I can't live without you

Author's noteHello, everyone. For those who don't know me, I am French and I already have published some stories here, inducing one about Newt and Tina. I wanted to tell you that if there are some grammar mistakes, I am awfully sorry. I am trying my best to look for the grammar rules, the vocabulary but it is not always easy. I hope you won't be too hard on me. I am working hard on this story.

I also wanted to thank you for following, reviewing and favoring my story. It means the world to me.

One last thing, I 've decided that this story will have three parts. So, stay stunned for the end.

Read and review please, I'd like to know what you thought about it.

Disclaimer: all this is not mine. I am not J.K. Rowling

Part two: London

She stood in the middle of the streets of London. The sky was grey with some impressive dark clouds. It was as if the weather was mirroring her mood and her thoughts. It would probably rain soon when she would reach the final destination of this trip and that she would perhaps cry when she would discover Newt's state.

She looked around her not knowing exactly what she wanted to do first or where to go. She felt lost and alone in this new town that she didn't know and where she really knew only one person. She had imagined so many things thanks to all Newt's letters before coming here but she would never think that it would be in these circumstances. She had always dreamed that he would invite her to stay with him for a few weeks or days to spend time together and know each other better. But here she was with this burden on her shoulders and this pain in the heart.

She had read all his letters during the trip to reassure her and to collect as many useful details as she could need. While she was reading them sit on a bench in sun on the deck, she could clearly hear his voice in his head, explaining how was town, streets and life here.

Now, she had put her suitcase down at her feet to take some time to think straight and to use her auror's instinct. She was going to go to the Ministry of Magic and ask to see Theseus Scamander, Newt's older brother. She didn't really know him and Newt had told her several times that they had a complicated relationship but for now he was the only person that she could rely on. She firmly grasped her suitcase and began to look for a little alley, place or street where she could apparate without being seen by a no-… muggle, corrected Newt's voice in her head, which made her chuckle.

While she was walking, she didn't really pay attention to the buildings, the Londoners or anything else. She was focused on her aim. She spotted a little alley not far away with a little cavity where she could hide and apparate. A few seconds later, she stood in front of a brick wall with a red phone booth as Newt had described her in one of his letters telling her that this was the only way for visitors to enter. Then, she should present herself in the front desk for her wand's inspection. So, she did as he had told her. When she finally was in the hall, she was quite impressed by the atrium and these statues and all these windows overlooking desks. She stayed there looking all around. She was quite stunned; it was so different from MACUSA. She wore the same look than Newt when she took him in the Woolworth building the first time they met.

For the sake of Deliverance Dane, Tina, focus. You are not a tourist! The man you love is in a coma. You had to find his brother to help you, she chastised herself.

While she was walking to go to the Aurors' department, she got inside the elevator. When it began to move, she was astonished by the movements but thankfully she only was going to second floor. Finally, the machine stopped and she stepped outside. In front of her was a desk behind which sat a young and blonde witch who was filing her nails. Tina looked at her a little doubtful and came closer of the desk.

"Excuse-me. I am Porpentina Goldstein, an auror from MACUSA and I would like to see Theseus Scamander, the Head Auror, please."

The young woman didn't even look up.

"It is the fourth door to your left."

Tina sighed and took the direction indicated. Before knocking at the door, she deeply breathed, took her best auror attitude. Here we are, she thought, it is now or never. She knocked on the door for a moment waiting for us to tell her to come in.

"Come in." Theseus curtly said .

She pushed the door open and found a rather large office with lots of shelves crumbing under books' weight. But all was very clean, organized and looked perfect but cold and soulless. Then she laid her eyes on the man who sat there. There were some similarities with Newt but they were not obvious. His hair was auburn but darker than Newt's, he also had some freckles but they were more understated and disparate. As for his eyes, they were not green but blue and distant . He was severe and inscrutable, there weren't any warmth and softness in his eyes and face, all the opposite of Newt. He was wearing a dark grey suit and a black tie on his impeccable white shirt. It gave him a strict look, which was perfect for his position.

"Good afternoon, may I help you?" He asked her without moving.

"Good afternoon Mr. Scamander. I am Porpentina Goldstein, an auror from MACUSA and a good friend of Newt." She spontaneously answered presenting him her identification card.

