A.N When I wrote this chapter, I totally forgot to incorporate Duncan (I don't know I feel so tired writing him sometimes). Anyway to answer nikatsu's question, Duncan caught them around the time where we left off in chapter 1. And no, he did not stay to watch or anything like that. He just silently stormed out like he always does. The only reason I had Duncan catch them because I think he's the only one that Lilly would be inclined to believe. I think all of your other questions are answered in the chapter.
Thank you all so much for all of your opinions!
Two months went by and she'd been so consumed with her emotional state that she had dismissed any and all symptoms of her being unwell with the claim of stress. That was until she noticed the sealed box of tampons laying in her cupboard.
Her heart had raced at that one niggling thought that echoed in the back of her mind. Was she pregnant?
She froze with fear. What if she was? She took in a deep breath. Sometimes people skip their periods when they're stressed, right? She remembered missing her period and she freaked out even though she had then been a virgin. At the time, she could easily brush away her fears of being pregnant. (Even though the paranoid side of her kind feared of a Virgin Mary situation.)
But now? She couldn't dismiss the idea as easily. She swallowed. What was she going to do? Tampons. Tell her dad that she needed to get tampons. Or maybe just generalize it to female products because it's really difficult to lie to her father.
But first thing was first, she needed a pregnancy test.
"Veronica? Hey, kiddo, you okay in there?" She heard her father call out.
She gulped and stared at the stick in her hand. "Yeah, dad," she shouted back and mentally cursed at how shaky, afraid and completely not okay she sounded. "Just girl problems," she excused.
"Want me to call your mom?" Concern echoed in his voice.
She took in a deep breath. "No, thanks, dad. I'll be fine." She was absolutely not gonna be fine.
"Okay, honey, I'm going down to the station. Call if you need anything."
She numbly wished him to have a good day as the tears prickled in her eyes. What was she going to do?
She'd just gotten out of the shower, her white fluffy bathrobe wrapped her petite body and her damp hair hung loosely.
Her little brown pitbull Backup barked at the door, alerting her to the new presence. She cooed at him and scratched his ear as she went to open the door.
Logan stood in front of her, his elbow leaned on the door frame, his brown eyes bore into her wider blue ones. "Mind telling me why you're avoiding me?"
She swallowed. She wasn't avoiding him. She just couldn't handle being near him. Okay, so maybe she was avoiding him a little. Just until she wrapped her mind around the situation. She didn't think it'd take her a week to do so. Not that it mattered, she still hadn't a clue what to do.
She moved out of the way to let him in and thickly denied, "I'm not."
He moved inside and remarked, "So the deer caught in the headlights look is just for show?"
She closed the door and took that moment to prepare herself. She turned to him and directed him to the sofa as she voiced, "Logan."
He sighed, his eyes filled with concern and he urged her to talk to him, "Veronica."
"Sit down," she told him.
"Ah," he let out as he did as he was told. "Those two words are almost as bad as we need to talk."
She took in a deep breath. "We do need to talk."
"Two for one deal. Lucky me." At Veronica's reaction, he dropped the attitude and concern brimmed his eyes. "Are you okay?"
"No," she swallowed. She closed her eyes, silently debating how to convey this new information. "I'm pregnant."
Logan's eyes widened. "You're pregnant?" He knew all about how babies were conceived and yet he'd wanted to say how? The urge died down in his throat when he looked at Veronica. She had tears threatening to spill, her eyes downcast and her lip trembled.
And once again, he was the reason that she was in such a state. "It's gonna be okay," he promised and gathered her in his arms. The moment his arms wrapped around her, her tears spilled and he rubbed circles around her back with choked whispers that he was with her and that everything would be okay.
He wasn't sure if she'd passed out from exhaustion but eventually he'd heard soft snores exhale from the petite blonde. He tucked her under the covers and tried to process her admission.
But he honestly didn't know what to think, the words just replayed in his mind over and over again.
When Veronica eventually woke up, he'd been standing in the kitchen flipping over the pancakes. He doubted that Veronica had eaten and he needed something to keep him occupied.
"I made you pancakes," he softly smiled and placed the plate on the counter.
