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Chapter 4

Crap she played the daddy card, the bitch called me on my lie, fuck!

"Angel, talk to daddy what's wrong?" My father cooed over the line, knowing how smooth his voice was, it was the voice I loved to listen to tell me about Cinderella, or the Frog and the Princess. A tear formed in my eye knowing that when my mom died that stopped and Elena pushed her daughter Kate in front of my father. I wiped it away quickly and continued.

"What do you mean? What's wrong?" Trying to lie about what Elena and I had talked for about two hours before.

"Kate called and asked your mom to come to babysit for a few more days while you're in Vegas, I thought you were coming back tonight, I don't mind if you stay longer but let us know." I sighed, since Kate got pregnant, Teddy had become the light to my father's life, and there I was, Teddy's nanny.

"I let Kate know, she is my boss, not Elena, not you, Kate and Jack. Ok?"

"Ok sweetheart," I could hear begging in the background, knowing Elena wanted me home.

"Tell Elena to calm down, I will be back, I need me time too."

"Ok, I understand sweetheart, I just wish you told me you were going in the first place I could have given you some money to gamble with." I thought about that about asking my dad for a loan to at least to come here, but when I built up enough courage to ask, Elena answered the phone and I was so scared I said I was looking for my dad and to call me back and I never heard from him until today. The thought saddened me.

"Daddy, I love you,"

"I know, I love you too Annie."

I signed then I heard him say

"Ana, you know I worry about you, why haven't you found a nice man yet? I'm getting older now I would like some more grandkids sweetie. Kate is married but doesn't want more kids and I want both of you to be happy." I came back to the here and now of the phone call with my father.

"You find me a sperm donor and a job that pays me until the day I die with no means to get behind a desk and I will do it." He laughed, I missed his laugh, and he knew I wanted kids and marriage, but he never knew about the therapy sessions, or I thought he didn't. I found that being alone and having Teddy was good enough, I did want that, when I was younger but I felt I wasn't good enough to have them.

"Ok dad, I found a new man, and he likes me, he is flying me home Wednesday, so either you or Kate can pick me up be nice."

"Ok, why not Elena?" He questioned, knowing my answer.

"Have you seen her driving? She'll drive me nuts before she drives me home!" He and I laughed for a moment knowing how bad she was of a driver. Her Bentley was proved of it.

"Fair point, ok I will see who will be around that day."

"Who knows my new guy might have a car waiting for me that day." He chucked,

"Whatever you want baby, you got it."

"Ok, dad love you, bye for now."

"Cya baby girl." God, it rubs me the wrong way knowing he took that from some romance novel mom had read before she passed.

I laid out the bed and watched Mia and Jose make out and be happy I was happy for them. I thought of all the men that walked in and out of my life, the ones who made me feel like shit and the ones who played me. All two of them, Christian would be number three, lucky number three, he has been the best, all I wanted was to fuck and that was it, because I didn't want to leave Teddy or make my family think I had a life outside Kate's house, hell I lived with Kate since she had Teddy, She was still in school so was I, she finished because Elena had made me an offer and I dropped out after my grandma's Adams and Karr had passed away. Afterwards, I realized what I had done, I cried in my sleep afterwards for a long time and I had other things on my mind like poopy diapers, play dates and sleeping methods. Mia set out to become a Nurse, Jose was a Doctor, they met in the hospital they were practicing in and sure enough, first came love then came marriage then next I will be waking up in their house to take care of the new one in pink or blue. After a few hours in the pool, Jose got up and said.

"I don't know about you ladies but I am hungry,"

Mia looked up from her book and said

"Yeah, I could eat, let's go, Annie?" I was listening to my iPod and fell asleep, I felt Mia tap my forearm that I covered my eyes, as she did I came alive and I felt my skin just on fire,

"Ow! That really" looking at my white fair skin now looking red...

"Oh man, I got a real bad burned." Noting my skin, it all hurt.

"And look at your legs!" Mia said they were red, really red, "don't worry I have some Aloe in our room I can help you rub some it to take the pain away, come on." She and I got up as Jose stayed behind to collect our belongings, he followed behind us. Feeling Mia loop her arm around me, as I looked at her, I was content with her touch, in fact, I loved it. I looked at her, "is it ok if I wear sweat pants to dinner so I don't show off my burn?" She nodded,

"I won't have it any other way, wear what you feel you're best in Annie." We smiled until we got inside. After stepping into a cool hotel I felt how burned the front of my legs were, I hissed in pain Mia looked over at me,

"You ok?"