"Ah yes, I remember your name. Newt speaks about you on highly terms but why MACUSA has sent you? We haven't been aware of your arrival." He asked her startled.

"I am not here for work and MACUSA didn't send me. I came on my own with a no-m… muggle steamer because of Newt. How is he?" She dared to ask, dreading what he will tell her .

Theseus 's expression fixed upon her more sweetly. She could read the pain on his features.

"I don't know what you know but he is still not awake. We hope for that every day ever since he has been found by his assistant." He camly explained her with pain his voice .

Yes, of course, Bunty, she thought. Tina remembered some of Newt's letters where he had explained to her how precious Bunty was when he wasn't there. His creatures were in good hands, he had written to her.

"I want to see him, please. Can you tell me how I can go to the hospital and where it is ?"

"I will take you but I have to finish this first, if I may."

"All right, I will wait. If you don't mind, I will stay here and read while you are working." She offered.

"If that's what you want, I don't mind." He stated as he began to keep fulfilling his report.

Tina went to sit on the couch by the door and pulled Newt's book out and his letters of her suitcase. Neither of them talked. After an hour, a few knocks at the door startled them.

A beautiful woman with dark skin, magnificent silhouette and hair entered. She wore a black suit and a white shirt that perfectly fit her. She went straight to Theseus. Tina perfectly remembered her because of the picture that Newt had in his case the first time he came to New York. She immediatly recognised Leta.

"It is time to go, Theseus. We are already late and …"

"Leta!" He cut her off." I am not alone."

Then she abruptly turned and noticed Tina.

"I am sorry." She said ready to leave but Theseus took her by the wrist to hold her back.

So the light from the office made the engagement ring shine, Tina had a pinch in her heart. She instantly thought of Newt. He hadn't told her about his brother's engagement to Leta, his childhood love. She couldn't imagine how he had felt when he heard the news.

"Leta, this is Porpentina Goldstein, an auror and American friend of Newt. Miss Goldstein, this is my fiancée Leta Lestrange."

"It is nice to meet you, Miss Lestrange." Tina simply said.

"You too."

"We better get going if we want to have some time with Newt." Theseus said .

Tina flinched. She wanted to see him so badly but at the same time she didn't know what to expect.

They traversed the ministry without exchanging a word more. Theseus was leading the way until they arrived in the atrium and he went straight to the fireplace. He turned and said to Leta.

"You go first. Like this, the healers won't be surprise and Miss Goldstein …"

"Call me Tina, please." She cut him off.

"Tina will see what is like. "

Leta stepped inside the fireplace and green flames appeared taking to her to the destination. Theseus gently pushed her in the back and she entered. A few seconds later, she stepped out of another fireplace in a big white hall with a front desk behind which was The Welcome Witch who welcomed the patients. Leta was talking to her pointing out in Tina's direction. When she came back near Tina, she was dusting her coat and Theseus stepped out. This time, Leta leaded the way. Tina looked around her and she felt relieved not to be alone here. She would probably lose herself in all these hallways. Finally, they arrived in first floor: "Creature-induced injuries", she shivered as she read the label on the door. They kept walking until Leta stopped in front of the latest door in the right of the hallway. Theseus turned and looked at her.

"I think you would have to know what happened and what you will see inside. It is not very pretty. After his trip in Burkina Faso, Newt has brought a … "He hesitated searching for the right word.

" Runespoor. " Leta said to help him

" Newt has brought a runespoor back. He had begun to study him but it seems that after a few days, it was not very easy. The beast didn't react as he expected: she had bitten him on his right wrist while he was trying to avoid him. But his foot got caught in something, he fell and he hit his head pretty hard against a barrier from one of the pens. It's Bunty who found him a few hours later. He was running a fever, sweating and unconscious. He didn't open his eyes since then. The healers have tried their best to reassure us. They really take good care of him. They said he had not awakened yet because his mind and his heart are not ready yet, that he hasn't yet recovered . But I must confess that I am afraid. More than time passes, more I worry that he won't wake up. " He finished with some despair in the voice.

