Chapter 4.

What Is This Feeling?

what is with me keep falling asleep? by this time I really would like to know. but that pleasure. what was that? it was overwhelming to my mindand, even my soul felt like it was lifted with joy and excitement!

Grace? I hear from a distance. Grace wake up. you are here at your new home.

I slowly opened my eyes, and the first thing i see, is him sitting on the bed next to me.

did you sleep well? he asked with a smile.

I sat up and looked at him and said yes. I looked around the room. I was most definitely not home.

I know you are confused. but I will try and make sense for you.

I knotted.

as I said earlier, my name is Michael.

and I brought you here because I have chosen you to be my lover.

my eyes grew. lover! I said in shock.

yes.

how can I be your lover if I don't even know you.

you don't have to know me to know that I love you and that I will take care of you and that I want you to be my one and only.

I just sat there silently thinking. is this guy real? how is this happening? and why?

I can answer all your questions. yes I am real and I have had my eyes on you for a little while now, and the reason this is happening is because I love you and I want to make love to you.

you can read my thoughts? and how do you know me enough that you love me? and what do you mean you want to make love to me?

I love you for your personality and for who you are. it don't matter what you look like on the outside. it is what's on the inside that I see. and may I say you are beautiful just the way for who you are.

but if I don't want you to touch me or make love to me would that mean you would rape me?

he sat there silently just looking deep into my eyes as I was looking into his. I can't read minds but I can tell that was a yes.

am I here forever?

no you are free to go whenever. but this is your home.

why do you say this is my home now if I am still free to go?

this is your home as long as you are marked as mine which I have marked you from when I bit you. but you are free to go anywhere that you please. he put his hand on my hand. his hand was ice cold but I did not mind.

isn't this what you've always wanted? being taken away never have to look back? if it's the past or things that remind you of the past? I do not care of what your past was it what has happened in their past. and I do not wish to talk about your past to bring up a sore subject to hurt you.

when I think these things, these are things that I just think of they're not things that I would ever think that will come true. what alone them being true.

are you not happy?

to be honest I don't know what to think right now. I am just staring into his dark brown eyes curiously.

may I help clear your mind?

what do you mean?

may I show you?

I just looked at him. just waiting to see what he would do.

his hand slowly went up my arm to look at my shoulder. then his hand slowly went around the back of my neck, then brought my neck forward, and kissed me... it was pleasant, kissing his sweet soft lips.

I don't know what came over me but all of a sudden I started feeling different. in a good way. like... like... I was falling in love with him... but so soon?

the kiss was not long and he pulled away. are you controlling of how I feel Michael?

no. I do not control people unless I have two in self-defense. or if I wish them to not know something. but I would never control you. why do you ask?

I don't know what all you can or can't do.

I can control people yes but like I said I don't control people unless I have to. I read minds but of course you already know that. but I don't always read minds unless I choose to.

have you been feeding off me? and if so doesn't that mean I'm losing blood?

I have been feeding off you yes. but are you losing blood no. how this works is now that you are mine that I have marked you as mine. your blood is able to generate faster.

really?

he smiled and said yes.

at this point he has been good to me.scared the shit out of me twice and gave me a panic attack, but other than that he's really a nice guy. and he is right this is something I have wanted... not have to worry about my past... and not have to worry about being alone... and even just looking into his eyes I can see that he truly loves me...

may I be so bold to ask, can I show my love for you?