Callie stifled back a yawn as she watched Mr. Webber teach 7th grade math. His behavior management wasn't a problem but that's because of the intense boredom he inspired in all of his students. There wasn't a lot to manage when 29 of 31 students were fast asleep. After only 20 minutes in the man's room, Callie decided that she couldn't do it anymore. She gave a small smile and nod to the man up front and worked her way out of the classroom, past 3 students snoring soundly.
Letting out a sigh of relief once she as out of the classroom, Callie unconsciously headed to the third floor and to room 306. This was conveniently Arizona's classroom. She stood outside of the room next to the bright red numbers and listened to Arizona. There was a lot of talking from the students over Arizona, and Callie mentally noted to make that one of Arizona's goals. However, she was definitely passionate as she told a story from her time substitute teaching about a boy who got ripped off at the corner store everyday because he didn't know how to add decimals. Callie felt the smile that crawled across her face. Arizona was an amazing person and the ideal person to become a teacher. Sure she had first year teacher problems, but Callie was confident that after a couple more years of teaching, Arizona would be far ahead the average teacher.
Before she could talk herself out of it, Callie entered the room, she kept her head down as she went straight back to the U table. She wasn't scheduled to see Arizona this afternoon, but she couldn't stop herself since she was in the same school as her. She got out her computer to keep up pretenses and even pulled up her Google Docs to take notes on Arizona.
"So I took your exit slips from yesterday and was able to see what groups you would work best in. After we review our small group expectations, I will assign your group and will get started with our Daily 3 for math."
Callie took in depth notes about Arizona's lesson. She saw many strategies in place that most first year teachers didn't use. She was typing furiously, biting her lip in concentration, when a student came up to her. "What you doing here, lady?"
Callie quickly sorted through the excuses she told students. "I'm here to observe all of the 5th grade classes. The best class gets a pizza party!"
As expected, a huge grin broke out across the boy's face. "Hey guys! This lady says that we are gonna get a pizza party if we behave!"
At this point, Arizona looked back to Callie with a puzzled look on her face. Callie almost melted. She waved her hand as if to say 'forget about it'. Callie smiled as Arizona shrugged and went about her lesson.
Callie had to admit that she shouldn't have stayed in Arizona's room for over an hour when she wasn't even scheduled to see her that day, but she couldn't help herself. She ended up playing Jenga with the students. Each Jenga block was marked with a number that corresponded to a problem they had to complete. The students loved it and Callie loved watching their excitement of the simple, yet effective activity.
She was left in an awkward position at this point, however. Arizona walked all of the students out and she was left here to debrief with her. It had only been five days since Arizona turned her down for the gorgeous brunette at Joe's. She wasn't prepared to talk to Arizona. Damn her internal magnet for bringing her to this room today.
"I thought I saw you creeping in the hallway," April said, peeking her head into the room.
"I know I'm pathetic. I don't need you rubbing it in," Callie responded, only half-joking.
"I don't think it's pathetic. I'm curious of her reaction though."
"You and me both."
"Good luck." April said, disappearing from the doorway seconds before Arizona returned to the room, breathless from her trip up the stairs.
"Good afternoon, Callie."
"That was a great lesson today, Arizona. I didn't plan on staying as long as I did but I enjoyed playing decimal Jenga with your students."
"Thank you. I found it on Pinterest. And I'm sorry, but I didn't know you were coming so I actually don't have time to debrief with you today."
"Oh," Callie replied, trying to hide the disappointment from her voice. "Of course. Not a problem," she said as she began to pack up her belongings. "I'll just share the notes I took with you.
Arizona gave her a half frown, looking sad about disappointing Callie. But then again, that could be all in Callie's head.
Knock. Knock.
Callie watched Arizona turn her head towards the door and a giant smile spread across her face. She followed Arizona's stare to see the brunette from the bar.
"Carina! You didn't have to come up. I was just packing up my things."
"Well I was waiting outside when the gym teacher, Mr…"
"Sloane," Arizona responded when Carina couldn't remember.
"Yes. Mr. Sloane. He hit on me, which didn't seem to be anything new to him. When I explained who I was, he offered to let me in and gave directions to your room."
"Well that's nice," Arizona said, before remembering Callie sitting at the table. When she looked back to her, she couldn't help her heart from sinking slightly. The look of rejection was evident on Callie's face.
"This is Callie, my teacher coach for the year. Callie, this is Carina."
Carina walked to the back table and outstretched her hand. "Nice to meet you Callie. Arizona mentioned that her coach was a great resource for her this year."
Callie smiled, struggling with how to respond. "Nice to meet you, too. I was just heading out. I hope you two enjoy your evening. Arizona, I'll share the notes I took from today with you."
Without another word, Callie gathered her things and left the room.
Addison shook her head from side to side as she watched Callie take yet another shot of fireball. "You are going to rot your insides."
"Yeah. Well maybe that wouldn't be the worst thing in the world," replied Callie as she already began pouring another shot.
