There are a lot of things that Steven didn't really understand. Like why Dad couldn't live with him in the house, or why he had three gems instead of three moms, and why he can't eat cookie cats for breakfast, lunch and dinner. It was just the way things were though.
There were a lot of things that just were. Things that had been since forever and ever and that no matter what didn't change. The sun would always rise, the ocean would never leave the shore, the rain always fell down and not up, Garnet gave the best hugs, Amethyst was always funny, Pearl would always protect him, Dad sang the best songs, and Steven would never have a Mommy.
Normal kids had Mommies. Steven had seen it before, wandering alone sometimes on the beach. There were always tourists and there were always children. And there were nearly always doting mothers, chasing after their children-trying to put sunscreen on while waddling at speeds unknown to mankind or racing to their children to snatch them from the edge of the ocean.
Steven kind of had mommies…? Well, Garnet, Amethyst and Pearl insisted that they were not his moms. They were his Garnet, Amethyst and Pearl, the gems who were raising him.
He had once tried calling them Mommy but each of them had quickly corrected him. Pearl had cried though, Garnet had been really quiet the next day and Amethyst hadn't played with Steven for two whole days.
"I am not your mother, Steven. A gem named Rose Quartz is." They had all said. The lady in the picture above the door.
Steven didn't know very much about Mommies, but Rose Quartz looked like she would be a very good one. She looked very big and strong and soft. Pearl said she smelled like springtime, Amethyst said that she gave the best hugs ever, and Garnet told him how soothing her voice had been. Daddy said that she was the most 'beautifulest' lady on the whole planet-though Steven thought Garnet, Amethyst and Pearl were pretty beautiful too.
When things just were, Steven didn't question them or object to them anymore.
Sometimes no one was around during breakfast or lunch or dinner. Sometimes Daddy was too busy to play and sometimes Pearl couldn't sit with him at night. Sometimes he would have nightmares and no one would be there, sometimes he was so lonely it made his chest hurt, and sometimes he wished he was a normal little boy.
He often picked at his gem, testing the firm skin around it to see if maybe it would come off. Maybe underneath it was a normal belly button like his Daddy's and once he removed it, his Mommy would magically appear. She would be happy to see him and hug him and kiss him in ways only mommies could.
Sometimes, during thunderstorms and the gems were away on mission business stuff, he would sneak from his bed and sit in front of the door and just talk to her picture.
"I wish you hadn't gone away. I wish you were still here. I don't understand where you've gone. What does 'give up physical form' mean? Cause it doesn't mean the same thing as die…I think." He would mumble. "I just wish you were really here so I could talk to somebody."
Since his mother was dead, he couldn't talk about her too much. It was just another thing that just was.
Talking about her was kinda good but mostly bad. The simple sound of her name could light up their eyes and in the next second, they would be sad. They all said the same thing though, his Mommy had been a beautiful, kind being.
When they talked about her, Steven knew they wanted her back. They wanted her and not Steven. With all the good things they had to say, it made Steven feel bad inside his tummy.
He wasn't very beautiful and sometimes he wasn't a very good boy and he wasn't a real gem and he sometimes lied about how many cookies he ate and he still wet the bed and cried and got scared and still needed help tying his shoes (Pearl wouldn't let him wear flip-flops during winter and he still hadn't gotten it down yet).
His Mommy had left the world so that he could be alive and sometimes he thought she had made a big mistake.
"If you're out there somewhere or like maybe inside my tummy. Maybe you should come back. Cause Daddy really, really misses you and so does Pearl and Garnet and Amethyst. A-and I can't be like you. I try really hard but I just can't. S-so please come back."
But his please were never answered. His Mommy never came back, no matter how much he begged. Steven suspected that his Mommy had probably heard him but she was probably just super busy-with important Gem business that only his Mommy could handle. She must be super strong to be away for such a long time. Steven didn't even like being away from the Gems for more than a day, but his Mommy had been away for nearly six whole birthdays.
Maybe she was crying too, because she couldn't find her way back to them. She probably missed Steven, Daddy, Garnet, Pearl and Amethyst a whole lot.
If Steven's Mommy couldn't be here, then Steven would have to be strong for her. He would smile for her, and laugh at jokes for her, and hug his Daddy, and give the best kisses for her! He would make sure his Garnet, Amethyst and Pearl were happy too! He knew they got really sad sometimes so he would do his best to make sure they smiled every day. He was sure that was what his Mommy would want.
And when his Mommy came back (which he hoped would be very soon), she would exclaim that he was such a good little boy and kiss him and hug him and stay with him forever and ever. Stay with him through the stormy nights when no one could be there and play with him during the lonely hours and be super cool and awesome!
Until then, sometimes he would just have to eat alone.
A/N: Darn you 'Together Breakfast', making me think about lonely Steven. As usual, thanks for the favorites, follows and reviews.
A/N: May not be able to post for a few days (maybe not for a while unfortunately), two essays due next week and I really need to stop writing so many Steven fics if I plan on not failing at college.