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Transitionals: New Moon

Disclaimer: I do not own New Moon or any of the other books in the Saga, they belong to Stephenie Meyer.

I hope you all like this chapter, it should be insightful. First day of school fun, and speed issues, what could go wrong?

I'd like to dedicate this chapter to everyone who has put this story on Story Alert.

Chapter 7

Nightmares, dreams that are bent to frighten people. Those vicious dreams are never fun, no matter what age the person who is dreaming them is. There's only one thing I find scarier than a nightmare. A memory.

Nightmares can be changed, it is your dream after all. A memory though is part of your past, and the past can't be changed.

Cool lips pressed against mine, waking me up from a memory.

I blinked, staying still so I didn't provoke my speed. My control was getting better, but I wouldn't have complete control on my speed until I was a full fledge vampire. I could gain enough control to be able to blend in with the human world though. That's what I was working on.

"Come on Love, we don't want to be late for our first day of senior year." His smile was blinding, but it was also contagious. I found myself smiling, even though I wasn't looking forward to school.

No one could plan me though. It would be the second time I was out in the human world after my speed had taken over. And we all knew how well the first time went. Edward and the others were living in some delusional world, where I had done a good job. It of course hadn't gone as well as they thought.

"Come on Bella, you're doing really well." Alice grabbed hold of my wrist and dragged me out to Edward's Volvo. She had suggested I try going out in public today, since I had spent all of yesterday moving at a human speed. We also only had a week before school started, and I really couldn't miss school. Not without people getting suspicious.

"I don't think this is a very good idea Alice. I mean you can't even see if we make it back safely."

Alice glared at me; I knew she didn't like being reminded that she couldn't see me when I was wearing my shield. Unfortunately there wasn't much I could do. I still needed to use my shield to slow me down, and using my physical shield all day was too much of a drain; I had to wear my ring to keep it up, so my shield was always up.

Edward appeared at my side. "You'll do fine Bella." He opened my door and helped me into the car.

We drove into town and Edward found a spot to park. We'd walk through the main part of town to test my control.

I tested my shield. Naturally it worked. Despite having that knowledge I was still panicked.

"Breath Bella," Edward whispered in my ear.

I took a deep breath and stepped onto the side walk.

We walked down the main street. My speed was pushing against my shield, desperate to break free. I tried to focus my thoughts around my shield and my control. I didn't dare try to control my speed without my shield.

True I had managed to force myself to slow down, on a few occasions; but I didn't trust it to last. I also couldn't risk losing control in front of unsuspecting humans. That would be just my luck.

Alice tugged on my arm, gesturing towards the sweet shop. "Come on Bella, let's go in a store."

I grimaced, and my heart sped up.

Edward gently took hold of my elbow and led me into the store.

Inside the shop I found it harder to breathe. Manipulating my shield became harder to do while my panic increased.

Alice skipped towards the counter and bought some fudge for Anna. The little girl loved everything in this little store.

Alice smiled as she paid for it, and bounced back towards us. "Okay, we can leave now," she said loud enough for the owner to hear.

I tried to hurry out of the shop, but Edward still had a hold on my arm. I was forced to walk out of the store.

"You're doing fine," he whispered in my ear.

A hysterical laugh escaped my lips.

The three of us headed back to the car. As we walked down the sidewalk my nerves skyrocketed. There were more people out. We hadn't spent that long in the shop, but now there were twice as many people walking outside.

Edward sighed beside me and gently picked up the pace.

No one seemed to take any notice of us. That should have calmed me, but I was having a full on panic attack. I wondered if Edward and Alice were regretting that they told Jasper to stay behind.

They hadn't wanted to overwhelm me by having a large group with me the first time I was back out amongst the humans. Edward had planned for it to just be the two of us, but Alice had suggested that she could come and monitor the future for us. She had spent the entire time watching Edward's future and determining if something was wrong based his reactions.

Honestly I couldn't say whether or not it would have been good for Jasper to join us. He wouldn't have been able to help until after we got back in the car and I could take off my ring, and lower my shield.

