Heyyy, J.B. back.

I'm so sorry for the long wait x'(

Time and motivation just wasn't on my side lately, for different reasons: me and university: the eternal fight, and me falling back in love with SinJu... ^^'

However, now I'm back! I kind of don't like this chapter, but I had the same feeling just with Chapter 10 and your reviews were motivating me to write on! Thank you all so much! I'm lucky to have such good readers! *-*

Well, enough babbling ! Hope you enjoy reading~

Chapter 11

At first Shizuo blinked once, then twice, before he finally came back to consciousness. His eyes slowly opened, getting used to the darkness around him. He was lying inside his living room, lying across his couch while using the whole space it had to offer.

Only slowly his memories came back, of the night before when he had offered his bed to Izaya and the raven, who didn't seem amused though, had accepted it tiredly.

A hand reached to the strands falling into his face, tiredly pushing them away, while the blond was wondering why he had woken up at such a time of the night. Normally he was a deep sleeper. He wasn't one to wake up before the first sunbeams in the morning.

Pushing the blanket that was lying over him away, he came into a sitting position, when suddenly a strange noise reached his ears.

At first Shizuo couldn't define it, but then he heard it again and he only when a scream reached his ears, he was able to recognize it as a groan coming from his bedroom.

Izaya!

The blond immediately jumped to his feet, dizziness capturing his head for a moment caused by the sudden movement and in the darkness he couldn't see the desk in front of him clearly enough before he bumped with his foot again the wood. He heard a little crack probably caused by the fact that he destroyed it, but he ignored the sound and the light pain in his toe only concentrating on the sounds that were still coming from his bedroom.

Stumbling through the room he almost expected to not find the door in time, but within what seemed like mere seconds he reached it and slammed it open.

For a short moment he just stiffened and watched the scene in front of him with wide eyes.

Izaya wasn't just screaming like he had a bad dream. No, he was rather fighting, tossing and turning around from one side to another, kicking and punching around with his feet or arms, that it appeared as if he was trying to get rid of something. But Shizuo couldn't see anything except for an hysterical flea, screaming as if he was in utter pain.

Sometimes words like "No!" or "Get off!" were heard between them. Shizuo didn't even want to know, what the raven was dreaming about, when it was able to bring someone like Izaya into such a state.

Without any further hesitation he hurried next to the raven grabbing his shoulders with both hands.

"Izaya!" he shouted, but the raven rather got more hysterically, now trying to push Shizuo away.

The blond increased his strength and tried to shake the flea awake while avoiding his kicking limbs.

"Izaya! Wake up!"

Only now, Shizuo noticed that the raven was drenched in sweat, the shirt sticking to his skin.

Slowly Shizuo got seriously worried. He had never been before in the situation to have to wake someone up from a bad dream - but he was sure that it wasn't supposed to be that hard to get a person awake.

"IZAYA!" he screamed. Shizuo shook the raven more, now even pulling him off the sheets more harshly. He was sure that a normal person would have woken up by now, but his doing rather seemed to have the opposite affect noticing that the flea was nonetheless still punching around, his face distorted by pain and fear.

Seeing this expression on the raven's face Shizuo saw only one last way to get him awake. Hauling off his hand - of course restraining his strength, though - he slapped the raven with his bare hand into the face.

The sound was filling the whole room, and for a short moment nothing was heard. Shizuo immediately kind of regretted his reaction. Nonetheless happiness was running through his body, when he noticed, that the raven had finally opened his eyes.

They were widened, though, staring in shock at the things around him, while Izaya's breathing was kind of unsteady. The raven was obviously shaking and Shizuo gulped nervously observing the man from the side.

When the raven's eyes finally fell on Shizuo , the blond wanted to say something at first, but his words stopped inside his throat, when Izaya suddenly wrapped his arms around his neck and took him into a tight embrace.

