First In Mind
I am so very happy and content here with Beren, I cannot put my joy into words.
What we have is true, blind, real.
It is more than I could have ever hoped for, which is why I find the face other than his which lives forever in my mind disturbing and confusing.
'Luthien,' Daeron had asked my, nervous yet hopeful, 'will you have me?'
I refused.
I liked him, he was not a bad person, and I would have been very pleased if we could have been able to be good friends.
Sometimes, when I lie awake at night or walk about the garden or stir the soup for dinner, I wonder about what would have happened if I had said yes.
What would it have been like to be married to Daeron?
It will always be an eternal mystery for me.
The only thing I know for certain is that he would have often played music that I would have danced to. Beren is not much good at instruments, he prefers to watch me dance instead.
I think back on it and wonder what I could have done differently, but in the end I know that I would still have broken his heart, no matter what I had said in refusing him.
It is a hard thing, knowing that you have broken someone's heart, especially someone you would have been glad to be friends with for all time.
I love Beren very much, I truly do, but sometimes I cannot help but wonder...
What if I had said yes?
Ooooooh...a darker side to the Beren+Luthien story...
Don't quite know where this one came from...
Oh, by the way, speaking of Beren and Luthien, have any of you guys seen the album cover for Blind Guardian's album, 'Nightfall over Middle Earth'? It's really neat...
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