Alice hopped into the driver's seat. When Edward gave her a confused look, his eyes narrowed, she pointed to the back seat. Whatever he had gotten from his sister's thoughts had made him ignore the fact that she was driving. He climbed into the backseat pulling me into the back with him.

I tried to relax now that I was back in the car, but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't slow down my heart.

Edward and Alice both said they thought I had done well, but I couldn't agree with them. They argued with me, and my logic.

I was thankful when Alice drove out of town. Once we were out of sight, she pulled over and parked the car, to my surprise.

Edward climbed out of the car, helping me out. "We're going running," he replied when he saw my curious gaze. We moved behind the tree lines where no one would see us, and Alice took off in the car.

I pocketed my ring and gladly let go of my shield. I needed to run off the stress of the day.

Ever since that day, I had worked harder, and practiced more with my control. Charlie was certain that by the end of the year, I wouldn't need to use my shield to keep my speed under control.

"Bella I'm going crazy." Edward wrapped his arms around me. "What has you so distracted?"

I shook myself out of my thoughts; I needed to get dressed and ready for school. "I'm fine."

He rolled his eyes at that. "I need to head home so I can get ready. Alice and I will pick you up later."

Before he left, he pecked my cheek affectionately, and slipped my ring onto the ring finger on my right hand.

I never missed the small smiles that would light up his face every time he'd place the ring on my finger. It wasn't hard for me to figure out what he was thinking at those moments.

He jumped out of my window, and I climbed out of bed.

I played with my shield as I got ready. Manipulating it at different speeds to work on control. I made sure to keep the speeds on the low range though. My balance was still terrible, and it was going to stay that way until I was finally a vampire. Besides my balance, I also didn't need to worry about my eyes. Altering my speed though was fun.

I walked down the stairs and grabbed something to eat in the kitchen. I opened the fridge to start with a glass of milk and found a welcomed surprise. In a large glass casserole dish was Esme's breakfast casserole. I eagerly grabbed it out of the fridge and put a large helping on a plate.

I stood in front of the microwave as I waited for my food. I burnt my tongue in my hurry, but I didn't care, the food was just too good.

After I finished eating I washed my plate and left it in the drainer to dry. I went up to my bathroom, to brush my teeth.

With one final check to be sure I had everything, I grabbed my bag and waited for Edward in the living room.

I hadn't even been sitting for a full second when he walked in with Rose. She was going to stay with the girls until they woke up, then take them over to her house. I knew that she was thrilled that she didn't have to go to school any more. She wasn't going to go back until Cissy started school.

In fact none of us were going to go back to school until Anna and Cissy did. We all wanted to be able to spend time with them while they were little.

"Have fun at school," Rose called as Edward and I left.

I grimaced, before waving back at her.

Edward held my door open and I thanked him as I climbed in.

"Today is going to be fine Bella," Alice announced once the car had pulled out of the driveway. "I checked before you woke up, that way I could see you."

I sighed and nodded. I wasn't going to argue with her today.

The ride to school was quick, as it always was with Edward's driving. The closer we got to school though, the more my nerves started to kick in.

Edward parked in his usual spot and the three of us got out of the car, and went to get our schedules.

"Let's see what classes we share?" Alice handed her schedule over to me and the two of us looked them over.

I was sad to find I only had two classes with Alice; English and PE. I was appalled to find that I shared every class with Edward. The very idea of him seeing me in PE, seeing me struggle through that horrible class was humiliating. I wanted to run and hide. Math was another story, I already knew I was going to struggle with calculus; but I didn't want him to have to see that. I sighed, knowing my insecurities were ridiculous, but I couldn't help feeling them. I'd just have to remind myself that Edward already knew about my klutziness, and how hard a time I had understanding math. Especially when our teacher made it so difficult.

Edward saw the different emotions crossing my face and gently pulled me towards the direction of our first class. "It's just a precaution Bella," he whispered soothingly. "Your dad didn't want you to be alone, just in case your speed…" He didn't finish that statement, he didn't have to.

