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I'm back from Spain!

Surprise: When I came back, my mother told me, we would directly do another trip, so at first I thought I couldn't do this Update in time-

BUT HERE I AM!

I had to write this fucking fast though! haha

I actually think it's not really good, but yeah, I hope you like it anyway!

Enjoy reading! xD

Chapter 6

The first thing Izaya felt in the morning, when he was coming back to consciousness, was the pleasant warmth his whole body was muffled in.

A small smile appeared on his face when the raven noticed that his own body was feeling warm and safe causing him to let his eyes close for a while longer.

The sensation was so unique that not one thought occurred his mind for a moment - for a very short instance he couldn't remember all the trouble with his sisters, he couldn't remember his pain, and he even couldn't remember that he actually had to stand up.

But this moment was over very fast, when suddenly everything came back to his mind and Izaya could finally manage to think clearly again - making him understand that it was indeed a pair of strong arms that were holding him tight into an embrace.

So strong...

He couldn't even move properly - but actually he didn't really want to move away from there-

from the warmth-

from the safety.

Only bit by bit he started to understand that he was lying in a bed with someone next to him. Someone who was holding him really tight. More like a lover, making Izaya wonder when the last time had been that he had felt something like that.

Then again, the thought hit him that such strong arms could only belong to a man, and his brain- that wasn't working properly this early and directly after sleep- could only force his eyes to open but not to remember the events from the day before.

At first Izaya couldn't even recognize the things around him, then his sight was clearing a bit and he could finally see that this was indeed his own room. He saw his big window from which he could see the moon at night - right now the sun that was standing high in the sky - and his red blankets being put over him and the figure behind him.

Still he couldn't see the person holding him from behind.

His limbs were still numb from sleep, his body feeling weak and the person was holding him with such a strength that he couldn't turn around properly to face the figure.

Maybe I should just sleep on...

The thought was there in his head, but then he remembered that this would be more than irresponsible regarding the situation his sisters were in at the moment.

Concentrating on his sisters the raven managed to force his eyes open more and to turn his head a little to see at least the blond color of hair over his shoulder.

It was still too early, and his brain somehow needed an eternity to put things together in his head.

...

Blond hair?

Who has blond hair?

...

Wait...

There is only..

...

Shizuo?

The realization hit him so slowly, that he could almost punch himself.

How could he have been so stupid?!

Recognizing the blond hair he suddenly remembered the day before clearly now-

when Shizuo came to him, Izaya let him in and started crying in front of him -AGAIN!- and-

what?

What had happened after that?

Izaya couldn't remember at all.

Why was he lying in one bed with Shizuo Heiwajima?! And why was the beast holding him so tightly?!

Like a lover-

Ahhhhhhhhh!

Izaya screamed mentally. He couldn't remember. He was absolutely clueless and it was freaking him out at the moment. Why couldn't he remember, what had happened?

This was important, wasn't it?!

Whatever had happened could be significant enough to change their whole relationship. Did they-

The raven's head was growing bright red when the thought hit him. What had happened the day before?! Why were they here?!

Did he and Shizuo-

No, no, no, no- he couldn't think about something like that now!

This was all too embarrassing! He had to go! He had to get out of this embrace! Had to get out of this horribly embarrassing situation!

Desperately he started to fight against the tight embrace. His hands were grabbing for the strong hands around him, one lying on his waist, the other one lying on his belly, who kept holding him into a strong embrace. He tried to push the hands away, but - of course!- he couldn't do anything against the beast's strength and - although the warmth of the hands was feeling really good - he cursed the difference in strength between him and the monster right now.

When he noticed that there was no way to get rid of the big hands holding him, the raven tried to rob out of the embrace somehow.

He was trying to push himself closer to the wall, while pushing the beast's hands down with his own.

Nonetheless the blanket that was lying over him and Shizuo didn't really make it easier - it made it indeed nearly impossible to escape. Izaya thought that it must have looked ridiculous: the way he was trying to get out of there.

There was no switchblade, no phone and even his brain couldn't help him in this situation. There was only his little body fighting against the big one of Shizuo. And this situation wasn't only frustrating him because he was trapped in an embrace, but also because it showed once again the difference between their bodies and strength.

"Yiieeeekk" A high tone escaped his mouth, when suddenly one of Shizuo's hands slipped under his shirt because of him struggling too much under the blanket.

The warm hand was lying on his bare skin.

Actually Izaya had expected that he would be disgusted - he should be disgusted - but no!