At first his face was a pure mask of confusion but after a few seconds Shizuo lost himself into the warm feeling and returned the embrace, wrapping his arms around Izaya's small figure, one hand placed on his black, the other one on the back of his head, where his hand started to caress the black hair softly.

He could still feel the raven shaking and Shizuo tightened the embrace.

"It's fine. It was just a bad dream." He whispered at the side of the raven's head. He could feel the small hands tightening their grip at the back of his shirt.

"Please... don't let go of me..."

The words were merely whispered and still a little hoarse because of the earlier screaming, but Shizuo heard them nonetheless.

His concentration fell on the little figure inside his arms and only then he noticed, that Izaya's body was feeling awfully cold. He loosened the embrace a bit, just enough to move, and grabbed the blanket lying behind the raven, and put it around his thin shoulders.

"Don't worry. I'm not letting you go." He mumbled more to himself. Putting his arms back around the raven, he tried to give some of his own heat to the smaller man.

He couldn't see Izaya's face for the raven's head was still lying on his shoulder. Therefore Shizuo's eyes widened in confusion, when he felt the hands on his back loosening their grip and the raven moving and rustling with the blanket in front of him.

Shizuo let the Informant loosen their embrace, though his eyes were never leaving the man's face. Suddenly Izaya's eyes fell on his. The blond couldn't define what he was seeing, but for a short moment he felt strangely connected to the raven, like they were the only ones left in this world, like he had felt at their first kiss.

Heat was growing inside his body, but Shizuo ignored it in worry about the raven. When he thought, that he was about to say something, most probably to protest, he opened his mouth to a reply. He wanted to tell him, to calm down, to forget his dream, because the blond would protect him and that there was nothing to worry about.

But the words, that Shizuo expected never came and like that never left his mouth.

Instead Izaya pressed his lips on his. At first only slightly, only the sole sensation of lips on lips. Still they were almost causing the blond to lose himself already.

One of the raven's hands wandered towards the blond's face softly touching his cheek, while the other one rested on his arm. The touch sent little waves of electricity through his body, and though Izaya's hand was cold like stone Shizuo felt like he was on fire.

When his mouth opened in surprise by the touch of his cheek, the raven didn't hesitate and let his tongue slip into the blond's mouth. The wet organ was slowly gliding over his teeth before deepening the kiss, to that Shizuo responded more than happily.

Not wanting to worry the raven the blond just gave in into the soft kiss, only getting more passionately when the raven started to initiate it himself. It didn't take long until their kiss became just as passionately as their fights. When Izaya wasn't concentrating on trying to dominate the blond's tongue, he would play with the blond's lips, biting down on them, just enough to send a wave of painful passion through Shizuo, but not enough to draw any blood from them.

If Shizuo wasn't driven by lust, he would probably question the sudden change in the raven's behavior, but Izaya was way too good at driving him crazy.

The hand that had hold to his arm wandered to his shirt and got a hold of it, while the other hand that had been positioned at the side of his cheek was now slung around his neck. The raven was holding tightly to him and Shizuo just returned it by holding him close around his waist and starting to push him back into the sheets.

A hand came into his hair, grabbing it and holding his head in place, when Izaya deepened the kiss again, from now and then biting down on the blond's tongue.

Both of their lips were swollen by now, the color of their faces red and the breathing was going more and more unsteady, but neither of them seemed to care. Especially Izaya, who was holding onto the blond as if his life was depending on it. His kissing appeared just to grow as furious and desperate.

It was then that Shizuo got out of his trance, noticing that something was not right, that the difference to their first time was way too obvious. And though he liked everything about it - the sensation, the passion, the growing heat inside his body - he retreated a little, when he noticed that the raven was starting to fumble with his belt.

Within the time of a second he stopped the kiss and got a hold of the small finger, that were desperately trying to get rid of the leathern thing.

Shizuo knew that it was the right thing to stop this now. He knew, that if he wanted this to work, then he had to stop it before they were going too far. And what was nearly breaking his heart, was not the fact that he had stopped something that he himself would have loved to do - but the look that Izaya gave him right afterwards.