They were just trying to keep me safe, and sadly it looked as if the biggest danger to me, was me.

"Thanks," I whispered.

He nodded, and we continued onto class.

First period went surprisingly well. We were one of the first students in the class so we grabbed seats at the back of the room. The less people who could see me, the better.

I focused on calming my nerves and trying to pay attention to the teacher, who was going over the class syllabus. It wasn't so bad.

The Bella rang, and I made a point to slowly put all my stuff away. I also checked my shield, buying time so that most of the students were gone before I got up. I was still having trouble getting up slowly.

"You're doing great."

I grinned at Edward's words, so far they seemed to be right.

We met Alice in English and she gladly sat to my right, while Edward took the seat on the left.

I was able to forget my nerves during class, but once I had to move, they came back in full force.

Third period chemistry had me straining my shield to keep my movements under strict control. Mr. Banner eagerly waved me up to his desk.

"What does he want?" I whispered as we walked up to his desk.

Edward smiled comfortingly, but there was gleam in his eyes. I wasn't sure what it was until I heard his words.

"He wants to talk to you about Anna."

Then I understood. The gleam in his eyes was pride. He was proud of Anna and her wanting to learn about science.

Mr. Banned smiled excitedly at the two of us. "How was your summers?" It was obvious he wanted to get to his actual question.

"Fine," my go to answer was out of my mouth before I even realized I had talked.

Edward elaborated more. "We had a calm summer."

Oh yes because that was true. I had to fight to keep my eyes from rolling.

"We were able to do some of the experiments in that booklet you gave Anna."

Mr. Banner's eyes flashed at that. "Which ones were you able to do?"

Edward chuckled. "Actually, we did all of them. My father has been scouring the internet for my stuff for her to do."

I was thankful to Edward. He knew I wasn't really ready to interact with people yet. I had managed a short conversation with both Angela and Jessica, but that was it. I couldn't handle a conversation longer than a few words of greeting. With him talking to Mr. Banner though, I didn't have to worry about slipping up.

I found out that I had an easier time in class when I just had to sight down, so of course PE was by far the worst class.

Alice and I entered the girls' locker room and my heart had plummeted.

Lauren just had to be in the same gym class as me.

Alice wrapped her arm around mine and led me to a group of lockers as far away from Lauren's locker, as we could get.

Luckily we didn't have to dress down today. No, that issue would start the following day.

We quickly locked our stuff in our lockers and hurried into the gym.

Edward was sitting on the bleachers waiting for us.

Coach Clapp talked for the first half hour, before letting us go do whatever. He didn't care what we did as long as we were doing something. So the three of us walked around the gym.

Edward and Alice walked on either side of me, I could tell from their worried looks that they were having a silent conversation. Edward would read her mind, and she would see what he wanted to tell her. The two of them never had to say a word.

I grimaced. My nerves were shot, and my shield was getting hard to manipulate. My feet were itching to move faster, they didn't approve of the restriction.

Why couldn't I get a grip, some sort of control on my new ability? Or why couldn't I at least get a grip on the fact I really shouldn't be pushing myself so much. In all honestly, I'm progressing at a normal and average pace; according to Charlie. School was a necessity, I needed control for it; but pushing myself wasn't going to help.

That new realization helped my mind set, it didn't help my nerves though. I was still nervous about slipping up and causing everyone problems. Super speed was hard to explain away.

That's why when Alice suggested eating outside as we walked out of the locker room, I willing excepted.

Alice went to get me something to eat, and Edward and I sat down at one of the hardly ever used picnic tables.

"How are you feeling?" Edward was worried about me, especially with how hard I was being on myself.

I rested my head against his arm. "I'm okay, just trying to sort through some stuff."

He ran a hand through my hair. "Want some help?"

I laughed, but was unable to answer him.

Alice sat down across from us. She set a tray in front of me. "Here Bella."