The only thing he felt were waves of electricity going through his body when the touch from skin to skin set his whole body on fire.

He didn't know why he felt that way.

He had never felt like that before. His body had never reacted like that - so delicate - when someone had touched him.

There was a small voice in his head telling him that it was the beast's fault. Shizuo was unpredictable. Who knew what the man could do? Who knew what the man was doing to his body right now? With only one hand!

Then suddenly Izaya could swear that the hand that was lying close to his belly now, moved for a short moment, and all blood rushed to his head.

This was too much! Not with Shizuo!

Panic began to spread through his whole body and the raven began to try to get out of there even more eagerly. His arms and legs were almost punching the other man now making Izaya wonder how Shizuo couldn't have woken up yet.

But actually at that moment the raven didn't care.

He only knew one thing:

He had to get out of there before the embarrassment would kill him!

The scratching and kicking finally managed to wake Shizuo.

At first the blond didn't really understand, what was going on. Then he remembered the day before, when he had laid down next to Izaya.

He would have blushed now understanding that it was indeed the raven who was lying in his arms right now, but the flea was struggling so much that he could barely concentrate on anything else.

The blanket was still over them, enwrapping them in perceived safety and forcing them to share their body heats in comfortable proximity- or at least that would have been the case, if there wasn't Izaya who was desperately trying to get out of the embrace.

The blanket had fallen to the side by now, only covering their lower bodies. Nonetheless Shizuo was holding the raven as tight as before, making it still impossible for him to escape.

The blond opened his eyes slightly. He felt the need to see the raven now, the way he looked, his expression and his body, and the way he moved right now struggling for something he couldn't get if Shizuo wouldn't give it to him.

Opening his hazel eyes he could at first see the back of the raven. His face was directed to the other side not showing his expression properly. But the raven was struggling so much, turning his upper body from side to side, causing that Shizuo could clearly see the red cheeks of the flea from time to time.

He is blushing ...

The thought was more of a recognition, but it made Shizuo blush too for a little moment.

Izaya was indeed blushing. The sole fact was already unbelievable, knowing that it was most probably one of those emotions that the flea would have never showed to Shizuo voluntarily. But then, what was even more interesting, was the reason why Izaya was blushing.

Shizuo couldn't clearly know but the reason was most probably the embrace he was holding Izaya with. Meaning that the raven must have been embarrassed by the touch.

If it would have been like that with any other human too - Shizuo didn't know - but the fact that Izaya was acting so delicate and cute towards him, let a small flame spread throughout his whole body.

But it wasn't only his expression - the blushing that was even painting his ears in slight red - but also the way he was moving right now.

Izaya was fighting - actually in Shizuo's opinion he was more scratching without really hurting him and trying to kick himself free somehow, a way of acting that really reminded him of cat at the moment- A cat that was trapped somewhere or that was hold by someone -and desperately tried to get away.

It made Izaya appear even cuter for Shizuo now.

This thought and the fact that the blond just noticed that one of his hands was placed under Izaya's shirt (for whatever reason, he didn't know) made his blush get a bit deeper.

The touch from skin to skin set his body on flames and he really had to hold himself back to not let his hand touch more parts of the flea's body.

Izaya was so unbelievable cute right now that it nearly broke his heart.

He couldn't remember when he had held another human like that the last time- or even if he had ever held another one like that once before, but Shizuo knew that he didn't want to let go of the flea now.

A small voice in his head told him that this was wrong. That this was Izaya. That this was the man, who had angered him nearly his whole life, who had got him arrested and who had most probably tried to kill him once or twice, too. This was the man he had hated the most in this world only a few day ago.

But then again, Shizuo was one of those humans who acted according to his feelings- not to his desires or thoughts, but only to his feelings.

And he definitely knew, that this felt right. This sensation he felt when Izaya was lying in his arms. Here, only them two, safe, and everything else - every problem of this world- could just be forgotten.

A small smile spread across his face when he watched Izaya a bit more. His small hands trying to push his big away, while he tried to rob to the direction of the wall and tried to get out of bed.

A silent curse left the raven's lips when nothing happened and the strong hands were still holding him like before.

Izaya was definitely frustrated now, but Shizuo just thought that it made him look even cuter and a small chuckle escaped his lips, when he saw the raven's intense expression who was hardly thinking of a way to get out.

How could he have never noticed it before?

That Izaya was so unbelievable cute ...