Once she settled down on the bar stool, she quirked an eyebrow and quizzed, "Since when did you know how to make pancakes?"
His lip curved and he told her, "Since I found a recipe book and thought you know what'd be nice? Eating something other than poptarts."
"Ah. The day Logan Echolls picked up a cooking utensil," she remarked. "I wish I'd been there to see it."
"I'm damn graceful with my utensils, thank you very much."
She let out a small chuckle but the moment they dissolved she'd looked at him sombrely and asked, "What are we going to do, Logan?"
"Eat," he told her.
Her eyes dropped to the pancakes before her and usually she'd be digging in but right now she didn't feel like eating. She looked back up at him and said, "Logan."
As he grabbed the fork and knife, he said, "We need to start converting this delicious pancakes into energy and then we'll use it all up."
Her eyes widened and she gasped, "Logan!"
A little smirk edged on his lips, he was glad that he could distract her, even for a little while. "I meant to talk, obviously Ronnie. Get your mind out of the gutter."
Her lip curled as she shook her head, he held up a piece of the pancake with the fork and gestured for her to open wide.
"We should go to the doctor," Logan offered. "Pregnancy tests aren't all that reliable."
She swallowed and told him, "I took four."
"With our luck, they were all defective."
She snorted, "With our luck, they were all in perfect working condition."
"Veronica," his voice soft as he took her hand in hers. "I'm with you, okay?"
She took in a deep breath. She knew that all he wanted to do was help her but unless the doctor told her she was not pregnant, she didn't think anything would ease her. She was sixteen. This was not how her life was supposed to go. "I know."
She sucked in a breath, she wasn't sure how she could possibly shed anymore tears than she already had but she could feel it trying to surface it's way up. Her heart thumped against her chest and she'd never been more scared in her life.
"What are we going to do?" She croaked out.
Logan swallowed. He'd been terrified from the moment Veronica uttered those two words. And this had only solidified his fears. Veronica was pregnant. With his baby. They were sixteen. How were they going to deal with this? His eyes lingered over Veronica and she looked at him like he's somehow supposed to know all the answers.
She's the one with the 4.0 GPA.
He knew squat.
He glanced at her, she'd forgone looking at him for answers and stared out the window instead.
He felt helpless. Did his opinion even matter? Wasn't it the girl's choice? He didn't know. But she'd asked him. And it's just too much, too soon and he can't seem to process it.
There were three general options. He knew that. Health class was one of the classes he'd actually went to.
Abortion.
Adoption.
Keep it.
He glanced at Veronica. He knew her. She'd always talked about getting married and having kids. She'd always been so happy talking about it. Planning her future. That was why she worked hard so she could have it all, the career and the white picket fence life. Veronica Mars was a planner and ever since elementary school she'd planned out that she'd go to Stanford, she'd go to law school, become a lawyer that helped the people who couldn't help themselves and make her daddy proud.
The only thing he'd ever planned were surfing trips and parties.
He knew Veronica might very well take the logical decision and give up their baby for adoption.
He also knew she'd regret it. Because this was Veronica. She might think logically and she might try to implement logical solutions and make logical decisions but it was her emotions that ruled her world.
It's why she was best friend's Lilly Kane for so long.
It's why she's slept with him.
It's why she'd regret not keeping this baby.
When they'd arrived outside Veronica's house, he finally said, "Keep it."
Her head snapped to him. "What?"
He swallowed and repeated slowly, more for himself to digest than her, "I want you to keep the baby."
Her brows furrowed and her lips fell in a deep frown. "How is that gonna work exactly?" She looked at him. "We're sixteen. I want to have a life, Logan. I want to go to Stanford and become someone. I've planned out my entire life and a baby was not apart of the picture until I was at least 28."
"I know," he whispered, his heart tugged when tears stung her eyes. "You can still have that. But I have money, Veronica. A lot of it. I can support us."
She let out a struggled breath. How would that even work? "We're not even a couple, Logan."
"You know that I want you, Veronica," he cupped her cheek. "You're the one that thought it was best to forget about it. And dammit, Veronica. I couldn't and now we can't."