She had gotten me a turkey sandwich, an apple, and a bottle of lemonade.

I beamed at my best friend. "Thank you Alice."

Her smile brightened her face. "You're welcome." Her phone rang before she could say anything else.

I knew from her smile that it was Jasper.

She answered the phone excitedly. "Hey Jazzy." She glanced at me thoughtfully before answering a question I hadn't heard but knew what it was from her answer. "She doing absolutely amazing."

I rolled my eyes. Sure, I had done absolutely amazing, if you count almost having a nervous breakdown as absolutely amazing.

"Bella, you need to eat." Edward handed me my sandwich, which he unwrapped.

My face lit up in a fierce blush. Even after all that Edward and his family had already done for me, I was still trying to get used to being cared for.

My mind went to Toby, immediately. Unlike the other members of my family, he had cared for me, as in cared for my needs. The others cared, but they didn't take care of me. I took care of myself while the others watched over and protected me. It still hurt to think about my family, but at least I didn't need to hold myself together anymore.

Edward broke me out of my thoughts, his words sounded tired, which surprised me. "You still haven't taken a bite."

I laughed and took a rather large bite out of my sandwich. "Happy?" I asked, after swallowing.

He chuckled softly. "Yes, thank you." He spent the rest of lunch time distracting me from my worrisome thoughts.

I ate everything that Alice had bought for me. Manipulating my shield plus my new vampire speed, left me with a larger appetite. I wasn't always hungry, but more so than normal.

"I'll meet you two at the car," Alice announced, after hanging up her phone. She headed off to class, taking my empty tray with her to leave in the cafeteria.

Edward helped me from my seat, but he made no move to go inside. "Can you handle going to class?"

I nodded, not letting myself think about the alternative. I was going to make it through the rest of the day. If only I had known what we were going to do in the next class.

We stepped into our history class, and I would have walked right back out if Edward hadn't stopped me.

The classroom had been divided in half and the tables had been pushed up against the walls.

For some reason the history teacher thought it would be a good idea to play an ice breaker game, as he called it.

"Boys on one side, girls on the other," He told each student who walked through the door.

I shook as I joined the girls on the far side of the room. I could feel Edward's eyes on me the whole time, scrutinizing every step I took just in case.

I stood off to the side, dreading the hour. Angela walked into the class and for reasons unknown to me, I relaxed. She stood next to me, giving me an awkward smile. She wasn't too excited about this class period either.

Our teacher shut the door after the bell rang, and turned to us. "Alright everyone, I thought we'd take things easy today."

I laughed under my breath. Only Edward was able to hear it. He gave me a sympathetic smile.

"This is really simple. I'm going to read a statement, if you agree with it you'll go to the right, if you don't, go to the left. Then we'll take a little time to discuss."

The task was indeed simple, but it required me to walk across the room. I tripped multiple times, which was normal, but I had also lost my control on my shield and had moved faster than I should have, a few times.

"Did they notice?" I asked quietly, each time my control had slipped.

Edward shook his head slowly. If anyone noticed, they would think he was shaking it out of boredom.

Poor Edward had his focus split between reading the minds in the classroom, and keeping an eye on me and my speed.

I was so stressed out by the end of class that I completely zoned out during the final period. I couldn't focus on anything. I absentmindedly started tapping my fingers against the desk and my foot tapped impatiently. It wasn't until Edward had placed his hand over mine, that I realized I had lost control of my shield.

I couldn't help glancing around to see if anyone had noticed my hand moving at an illogical speed. No one was staring.

"No one is paying attention to you." Edward tried to comfort me, but I was far from being able to be comforted. I needed to run, I needed to be able to let down my shield and relax. I was far too stressed.

When the bell rang, signaling the end of school, Edward tightened his hold on my hand, and rested his other hand on my shoulder. "Test your shield."

I quickly checked my ability to manipulate my shield and grimaced.

Edward packed up our stuff and took his phone from his pocket.

"What are you doing?"

