Welcome back to more of this story! I'm anxious to get to current time on this story so I'll be writing alot trying to get the past caught up onto the present! I hope you enjoyed the first chapter! And bear with me, I do have a busy life, but I want to write as much as possible! Enjoy!

So it's Sunday, October 7th, and my choir sings today for church, it is their very first piece they are singing and luckily it is in Unison so the preparation over the past month will have paid off. In fact I think my choir was kind of getting bored of the piece if I were being realistic. But it didn't matter, they were going to sing it and it was going to be awesome none-the-less! I couldn't wait! As I got to the church a little bit early to make sure I was well practiced for the service I went through the piece just one more time, I even would be singing along in the piece. Of course my voice was shot as of yesterday's game and I was completely sore still and tired, but I was doing what I love, which is being a musician in a church.

The service went without a hitch. My choir sang beautiful and it was a good day. I even wore my Griz pep band collared shirt I had and just told my boss that this was a rare griz weekend for me as I'm all decked out. Even though I wasn't going to be going to a pep band game. It would've made total sense to wear this shirt for church in Missoula, here it felt awkward. In a state where the word Griz is the demon as it's one of the Universities here that is the rival school. *ahem EWU. But as far as I knew nobody was an Eastern grad, in fact I knew of a griz grad right here in the congregation! Whoo!

After church I got a ride home from someone so I didn't have to walk and I got home and sat down in front of my computer mostly listening to music, or doing whatever to pass the time until it was time to head to bell choir rehearsal. I was super excited, tonight I would try and get Jane to laugh more and less on her phone. It was now my goal to become her friend. I mean. It can't hurt, especially if we turned out we got together. What a story to tell our kids! Mom and mommy met at bell choir years ago. That's how we came to be together. It was SO sweet, at least in my eyes it was.

All too soon I got a text from my ride saying when they'd be coming and I jumped up from my chair, made a quick trip to the bathroom, grabbed my keys and gloves and walked out the door. It was the whole family coming to pick me up this time. So I sat behind the passenger. From the smell of it, they just picked up fast food. It sure smelled good, but I didn't say anything. When we got to the church I decided to be more of a helper and I got out my bells as well as Jane's next to me, least what I thought she played, so down to low G. And sure enough a few minutes later she walked in the doorway. So at least I knew it wasn't a dream I made up that she existed. She was actually real. Tonight I made sure I got a hello out and she replied back politely.

Through the night I kept cracking jokes, trying to defuse any kind of tension there might be between us, I learned that she had graduated from EWU. Ugh rival school but I smiled nonetheless and kept a conversation going as best as possible. I also found out that she loved Carol of the Bells. It was one of her favorite all time Christmas Carols, I told her I didn't really have any, and I just hated ones that were overused so much. She had nodded in agreement.

When the rehearsal was finishing up the director said, "Okay guys could I get your phone number and email so I contact you immediately if anything pops up, I don't quite have everyone's number I think, so fill this out please?"

I looked up and saw a sheet of paper at the front, I almost jumped to be the first one to put my name down, but I smarted up, I wanted to wait for Jane to put her contact info down. Maybe I'll learn her last name. Does she even have a Facebook? Ooh I could memorize her phone number! Or at least try to. I will try and memorize it as best I can and when I get back home I'll enter it into my contact info. I watched as Jane went and put her name down on the sheet and smiled. I was going to search her asap when I got home. Once she left I strolled up to the front and waited for someone else to finish writing on the paper and I looked down, I tried writing slowly enough to not only write my information down but also look at Jane's. It turns out her last name was Hansson. Jane Hansson. Hmm interesting. I looked at her phone number the area code was easy to memorize but I tried as fast as I could repeating the numbers over and over again of her phone number. Which for obvious reasons I won't put in this story.

Afterwords when I got home I was so excited. If she was single. I would lay allll the moves on her. I had to. She was the only person who I actually found very attractive in such a long time. I went to Facebook and opened up the browser. I typed in her name: Jane Hansson. Her profile picture was of her and her dog. Okay that's a good sign. No relationship in sight yet. I clicked to her profile and saw her cover photo of just a couple of dogs. Aww adorable she was a dog lover! Good! I loved dogs too. And then I looked at the left side where basic information was. And my heart. Dropped. Like a pin from the top of the empire state building down and down, no sound but the needle dropping to the ground only to burst into thousands of pieces. I read:

"In a relationship"

Frantic I went immediately to her About page and read:

"In a relationship with Kyan Lawerence since December 2013" And the profile picture wasn't even seeable the "guy" was on a motorcycle with a helmet on. I mean at least he protected his head.

My heart stopped beating and immediately I had the reaction. No no no. This CAN'T be true. 5 years!? 5 YEARS?! No no, this wasn't supposed to go like this. No, I thought the whole reason me getting out of the house and joining a group was to find someone, help me to find SOMEone. And I finally had. But no. This. This is fucked up. Suddenly my motivation, my happiness. Was sucked out of me. Gone. Vanished. My mind was one second so happy, almost excited, and now I felt nothing. Jane was in a relationship. I searched her profile more. Indeed she graduated from EWU. Wait a minute. High school. Class of 2005. What the fuck?! That would mean if my calculations are correct. She is 31 years old! WHAT. I swore she looked younger than me! She was older than me? Older?! This can't be true. None of it! And yet, there it was, all in front of me... She wasn't single, she said on her facebook that she's only interested in men. Well fuck my life then. This is a fucked up world and now another potential is denied to me. AGAIN.

Well one thing was certain. I'm not the type of person to fall for someone in a relationship. That's just not who I am. I have too good of heart to do that. I'll just not think about her, focus on my career, focus on streaming and be all good. Oh but only if I knew that was so possible in itself...

I know this was a shorter chapter but I hope you enjoyed! Don't worry the meat will be coming. I just gotta get through October first. Meat will come when December comes. Obviously since it's the present right now. Hope you enjoyed! Until next chapter! Happy viewing!