Mac and Lucy spend a last night under the stars.

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"Nothings gonna hurt you, baby, as long as you're with me you'll be just fine. Nothings gonna hurt you, baby, nothing's gonna take you from my side."

Nothing's Gonna Hurt You Baby by Cigarettes After Sex

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"Brought ya something," Mac held the two pills in his hand out on her last night there, "One for you and one for me, but I'm telling you now. You can beg all you want but ..."

"I know. I know you don't believe in the Romeo and Juliette Law." She sighed, " You really think I'd beg for it?"

"All the ladies do Luce," He winked, "Now promise, no drugs at home."

"I promise."

He put his pinky finger up and she joined it with hers, they used to do this when they were kids.

"And no fucking."

"What are we five?" She laughed and the smile on her face made it look like she was glowing to him.

"Yeah, now say it."

"I'm not gonna try and fuck you." She replied with a smirk. Oh, but she was going to.

"Very funny wasn't me I was talking about." Mac said, "Now say it."

"No fucking," She met his eyes and made the promise, again.

"Come on, let's go outside," He took her by the hand.

"Where did you get it anyway?"

"I got sources," He answered, but it was a mute point, they both knew about his sources.

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He wasn't driving if he was getting high, not with Lucy in the truck anyway, so they laid a blanket down at the far edge of his yard away from where the mothers could see. There was a shed out there and they went on the other side of it where it was private. He brought water bottles out with them intending to spend their last night together out under the cool desert sky.

Soon they were staring up at the stars hand in hand and both of them were feeling it, the euphoria that made you want to spill your guts and fuck your brains out. There was no way he'd be able to hold anything back from her now, he already wanted to babble out all kinds of things to her. This was a bad idea, he knew it from the jump, yet here they were.

"I'm in love with you Lucy, I really am," He sighed, already the drug was making him talk, "Have been for a long time."

"I know," She squeezed his hand, "I feel the same way," She rolled over to face him, "Isn't it wonderful?"

Then her hands were all over him, and he felt so good to her, his body was so hard and strong. His eyes so deep blue she wanted to be lost in them forever.

"Oh Mac, I can really touch you anytime I want?" She wrapped her arms around his neck and he nodded his head with a goofy smile on his face.

"Well, not anytime, you know that right?" And she nodded, "But a lot ok?," He grinned, "And I'm gonna touch you too, I've wanted to touch you for so long." He snaked his hand up under her shirt and ran his fingers over her stomach.

"How long?" She asked.

"Seems like forever," He replied softly, bringing his fingers over her hip.

"Gonna take me up on that blowjob now?" Lucy laughed.

"Thought you didn't remember that?" He said with a shocked expression on his face, she had said she didn't remember propositioning him the last time she was on Ecstasy when Martin had dosed her.

She laughed harder, "I lied." and then they were both laughing, that everything is funny laugh of the wasted.

"Do you really love me?" He turned his head to look into her eyes and she brushed his hair over his forehead and out of his eyes. He was serious and she knew he needed to hear it from her often. For all of his bravado on the streets, Lucy knew she was the one that had power over him. She was the one who could hurt him, maybe the only person on earth that could, and Mac needed to know she would never leave him.

When he was high he showed that side to her sometimes, even if he didn't want to. When he was like this she could see plainly that he really needed her, but she needed him too. He had the power to hurt her too.

"Yes," She answered without hesitation, " I don't like that you keep secrets from me, and I don't like the other girls, but I don't want anyone else."

That was good enough for him.

"Kiss Me," He touched her face with his palm, bringing her closer to him, their eyes met and for a moment they stared at each other as if they were seeing each other for the first time. This was why Mac loved drugs, it made everything so much better and more defined for him.

"OK,"

Her lips touched his and it was truly like they belonged there, the drug made the feeling explode inside of both of them as their lips moved and he deepened the kiss. There might be other girls, but this girl was the only one that made his heart beat so fast he was afraid he'd burst because of the way he felt about her. The emotional part of it was so strong that he couldn't think sometimes; it was all he could do not to make her his completely, but he couldn't and he knew that.

What would it be like with Lucy? He could only imagine and he did imagine it, quite a bit. He told her sex was fantastic, and that wasn't a lie, but with her, it would so much more, it would be mind-altering, more than any drug. He knew that already and it was he who wasn't ready for that. She would own him body, mind, and soul after that.

They lay facing each other and he ran his hand over her hip, making circles under her shirt on her skin, just looking at each other.

"What are you thinking about?" Lucy asked.

"This."

"This?"

"I figured I better get you high or you'll come back here on smack next year."

"Why aren't you afraid I'll bang some random dude cause you won't put out," She laughed and raised her eyebrows at him.