That the raven could actually act like that, that he could actually look like that, show these expressions.

For a short moment he wondered if he had ever shown these expressions to someone else: helpless, sad, embarrassed- all those emotions that made him so human and cute (in Shizuo's opinion). A small sting of jealously crossed his chest at the thought, but then he remembered Shinra's words again- that Izaya wasn't good at showing emotions, was afraid of being hurt - and then he rapidly abandoned the thought.

He guessed, that maybe Shinra could have seen one of these emotions regarding the time those two knew each other- but then the blond thought that he knew Izaya maybe just as long (maybe not) and wondered if he had ever seen them but just couldn't remember.

Then he noticed, that he probably had never seen any of these emotions of Izaya that the raven was showing so often lately, but that the blond had indeed recognized once before that Izaya was indeed cute - or rather beautiful.

He remembered the day before, when his beautiful face had been so mesmerizing that the blond had to touch it. That he forgot the whole world around him for a very short moment and was just seeing Izaya's perfect skin, the rosy cheeks and the glowing lips when his hand had softly stroked along the raven's face.

But it hadn't only been the day before.

Shizuo had noticed Izaya's beauty long ago. Back then, when they had been in high school. Maybe not the first time, but then when he had had the first chance to look at the raven a little bit longer, he could clearly see how beautiful the man was.

Maybe not every detail by one encounter, but bit by bit, he had recognized the soft, shiny black strands, the rosy porcelain skin, the eyes shining like rusty gemstones in the dark shrouded with long and thick eye lashes-

And the lips.

Lips in the color of roses, not as dark and red as the raven's eyes, but still slightly darker then the lips of most people. Sometimes Shizuo could swear, that after a fight of them in the night, those lips were shining in the dark. Whenever he saw them, they seemed to be lighted by the moon or the sun- inviting him.

Every part of Izaya seemed to be a big dichotomy for Shizuo.

On one hand Izaya's beauty seemed to invite the blond, every part of him. Making Shizuo want to get closer, want to look, want to touch- but then it wasn't the kind of innocent beauty surrounding Izaya, not the kind that a princess would have in a fairy tale-

No, it was rather the kind of beauty of a black widow.

The kind of beauty that attracted everyone around, but screamed danger at the same time. And if you were too foolish to get too close, the person of your attraction would trap you and at last destroy you.

Because this beauty wasn't for anyone, it was just a given gift to the person to reach their goals.

This person was not supposed to give love. He was supposed to eat it.

Yes, Shizuo knew that this was rather the kind of beauty that was surrounding Izaya.

But then the raven started acting so cute, so human, showed so many emotions in the last few hours, that Shizuo definitely had to change his mind on the raven.

Suddenly he wasn't thinking anymore that he had to stay away from the Informant, suddenly the proximity to Izaya didn't scream danger to him anymore, suddenly Izaya's beauty wasn't a trap anymore, Izaya wasn't standing above humanity anymore with his beautiful look and his arrogant behavior- no, he was more of a human himself now, Shizuo had noticed.

And noticing that, he changed his mind. Izaya was a human himself, able to cry as sadly as a mother losing her child, able to get as angry as a furious woman and able to struggle against something as harmless as an embrace with all of his strength - and it made him appear really cute.

Suddenly Izaya's beauty wasn't the one of a black widow anymore. It wasn't dangerous anymore. It was more the nice side effect of him being a human being, something that he actually didn't seem to notice or didn't seem to care about at all - Shizuo thought now that he had spend a bit more time with Izaya.

Everything of this, every little thought that occurred in his mind at this moment, made him feel a little bit more at ease, a little bit happier being with Izaya alone right now.

Making him feel that this was right, that this was what he wanted and that this was something he definitely didn't want to lose.

All of this made him forget the world around him, all the problems that had been there just hours ago, they just vanished instantly and all left was him and Izaya.

He forgot everything and only felt the precious moment, when the raven suddenly turned around to him slightly, his eyes widening when he most probably finally noticed that the blond had indeed been awake quite a long time now.

And then there was this short instance where his hazel eyes were staring into the wide rusty eyes, still a bit with confusion and surprise, and Shizuo didn't know what he was doing, he didn't even care-

His sight finally fell on the shining lips right in front of him, that have caught his attention so often now, and without any more thought he just closed the gap between them and pressed his own lips on the raven's.

I have to update "Blinded" before the next chapter of this, because I'm really stuck on that story. Nonetheless I'll try to update this at the end of August again. ^^

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