It was confusion. It was shock. It was sadness. But what was even more significant, it was chagrin. It was the kind of look a person had, when he was rejected. But this was not, what Shizuo wanted Izaya to feel. By now Shizuo knew that he would never reject Izaya ever again.

The blond grabbed the raven's face from both sides, forcing him to look into his eyes.

"Listen Izaya. I want this. I really do... but not like that. You're still confused. I don't want to take advantage of that."

Rusty eyes were staring into hazel ones and Shizuo could see the sadness disappear from them only slightly. Maybe Izaya needed his time to understand, but he understood finally when his eyes became soft.

A small smile was reflected on his lips, soft, content, happy.

"Thank you, Shizu-chan."

Had he ever heard that tone before? Ever seen that smile? When had the raven learned to be so gentle and innocent?

Gentleness was his great weapon against Shizuo.

Kind of ironic, that they would find out so late and under these circumstances.

The smile could drive him mad, it probably would, but Shizuo knew that there was no way to continue something like what they had just done. This needed time, when he wanted it to work.

The raven's fingers were still lying inside his hand, slightly brushing over his skin. Shizuo closed his eyes, inhaled deeply while trying to find his composure back. He appreciated the little skin contact one last time, softly squeezing the small hands inside his own, before he let go.

"You should take a shower. I will try to find something eatable." He gave Izaya a small smile that was returned, before he got off the bed and walked towards the living room.

It was still slightly dark, but the first sun beams were coming through the sky. Still it was awfully early in the morning and Shizuo would have never stood up at such a time, but there was no use in going back to sleep either. He was rather going to take care of the raven.

Joy was filling him up, when he imagined himself spending the day with Izaya (strange enough that that would ever happen) but it was rapidly destroyed when Shizuo opened his fridge.

Indeed he had thought, that there would at least be something left to eat, but the only things left were milk and yoghurt and the combination wasn't really something he was willed to present the raven as breakfast.

So if he didn't want to run to the next supermarket and create something, before Izaya would step out of the shower, Shizuo had to eat with him somewhere outside.

If Izaya wasn't going to take a shower for an whole hour, Shizuo would never made it in time. But the other option seemed rather weird. Was it normal to eat breakfast outside? Shizuo had never done it, for that he didn't know, but it appeared as something that Izaya was ready to do.

Well then, it was decided.

Knowing that Izaya was still taking his time showering, Shizuo went back into his bedroom to get some clean clothes. He changed rather rapidly not wanting to be still there, when the raven would come out. After done changing he eyed his wardrobe, considering the high amount of white shirts he had.

Without thinking he took one of it and knocked the door to the bathroom, hoping that Izaya would be able to hear it over the rushing water.

"Izaya, I'm putting a clean shirt for you on the bed." Shizuo shouted before doing so. He didn't even bother to look for any trousers, knowing that they wouldn't fit the raven anyway, but the shirt was probably going to fit with a lot of ... creativity.

Closing the door behind him, Shizuo went back to the living room taking a seat on his couch.

The blond closed his eyes for a moment trying to take in the silence around him. He had the feeling that he could still somewhat hear the raven's screams and he had to suppress the need to rush back to the bathroom and look if he was alright. Shizuo knew that it was stupid. He knew that the raven was just fine having seen him just minutes ago. But sometimes there was just this urge inside him to gather the people that were precious to him around him, not for entertainment, but just for the sole fact, to make sure that they were alright.

He often had have this feeling with Kasuka, sometimes with Tom or Celty, and now Izaya was one of them, too. Shizuo would even say that Izaya was by now causing this urge inside him the most.

Suddenly a strange sound was filling the room. The blond opened his eyes and looked in front of him, where the sound was coming from, just to find the flea's phone lying on his table while vibrating. The vibration caused the phone to move slightly across the table and Shizuo stared at it with curiosity before he finally took it.