"We're sixteen," she choked out. "And I'm pregnant. And I really can't deal with this right now."
Veronica had just wanted to get away from everything. She didn't know what to do. And so she'd taken Backup to dog beach and just her luck, she'd run into the person that she really didn't have the energy to deal with right now.
"Lilly," Veronica let out in acknowledgement, she never could bring herself to ignore usually effervescent blonde.
The sudden urge to puke built up in the petite blonde's chest. She started to gag and ran up to the sink at the side of the taps while the green eyed blonde stared after her with wide shocked eyes.
Lilly's initial reaction had been concern, like it'd been for basically their whole lives and so she'd followed the petite blonde who was now bent over the public sink, puking her guts out.
"Puke, often do you?" Lilly remarked as Veronica rinsed her mouth with mouthwash
"A girl's always prepared," she remarked.
The heiress' eyebrows knitted with confusion, Veronica dumped the mouthwash in her purse and drew out a washcloth to wipe herself free from the water.
Lilly's eyes caught on the pamphlet that jutted out of her bag and immediately snatched it. Veronica's eyes widened and her heart raced. Her mind screamed no. She moved to snatch it back but Lilly held and twisted away from her.
The wheels turned and everything clicked in Lilly's head. "You're pregnant," She let out, feeling a numb as the words let out. "Why didn't you tell me?"
The petite blonde swallowed. "You hate me, remember?"
Lilly frowned. When she'd found out about Veronica and Logan, she was hurt at the betrayal. She wanted Veronica to feel the same pain. It hadn't quite worked out as well as she thought it would because hurting Veronica hadn't made her feel any better, in fact it made her feel worse.
That didn't stop her from prodding the petite blue eyed blonde. Because if she felt like crap then didn't Veronica and Logan deserve to feel like crap too?
But to find out that Veronica was pregnant. That was... what's the highest form for not good? Her heart sank. Why hadn't Veronica come to her? That had been her first thought. Because in that moment of realizing that she'd been going through this all Lilly could think about was that they were best friends and she should have told her.
But as Veronica pointed out, they weren't anymore.
Because Veronica had hurt and betrayed her.
And Lilly had felt completely justified in being mad at her.
Thing was, she didn't want to be anymore. She hadn't wanted to be for a long time. But she was Lilly Kane, she didn't just forgive and forget.
She sucked in a breath and looked at the petite blonde. But this was Veronica Mars, her best friend since forever and for once Lilly did want to forgive and forget. She wanted to be there when Veronica was going through this life changing event. She wanted to put the hurt behind them. She wanted to feel happy again and share with Veronica all her juicy little secrets.
And Lilly really missed being Veronica's best friend and she'd missed having Veronica as her best friend.
Her green eyes softened and her voice free of anger, Lilly admitted, "I was angry because you hurt me, Veronica. Not because I stopped loving you. You're my best friend."
Tears spilled from Veronica's eyes. "I'm so sorry, Lilly. I never, ever wanted to hurt you."
"I know," Lilly softly assured her. "You're Veronica. If anybody deserves a second chance, it's you." She smiled, Veronica sucked in a breath and tears of relieve ran down her cheeks. "And you know, I'm sorry too. It hurts not being best friends with you." Lilly let out a chuckle and hugged the blonde in front of her. "Like, you know way too many of my secrets who knows what your hormonal state might let out?"
An airy laugh escaped Veronica's lips and Lilly smiled. The duo walked back onto the sand to an awaiting Backup. The dog wagged his tail and jumped happily as Veronica threw his ball.
The settled onto the sand and Veronica let out, "What am I gonna do?"
"Did you talk to Logan?" Lilly softly questioned.
"He wants to keep it," she admitted as the sand filtered through her fingers.
Her green eyes lingered over Veronica as she asked, "You wanna keep it?"
"I'm sixteen," she wailed. "I wanted to go to Stanford and have a life. I can't do that with a baby."
"You can," Lilly offered. "If you want to." She bit her lip and suggested, "But you can also give the baby up for adoption. Or you can take care of it, Veronica."
