?'' He insisted.
''Yeah! Are you a retard or something?'' She said with a voice clearly showing annoyance.
''The Haley James who wrote this song?'' He asked pressing a button so Chris voice filled the room while he was singing Love Hurts
Love hurts,
Love scars
Love wounds and harms
Any heart
Not tough or strong enough
To take a lot of pain, take a lot of pain
Love is like a cloud, holds a lot of rain
Love hurts, ooeee-ooeee, Love hurts
'Cause I'm young, I know
But even soI
know a thing or two, that I've learned from you
Really learned a lot, really taught me a lot
Love is like a flame, it burns yourself when it's hot
Love hurts, ooeee-ooeee, Love hurts
Some fools think of happiness, blissfulness, togetherness
Some fools fool themselves, I guess
They ain't foolin' meI know it isn't true, I know it isn't true
Love is like a flame, makes your heart so blue…
''Yeah that's me!'' She finally shouted looking at the guy like he was retarded. ''What's your point?'' She asked with anger.
''I..I just don't get how such a pretty and young girl can write such sad and bitter songs?'' Said the young man standing. ''I thought you would be a lot older and prolly ugly.'' He added with a grin.
Geez he is tall!! thought Haley, adding to herself that he was probably 6'2 like Nathan.
''But I guess you probably don't care of what I think.'' He added bringing Haley back to reality again.
''It's not that I don't care'' she said seriously locking eyes. ''I just don't give a crap.'' She added crossing her arms on her chest.
''Sarcastic!'' He said really impressed. ''I like that! Sorry I didn't introduce myself'' he said giving her his hand. ''I'm Sam...Sam Winchester.'' He said with a bright smile.
''Oh! You're… You're Dean's brother!'' Said Haley uncomfortably. Chris told her how Dean was his brother's, Emmet, best friend and that his younger brother Sam was a really good friend too and always supportive and kind. Haley reddened to her rudeness toward him.
Sam saw Haley's embarrassment and laugh. ''You know what? …Maybe we could start over.'' He said nicely giving her his hand. ''Hello, My name's Sam Winchester.''
Haley smiled, took his hand and shook it. ''Hello Sam. My name is Haley James. Nice to meet you'' she said.
They both laughed.
''Oh, I could call for you forever!'' Said Chris behind them.' 'Geez Sammy! I was asking you to stop, but you were too busy going after my best friend huh?'' Asked Chris winking to see both Haley and Sam redden.
Chris shook his head and laughed. ''So Rock star, why did you come?'' Asked Chris walking toward her.
''I wanted to invite you for lunch!'' She said with a smile.
''How considerate!'' Said Chris wrapping a arm around her waist. ''And you found the place easily.''
''Well it's quite straight forward!'' Said Haley with a crooked smile. ''My name is not Chris Keller!''
''How mean!!'' Said Chris pretending to be offended.
''He is bad, huh?'' Asked Sam with a laugh.
''Oh my gosh! Bad is an understatement!'' Said Haley seriously. ''I mean Chris couldn't find his own asshole with both hands, a compass and a boy scout!'' She added while bursting into laugher closely imitated by Sam.
''Ahah you guys! Enjoying picking on me, huh?'' Asked Chris punching Sam's shoulder. ''You're the new A team? Enjoy it…I'll get my revenge.'' He added in mock anger.
''Come on, let's go!'' Said Haley taking Chris hand. She gave a quick look at Sam, who was looking at them with envy. ''Would you like to join us?''
Sam nodded and took his jacket. ''I guess you need some help to torture our boy Chris.''
''Well…a bit of help is always good you know,'' she added with a winking while they all left together.
Haley realized something while they sat at the café beside the studio. She hadn't thought about Nathan in the last half hour which never happen before! Is that a good sign? She asked herself…
In next chapter: Prom…or an occasion to move on?