"You won't." He grinned, "You only want me."

She sighed, "You're right,"

"Got you pretty good huh."

"Yeah but, I've got you good too now." He had to laugh at that because it was so true. She held their entwined hands up and they left a trail through the air. Then she did it again, amazed at the colors it created.

"Lucy, you've been manipulating me all my life, you think I don't know? This is just another example of you getting me to do your bidding." He explained, "You say you wanna get high, then I get all scared that your gonna do something dumb, and I get you high."

"So we agree then," She laughed and ran her hand over his leg and now he was feeling the effects of the drug and her touch, "I really want to..."

"You're too young," Mac sucked in a ragged breath, why couldn't she just make one thing easy for him, "And it's all too new; it may not be what you really want. You need to think about it."

"For a year?" Lucy exclaimed, "I'm ready now, I've been thinking about it forever."

"Yeah." He answered, he wanted her so badly and he always took what he wanted, except from her, "It ain't happening."

Before he could say another word Lucy rolled over so that she was on top of him and looked down at him while he tried to figure out what just happened. Lucy wasn't usually aggressive this way, and as her hands crept up his chest it was all he could do not to devour her alive. This side of her was new, raw, and damn if he didn't like it right about now.

"Are you sure about that?" She murmured as her lips, made their way down over his neck, his sweet spot. Mac reached up and grasped her hips as she pressed herself against him.

"Come on Luce, give me a break here," He held her still, "I'm only human."

"Did you ever want something so bad you couldn't breathe Mac?"

"Yeah, I have, you know that." He ran his hands over her sides and she shivered, meeting his eyes.

Lucy moved against him and pulled her shirt over her head, no bra again, fuck his life, and leaned over so he could touch her. Her body felt warm under his hands, and the cool breeze blew through her hair as he looked up at her. Mac had fought the good fight, but he knew she was going to get her way again, just like she always did. All this time he thought he ran this relationship, but it was her. That was going to change, but not right now, not tonight.

She moved her hips against his in a slow rhythm, it was so good, and again he wondered how she knew what to do, but it was out of his head just as fast. She was all he could think of as he rolled them over so he was on top of her.

"Why can't I ever say no to you?" He pushed his hips against her, already his dick was aching, "I didn't even bring anything cause I was so sure..."

Then her hand was on his throbbing dick rubbing through his pants, "Pull out..."

It sounded like a plan but he knew he was wasted, just like she was and then she was kissing him again.

"I'm not gonna change my mind and I'm never going to regret it." She reached for his shirt and pulled it over his head, then pulled at the buckle of his pants.

"We can't undo it once it's done." But then she was reaching into his pants and stroking him and all coherent thought went out of his head. On a good day a girl's hand down his pants made him crazy, but tonight he had the added ingredients of Lucy and X; a cocktail of disaster or pleasure depending on how you looked at it.

He kissed her hard, pushing her lips apart roughly and devouring her mouth the way he wanted to. It was never going to be undone and he didn't care anymore, he had fought his feelings and hormones for years where she was concerned and he couldn't anymore. He didn't want to.

Mac rose up on his knees and looked up at the dancing stars in the sky, then back down at her, and pulled her jeans down to her delight. Her face was lit up in victory and then he was laughing again as he watched her kick them off.

"What's so funny?"

"You never did this high."

She shook her head, he knew that she'd never done anything till just a few weeks ago. Then she felt his hand swipe over her breast and even after it was gone she could still feel it. He watched her eyes glaze over and her breathing get erratic, mesmerized by the rise and fall of her chest.

"Oh shit Mac," And before she could ask him to, he did it again. It was as if every nerve in her body was alive and every touch of his hand held electric current. Everything felt...more defined, somehow she felt more alive and she couldn't describe it.

His lips traveled over her neck, sucking softly and his hand over her breast, Lucy tried not to cry out, but she was already teetering on the edge of oblivion and he'd hardly touched her at all.

"Buckle up..." Sweetheart? No, that's what he'd called that girl in the cave, and every other girl he came in contact with for that matter. Baby, yes that was good. "Baby I'm about to rock your world," He leaned down and sucked the side of her breast until there was a deep purple mark there. Lucy arched her back like a cat and groaned, his hand was already between her legs and it seemed like everything he did was in slow motion and so intense.

She could feel it building up inside of her in record speed though, faster than all the other times. This was why they called it ecstasy, everything was magnified twenty fold, everything was beautiful, everything was so consuming. He slid his fingers over her and it seemed like he was everywhere at one time, he pushed one, then two fingers inside her slow but deep and she moaned loudly.

"Cum for me baby," He whispered in her ear, "Come on."