Leta had gone to sit a little further away to give them some privacy as they were talking. Theseus 's voice had tightened all along his explanation. Under his facade , Tina could clearly see his pain and how hard it was for him, how worried he was about his little brother . How she could understand him, she didn't know how she would react if something happened to Queenie.

"You go first and have some time with him. We are waiting for my parents and we will join you when they came."

As he left to join Leta, she grasped the doorknob, her hands were shaking and she couldn't restrain it. She pushed the door open and first she saw the whiteness of the room flooded by the celling light. She had not yet dared to turn to him. She dreaded the image that she will discover. She sharply inhaled and finally turned.

Newt was soundly asleep; his head was covered with a large bandage and his fringe covered a part of it. He was laying on his back, his arms over the blanket. He was very pale which made his freckles even more noticeable. A rather large purple-blue hematoma covered his right cheekbone. When she came closer, a hand covering her mouth as she was trying to contain her tears, she noticed two little holes on his wrist who were yet slightly red. It was probably the place where the runespoor had bitten him.

She sat herself the other side of the bed and imprisoned his left hand in hers. She placed a long and sweet kiss on the palm and put her cheek against it, closing her eyes. His hand was warmth despite the fact he was in a coma and this reassured her a little. But the tears that she was trying to hold back began to roll on her white cheeks. A thousand thoughts were going through her minds at the same time and she was lost.

After a few minutes, the spams calmed down. Then, without thinking, she began to talk to him.

"Please, Newt, you have to wake up. Your brother, Leta, your parents and me are worried sick about you. You can't stay like this much longer. Please, I can't live without you. I was a fool not to tell you how I felt about you in New York. My fear made me a coward and now that you are lying here, I am afraid that life won't give me the chance to tell you that: I love you, Newt Scamander, more than life itself and I don't know what I will do without you. I won't be able to forgive myself if I let go the only man I have ever really loved and who is the perfect man for me. So, come back to me and your family, I beg of you …"

Tears strangled her again but voices from the hallway came closer. Tina quickly got up and went near the window turning her back to the door to dry her tears searching for a handkerchief and compose herself before everyone entered.

When the door opened, she laid eyes on the parents of Newt. His father frowned while he was looking at her from head to toe. His mother, in the contrary, smiled. Theseus spoke up.

"Mother, father, this is Porpentina Goldstein, an auror from MACUSA and a very good friend of Newt."

Instantly, their mother came to her and took her hands in hers, sweetly speaking .

"Thank you for coming Miss Goldstein. You must care very much about my Newton if you have done such a long trip. Besides, he told us so many beautiful things about you since he went to New York and have met you.

Tina's cheeks turned crimson red.

"Thank you, Mrs. Scamander… It is very nice of you to say. I will leave and let you have some family time now." She muttered, quickly moving towards the door.

She walked away from the door so as not to be indiscreet and went to lean against a window sill. The weather was rainy and downpours flooded the magical streets of London. This rain was like the tears which were running. It couldn't stop. She felt like a stranger and so useless.

After a while, the whole family appeared and joined her.

"Thank you very much for your help, Mr. Scamander." She sincerely said to Theseus.

"I am happy to be able to help you. When are you going back to America?"

"I don't know. I will stay as long as it takes … " She firmly said.

Theseus burrowed his brow but didn't say anything about it.

"Have you a hotel room?" Leta nicely asked to her.

"No, I haven't taken the time to look for one, when I arrived, I went straight to the ministry. I think I will go now and find something. Maybe you can recommend a good address." She said a little ashamed not to have taken some time to organize these details.

"That's nonsense, you come home with us. You are Newt's friend, you are like family. Besides it is not a good idea to stay alone. Don't you think Theseus? "Leta kindly offered.

"Of course, Tina." He agreed.

"I don't want to impose and be a burden. You are working …"

"We won't accept no as an answer ". Leta added with a reassuring smile.

Then they said goodbye, went out of St Mungo and Theseus apparated them in the middle of a stunning living room where a piano stood.

"I will show you your room." Leta offered. "You are probably exhausted and want to settle. "

She opened the first door in the right in the hallway. It was a cozy bedroom with a big bed and a large French door with a stunning view on a park. Tina put her suitcase on the bed and looked through the window. A single image was running in her mind: Newt in his hospital bed and hurt.

To be continued …