Veronica turned her gaze to Lilly, she swallowed and asked, "Take care of it?"
"Abortion," the Kane heiress clarified. "Your body. Your choice. It's not the ideal option but it's not an ideal situation."
She bit her lip and asked, "What would you do?"
Lilly shrugged. "I'd be asking you for help."
"Just tell me what I should do," she pleaded unable to handle the turmoil of this decision.
With a sympathetic smile, Lilly said, "Veronica, as much as I love telling people what to do, this has to be your decision. You're the one that's going to have to live with it."
She let out a breath of frustration and pouted, "I don't know."
"C'mon, Veronica. If I came to you and told you I was pregnant, what would you do?"
"Pros and cons list," she decided.
"Okay." Lilly nodded and pondered on it. "If you keep it, you'll get fat and have stretch marks, major con."
Veronica tilted her head and looked at the girl next to her, she couldn't be serious. "Lilly."
"S'true!" She insisted. "But the baby would literally be the cutest so I guess that's a pro."
Veronica let out a heavy sigh. "I'm sixteen. Con in itself."
Lilly shrugged, "You'll be the hot mom and the guys would be like, 'is this your sister?' and not even be pulling one on you."
"Lilly, c'mon."
"I am serious. Okay, con, babies cry and poo and puke and a whole lot of icky stuff that you're gonna have to deal with," Lilly icked out but considered it for another moment and decided, "But you could get a nanny since Logan's loaded."
"It's going to be so difficult to go to school pregnant and to learn," she stressed out. "School is stressful enough. Add a baby to that."
"You're not gonna deal with it alone Veronica," she assured her. "I'll help you too. Logan will. Your parents will."
"Oh God," she buried her face in her hands. "My parents."
Lilly knew that Veronica's relationship with her parents was greatly different than her own. If it were her, she was almost certain that Celeste would tell her to get an abortion and she wasn't sure if her father would fight her on it. "If you abort it, your parents will never have to know. You can pretend this never happened."
"I'll know," she let out in anguish. "Logan will know." She swallowed and continued, "And it might seem like the easy way out but I don't think it'll be that easy. I'm gonna have to live with that. What if I can't? What if I regret it? I can't undo that."
Lilly sighed. She honestly didn't know how to help Veronica. She could give her money and say that she was here to play aunt Lilly but was that enough? "It doesn't have to be either this or that, you can give it to someone else."
Veronica stayed silent as she debated the option. Minutes passed when she finally said, "Maybe that would be for the best. A good stable couple that can't have a baby and want one. Every baby should be wanted, right? That would be better than being the drunken mistake of two sixteen year olds."
A frown crossed Lilly's face, her eyes stared intently into the ocean. "Veronica, I think maybe you should think about which option makes you happier."
Confusion settled in her brown eyes. She doubted any of the options would make her happy. This situation was definitely not a happy one. "What do you mean?"
"Look." Green eyes turned to meet her blue ones. "It'd be different if you didn't have financial or emotional support but Logan's offering you both."
She'd seen the way Logan had looked at Veronica and she was sure that he was probably already in love with her. And Veronica might be suppressing her feelings because of her but that didn't make Veronica's love for him any less real.
"Emotional support for now. We're not together, Lilly. It was just that one night. This is Logan Echolls. What if he decides he doesn't want any part of it anymore? What if I end up raising this baby all on my own? What's gonna happen if he starts dating girls and I'm left to take care of the baby?"
"Veronica," Lilly softly said. "I get your points. But he's Logan, has he ever let you down?"
She silently shook her head and sighed. "I want this baby to have a good life. Logan and I are still kids ourselves, how are we going to raise one?"
"With money, nanny and a lot of help," came her quick reply.
"You really think we could do it?" Veronica asked softly with a tinge of hope in her voice.
"Yeah, I do. You're already thinking about the kids needs first and that's way more than any of the so called parents of Neptune do."
A.N There are probably a lot of pros and cons and I obviously didn't list them all nor did I research them, I just think that those were the ones that Lilly and Veronica would have thought off. So if you're looking for a pros and cons list to having a baby at sixteen, it'd be best to Google search for more info.