"I had a beautiful, intelligent woman show interest in me, and for the first time in what feels like ages, I was interested back but I ruined it."
Addison refrained from rolling her eyes. "Don't be so dramatic, Calliope. You always have women throw themselves at you. You're bound to click with one of them. Even if that woman isn't this Arizona you won't shut up about."
"I know. I sound ridiculous..." Callie said as she threw back another shot. "But it's hard."
"Maybe you should have worked harder to not fuck her after your first induction class with her. But I bet it was super hot. You two getting all teacher-student on the desk."
"Oh my god Addison. That is not the point. You are normally much better at advice than this."
"I don't mean to be bad at it, but you painted a pretty good picture for me."
"I wish you were here and we could go out dancing and drinking so that I could forget about all of this."
Addison sighed, "Listen, I have some time off I can take in a couple of weeks. Why don't I come out then and we can do just that and I will find a new woman for you to throw against a desk and fuck mercilessly?"
Callie let out a small chuckle. "That sounds amazing. Thanks for talking. I'm going to take one last shot then head to bed."
Arizona kissed up Carina's stomach after she just devoured the woman's pussy. "I would ask if you enjoyed that but I could tell you did by the sounds you emitted."
Carina let out a small laugh. "Don't get all cocky on me."
"Let's not use that word when we are in bed," Arizona laughs as she places small kisses to Carina's mouth.
"I think you are right. It makes me feel dirty and not in the good way."
Arizona laughed and settled herself into the side of Carina, feeling blissfully content. "You walked into my life at the right moment."
"I could say the same about you. I was going to head back to Italy a week after I met you. I had to extend my Visa though after that night. You're special Arizona."
"You extended your Visa for me?" Arizona asked, completely astonished, and a little guilty if she was being honest with herself.
"It was no big deal. I was considering it anyways."
Arizona didn't respond, she just continued to cuddle with Carina and thinking. Sure, she liked what the two had and it took her mind off of Callie once in a while but she wasn't sure if she was in this for the long run, or at least to make Carina extend her stay in the states. She pushed that aside for now. Arizona wanted to bask in the easiness of what they created and ignore the feelings of longing she still had for Callie.
Callie arrived at the high school an hour before she had to be there. She had a lot planned for the induction session today. If she was being honest, she overplanned in order to impress Arizona based on what Carina had told her. She drank more coffee as she wrote objectives for the day on the board. She felt pretty good until she heard a voice.
"Well hello there, beautiful."
"Erica," Callie said, somewhat cooly.
"I take it you're still not over what happened between us?"
"I have a class to prepare for Erica. I would appreciate it if you would go."
"I'm very well aware of what you have to do today. Remember, I am technically your boss."
Callie ignored the comment and continued to write on the board, hoping that the woman would walk away. She flinched when she heard her voice again.
"I was clearly wrong when I thought I could come here with the thoughts of a quick hook up. I'll be going now, but don't come crying to me later."
Without another word, Erica left the room, and Callie felt herself become less tense with each clicking heel she heard. Looking back at her watch, she cursed under her breath once she discovered what time it was. She quickly finished writing on the board and pulled up the Google Slide presentation for the day before she heard voices coming from the stairwell.
She stood at the door to her classroom and greeted people she knew as they walked by to their own induction rooms. She even chatted with some of the other induction coaches. Callie was actually pretty surprised at her ability to act normal until she heard a melodic laugh down the hallway.
"I'm not sure that's how it works, Stephanie."
Callie tried to be discreet as she attempted to watch Arizona make her way down the hall with the new friend she made at the first induction class. Her efforts weren't successful, however, since the person she was talking to asked if she was okay. "Uh yeah. Let me get inside. I just remember I forgot to have the first video for today pulled up."
Without another word, Callie walked into her classroom and took a few deep breaths as she pretended to add more to the board. When she got herself together, it was time to begin for real.
"Good morning everyone. I'm glad to see all 16 of your faces back. I was hoping we didn't scare any of you off. This morning we are going to get started with an activity you can use in your classrooms during your circle of power and respect time. My students always enjoy it. It's simple. You will choose someone to play rock, paper, scissors with in the room. Whoever wins the best of three games, will find someone else to play against, while the person who lost cheers them on. Eventually, we will only have two people left to play while everyone else is a cheerleader."
After ensuring that everyone understood the directions by having people repeat them, Callie had everyone begin. Being a good role model, Callie played as well, just like a teacher should play with the students. Everyone appeared to be having a great time and Callie forgot where she was for a small period of time. She kept winning her games so there was a crowd of people behind her cheering. She won again and was looking around the room for another victor when she heard the inductees all point out that she was one of the final two people left. Callie cheered with her section until she realized who the other person was. You guessed it, Arizona.
Keeping her game face on, Callie made her way over to Arizona and held her right fist on top of her open left hand. "I'm ready when you are, Ms. Robbins."