Eyeing the display he saw something he had never thought to see, when it came to the flea. There was only one word shown and it made the blond rethink their whole relationship again. The display said "Dad".

Shizuo had never thought about it, but it made sense. Though he had never seen them, of course, the raven would have parents, just like him. But Shizuo couldn't remember that he had ever seen them throughout all the years they knew each other now.

If his parents knew? The thing with his sisters?

If they did, why would they not appear or help? Shizuo was sticking around Izaya all the time the last days, but he had never seen him talk to anyone familiar, not even on the phone.

Shizuo turned around, eyeing the way to the bathroom suspiciously from where he still heard the sound of water, before he tapped at the display and hold the phone to his ear.

"Izaya, that was going to be time. Why do you always take so long to pick up?" Said the voice at the other side, definitely a man.

"Sorry, but Izaya is taking a shower at the moment. Do you want me to tell him something?"

For a short moment there was nothing. Shizuo always thought, that the other person had hang up but he heard a rustling coming from the other end.

"May I know who you are?"

"My name is Shizuo Heiwajima. I'm just a fried of Izaya's." Shizuo answered bluntly. If he was going to get to know the flea's parents, why not now?

"Ahhh, Shizuo Heiwajima." He suddenly heard the other one shout. He almost thought that his reputation was just once again faster than him, but therefore the sound seemed just too ... happy? "Aren't you the one that Izaya always played with during high school?"

Played? Shizuo repeated the word again in his thoughts. I wouldn't call it that.

"Yeah, exactly. That's me." He answered an ironic smile appearing on his face.

"My name is Shirou. I'm Izaya's father. It's good to hear something from one of his friends. You know, Izaya is not telling me a lot about the things that are going on in his life." The man started babbling.

"I figured that." Shizuo just answered. Somehow he still couldn't get over the strange situation. This was probably the weirdest conversation he ever had.

"Say, are there any news on the twins now?" Izaya's father suddenly asked after a small pause with a rather sad tone. Shizuo's eyes widened for different reasons at the sudden change.

So he does know!

"No, I'm sorry. But we are doing all we can. Don't worry. We will find them."

Shizuo tried to put as much certainty in his words as he could.

" ... I'm sure about that." The other man answered, still unhappiness was heard in his voice. Shizuo would have liked to talk to him from face to face. He wondered, how Izaya's father looked like, if there was any similarity at all.

"Say, is Izaya still wearing his rings?"

Shizuo was perking one of his eyebrows at that question.

"Yeah, he is."

"Great." Shirou answered with a strange mix of happiness and relief. "Well then, I hope I'll hear from you again, Heiwajima-san."

"Yeah, me too. Do you want me to tell him that you called?"

"Ah, no. It's not that important. I'll just call another day. Good bye."

And then the call ended.

Shizuo was still eyeing the display curiously, as if he still couldn't understand what had just happened, when suddenly the door to the bedroom went open and Izaya stepped out.

As soon as the sound reached his ears, he put the phone back on the table, because he didn't want the raven to get any strange ideas of him.

He made a final note to tell the raven about the phone call later, but he abandoned that note as fast as he turned around and saw the raven standing in the middle of the room.

It wasn't just the fact, that the raven looked strangely refreshed after the shower (and with that beautiful), but also the fact that he was indeed wearing the blond's shirt, that made Shizuo's jaw drop. White definitely was Izaya's color. And though the shirt was a little too long, the raven had just rolled up the sleeves for it to not look as big as it actually was.

"So where's the breakfast?" Izaya asked ignoring the blond's wide-eyed look. This one closed his mouth when he heard the question.

"Didn't have anything here. I figured, we should go out and grab something?"

Izaya was shrugging his shoulders. "Russian Sushi?" He asked the blond, who was nervously stomping from one foot to another.

Russian Sushi for breakfast? Shizuo let the idea go through his mind for a moment. Was this only in his words strange? He sighed. Fair enough!

"Yeah. Let's go."

With that he grabbed his keys guiding the raven out of his apartment.

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