He glanced up and pocketed his phone. "I was letting Alice know that she would have to drive herself home." He then helped me up and led the way out of the building.

We didn't head to the parking lot. He led us passed students and staff members who didn't pay us any mind. Once we were out of eye sight he hurried our pace, heading for the tree line.

I gratefully pocketed my ring and let my shield drop.

We sprinted… well actually I sprinted, I wasn't actually sure how fast Edward was going, but I knew it wasn't his fastest.

As we sped through the forest, I relished the relief that filled me. The stress and nerves I had felt all day, just melted away.

We eventually started to slow down, and my mind started racing with thoughts. There was no way I could continue going to school, the same way I had today. Something needed to change. What exactly, I wasn't sure. It could be something as basic as the way I was thinking, or it could be complicated, like minimizing my energy to make control easier.

Honestly, it would be easier to change the way I was thinking, rather than figure out how much energy I needed to have during the school day. I'd have to have enough to get me through the day. How much that was, I didn't know; especially since the amount of energy I spend is based on what I do. That could waver with each class on a daily basis.

"Bella," Edward's voice almost slipped past me on the wind. I was only just able to make out my name.

I turned my head towards his direction. "Yeah?"

Now that he knew I could hear him, and that we could hold a conversation, he started in on compliments that I still didn't feel like I deserved.

"Bella, today was just the first day. You did wonderful. Better than anyone was expecting. Your dad warned Alice and me that we should only let you go half day today. You were doing so well, and when I asked if you were okay…"

I stopped him there. "Thanks for not making me leave."

"Your welcome. You really are doing a fantastic job Bella. I'm so proud of you."

I felt my cheeks heat up, knowing that they had to be red now. "I don't deserve your praise, I lost control today, at least three different times in one class." My head dropped, my chin against my chest just thinking about my failure.

He brushed his free hand against my cheek. "No one expects you to be perfect Bella. That's not fair to you. We all understand that you can't miss very much school, but that doesn't mean we expect you to have complete control now. I'm sure though that it won't be long before you won't need your shield anymore."

I sighed. "It's hard. If someone had seen me when I was moving too quickly," I shuddered, "we would have had to leave. I don't want to be the reason why we have to leave."

"You should really talk to Jasper." I didn't know whether or not he realized my hearing was good enough to hear that. From the tone of his voice, I had a feeling I wasn't really supposed to hear it.

I didn't bring it up while we walked hand in hand, and neither did he.

It didn't take long before my ears picked up the sound of our family. I could hear Emmett, and a loud squeal told me that he was most likely chasing Anna.

Edward paused beside me for a moment before picking up the pace a little.

"What's going on?" Had I miss understood the squeal? Was Anna hurt? Were the others alright?"

Edward stopped us again. "Bella, are you alright, your heart is racing?"

"Fine," I answered automatically. "Is everything okay?"

"Yes." He was no doubt trying to read my face. "Jasper just had an idea. He's been talking with Alice. They want to talk with you."

"Talk about what?"

"How to help you."

I scrunched up my face in confusion. "He not coming back to school is he? He knows he can't influence my emotions with my shield up."

Edward laughed. "No, he's not coming back to school. We couldn't pay him enough to come back to Forks High."

Author's Note

I hope you guys liked this chapter. Sorry about Jumping around and skipping over a vast number of days. I hope the flow of the story is okay. Let me know if you think it's getting to choppy.

Next chapter is going to be Alice finding about Bella's birthday, and of course the birthday party. Don't worry, it will have a different ending then it did in the book. As I've already promised, Edward and his family will not leave.

On to questions.

What do you think about this predicament that Bella has to deal with? Does it seem believable? Am I dragging it out too much?

Whose side are you on? Do you think she's doing a good job like Edward, and everyone else? Or do you think Bella's right and her little slips are unacceptable?

Any ideas what Jasper's idea to help her might be?

How many of you are looking forward to the birthday party scene? What do you think will be the same? How do you think I'm going to change it up?

Until next time, be careful while unwrapping presents,

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