"Yeah just stinks a bit." She and I went to my room and Jose went to they're room since I had some of Mia's things she got ready in my room as I showered, she sat on the hood of the toilet and chatted with me through the curtain. "Hey Annie," she shouted over the water, I looked out. "Ding!" I smiled, Claire, a friend that worked with Mia. Mia and I went out one night and Claire was going back to the hotel room only she went up before us, like an hour beforehand and we were in the elevator and we came up to the 10th floor only to have it stop and there was a dishevelled Claire, her face just turned to beat red and said, "you won't believe this!" We nodded as she told us how she hooked up with a UFC fighter that was in town and how she got off on the wrong floor we nodded and said, "girl cops all over this world could tell you are seriously busted." However, that ding was the funniest sound we heard that night, and kept saying every time she said UFC "ding!" I said and laughed in the shower as I washed my hair.

"So Christian and you?"

"Yeah, what about him?" I answered and questioned back. While washing the soap from my hair.

"You guys sleep together?" She fired at me.

Whipping my head around the curtain, "Honey if sleeping together is a crime then I should go to jail for 20 years for doing more than sleeping with him."

"No, I was just wondering why you slept with a man who broke Kate's heart?"

Whipping my head around again, with conditioner in it.

"Ok I was drunk, second we are just fucking, third nobody but You, Jose, and God will know." Sticking my head back under the running water I heard mumbling that I ignored, then I felt the curtain whip back,

"What the hell?" Covering my breasts and squatting down to cover my body up.

"Oh please, Anastasia it's not like I haven't seen your boobs and scars before. Now I asked you is he SEEING anybody?"

"I don't know and I don't care, I am into fucking, I have a debt to pay off with Kate for school and my room and broad. My life isn't good, does it look like I want to watch my relationship with another man blow up in my face?"

Mia signed,

"One day you will stop blaming your problems on the fact somebody raped you, and you can't get close because of that hurt, that nobody saved you." And whipped the curtain back, and left to get changed. I started sobbing she was right, I don't open up to people the fact I was brutally raped by my therapist, he said things to me, and it happened so fast. I screamed and screamed but she was told before and after if she cries for help it is only a sign of weakness and not to give in. I talked to a real grief counsellor a few months ago and she told me that it wasn't my fault. I pressed charges sadly the courts were not in my favour because I had waited too long to press charges. Nobody knew how much pain I was in. When I left to go to my grandma's that's when it stopped. I moved around to grandmas. Until they passed after they found out how well I was doing in university. They told me I had money in the bank for the university from both my savings as a kid and from my mom's death. I wanted to be a photographer because my grandma Adam loved the arts and loved how I loved to play with her old cameras, then as a surprise for my graduation my grandparents presented me with a beautiful Rebel Canon camera, which I used every day and took to school with me. It wasn't long after that, my grandmas had passed and as did funding me to go to school. I had to stop since the course was expensive. I ended up selling the camera to knowing my dream was long gone.

I know I was a good enough daughter, I asked my father for a loan, for he, in turn, told Elena who then said to me

"Anastasia why not work for Kate until you get your feet REALLY on the ground with a job, your father and I can't support you all the time." I never asked for anything afterwards, my father tried to give me money. I told him no because I didn't need a handout. I could tell he was hurt. He still hurts him when he sees me struggle.

I sat in the shower and cried about the mistakes I had made in my life, I let the cool water pour over my sunburnt body, I did want my dad to spoil me to give me lots of money and to have a dream to finish school, like most of my friends, but it didn't look like he would, or Elena let him do it. I went from a squat in the shower down into a child's position, with the water pouring on my back as I had my head on the floor, crying over the loss of a dad that was yanked from my life who didn't know me, and a stepmother who didn't want me to know me at all. The water was shut off by Mia and she covered me in a towel and looked at me as I sobbed on. She knew she crossed the line but she also knew that I was coming from a lot of pain and hardness in my life getting away was a hard thing. She started rubbing my back as I cried in the tub of the shower, she dried my back and pulled my wet hair back from my face. "Just say when you're ready" I nodded, She towel dried my hair and helped me stand up and out of the tub and she wrapped the towel around me. "I'm sorry that was too far, I know how hard it is for you and I love you as you are." We pulled back knowing my friend would never hurt me but her smart mouth would sometimes get away from her and it would leave people feeling hurt, she made it up with her heart though. She was the one who leads me to a life to trust again, when I was seriously depressed she took me to her mother's animal rescue and the dogs there loved me in a way that it healed me. After I had dried off, put on my aloe and got my sweats on and my blue tank top we went to Jose's room to see what he was up to and go get some food.