He was tipping her over the edge with his words and his hand right where she needed it, alternating inside of her and all around her clit slow as molasses. Lucy was sure she would never be able to stand this torture from his fingers, his touch was perfect agony and she cried out.

"Oh, God that's it," He moaned against her neck and worked his fingers against her silky soft flesh. They were not in a hurry and he wanted to get her off; he knew it would be better for her if he did, and even though his cock was hard enough to split concrete, he focused on her, "That's it."

"All for you," She breathed out clinging to him as she felt her body start to tingle from head to toe; she let the feeling wash over her, looked up at the sky as stars shot across the sky and repeated the words, "All for you."

"Goddam right all for me," He growled then let his fingers go to work on her until she was out of breath and saying his name over and over again, "Only me."

"Only you," She whined as he brought her all the way to the top of the mountain.

"Come on baby," He moaned against her ear, "Cum for me, I need you to cum for me."

"Oh God," She squeaked, "Oh God Mac, Mac,"

"Come on..."

Then she was falling over the edge and weightless at his touch as her body lit up from head to toe. It seemed to go on forever and took all her breath away, it was different this time and she let the feeling flow through her from head to toe.

"Good girl..." He said wiping her hair out of her face, they were both covered in sweat now, his kisses tasted salty on her lips and she needed more, so much more.

Lucy grabbed him by the waist and pulled him rough against her, then her hands were on his boxer shorts. Finally, they worked them down and he teased her, rubbing his cock against her sensitive clit until she was almost ready to beg him, "You ready?"

"Yes," She squeaked out fast, and he slid inside her slowly just a little bit, then stopped and looked at her. Already the feel of her around him was making him weak and dizzy.

"You OK?, You're sure?" She nodded, it burned but she wanted to get it over with, next time would be better, all her friends said it sucked the first time. She lifted her hips, pulled him down on top of her and then he was inside her almost halfway. For a moment sheer terror blazed through him, what if she couldn't handle it. He was big and she was so small, it was her first time and it was the first time he ever worried about that kind of thing. He wouldn't make her take it all if it was too much.

"I'm OK Mac, really," She said as if she read his mind and who was he kidding, she could.

"Ohfuckyes," Spilled from his lips in a rush, as he closed his eyes and he fucked her slower than he'd ever fucked someone before, but it was so good. The feeling was unlike any other he'd felt before inside any other girl, it took his breath away and had him breaking out in a sweat. It took a while before he was all the way inside of her, he had been right, she was so tight around him. Each movement he made resulted in her body squeezing his dick applying a sweet pressure that made him her slave, "Fuck yes!"

She met him thrust for thrust and he knew he wasn't going to last long this way, she fit him like she was made just for him, and he was never going to let her go. His mind was full of her and swimming with this brand new feeling, it was so much more than just the casual sex he had before with other girls.

Mac spread her legs apart and pulled them up and wide so he could watch where their bodies were connected, "Oh, fuck," He moaned at the sight and the feeling of her tight heat around him. His eyes were glued in place watching himself going in and out of her, he'd never taken the time to watch before. No condom either and fuck it felt incredible.

She was warm and wet and he filled her completely and Lucy ran her hands over his chest and pulled him closer to her, "Give me everything you've got," She panted, "All of it."

"I will baby," He breathed out, "I will."

He slowed down and rolled his hips against hers and grinned as she sighed out loud, then he pushed into her a little harder but carefully as he was about to let go.

Lucy pulled her legs tighter around his waist and crossed her ankles behind his back and it sent him over the edge. He couldn't pull out, physically he was in overdrive and it was too intense, his head was filled with only her. The orgasm overtook him suddenly and moved through his body like a fuse, and he exploded, screaming a string of profanity that even he was shocked at.

Lucy trembled in his arms and to his utter shock he was trembling too, that was something that didn't happen to him, ever. He held her tight, "That's what I'm talkin about," He said wrapping himself around her, a behavior that he would always do after that night when they were together like that.

"Mmmm Hmmm," She replied and hugged him back, his strong arms enveloped her as she lay her head on his chest, content and spent, love drunk.

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AN- I had a hard time naming this chapter, that sometimes happens to me when I write something long. I chose this title because I feel like we don't know who the pusher really is in this chapter. Is it Mac because he gives Lucy drugs, or is it, Lucy, because she gives him the push to get what she wants. The Romeo and Juliette law is a law in Utah, (and prob other states as well, but I just searched, Utah) regarding sex between minors and people of age. In Utah, there is no prosecution if the two are close in age, even if one is over eighteen, but they have to be teenagers. There is also no law against cousins doing whatever they want to do together in Utah. It's legal to marry in Utah if you are first cousins.