Both sides whooped and hollered and Callie couldn't help feel the excitement, or the butterflies that went crazy in her stomach as Arizona put on her game face, extending her own two hands. They began playing as the crowd screamed "Rock, paper, scissors, shoot!"
Callie celebrated with her side when her paper covered Arizona's rock. The celebration didn't last long, however, when Arizona's scissors, cut Callie's paper.
Both women put on a show of stretching for the intense last round as they readied their hands. Both sides roared with enthusiasm for the person they were cheering for. Both women bounced their fists and threw out their signs. Arizona's side hollered before either woman registered who won. Callie smiled as Arizona celebrated with her cheerleaders. Eventually, Arizona turned around and extended her hand like the good sport she was. Callie shook Arizona's hand and their eyes met. The handshake went on longer than appropriate but Callie struggled to pull her hand away. Lucky for both of them, Arizona snapped out of her daze and pulled her hand away.
Callie smiled and waved goodbye to her class as they made their way out of the room and off to bigger and better plans for their weekend. Arizona and Stephanie were the last two out seeing as they chatted as they put away their things. As they walked past Callie, she placed her hand on Arizona's arm lightly. "Do you mind staying an extra few minutes to discuss the last time I observed you?"
Callie was mentally slapping herself at her request. She, in no way shape or form, planned to ask this of Arizona, but she couldn't just let the woman walk out of the room.
Arizona was clearly thinking before she answered. "Sure, but only for a few minutes. I have plans today."
Callie couldn't help the small victory party that was going on in her head. At the moment, the feeling of elation of hanging out with Arizona for just a bit longer was victorious over her nerves. "Perfect. It shouldn't be long."
Arizona said goodbye to Stephanie then walked into the room. "Should I be worried? The notes seemed pretty good to me."
"Oh, it was great. That's part of the reason I wanted to debrief. Too often, coaches are only saying how their mentee's can improve and not the other way around."
This comment seemed to cheer Arizona up as a smile spread across her face and she more confidently made her way over to the desk closest to Callie's.
Callie made a show of pulling up Arizona's notes and put them on the Smart Board. "Since it sounds like you have already read the notes I took, this can be for both of us to reference. You did a great job, Arizona. I know you have had a lot of struggles this year with behavior, but your engagement through your activities really shined when I was there."
"Thanks," replied Arizona, a blush creeping up her face.
"It's obvious that you're passionate about what you do. I'm sure that by year three, you will be much more comfortable with everything you're doing. I can't say the same about some of my other mentees. I'm just hoping they make it through the year," joked Callie.
"Thanks Callie. That really means a lot."
Callie just smiled and stared at Arizona. She couldn't help but think about the position they were in the last time they were in this room alone together. She went to speak at the same time as Arizona. "Listen…"
"Callie…"
Both women stopped talking and gave a shy smile. Callie decided to speak first. "I never had the opportunity to apologize."
Arizona put up a hand to stop Callie from continuing. "Please don't. It's in the past. Whatever reason you have for your actions is yours to keep. I think we have a great mentor and mentee relationship and that's all I could ask for."
"Please let me explain. I feel like a horrible person."
Arizona bit her lip, something Callie knew she did when she was really concentrating. "Fine, but please keep it brief. I really do have to go, and I'd rather not delve into the details of the situation."
"Understandable. I will keep it brief," Callie responded. She looked at Arizona thoughtfully before continuing.
"What happened that day was great and I don't regret it in any way, shape, or form. I did panic that day though. I have a sordid past and where I have never been involved with one of my mentees, I have been involved with someone I worked with before. That someone happened to hold a position above mine. As you can probably guess, that relationship went south real fast. And seeing as I am your mentor, it felt like we were in a similar situation and I never wanted to do to you, what was done to me. On top of that, I don't know what the district would say for sure if they were to find out. I'm sure I would be pulled off your caseload and for selfish reasons, I didn't want that."
Callie finished and looked up to Arizona again who happened to be looking straight back at her. "Thank you for that. It's the closure I needed. Now I don't have to wonder if the sex is really that bad," she said, giving a slight smile.
"God no. That is definitely not the scenario," Callie laughed shyly, unable to stop her eyes from fluttering.
"Well now that that's settled, I should get going."
Callie nodded and both women began to get up, which placed both of them within close proximity. Callie felt like she was breathing louder than was necessary as she stared down into Arizona's eyes. Amazingly enough, Arizona was staring right back. Without letting herself think, Callie leaned down slowly and let her lips touch Arizona's. She internally rejoiced as Arizona kissed her back. Carefully, Callie placed her hand on Arizona' hip and immediately regretted it when Arizona backed away. "I can't Callie...I'm with Carina."
Callie world came crashing down on her in the blink of an eye. "I know I messed up once Arizona but I have had way too much time to think about my mistakes. I want to know what things would be like with you. Whatever those things may be."
The hopeful look on Callie's face killed Arizona. "I'm sorry. I can't."
Without another word, Arizona quietly gathered her things and walked out of the room. She tried to discreetly wipe at the tears forming in her eyes.
